Hello everyone I am back with yet another update. Due to some personal reasons I could not update on time, my sincere apologies for that. But with this update I would like to know if you all seriously want me to continue this story or not as the response is very low, do let me know your views through your valuable comments .
Here it goes
Part 7
"Sameer voh mujhe aapse kuch zaruri baat krni thi " said Naina watching Sameer who was busy fixing the cables attached to the television. It was 4pm in the evening and as per his usual routine Sameer was watching tv when suddenly the screen went blank, irritated he got up to fix the issue "Abhi nahi Naina, dekh rahi ho na tv ko pta nahi kya hogya hai....acha bhali film aarhi thi aur ab yeh," replied Sameer annoyingly. But Naina seemed a little impatient and wanted to talk to him immediately. She placed the tray she was carrying, on the table and went up-to Sameer and requested again , "please Sameer baat urgent hai... Main aapke liye chai bhi laayi hu."
Sameer continued to fidget with cables ignoring her words. " arey main kuch bol rahi hu kabse.. " said Naina in a louder tone to gain his attention
"hn bol toh main bhi raha hu ki bd mein abhi tv thik krne do ," said Sameer disinterestedly. Failed to gain his attention ,irritated she held his shoulder tightly and made him turn to her side with a little force. A little surprised with her action Sameer stared at her blankly . Naina too realised what she did and immediately stepped back ,"Sorry voh aap itni der se sun nahi rahe they toh... "
"it's ok, bolo... aisa kya bolna hai jo tv se zyada important hai , said Sameer .
Naina hesitated a little," Voh mujhe kuch samaan lena tha toh thode paise chahiye they ... meri jitni savings thi voh toh shadi mein kharach hogye.. toh...."
Sameer again turned his face away and resumed his work of fixing cables," toh isme itna gabra kya rahi ho, mummy se lelo voh de dengi."
"Mummy k pass gayi thi, par maine unko dadi se baat krte hue suna, voh Rohan ki death k bd company ki halat kuch thik nahi chal rahi hai, aur phir papaji bhi bimar hai...company k shares all time low par hai, is time company ko sambalne wala bhi koi nahi..agar aisa hi raha toh sab khatam hojayega."
Sameer didn't respond and pretended to remain unaffected . Doubtful of his reaction she further added carefully, "Voh agar kuch din aap agar office dekh lete ..mera matlab... Jab tak papa thik nahi hote sirf tab tak."
Sameer still didn't respond. Fearing his anger Naina slowly moved towards him and placed her hand on the cables he was pretending to play with. "Sameer.. aapne kuch nahi.. company ko aapki zarurat hai, maa papa ko aapki zarurat hai is, kuch toh boliye. "
His anger flared up suddenly, "Toh yeh paiso ka natak isliye taaki tum mujhe is bkwas baat k liye raazi kar sako, hai na... Kisne bheja hai tumko yahan yeh bolne... maa ne?? ruko unse main puchta hu."
Naina held his hand and stopped him from going, "rukhiye...maa ne nahi bola hai Sander... yeh meri apni rai hai."
Sameer jerked her hand rudely ,"Toh apni rai apne pass rakho, maine pehle bhi bola tha meri personal life mein interfere mat karna. "
"konsi personal life Sameer, shadi hui hai meri aapse, " she snapped back. "aur yeh natak nahi hai, mujhe roz paiso ki zarurat padti hai, apne pati se nahi mangungi toh kise mangungi, kyu lu maa se, shadi apse hui hai meri, maa se nahi."
"Naina in baaton ko kar k tum mera time waste kar rahi ho, emotional blackmailing actually doesn't works on me, " smirked Sameer.
"Yeh emotional blackmailing nahi hai Sameer, thik hai agar aap meri zimmedari nahi utha skte toh main khud uthaungi... Mere andar ab bhi self respect bachi hai ..roz roz paise maagne se acha hai main office join krlu... kaam sambhlungi aur phir paisa lungi, kam se kam mummy ji se nazrein toh mila paaungi," said Naina angrily.
"Tum Somani textiles join nahi karogi..samjhji," Sameer commanded . "Kyu nahi join karungi, shadi se pehle bhi toh karti hi thi na, tb bhi mujhe zarurat thi naukri ki aaj bhi hai... In fact ab mera pati nahi kamata toh mujhe toh kuch krna hoga na, said Naina in a mocking tone.
