Part 31
Bhalla House - Sunday, 27 October, 3 pm
“Ishimaa, chalo jaldi!” Ruhi pleaded. “Ice cream parlor band ho jayega!”
“Sirf teen baje hai Ru. Ice cream shop itni jaldi band nahi hota,” Ishita chuckled. “Do minute ruko, main Neelu didi ke liye kapde dhone ke liye nikaal deti hoon phir chalte hain.”
Ruhi paced impatiently across her parents’ bedroom as Ishita sorted through her and Raman’s clothes from the laundry basket, making sure pockets were empty and sarees were okay to be washed in the washing machine. She glanced at her daughter and smiled. There was never a dull moment with her around. Before her Diwali vacation ended today, Ruhi had asked for one last outing. After much consideration, they had decided on a girls day out with Rinki and Mihika -- first ice cream, then to the theatre to watch the new Disney movie.
“Hum movie ke liye late ho gaye to?” Ruhi asked.
“I promise beta, hum late nahi honge. Ishimaa aapko time pe pohcha degi. Dekho, I’m almost done. Aap jaake shoes pehen lo, aur dekho Rinki bua aur Mihika chitti ready hai ya nahi.”
“Okay mumma!”
Ruhi made a beeline for the living room. Ishita quickly sorted through the last few pants in the laundry basket and found some cash which she stowed into the drawer of the side table. She checked the pockets in one final pair of pants and found a receipt. She wondered what it was for; Raman wasn’t the kind to save ordinary receipts. Curiosity got the better of her. When she read the receipt, her jaw hit the floor.
It was a receipt for a money transfer of four lakh rupees. As she read through the rest of the text, her heart dropped into her stomach. The money had been transferred to… Shagun. What in the world? How could Raman have given such a huge sum of money to his ex-wife and not tell her? Phone calls and text messages were one thing, but this? What the hell was going on? Ishita blinked back her confusion and curled her hands into fists. That was it. She made a resolve to ask Raman clearly about what the hell was going on between him and Shagun. She couldn’t take it anymore. She had given him the benefit of the doubt for almost a week now. But now, the limit had been crossed.
“Ishimaa, Rinki bua aur Mihika chitti ready hai!” Ruhi shouted from the living room.
Ishita cleared her throat and stood up. Now was not the time to lose control. She had plans with her daughter and sisters. Raman was out for some work too. She couldn’t confront him until he came back home anyway. She quickly folded the receipt and placed it in her purse.
“Coming Ruhi!” she called out to her daughter as she left the basket of dirty clothes in the laundry room and stepped out into the living room. True to Ruhi’s words, Rinki and Mihika were already there ready to go. “Chale?” Ishita asked.
“Chalo akka.”
“Let’s go bhabhi.”
They descended the steps, got in the car, and drove off to the nearest ice cream parlor. Ishita gripped the handle of the steering wheel and tried her best to hide the growing ache inside her heart.
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Starbucks - Sunday, 4 pm
Raman twisted his phone in his hand, maintaining his stare at the entrance of the cafe. The woman was fifteen minutes late. Not that he was surprised. He couldn’t expect anything else from his ex-wife. But her careless, irresponsible attitude was getting on his nerves now. After their conversation on Thursday, she hadn’t replied to any of his messages or phone calls. So this was his last olive branch. His last attempt to get Shagun to cooperate and help him meet Adi. If this didn’t work he would take the legal route. He’d do whatever it takes to get back in his son’s life.
More importantly, after this final meeting, he’d update Ishita on how this endeavor was going. While the rest of his family would be too emotionally worn out to be able to keep up with the constant struggle of getting Adi back, he had now come to the conclusion that Ishita was strong enough to take it. One of his initial concerns had been whether Ishita could deal with another legal battle to get custody, but Ruhi and Adi were different people. Ishita was Ruhi’s first parent. Naturally, her custody case would affect her gravely. But Adi’s case wouldn’t leave such an intense impact. Moreover, he’d find out soon enough whether Shagun was keeping her end of the promise or not. Then he could also reveal the four lakh rupees money transfer. As much as he was used to doing things on his own, these lies of omission were harder to keep up with. Tonight, he’d have a conversation with his wife and clear the air.
