Udaan DEDT #4 - Page 70

Sukor is your TIME UP? Can it be....

Ten minutes was the time given to the soulmates before the dreaded distancing was going to take them away physically.

Myrid of expressions, can anyone express all the navrasas (nine important emotions) in that twelve (I shall add two minutes of that court scene too please)minutes!!!

Chakor had the only one expression (Shantha)... Tranquility as she was at peace that her Azandganj was free...the chirpy bird's dream since her childhood that her fellowmen could spread their wings and fly high without any hindrance... and why more at peace because her Sun is going to be there to take care of its development... ( I am not discussing about anything else at this moment of Chakor... After all the struggles over the years... I for once felt she was at peace albeit missing her safest abode, her love which can never be put to question by anyone and can she be questioned? Ever? No... )

Suraj can you be given just that TEN MINUTES???

Suraj Suraj... What a change of expressions in miniscule seconds, before I could set on one the other came up.

The mixed of Anger and Frustration, when he was Surprised at the verdict, I really appreciated you Suraj for bringing it out as you would have been boggled with that within you if you had not brought that out... Why Chakor Why should you accept, Why do you want to be Adharshwadhi. That change of expression in his eyes which flared and flamed for that second...

The worst Fear of his has come true, his world, his life, his dhadkan is going to be distanced from him for five years. His eyes glistened with that fear, I just could not see those pink eyes, his blood veins protruding... just to calm down once she tears...

Chakor, girl I give in to you... For you know your life just needs you, your proximity and you know and liked the way you sought the permission to meet your husband... Liked the way she held her head high and said hamari pathi ke saath akele me... (I know you too need him, his warmth before you endure the forthcoming separation)

The rest of the scene... those 10 minutes... I was just looking at Suraj... what change of expressions... One can express only when the opposite person reacts in a complementing way and MeeJay was par excellence... standing ovation to both of you... I had to pause a lot as my feelings were taking over and more so my eyes were continuously tearing...

He hugs her wants to take her into him as he needs and also she needs his and that moment, when he was grossing her into him, she speaks she is right she wants not to cry but only happy moments and lo immediate he does what he does... Just listens to her...his eyes stops but loved the way he said I can't give guarantee to my heart...

The despair that irritation like a child he tells her everything is fine, KN got what he deserved, Azagdganj got freedom, but what about us the face of sadness, his sinking of voice... his voice ...

What I admired with my adories was when one was about to break the other rose to hold, they were holding each other taking charge...

Dude has done his back work at Jail too... the way he said to her sweetly these five years will pass soon and even early release for good behaviour , the change in his voice suna hai (aawwh that was cute) and the naughtiness to bring his cheer (only if I behave good na) ..

It was like two kids missing each other but... my heart was getting heavy...

Is the time UP?

Loved the way he asked her to take care for she is his world and was utmost possessive of her wellbeing... What if I don't? hahah can she be without her knok-jok, Aray madamji you know him the walls of the Jails are not a hindrance as only your love net is what he abides to lock himself,

Where will he take... Those dreamy eyes saying he would take her off far away to the mountains build a small hut made out of love, faith and trust and will start all their dreams of their cozy family again... this he has been yearning ever since they got engaged officially... The dream of his little one... which he wanted to be proudly carrying on his shoulders going through the village...tears just rolled as he held her abode of his pearl... but only to get her back as she was breaking... Just loved the way he closed her with saying past is past ... how much he had come through to say this... My prayers for you Suraj please think about the future and sure your future will be the brightest one albeit all the spoilers...

At time I feels he becomes as rightfully said by his Chakor a ziddi bacha... Asking her shamlessly to be ready once she comes out of jail to bear ten children for him... Aaawwh... Suraj babu is clear in his mission... But I liked the way he said he will work hard in the five years for their future...And the next moment his eyes were all with emotions as he was just just infusing , admiring her...

But chakor is Chakor... she quickly reminds him that his hands is full of responsibilities to take care of her mai-bab, azandgun, **** Vivaan , Teju and not the least his partner paakhi... Her Man got scared arey babrey ithna zamidari...

Oh dear my chakor, your Man had only one responsibility through out his life after you changed him. Tumhara ye badlahua Suraj just loves, loves and keeps loving Chakor and no other THAN this is he responsible for... He is not worried of responsibility or donot question his Braveness as He is the Commando, the Hercules when his Chakor is with him... He can turn the World around...He needs no one as he can Focus and achieve his Goal, but without her he is like that Superman who is chained along with the Krypton...

