Udaan DEDT #4 - Page 76

Originally posted by: ndivyateja

Watched today's episode after a long time..Was just catching up with the WU or spoilers earlier..Surprisingly I did not miss watching the show, maybe because Im catching up with SuKor scenes on insta from time to time..As I found some free time today, I watched some of the episodes I've missed..Then I've realized that Im actually missing Suraj..

Im not talking about the length of his role, not about him being a slave, but lack of dimension to the Character..The role is limiting the actor to add his own inputs to it..🤔

What I loved about Old Suraj is his smartness..He has that ease of doing business, outsmarted his own father who is the King of 'planning & plotting'..Did use his fists, but used his brains more..Then after falling in love, he was toned down a lot but the Character Suraj is not limited..A lot of emotions were expressed through his character..What I loved was the way he evolved..

And now..We all know what he became..😒

I was so excited for this new Suraj because, previously whatever shades of Suraj we saw, were all layers of Suraj but this one is entirely different, mysterious and interesting..But the recent developments in the story is narrowing down the possibilities of this role..Suraj, is a role which is not everybody's cup of Tea..Its only Vj's bastion..Maybe CVs are thinking of how to shape up his Character, so that he doesn't steal the thunder entirely or he doesn't go unnoticed..😃

Even Im disappointed a bit..But let me quote a line from one of my fav director's movie.."This guy is like a forest..the more you explore, the more surprises you get"..this new Suraj is soo unpredictable & I just fall for him every day

Suraj... am in pain with you, but my prayers are with you

Suraj Rajvanshi : The handsome dude, style, swag, humour, charismatic laugh, smartness, shrewdness, Strength, one man army when his Chakor is with him... ultimate dream man for every girl...

Bandhuva Suraj : Still Smart, did not want to lose his self esteem but was ready to give in that too just to safeguard his only comraderie, will-power to braze through all odds just for her... yes his life started to only her... he did not have his own ...

Ghulam Suraj: this Suraj, not smart, no life, not dead nor living, a roboman, has no one, alone all alone... When I wrote this my eyes were just tearing and my heart tearing me apart too.

What he was and what has he become...

I don't know why but after yesterday's episode I felt like going in front of the almighty and just ask one thing, what is the mistake he had done in his life...

during the grey days he just wanted his father's love- which he never got through though he did all that he could, do all the wrong doings to get that right love...but...was denied...

during the transitioning days all he wanted was to be that person whom that girl he married by force to accept him... he did all she wanted... Yes he surrendered to her completely..

and now he is neither dead nor alive, no emotion, no pain, no laugh , a blankness, not knowing anyone other than his Malik and Maalkin... He would have better been as a mummy in the Egyptian Tomb... I know I am rude but just that I am unable to bear his pain...

Suraj is being treated like a dirt, dust by his Malkin and Maalik, abused, beaten... can life be rude for he wanted always only love... during the grey days love of his father... During his transitioned days just the love of Chakor, he always used to say just love me and love me nothing else.

Now, he does not have any one... leave alone to love but to be a friend of him, Paakhi whom I thought would have stood by him during this terribly eclipsed days has turned against, the one who stood by her Suraj baiya during all his troubled days, who guided him and also was partner with him now donot even understand him, after well knowing the trauma he had undergone...what happened to her smartness I felt really disappointed...

Suraj needs one person who will be with him inspite of anything, who can make him think, yes he is blank, but needs some one who can talk to him, he is now completely confused...

He had no life, thought, for the past four years and someone comes and says she is his wife, kindles his emotions, his adrenaline but his dormant mind and his physic is not able to understand not able to comprehend , this is making him all the more confused, not even able to talk within him or to himself.

I feel so so pained and bad and also angry with the almighty as even the brutal KN had not been punished so badly, nor Ragini was ever punished... but why this poor soul, my Suraj is being neglected by the almighty, by the Chanduji, by the Daak baba just to get himself to be cocooned within himself.

I am feeling helpless as I am unable to lend my hand to make you emote, to cry as tears are the best for one to self realise, his tears have dried like him.

But, Suraj more than Chakor I feel for you as you have been the most vulnerable soul but I am strong that you will bring back your charismatic smile, you will win yourself back with that smartness and rise again... not only to love your Chakor but also us who are also madly waiting and praying for you...