Sameer's temper knew no bounds ,"shadi se pehle tum kya krti thi kya nahi mujhe usey matlab nahi, par Somani textiles tum ab join nahi krskti.. tum Rohan ki nahi meri biwi ho... aur Sameer Maheshwari ki biwi Somanis k sath kaam kare yeh mujhe manzoor nahi hai.. Jisko tum papa papa kehti ho voh Rohan k papa hai, mere nahi, mujhe unse hamdardi zaroor hai par isey zyada kuch aur nahi aur kyn sambhalu main yeh company... Jab mujhko apne so called papa ki zarurat thi tb kaha they yeh... kaha they jab mera business doob raha tha...mere nanu ka sapna toot raha tha.. main yaha rehta zarur hu... but sirf aur sirf maa aur Rohan ki kasam ki wajah se."
Listening his words Naina melted a little, "par mujhe acha nahi lgta Sameer hum already aisi halat mein bojh ki tarah.... " before she could complete Sameer interuppted "kaisa bojh aaj jo inki saari shaan o shaukat hai usme Nanu ka aur Maheshwari industries ka bahut bda yogdaan hai... warna Vivek Somani ka itna bda naam...huhuhhh.. "said Sameer mockingly. "Kya matlab aapka "? questioned Naina. " bs jitna zaruri tha bta diya tumko, isey zyada jana zaruri nahi tumhare liye...pehli aur aakhiri baar keh rha hu meri biwi Somani textiles mein job nahi karegi.. tumko paise chahiye na, bojh lgta hai na... main karunga naukari, tumhara khayal main rakhunga sab zimmedari main nibhaunga.. aur ek bete hone k naate bhi jo mere farz hai voh bhi nibhaunga par Somani textiles se mera koi nata nahi aur na hi tumhara hoga "said Sameer.
"Sameer dekhiye.. "
"bs Naina maana ek baar zindagi mein sabkuch haar chuka hu par iska matlab yeh bilkul nahi hai ki Sameer Maheshwari dobara nahi jeet skta.. Kuch waqt do main karunga naukri ,lekin agar tumko phir bhi Somanis k sath kaam krna hai toh bhool jana ki mera tumhara koi rishta bhi hai ,"saying so Sameer left the room leaving behind Naina in a dilemma.
Dilemma to choose between her husband or his family.
Sameer rested his hand on the rough paintwork that coated the door of REEVA BAR and pushed the door to enter into a comparatively dark and damp conjusted room. The smell in the air appeared familiar to him. It was of cigarette smoke mixed with stale beer and body odour.The smoke twisted in its artistic way, forming curls in the gloom. He placed himself on his regular table close to the window which gave him the view of the passing traffic. A boy of nearly 13 years of age dressed in shabby white vest and slightly torn three fourths approached him. After cleaning his table he enthusiastically asked him ," bhaiya aapka hamesha wala order laau kya? "
Sameer smiled at him and lovingly patted his head , " chotu ek tu hi samajta hai tere bhaiya ko kya chahiya , ja le aa. "
He returned with glass of specially prepared drink and plate of masala peanuts and placed it before Sameer. After about 45 minutes with already 3 drinks down he heard a familiar voice call his name, "Sameer tu yahan baitha h hum ghar se hokar aaye, waha pucha toh Vishaka mausi ne btaya ki tu ghar k alawa yahi milta, kya halat bna rakhi h apni tune? "questioned Munna.
Sameer gave them one of his depriving smiles , " kab aaye tum dono bde din bd yaad aayi meri.
"aaj hi subah aaye h, tune toh humko Rohan k bare mein btana hi zaruri nhi samjha, voh toh tehrvi k liye newspaper mein nikla toh papa ne btaya humko aur hum turant chale aaye," replied Pandit.
"Sameer tu kabtak purani baaton ki sazaa khud ko deta rahega jabki tera kasoor bhi nahi tha, tune humse bhi khud ko dur krliya, hum toh tera saaya they aur humse bhi itni behrooki, pichli baar bhi milne aye toh humse mila tak nahi tha tu... aakhir kyu kar raha hai yeh sab ? " asked Munna.
"yehi jagah mili thi tujhe peene k liye " asked Pandit . Sameer just smiled and continued his drinking spree. "hum kuch bol rahe hai sun bhi raha hai tu," asked Pandit in a loud tone enough to catch his attention.
"Dunyadari toh kya aati
Daaman seena seekh liya
Marne k they lakh bahane
Phir bhi jeena seekh liya"
"Sameer hum tujhse kuch puch rahe hai aur tujhe shayri soojh rahi hai is time " asked Munna a little annoyed with his ignorance. Smiling curtly he raised the glass...Looked through its transparent coating,held its stem between index and middle finger. This is the source,this is the sink,this is saviour ..The fine glass of drink. "yeh na hoti zindagi mein toh pta nahi kya hota , jeena seekha diya isne mujhe, log isey zeher kehte hai par mujhe toh zindagi di hai isne aur is jagah ne ," replied Sameer .