They just trusted each other as they know their souls are connected

But Chakor is Chakor she was sweet yes her dreams, loved the way she said, Azadganj, the fellowmen and her Suraj is her World and she wants to see the development!! I will not blame you Chakor as you said Suraj along with your village too as I know you have two worlds where rest come in one and only your Suraj in the other world of yours!!! And you will spare nothing to safeguard him, not hesitate to raise the gun against KN or shield him with your own life at stake with RV..

Sukor gets a gentle reminder YOUR TIME IS UP

The shock the hurriedness and his anxiety holding her HANDS, wants to hold her till that nth hour.

The way he said take care and did the most wonderful thing, he is a kid for he gives her his photo (still feeling insecured... Suraj na dear No) keep this in case if you forget me! (JM will get into her mode even in the prison and may end up forgetting him?!)

And she is shocked and says in simple words how can I forget you, Never and puts back the same question if you forget me?...

Suraj you stood out dude, he did not say in simple words as I will not forget you but he spoke his heart, YES , He may forget to breathe but not her and never leave any opportunity to affirm his love for her... That voice modulation,,, Ham thumse bahuth pyaar karthe hai chakor... she was just infusing and was starting to break and lo her man knows immediately blames the kachara from nowhere for his eyes to get moist...

Time UP?

She turns to leave her safe abode, her world for she brought this upon her, herself and his world was silently watching his life, his everything, his dhil ka dhadkan go slowly, one word from her, he would have just scooped her and taken her away far away far away and would have created a new world, a new universe for her, but

All he could was just see her walking so fragily, as even the divine force wanted the adories to have their last warmth and her dupatta gets caught, and she at her heart yearns that Suraj would hold her, yes she mumbles Suraj leave me, I cannot stay long... He realise only after her mumble, and he does what she, her heart wants, goes very slowly and puts her duppata around and takes her in his warmth, just to give her and imbibe into him her strength too...

Yes the last part of the Navaras, love, lust I thought will not happen but Thank Gods for completing that rasa that emotion too so beautifully

For once I felt CHAKOR SURAJ RAJVANSHI FOR THE FIRST TIME LUSTED SURAJ NARAIN RAJVANSHI as she just gave in and for the first time lifted her head up so that he could nuzzle her(she had never lifted up in any of the earlier scenes where he did back hug and nuzzled her as she was always in her world either shying, pre-occupied or worried about his life) and always ask him Suraj what are you doing??? My lady your dude is lusting you!!!!

I felt and prayed God please allow my dearies to just be like this...I could not do anything but just froze my screen for few minutes to see them like that and waited for my vision to clear!

Yes the most feared moment came she was called and the way they both look at the open space the vaccum which was ready to separate them... Temporarily ...... But yes the time is up

She walks with heavy heart only with the assurance that he will visit her regularly and will come to take her with full pomp...

He did what was heart wrenching, took that little piece of her dupatta, that little solace ( I know when kids hold on to their mom's saree to savour her flavour and feel her presence, when they are left at home while the call of duty makes the mother go. Suraj Rajvanshi wants his worlds flavour, and he will find solace in that little piece for anything belonging to his Chakor is his strength!!

I am not thinking what is in store as I want to drench in this sukorilicious moment

SUKORS LOVE IS BEYOND ETERNITY AND NOT TIME BOUND

I TRUST AND BELIEVE THAT THE SUN AND HIS CHIRPY BIRD WILL RISE AGAIN AND START THEIR FUTURE IN THEIR LITTLE HUT WITH THEIR LITTLE BUNDLE OF JOY SOON.

my love for my SUKOR CAN NEVER BE TIMED

"Tu meri pehli dua,aur tu hi dua,aakhri...tu mile,har martabaa...aarzooo hai bas yahi!!!

Of the whole of mahiya song,this particular line is my fav,sung heart wrenchingly in a male voice,more because it also represents Suraj...and very true indeed,this particular lines,very economically sums up Suraj's love for Chakor in this two lines,coz its only SHE,that which he desires,wants or craves for,for Suraj,love life,feelings,emotions or whatever exists in this world,starts with Chakor,and eventually ends up with Chakor,he never really went beyond her,and only wants her,for as many times,it can be permitted to him.