I am sorry girls just that I felt so much of vacuum yesterday in his eyes which used to express everything his heart used to speak, his mind used to think... But today his eyes did not even close, did not even infuse in that kiss of Chakor which he had always wanted...

But I am sure dude am praying and will pray continuously for you to rise again...

Originally posted by: ndivyateja

Today My heart goes out to Chakor..😊

It was Suraj who is hurt but Chakor was in Pain..She took in all her pain but unable to take his..Probably this is the cost of feeling something strong and deep for Suraj..

I've always seen her caring for him, Today she was actually mothering him 😊

Leading those cowards, countering HyAr, keeping an eye on Suraj and constantly taking care of him..This girl is getting restless day by day..Not even a wink of eye, but yearned to see him sleep well..😳

In the begining of this track..All I wanted to see was Chakor running behind Suraj..I got more than what I want..No where near I want Old Suraj back, this journey of love is exceptionally beautiful to watch..

P.S : How cute Suraj was when he immitated Chakor 😃 When he was pouring that cold water on his wounds..Not him, I closed my eyes involuntarily..How could he think of bathing in that state..Chakor please treat his wounds ASAP..😭

Episode 3rd January 2018 - reposting

Sukor ... Rona...Sona...chanduji

"Thu ro rayi thi??? Hamare liye??? ...the shocked and surprised question of Suraj after chakor's mesmerizing first hug during the Jailor Yadav shoot out... "Hum kyo ro rai, aur thumhare liye? was her answer... but that question and her answer lead to their ying yang equation ...

"Chakor aaj thu hamara pass na! hame bi achchi se neend aayengey and he went into the sweet slumber during the mahasivarathri day...

"Chanduji... please hame bi apne jaan so milva dho her innocent heart wrenching request to her Chanduji only a day before...

After yesterday's scintillating emotional episode right through the night the above three scenes were just flashing in my subconscious mind. I don't know I may be right or this is a misnomer... But

I am still in that emotion, exasperated, and not going to pen down that feelings as it's a feeling to be felt, infused, imbibed and only to just be felt... Everyone of us are going through it still... I am sure and no words can be identified to reflect those feelings... as reminiscence of it makes me see different meaning, feelings, perspectives

But after seeing yesterdays only above three was brooding my mind so much...

"Thu ro rayi thi??? Hamare liye??? "Hum kyo ro rai, aur thumhare liye?

The first question Suraj asked after the hug somewhat made me relate to what he asked yesterday

Chot tho hame lagi... Thu kyun ro rahi hai ... ha chot thume lagi par dard hame ho raha hai......

The same strange feeling, the confusion the strong man not moved by the pain but is moved by that single drop of her precious tear... Yes I felt happy the next phase of ying yang has started...

I am not writing anything... emotions were high... Breathings and the pondering of heart was synching...

"Chakor aaj thu hamara pass na! hame bi achchi se neend aayengey and he went into the sweet slumber during the mahasivarathri day...

Yesterday, with his Chakor beside him though not in his arms the sleep fairy was indeed embracing him...

The moment when he just swishhed his eyes I felt that his subconscious mind and his heart felt solace that solace that his soul is back to him and what come may she will be there (as Bini said earlier, once she is with him he is indestructible... true even when he is not in his senses he is still indestructible when she is with him) and he went into his sweet slumber his face was clear completely beautiful like a spotless moon ( I know this does not fit for a man but at that moment I felt him like a kid a little kid finding solace at its mothers lap)... for his angel is back and is on guard so he can sleep... the sleep that he would not have slept all these years, the sleep which would have been to that of a dead person...and always with that bland look for now I felt that sleep will be peaceful that moment and hope continues from that moment...

"Chanduji... please hame bi apne jaan se milva dho

The next what amazed me and my belief (honestly after seeing Udann I literally started to see moon in a different way, infact I started to address as Chanduji only) in my adories' Chanduji grew many folds. Yes Chakor prayed to be with her jaan and yes albeit in a different condition Chanduji ensured that bliss for her in spite of her tough eventualities she is with her jaan and her face was so beautiful, so much of tranquillity of just seeing him sleep, just the feeling of just visualising him...

For one I believed that yes

HIS Love brought him to her and Her love will eventually bring him to HER.

Nothing can stop SUKOR as Sukor's love is completely unique, different and is above all...