The chimes of the entrance rang signalling the opening of the door. Shagun strolled in in a black net saree with matching earrings and hair in curls. She instantly spotted Raman and took the seat opposite him.
“Shagun, tumhe pata hi hoga maine tumhe yahan kyun bulaya hai,” Raman began without beating around the bush.
“Hang on Raman, mujhe coffee shop main milne bulaya hai aur mujhe coffee nahin pilaoge?” she asked suggestively.
Raman straightened in his seat, leaned forward, and glared daggers at Shagun.
“Listen Shagun, mujhe tumhare saath coffee peene mein koi interest nahin hain. Maine tumhe yahan isiliye bulaya hai taaki hum once and for all baat kar sake. Kya tum mujhe Adi se milwaaogi ya nahi? It’s been a week since I first spoke to you lekin tumne abhi tak koi concrete answer nahin diya hain.”
“Raman, you know very well that it’s not that easy.”
She grazed her fingers against Raman’s hand, who instinctively jerked his hand away. He saw what she was doing and he wasn’t going to fall for it.
“Don’t talk in riddles anymore, Shagun. I’m tired of playing along with you. The only reason I’m entertaining you is because if you cooperate then we can do this without too much of a fuss. If you don’t cooperate, then I can still take the complicated and messy legal route, but that won’t be good for anyone. Not me, not you, not my family, and certainly not Adi. But you better believe I’ll do what it takes to get back in my son’s life, because that’s best for him in the long run. So tell me, are you or are you not going to let me meet Adi?”
“Raman, money is still tight around the house for us. If you could just help me out some more, then I promise you-”
“Don’t lie to me Shagun,” Raman interrupted. “I know for a fact that your boyfriend now has a partnership with a new international investor so money should be the least of your troubles. I’m not giving you another penny. The money I gave you on Thursday was only for Adi. I don't owe you anything.”
“I’m not lying to you Raman!” Shagun shot back. “You don’t think I care for Adi? I do, that’s why I’m here meeting his father without even telling Ashok.”
“I don’t care about you and Ashok. Are you going to let me meet Adi or not? Just answer me dammit!” Raman was on the edge of his patience. “Don’t forget Shagun, I gave you the money and promised to keep it a secret only on the condition that you get Adi to meet me. If you won’t hold your end of the promise, I won’t hold mine. How would you like to explain to your social circle that you borrowed money from your ex-husband?”
Raman had hit the nail right on the head.
“Fine!” Shagun conceded. “I’ll bring Adi home during his Christmas holidays and you can meet him then, happy?”
“Thank you.”
Raman smiled at his victory. But before he could completely process the joy, his smile dropped and he watched in horror as his wife walked into the cafe.
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10 minutes earlier on the road outside Starbucks
“Ruhi, be careful not to spill the ice cream, okay? Almost melt ho gayi hogi,” Ishita urged.
“Don’t worry bhabhi, mere paas napkins hai. I’ll clean it up if anything spills,” Rinki replied from the back seat.
They had all ordered one scoop of their favorite ice cream at the ice cream shop, but Ruhi, being the ice cream enthusiast that she was, ordered two scoops of double chocolate chip ice cream with sprinkles on top, which meant she had to finish the rest of her ice cream in the car on their way to the movie theater. Ishita followed Mihika’s directions from the passenger seat and drove to the theater, all the while trying hard (and failing) to keep thoughts of Raman and Shagun out of her head. Her head was spinning and she wished she hadn’t skipped her afternoon cup of tea in the rush to leave. Suddenly, the answer to her prayers appeared, and she turned into a shopping plaza.
“Akka, yahan kyun turn kiya?” Mihika asked.
“Miku, dekh yahan ek Starbucks hai,” she replied. “Main bas ek cup coffee leke aati hoon. I missed my afternoon cup of tea and my head is spinning.”
“Okay just be quick or else Ruhi-”
“Ishimaa! Aap kahan jaa rahe ho?! Hum movie ke liye late ho jaayenge?!” Ruhi fulfilled Mihika’s prediction before she could even voice it out loud.