"Tujhse is mamle mein baat krna hi bekar hai par yeh toh bta hua kya tha ,ghar gaye they toh pta chala tune shadi bhi krli,hum tere dost hai, humein toh bta, ek toh tu humse phone par baat tak nahi krta, Sunaina ki galatiyon ki saza tu humko khudko aur bakiyo kab tak deta rahega Sameer. 4 saal hogye hai ,ab toh aage bd ja mere bhai, "said Munna.
"Main kisi ko koi saza nahi de raha hu aur us aurat ka naam mere samne dobara mat lena. Sunaina mera kal thi aur isey zyada kuch bhi nahi. Usko jo rasta sahi laga usne vahi chuna aur mujhe jo rasta thik laga maine voh chuna. " replied Sameer dejectedly .
"Ab btayega kya hua tha humko ya ab tere liye itne bhi mayne nahi rakhte ki jaan sake teri zindagi mein kya chal raha hai, " questioned Munna.
"aisi koi baat nahi hai mere bhai, tum dono ko pura haq hai mujhpr, bs khudse hi naraz tha toh kya milta ya baat krta tumse... " said Sameer with a depriving smile on his face.
FLASHBACK
"Mujhe kuch nahi sunana Sameer, tujhko yeh shadi toh krni padegi " commanded Vishaka. Literally shocked by her words Sameer argued back "mummy aapko andaza bhi hai aap kya keh rahi, apne chote bhai ki antim kriya puri krke aarha hu, voh bhai jo mujhpr jaan chidakta tha ,aap mujhse keh rahi hai ki main uski biwi se shadi krlu, aap hosh mein toh hai na, voh mujhe kabhi maaf nahi kar payega ."
"haan main bilkul hosh mein hu aur jo keh rahi hu sahi keh rahi hu aur Naina uski biwi nahi hone wali biwi thi, shadi nahi hui unki jo tu itna badak raha hai " replied Vishaka.
"mummy aapko khel lg raha hai kya , ki ek player out hua toh dusre player ko uski jagah bhej do, yeh zindagi bhar ka comittment h " said Sameer.
"Tujhse zyada dunya dekhi hai maine shadi kya hoti h mujhe mat seekha samjha, Sunaina teri pasand thi aur usey rishte ka kya anjam hua yeh mujhe btane ki zarurat nhi h, maine kuch sochkr hi faisla kiya h ....tune dekha nahi subah kaise uski taiji janwaro jaisa bartav kar rahi thi uske sath aur baaki sab bhi tamsha dekh rahe they, " said Vishaka.
"mummy Sunaina ki duhaiyan dena band karo, waise bhi ek baar kisi par bharosa karke dekh chuka hu na, ab phirse wahi galti nahi krni mujhko, Naina k liye hamdardi hai mujhko par iska yeh matlab toh nahi na ki main shadi karlu usey, " retorted Sameer.
Seeing his stubborn attitude Vishaka almost gave up the hope, "thik hai beta, tu nahi krna chahta toh koi baat nahi, maine usko beti maana hai, main hi ab uska dhyan rakhungi, Rohan jaha bhi hoga uski aatma bhut dukhi hogi, usne tere hisse ki sab zimmedariyan bina uff kiye nibayi ,apni pita se aur puri duniya se tere liye lada aur aaj jb usey tere sahare ki zarurat hai tu piche hat raha hai,waqt aaya hai ki tu uski amanat ka khayal rakh ske toh tu piche hat raha hai, koi baat nahi, aakhir tune saabit kar hi diya jo rishte khoon k nahi hote unka koi mehtav nahi hota."
Hearing Vishaka's harsh words Sameer broke down He could not keep up the courage he had been putting up all this while. He sobbed into her lap unceasingly, his hands clutching her saree. She held onto him in silence, rocking him slowly as his tears soaked her lap. A tiny lapse let him pull away, blinking lashes heavy with tears, before he collapsed again, his howls of misery worsening. The pain came in waves, minutes of sobbing broken apart by short pauses for recovering breaths, he cried for the first time after Rohan's death .Brick by brick, his walls came tumbling down. When he at last turned his face to Vishaka he saw a picture of grief, loss,devastation.