Love,the most underrated as well as the most overrated word or feeling in this world,and all of us have somewhere experienced it in our lives,somewhere,in any form,but the question is,does it happens and ends???

There is no feeling in this world as blissful as to love someone,but does the bliss continues,maybe for some...but for majority,it just fizzles out with time.

But I feel,that "falling in love with the same person,over and over again is the feeling providing the most utmost level of tranquilty to the soul,and I have been witnessing this,since a few days,coz just as SUKOR FALL IN LOVE WITH EACH OTHER,OVER AND OVER AGAIN,AS THEY ARE CONSTANTLY TESTED,IN THE SAME WAY I FALL IN LOVE WITH THIS GUY CALLED SURAJ,OVER AND OVER AGAIN,EVERYDAY,,,COZ JUST AS I FEEL,THAT THIS WAS ONLY ABOUT HIM,HE IS UNFOLDED IN FRONT OF ME WITH AN ALTOGETHER NEW SHADE...

And I once again,witnessed...a Suraj,who completely,bought me,once again...

Suraj Rajvanshi,as I first encountered him,was known to me as someone,rude and rough,someone very very ambitious,someone very self-centered,someone very deceptive,someone very impulsive,but also someone very pessimistic...

He is still the same somewhere,yet he has changed,changed a lot.upright down,for a lady...[need we introduce her]

As soon as he heard,that she was sentenced five years imprisonment...he was the first on to just sprang up,and shout at her,that what was the need to be like this,,,,,when he himself acknowledges this virtues of hers,every time he gets a chance...this act of him was unconvincing and illogical,yet I fell for his INNOCENCE,[he had behaved this way,on their camp wedding night,when he was hugging her,and her phone rang,and he remarked to her,what was the need to bring your phone here]

Then as he got "those precious ten minutes" of his life,he immediately started to live the moment,by speedingly hugging her[those minutes mattered to him,more coz he knows it,she knows it,that ultimately,although with extreme difficulty,she will somehow manage without him,but he just cant think of it]...

There are many people who have loved,but loving someone is very different,then living the love,and fulfilling the love...and the one who NOT JUST LOVES,BUT ALSO LIVES AND FULFILLS IT,INDEED LOVE IT WITH DIVINITY

Suraj was the one,who used to be always the pessimistic,kind of person,once he was faced any kind of adversity,and he will just sit alone,make himself aloof,and whin in his own pains,,,but now,he as been taught how never to lose hope,how to never give up,how to shine up with positivity in the darkest of times...and credit goes to Chakor,as in love people give their heart and lives,but Chakor has given virtues in love...

And I was recalled of Suraj's dialogue from the ;andhua date scene.when Chakor has fed him,through the kids,how suraj acknowledged her and said,Chakor,agar hum tumhaari nazron se dekhne lage,toh har cheez hame achhi lagne lagegi

I recalled of this scene,when he sat with her in his arms in the bench,coz I saw his POSITIVITY.

Not for once,not for once,did this man,expressed the pain,he is undergoing,when his small universe of innocent dreams and hopes,came crashing down,in a matter of few hours...NOT FOR ONCE

But when she was crying,she was mourning at their irrevocable loss...IT WAS HE WHO PACIFIED HER BY REIGNITING THOSE FLAMES OF THEIR INNOCENT DREAMS

After so much,going and enduring so much,he was still left with those eyes to dream ,he was still left with those hopes,to reestablish their world...SURAJ RAJVANSHI WAS NEVER LIKE THIS,YET GATHERED HIMSELF,COLLECTED THE POSITIVITY,SO THAT HE COULD GATHER HER.AND IMBIBE THE POSITIVITY WITHIN HER...

One can idiolise someone,but very few can follow the principles of their idol.

But Suraj has not only worshipped or loved Chakor,HE HAS LIVED HER,FELT HER,INFUSED HER WITHIN HIM.

Then when the lady came to inform them about the time lag,,,,,,his eyes widened,as if an executioner informed him that he was to be executed...

Usually,the person who is going is the one,who asks for memorials to be taken along,but here,it was Suraj,who instead gave his pic to Chakor,coz he felt just as he has the habit of talking with her pictures,she must also do it,and this way,maybe they will remain connected.