“Don’t worry baccha. I’ll just get a cup of coffee and be right back.”
Ishita grabbed her purse and exited the vehicle. She opened the door to the cafe and the aroma of coffee calmed her nerves. But the sight that greeted her next gave her a whole new hurt, this time not in her head. Her husband, sitting across from his ex-wife, smiling at her.
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Ishita and Raman locked eyes, a million unsaid questions passing between them. They were less than twenty feet apart but the distance they felt between them could be uncountable miles. Shagun turned around to see exactly what caused this horrific expression on Raman’s face; when she saw Ishita standing at the entrance of the cafe, she couldn’t suppress a smirk.
“Looks like I’m not the only one who lied to their partner about meeting their ex, huh?” she teased Raman. She was right all along. She still had control over him. She had a hold on him. She came before Ishita. Her eyes twinkled like the earrings she wore, and a wicked smile adorned her lips.
Raman paid no attention to her and stood up, walking briskly towards his wife, blood pumping in his ears. Just when he had made the resolve to clear the air with her, she showed up at the wrong time and probably got the wrong idea too.
“Tum yahan kya kar rahi ho? Tumhara to movie ka plan tha na?” he asked.
“Aur aap yahan kya kar rahe ho? Aap to kisi kaam se bahar gaye the na?” she shot his own question back at him. “Ya phir yahin tha aapka zaroori kaam?” Her eyes glimmered with hurt and unshed tears.
“Ishita, tum galat samajh rahi ho. Main tumhe batana hi wala tha-”
Her phone buzzed and cut their conversation short. It was a message from Mihika.
Akka, Ruhi is getting crankier by the minute. Only you can handle her. Please come fast.
“Abhi aapki kisi safaai sunne ka waqt nahin hain mere paas,” she said with as cool a tone as she could muster. Yet her voice wavered. “Ruhi, Mihika, aur Rinki bahar gaadi mein mera intezaar kar rahe hain.”
“Ishita wait-”
She blinked back her tears and turned around to leave the cafe, ignoring both Raman and the growing headache and heartache inside her.
Raman sighed and rubbed his temple. He returned to his seat to collect his things. What position had life put him in? He finally understood what it meant to be caught between a rock and a hard place. The empty abyss inside him deepened.
“I’ll be in contact with you once December begins, Shagun,” he said without looking at her. He could feel the smirk on her face without even looking. He wasn’t going to give her the satisfaction of getting to him. “I’ll get in touch with Adi no matter what it takes.”
Raman left the cafe without so much as a second look at his ex-wife worried about Ishita's temperament.
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“Akka, aap to bina coffee ke hi wapis aa gayi?” Mihika asked as Ishita turned the car out of the shopping plaza and onto the main road.
“Haan woh line bahot thi na, aur tumne bhi kaha ki Ruhi cranky ho rahi thi so I came back without coffee,” she replied.
They drove in silence to the movie theater, as Ishita tried to make sense of her thoughts. All throughout Diwali, Raman had been getting texts and calls from Shagun, which in her logical mind she knew were about Adi. But her text was way too friendly for what she knew Shagun to be. Nevertheless, as uncomfortable as it made her, at least she knew why Raman had been in contact with her. What happened after that truly worried her. Raman had been out on Thursday saying that he was going to his office but his receptionist said he never went there. Then today she finds that Raman transferred four lakh rupees to Shagun. And while she was under the impression that he had been out for work, he was in a coffee shop smiling and chatting with his ex-wife. Ishita took a deep breath. She needed answers. And that too soon. Tonight itself.
“Akka, is everything okay?” Mihika asked as soon as they reached the movie theater and joined the line for tickets. “You seem off and worried. Kuch baat huyi hai kya?”
Ishita mentally kicked herself. She needed to be better at her poker face. Her sisters knew her extremely well; they could see right through her.
“Everything's fine Miku. This simply proves that I’m too dependent on caffeine. I’ll be fine.” She gave a light chuckle. “Dekh, ticket counter bhi aa gaya.”
They bought one child and three adult tickets and proceeded inside the cinema hall.