Both mother and son cried for few minutes, as if all hopes have been shattered "mummy main kaise Rohan ki jagah le skta hu, Naina kya sochegi, kya main kabhi acha pati bn paunga," questioned Sameer with tears in his eyes. Vishaka wiped his tears and cupped his face between both her hands," mujhe mere faisle aur tujhpr pura vishwas hai, tu ek acha pati saabit hoga, hn aaj parsistyan kuch thik nahi hai , par ek din sab thik hoga, Naina k ghrwalo se main baat karchuki hu, unko is rishte se koi aitraaz nahi hai aur jab uske ghrwale maan gaye hai toh Naina ki bhi hn hi hai, us ghar se bahar aane mein hi Naina ki bhalai hai. "
Sameer thought for a moment "maa par main ek baar Naina se baat krna chahta hu uske bd agar voh hn kahe toh mujhe koi aitraaz nahi hai. "
"thik hai Naina mere kamre mein hi hai tu jakar baat krle," replied Vishaka.
Few minutes later...
Naina was sitting lifelessly on bed lost in her own world of thoughts. Her silent weeping was worse than her screaming few years ago. Her eyes welled up with the a sadness her young years should not possess. The silence of her cry was eerie, like she had been forced to learn how to do this. What would it take to mend a soul as damaged as that and who would try? thought Sameer . He cleared his throat and gathered his courage to talk . He sat down beside ,"Naina" he spoke gently.
Oblivious to his presence she continued staring blankly at the window nearby.
He called out her name again this time she looked at him .
He fumbled with his words ,"Voh main kehna chah raha tha ki..mmm... actually.. nahi puchna chah raha tha ki... Kya tum mujhse shadi karogi? "
Naina didn't react as he had expected ,infact she didn't react at all instead behaved as if she didn't hear anything and turned her face away towards the window again.
"Naina main janta hu main Rohan ki jagah nahi le skta...aur na main lena chahta hu kabhi.. dekho tumhare gharwale jis se bhi tumhari shadi karenge voh tumse expect karega ki tum usko pyar do n all... but mere sath aisa nahi hai... hum shadi zarur karenge ..par pati patni k rishte k liye tumpar koi dabav nahi hoga kabhi bhi... main kabhi bhi Rohan ki jagah nahi lunga.. apni hadd aur maryada ka khayal rakhunga... baaki aakhiri faisla tumhara hi hoga.. jo bhi ho mummy ko bta dena... chalta hu main. "
Naina still didn't react to whatever he said " Rohan jaa chuka hai Naina, par tum zinda ho, main bde bde waadein toh nahi kar raha par agar respect se jeena chahiti ho toh yehi mauka hai warna tumhari taijj aur gharwale nahi jeene denge," saying so he walked out of the room.
"Sir bar band hone ka time hogya bill dedijiye," said Chotu bringing them all back to present. Munna paid the bill and offered to drop Sameer back home. He agreed ,three of them sat in Munna's car with Pandit driving it .
" Sameer tu khush toh hai na ?" questioned Munna. Sameer gave him a depressing smile," hn khush hu, shadi hogyi hai, kaam hai nahi, biwi jisne bharosa karke mujhpr hn kiya tha shadi k liye, aaj uski zaruratein puri krne k liye paisa nahi hai, bhut khush hu par main. "
"Sameer tu pareshan mat ho, abhi tere do yaar zinda hai, kuch na kuch kar lenge, chinta mat kr, kl Rohan ki teharvi k bd kuch sochenge, " said Munna.
"Nahi Munna, isbaar mujhein kisi ki zarurat nahi hai,main jo karunga khud karunga,Sameer Maheshwari wapis rise karega isbaar pehle se bhi zyada, mujhe sabse pehle naukri dundhni hai, " replied Sameer. Munna Pandit didn't argue further and the silently drove for the rest of the journey to home.
Back when Sameer reached his room he found Naina sleeping peacefully on her mattress near the bed. With his fumbling steps he walked up to her, careful not to wake her up, he settled down beside her. Very gently he pushed the lone strand of hair behind her ear , but Naina woke up, a little startled with this proximity, before she could say something, Sameer spoke,
"Jismein jalta hu usi aag mein jalna hai tujhe,
Uth meri jaan mere sath hi h chalna tujhe "
Naina blinked her eyes twice, not knowing how to respond, what to respond, "Naina please mujhe thoda time dena, chod kar mat jana, mujhe tumhare sath ki zarurat hai, kam se kam tum mat tukrana mujhko please Naina" saying so he passed out near her. Naina took two minutes to register what he just said ,slowly she sat up , took off his shoes and covered him with the duvet , after thinking for a while, she gently placed his head on her lap and started caressing his hair slowly and thought to herself, may be time has come to be a true "jeevansathi" to him ,may be time has snatched alot from both of them, but this time she was determined to fight the destiny with her "jeevansathi" beside her.
PS: Credit for the shayri belongs to their rightful owners.
Edited by suhaaniladki - 4 years ago
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