And finally while holding her face,he said all that he had known and retained,all his life,"Chakor,hum tumse bohot pyar karte hain".

A LINE THAT DEFINES SURAJ'S BEING

He had said,this many a times,in different situations,but each time,he had an intensity,greater than before,and each times he says those simple words,in a way,as if applying all his life in saying so.

As he gave her a back hug,and she reciprocated in a manner,AS IF IN THAT TEN MINUTES,THEY BOTH LIVED A CENTURY

And then,he allowed to let her go,allowed to let her go,so that they could meet again...

Again fall in love with each other,worship each other,relive those emotios,fulfill their dreams,fulfill each other...

After all,Suraj and Chakor had to live together,in a small hut,somewhere in a very far-off village,atop a mountain,along with ten kids,if not ten,then ONLY WITH A FLOWER,WHO WILL BE TE SYMBOL OF AN UNDYING SUKOR LOVE SAGA

Sapna Jahan Dastak Na De, Chaukhat Thi Woh Aankhein Meri
[My eyes were that place where dreams would never arrive/come]
Baaton Se Thi Tadaad Mein, Khamoshiyan Zyaada Meri
Silences were more in number than talks in my life]
Jabse Pade, Tere Kadam, Chalne Lagi, Duniya Meri
[Since You've come into my life, my world has started revolving/moving (become alive)]

Mere Dil Mein Jagah Khuda Ki Khaali Thi...
[A place for God inside my heart was empty]
Dekha Wahan Pe Aaj Tera Chehra Hai...
[Today I see Your face there]
Main Bhatakta Hua Sa Ek Baadal Hoon...
I'm like a wandering cloud]

Jo Tere Aasmaan Pe Aake Thehra Hai...
[That has come to Your Sky and is standing still now]

Tu Rooh Hai Toh Main Kaaya Banoon
[You're the soul, so I'll become the guise]
Taa-Umr Main Tera Saaya Banoon
[I'll become Your shadow for lifetime]
Keh De Toh Ban Jaoon Bairaag Main
[If You say so, I'll become Your longing]
Kehde Toh Main Teri Maaya Banoon
[If You say so, I'll become Your illusion]
Tu Saaz Hai, Main Ragini
[You're the tune, I'm the melody]
Tu Raat Hai, Main Chandni
[You're the night, I'm the moonlight]

Mere Dil Mein Jagah Khuda Ki Khaali Thi...
[A place for God inside my heart was empty]
Dekha Wahan Pe Aaj Tera Chehra Hai...
Today I see Your face there]
Main Bhatakta Hua Sa Ek Baadal Hoon...
[I'm like a wandering cloud]
Jo Tere Aasmaan Pe Aake Thehra Hai...
[That has come to Your Sky and is standing still now]

Hum Pe Sitaaron Ka Ehsaan Ho, Poora, Adhoora Har Armaan Ho
[May the stars be benevolent upon us, may all our dreams become true]
Ek Doosre Se Jo Baandhe Humein, Baahon Mein Nanhi Si Ik Jaan Ho
[May we have a little soul (young one/kid) in our arms that attaches both of us]
Aabaad Ho, Chhota Sa Ghar, Lag Na Sake, Kisi Ki Nazar
[May our abode flourish, may no one's evil gaze affect us]

Mere Dil Mein Jagah Khuda Ki Khaali Thi...
[A place for God inside my heart was empty]
Dekha Wahan Pe Aaj Tera Chehra Hai...
[Today I see Your face there]
Main Bhatakta Hua Sa Ek Baadal Hoon...
I used to be like a wandering cloud
Jo Tere Aasmaan Pe Aake Thehra Hai...
[That has come to Your Sky and is standing still now]

As rightly,said Suraj is the rarest of rare precious gemstone,who never really descended on earth from the heavens,but thanks to Chakor,she discovered it for her,in this life only.

THANKS TO YOU CHAKOR FOR SCULPTING OUT THIS FROM MY SURAJ

And for my rarest of rare gemstone,my SURAJ...

"BADAA HI KHAMOSH SA ANDAAZ HAI TUMHAARA...

SAMAJH NAHI AATA KI,FIDA HO JAAUN YA FANAA HO JAAUN..

[your personality is too silent to be deciphered,I am unable to decide,if I should die at it,or drool at it]