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Bhalla house - 10:30 pm, Ishita and Raman’s bedroom
Raman sat on the edge of the bed, rubbing his palms together and leg shaking. Ishita was with Ruhi right now reading her a bedtime story. As soon as she came back, they’d have the dreaded conversation. As soon as he had come back home from the coffee shop, he had been waiting for Ishita to return, but when she did walk in through the front door with Ruhi and Rinki, he willed for time to move slower. Who knew where their conversation would land them, what the status of their relationship would be after. How would Ishita react? What would she say? What if she couldn’t forgive him? He knew how big her heart was and how selfless she could be, but would he be extended the same liberty?
By a peculiar turn of events, they hadn’t had a chance to speak all evening. Ishita was pulled into the kitchen to help with dinner preparations while Raman had to get on an urgent video call with Mihir. He had run into a problem with their presentation that they were to submit the next day to their client regarding the progress of their project. Dinner had been the usual affair, except for the fact that Ishita refused to even look at him. And he knew that the icy demeanor she held towards him did not escape anyone’s notice. Although nobody asked them anything directly, he could tell from their stares and glances that they sensed the chill between them. They were the same stares and glances he had received after his divorce with Shagun. The same stares and glances (no matter how well meaning) that he couldn’t bear to see then. But now, he couldn’t care less about them. Because all that he could see was that Ishita was upset. Ishita was hurting. Because of him. And he couldn’t let that go on for any longer. So now he was waiting in their bedroom, waiting for his wife to come in so he could do whatever it took to wipe that frown off her face.
Ishita closed the picture book and placed it on the side shelf in her daughter’s room. She kissed Ruhi good night and headed towards her own room. Her limbs suddenly felt like lead, refusing to budge. All evening she had tried her best to not look at her husband, acting cold and distant, because if she did take one look at him, she would not be able to keep herself calm. But now, she needed answers. As much as the answers might scare her. She willed her legs to move and opened the door to her bedroom.
Raman looked up and found his wife staring at him with a million questions in her eyes. He marveled at how someone could look this beautiful in night clothes, but that was beyond the point. For right now, the glimmer of unshed tears in her eyes beckoned his attention.
“Ruhi so gayi?” he asked, trying to start a conversation.
“Haan. Badi mushkil se. Aaj ki movie ki bahot baate kar rahi thi. Kal school jaana hai yeh keh kar sulaaya.”
Suddenly it occurred to him that Ruhi was with Ishita when they accidentally met today at the coffee shop.
“Does Ruhi know that… that…” he faltered.
Ishita turned to face him and finished his sentence for him. “What? That you were hanging out with your ex-wife behind my-” She caught herself at that word. “Behind your family’s back?”
Behind his family’s back? Did she really think that he was sneaking around with his ex-wife? He stood up to face Ishita.
“Ishita, I just want to know if Ruhi-”
“No, she doesn’t know. Neither do Mihika or Rinki. I didn’t tell anyone.” Of course he wanted to know about Ruhi. That’s what their marriage was. Sirf Ruhi ke liye. Just for Ruhi.
“I was meeting her to try to get in touch with Adi. I told you a week ago.”
“That’s all you told me, Raman. That you’re trying to get in touch with Adi. But how can that justify everything since then? Your constant phone calls and messages with her? Your-”
“Ishita, those phone calls and messages were to try to get a meeting fixed with Adi. You know how Shagun is. She wasn’t going to cooperate after just one conversation. I wanted to meet Adi on Diwali but apparently he doesn’t come home for Diwali. I have finally managed to get a meeting with him for when he comes home for Christmas. I-”
“That’s great Raman. I’m glad you’re rebuilding your relationship with your son. But what about the relationship you’re rebuilding with Shagun?”
“Excuse me?” Raman’s deep voice turned to steel at the insinuation of him and Shagun rekindling their relationship.
All of Ishita’s built up anger burst open at Raman’s attempt to play innocent. How. Dare. He.
“On Thursday, you said you had some work at your office and you were gone for the whole day. When I called your receptionist, she said you were never there. Today I found a receipt.” She fished through her purse for the receipt that she had tucked away earlier and showed it to him. “A receipt for a four lakh rupee money transfer to Shagun. Something which I would think you would have mentioned to me once, unless you were hiding something. And to top it all off, I find you at a coffee shop smiling and happily chatting away with your ex-wife when you’ve told me that you had work to do!”
Raman’s jaw dropped. Lady luck was really not on his side today. What are the chances that Ishita not only shows up at the exact coffee shop where he was meeting Shagun but also finds the receipt for the money transfer before he had a chance to tell her everything himself? He should have been more careful with the receipt. He took a deep breath.
“Ishita, you are right to have these questions, but I promise you, I was going to explain everything tonight after meeting with Shagun today.”
Raman couldn’t find the rest of his words, as he saw a tear roll down Ishita’s cheek. The first time he had seen her cry was when she found out Subbu had had a baby boy, and it threw his world off its axis. The fact that the second time he saw her cry was because of him pushed a sharp needle of pain through the flesh of his heart.
Ishita braced herself. This was it. This was when he finally confessed to having feelings for Shagun. She didn’t blame him. A five year long marriage that gave him two kids was bound to be more important than a fake marriage that lasted three months. So she stood there with tears streaming down her face, waiting to get rejected. Again.
“The receipt you found was for money for Adi’s school fees. Apparently Ashok was going through financial trouble and he couldn’t pay them this term so Shagun asked me. I had already invested in a separate account for Adi’s education when he was born, so that’s where the money came from. On Thursday, I was at the bank with my accountant getting the account unlocked and transferring the money to Shagun. The reason why I didn’t tell you or anyone is because Shagun asked me to keep it a secret in exchange for getting to meet Adi. She would be embarrassed if it was revealed that she had to take money from her ex-husband who she left because he didn’t earn enough in the first place.”
Ishita wiped her cheeks and paced up and down the length of the bedroom, trying to process all the new information.
“And today,” he continued, “I was meeting her to get a concrete answer regarding whether she would let me meet my son or not. She had been keeping me hanging for a week so I wanted to force an answer out of her one way or another. It took some time, but she’s finally agreed to let me meet him when he comes home for the winter holidays.”
Ishita sighed and closed her eyes. She cleared her throat and faced her husband.
“Raman, do you have any idea what I have been through over the past five days? I’ve been thinking that you’ve developed feelings for Shagun again, that our marriage would end-”
“Ishita, look at me.” Raman walked towards her and held her hands in his. He gave them a tight squeeze before continuing. “I am not interested in any form of relationship with Shagun. Woh mere liye Adi ki maa se zyada kuch nahi hai. You have nothing to worry about.”
Ishita wriggled her hands free and took a step back. Raman’s touch sent tingles down her spine and now was not the time to get distracted.
“How could I not worry, Raman? You were married to her. For five years. And you both have two children together. Compare that to our marriage. We’ve been together for three months. And our marriage isn’t even a real marriage. Isn’t it natural for you to get feelings for Shagun? You’ve been talking about rekindling your relationship with your son. Amidst that process, how far-fetched could it be if you caught feelings for your son’s mother too? What if you never moved on from her truly? It took me almost a year to get over my feelings for Subbu and we weren’t even engaged yet.”
“Are you not listening to me?” Raman asked, barely masking his anger at hearing his wife’s ex’s name from her mouth. “I don’t. Have. Feelings. For. Shagun.” he gritted out through clenched teeth.
“Look at you. I mention her name and your emotions get shot to hell. Did you not realize that what you were doing to me over the past few days was exactly what Shagun was doing to you when your marriage to her broke? The lies of omission, the sneaking around, the-”
“Enough.” Raman’s voice was icy cold. He knew he didn’t have feelings for his ex-wife. But for Ishita to suggest that he was on her level was infuriating. “Don’t you dare compare me to what that woman did. You have no idea what happened there. So don’t bring that up.”
Ishita gulped. The look on Raman’s face and restrained tone of his voice told her that she shouldn’t extend the conversation. But she still feared she was right. She had seen him hate Shagun with a passion. Which meant he had loved her and could still love her with that passion too.
“But it’s true Raman-”
“That’s it.”
“What?”
“We’re ending this conversation right here, right now. Before I say something that both of us will regret.”
They both stared at each other in silence for what seemed like an eternity, before Raman left for the washroom to change into his night clothes. Ishita was left standing staring at the spot where he stood. She walked over to the couch and sat down with her head in her hands. Her bedding for the night was placed on the side table, but she couldn’t bring herself to lay it out on the couch. In fact, she couldn’t deal with being in this room. In this house. She couldn’t deal with looking at her husband right now. She needed a break. Fresh air. She scribbled a quick note on a post-it and stuck it to the cupboard before wiping her face, grabbing her phone, and walking over next door to her parents’ house.
“Aiyyo Ishu? Itni raat ko? Sab thik to hai na kanna?” Her mother asked as she opened the door.
“Amma, sab thik hai. Bas aap logon ki yaad aa rahi thi, isiliye aa gayi. Ab kya mujhe koi occasion chahiye apne Amma-Appa ke ghar aane ke liye?” She tried her best to hide her inner turmoil.
“Nahi Ishu, tum to jab chahe aa sakti ho. Come come.” Madhu opened the door and ushered her daughter inside.
“Ishu beta, itni raat ko kaise aana hua?” Vishwa asked from the couch. Mihika too had come out to the living room from her bedroom.
“Appa, mujhe aap logon ki yaad aa rahi thi, isiliye aa gayi.”
“Are you sure kanna?” Madhu asked. “Aur koi baat to-”
“Amma, aisa kuch nahi hain. Ab kya main apne hi ghar mein parayi ho gayi?” She teased her parents.
“No beta, bilkul nahi,” Vishwa replied. “Tum jab chahe yahan aa sakti ho.”
“Thank you Appa. Mujhe bas kuch din yahan rehna hain. Is that okay ya aur bhi questions bhi hai aapke?”
Both Madhu and Vishwa definitely had more questions. Something was wrong. Their daughter wouldn’t show up at their doorstep this late at night just because she missed them. But they knew better than to ask right now. She clearly didn’t want to talk about it.
“Koi questions nahi hai beta,” Vishwa replied.
“Akka, come na!” Mihika dragged Ishita into her bedroom. “We’ll sleep together like the old days. Before you got married.”
Ishita found it hard to think about the days before she got married. Ruhi and Raman were her entire world now. The ache in her heart ripened at the thought.
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Raman came back from the bathroom in his night clothes. He was still angry, but thinking about the situation from Ishita’s perspective told him that she wasn’t wrong. Her doubts and fears were valid. But he had no clue how to assuage them.
He opened the door to his bedroom to find the couch empty. He looked around but Ishita was nowhere to be seen. Before he left to look for her in the rest of the house, he found a post-it note stuck to the cupboard.
Raman, I’m going to Amma & Appa’s for the night. I need some space. And time to think. --Ishita
Raman took the note in his hand and read it again. And again. He crumbled the note in his fist and his heartbeat drummed in his ears. Was this it? Was she going to decide that he wasn’t worth it? That she wouldn’t put up with him and this fake marriage? No. He wouldn’t let that happen. He would fight. If not for himself, then for his daughter. Ruhi needed Ishita. And he knew damn well Ishita needed Ruhi too.
He marched over to his in-laws’ house and knocked with a ferocity that surprised him. Madhu opened the door. Seeing her son-in-law fuming confirmed her fears about her daughter’s predicament.
“Mujhe Ishita se baat karni hain.”
“Woh andar Mihika ke saath hain. Come in, Raman. Come in.”
Raman didn’t bother with formalities. He was being rude, not acknowledging or greeting his mother-in-law and father-in-law but he couldn’t think of anything except Ishita right now.
He reached Mihika’s bedroom (and Ishita’s former bedroom) and knocked on the door. Mihika opened it.
“Mujhe tumhari behen se akele mein baat karni hai. Abhi, isi waqt.”
“Kya hua jeeju, aap-”
“Mihika, I don’t have time to answer your questions right now. Just let me talk to Ishita right now. Privately.” He put emphasis on the last word, and Mihika knew not to argue. She let Raman in and left the room, closing the door behind her, leaving Raman and Ishita alone.
“Raman, aap yahan kyun aa gaye?” Ishita asked. The whole point behind coming here was to not have to face him for a while.
“Yahin sawaal main tumse puch sakta hoon.”
“Maine likha to tha. I just need some time to think. Just let me stay here for a few days. I think we both could use some space.”
After a long stretch of silence, Raman asked the question he feared the most.
“Do you regret this marriage?”
“What?” Ishita was utterly confused.
“Just answer me. Do you regret this marriage?”
“No, not at all. This marriage gave me Ruhi. She’s my world.”
Raman took a breath of relief. She wasn’t leaving him. Even if it was just for Ruhi. Sirf Ruhi ke liye. In that moment, for the first time, he found himself being jealous of his daughter. Damn, if this woman didn’t drive him nuts.
“I just need a couple days away from you,” she continued. “To think. To get my head straight.”
“Okay then. Tell me when you are ready to come back.”
He ended the conversation and left his in-laws’ house, with their conversation replaying in his head. His legs led him into his flat, his bedroom, and to his bed, but his mind was stuck on a phrase Ishita had said.
I just need a couple days away from you.
He lied on his bed, staring at the ceiling. He knew himself better than anyone, so why did it hurt when Ishita wanted to be away from him? He knew better than anyone that he thrived in solitude. That alone is what protected him. He wanted - no, needed - to be alone, to thrive. He had trained himself to be on his own. To protect his heart. But the truth of the matter was that Ishita had begun to break the walls he’d built around himself, without even meaning to. He couldn’t find words to describe it, but she could fill the emptiness in his life like no one could. What they had was something he’d never experienced before. He tried to remove thoughts of his wife from his head and fall asleep. But every time he tossed and turned in his bed, his gaze lingered on the empty couch. And the emptiness in his heart, his soul, and his life magnified.
Lafzon se jo tha pare
Khaalipan ko jo bhare
Kuch to tha tere mere darmiyaan
Rishte ko kya mod doon
Naata yeh ab tod doon
Ya phir yun hi chhod doon, darmiyaan
Benaam rishta woh…
Benaam rishta woh, bechain karta jo
Ho naa.. sake jo bayaan, darmiyaan
Darmiyaan Darmiyaan
Darmiyaan Darmiyaan
Kuch to tha tere-mere darmiyaan
Haaye
Darmiyaan Darmiyaan
Darmiyaan Darmiyaan
Kuch to tha tere-mere darmiyaan
Oh its a special feeling
These moments between us
How will I live without you [x2]
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Iyer House - midnight, Mihika’s bedroom
Ishita tossed and turned on the king-sized bed. Although Mihika had fallen asleep long ago, Ishita wasn’t granted the same fortune. No matter how hard she tried, she couldn’t get thoughts of Raman out of her head. Did he even know that he hadn’t moved on from Shagun? Or was she reading into it too much? Was she projecting her own insecurities on the situation? Many such questions plagued her, and she knew it was necessary to take some space and distance herself from the situation. But try as she might, she couldn’t distance herself from thoughts of her husband. Everywhere she looked, memories of Raman appeared in her mind. The cupboard reminded her of their argument over how much space her sarees took in their cupboard. The dresser reminded her of their banter over how long she took to get ready. And how he looked at her with a slack-jawed expression when she finally was ready. Even the bed reminded her of the many nights they had spent with Ruhi in between. She closed her eyes and sighed. She had no clue what they were now. All she knew was that she could not give up on their relationship.
Aankhon mein tere saaye
Chahoon to ho na paaye
Yaadon se teri faasla haye
Jaake bhi tu na jaaye
Thehra tu dil mein haaye
Hasrat si banke kyun bhala
Kyun yaad karti hoon
Mitti hoon banti hoon
Mujhko toh laaya yeh kahaan
Benaam rishta woh…
Benaam rishta woh, bechain karta jo
Ho na sake jo bayaan darmiyaan
Darmiyaan Darmiyaan
Darmiyaan Darmiyaan
Kuch toh tha tere mere darmiyaan
Haaye..
Darmiyaan Darmiyaan
Darmiyaan Darmiyaan
Kuch toh tha tere mere darmiyaan
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