saat chora? shiv, nih n rudra fanfic

hi guys this is my fanfic it will be long so plz read it. This is set after antrakshish tells everyone he has killed rudra and rudra is back in the house.

I sit at the kitchen table, milling over a cold cup of coffee. The warmth of the drink subsided well over an hour ago, not that I had any intention of drinking it. I run my hands through my hair, thinking all the time of that guy I lost. He's up the stairs now. I can hear him moving round. it's clearly that he has just woken up and is showering before descending the stairs and gracing the kitchen table with his presence.

He strolls down the stairs ten minutes later, dressed in a shirt which clings to his damp body. Through the shirt I can make out all the perfect curves, though I try my hardest not to look. He throws me a quick smile and removes my coffee, replacing it with a new one. It tastes so much sweeter knowing it's from him.

"Morning Darling" he tosses my way. I can't help but smile. I feel it is my duty to admire every word he radiates to me. He pushes the cup back as he takes the toast that i laid for him on the plate and puts the jam on it and folds it into half. The smile on his face warms my heart, once again giving me that feeling of butterflies, heart and flowers.

"Morning," I return. My response sounds so useless. For a moment his eyes catch mine. Is that disappointment I see in his eyes or the regret that he is staying here?

"You look tired, aren't you sleeping?"

he asks. Surely he knows I haven't slept since he decided that we should move on and forget about each other! I nod weakly, when he told me that he loved me because he felt sorry for me and now my dead husband is back i should return to him. His smile fades as once again we find our eyes drawn to one another's. He touches my hand, stroking my thumb with his own. He slowly moves his head towards mine and kisses my cheeks as he was trying to tell me something. i love him so much i know i have never told him before and that is why he thought i am better with rudra but the truth is i am married to him and that is something that no-one can take away from me.

"Not really, perhaps I'm coming down with something"

I reply. It's false. I'm a fake. Surely he sees it? Can't he see that i am sleeping on the sofa while rudra sleeps in the room? Why can't he just say ones that he needs me and i will leave everything and be with him?

"Mmm maybe. You should take some rest and see the doctor maybe something is wrong that we will never find out i don't want anything happen to you"

Something has already happened can't he see that? i love him and here he is waiting for the paper to break all the relationships with me. i try to tell him but he thinks i am only saying it because i know he loves me.

"That'd be nice. Thanks Shivam."

he spread open his arms and I slide into them. For a moment it's exactly as it always was, him and me. I nestles my head into his chest and he kisses the top of my head. Then he pulls away and his eyes say nothing. he watches behind me and smiles as i turn around and see rudra walking up to us. He sits next to me and kisses my neck as i look at shivam for any signs. He just smiles and walks away like it was normal for him or was it?

awwww.... ur fanfic is sooo amazing!👏👏 novel worthy story shika! i can never ever write like you do!😆😆😆

thankyou for your lovely replies althoguh i don't deserve it. this means a-lot and this is for you guys leena, angel_83191 and indian 101. thankyou so much 😳

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Our embrace is too soon torn apart. I'm left with the feel of her warm touch and that bewitching scent she leaves a trail of. Then she sits back on the other side of the table and she is forced to lock her hands with her husband. I smile at her, not meaning to, but it comes naturally. She smiles back, but soon her smile fades. i can hear them talk she doesn't reply that much to him but insists on it as he kisses her neck. Sight of him really makes me feel sick. i hate antrakshish so much first he made me do something that i shouldn't have but then later i liked him as he made my path to meet Niharika, my soul mate and now he brought rudra back. Worst part is that we can't tell him she is married to me or he might leave this family again and go away.

"So how busy is it at the office at the minute?"

Dhruv asks hoping to put an end to the silence which seems to have swept over me. I look at dhurv who looks down the stars and sees Niharika and rudra talking and rudra laughing. He has tears in his eyes. i don't know why? He should be happy that he got his brother back but the way he behaves is like he is regretting it.

"Fairly busy. There's quiet lot to do but i don't know much rudra took over his side after he came back."

he brings his eyes to my face, surveying me, watching me. I feel trapped inside, lost in my mind. All I want to do is get away from this and take my wife with me but nope i am left to sacrifice.

" Shivam i know i can't say this because i have no idea what you are going through watching your wife be in someone's life and you are here alone but believe me if it helps she is only doing this because you told her to. You told her you don't love her. Just once tell her how you feel and she will come back to you because she has fallen in love with you...... and her being with rudra is just for the time he gets his memory back"

"Yer i know. But how can i tell her to come back to me because somewhere in her heart she still loves him and i have seen her love"

"If ever you need me, you know I'm there don't you?"

he says it. I smile and hug him as he leaves to go down the stairs as i am kept here watching over my wife.

i see Niharika going to the kitchen with the plates as i walk down the stairs hoping that i don't bump into rudra while i am secretly meeting his ex and my wife. i look through the door and see her washing the dishes as i go towards her and stand behind her.

"Niharika?" she turns around her flicking in my eyes as i close it. She looks at me and wipes her tears from her eyes like she is dreaming or something.

The conversation pauses there and we both just look at each other. Hoping that our silence and our eyes say all the wards that we want to say. I gaze at her, wondering what she's thinking, wondering what she's feeling. Does she still love me? Did she ever love me? If she did, does she regret doing that?

"So how are you?"

"i am fine, you?"

"better then before" no i mean worse then before i cannot believe that i said that gosh am i that stupid? She looks down her tears escaping her eyes like a rain. I remember once when i told her that i will never let the tears come to her eyes and look at me now making her cry more then anyone. I take the toast from her plate as i can see her lipstick marks on the cup that it's placed on top of her plate as she looks at me and nods her head.

"Shivam what you doing? If you want some you should have asked not eat the cold one"

"Niharika i am fine anyway it's just a toast no need"

I smile as i take a bite she is still frowning and returns to do her chores.

"There is no me and rudra. I don't really care about him, you know that right?" she says it in a whisper as i smile more. Maybe this is what i wanted to hear. I take the last toast and head myself back to the door when she calls me. i look at her as she walks up to me.

Nothing is said, she just stares at me.

"You do know that, right?" she pursues. I ignore her; i don't want to have this conversation with her but in my heart i want to know

"Shivam, tell me you know it!" she hisses forcibly.

She wrinkles her nose, a Niharika trait which shows her own discomfort.

"Why's it so important to you that I know the exact events of your relationship?" I hiss back.

I cup her face in my hands and move my lips so they are millimetres away from hers. She doesn't retreat but she doesn't take the opportunity I'm throwing her. "It just is." she whispers.

"and the way it is for me to forget all this" i say back and leave the kitchen leaving her alone

awww... this story is so sweet & emotional! great writing shika! i loved every bit of it. esp the part where shivam eats her leftover toast.😳😳 that was soo cute & sweet!😳😳 please continue soon! i like shivam & niharika even more after reading ur story.😃

thank you guys it means so much 😳

this part starts off when niharika is in her room with Rudra thinking about what happend with shivam. It is in Rudra's thoughts hope you enjoy it

She murmurs something but I can't hear it, though I've probably overstepped the mark with how close I am. Her skin feels boiling hot beneath my fingertips. It burns so much I can do little else but let go. I sigh; again I've let her go. She quickly glances round the room as if she's avoiding something, or someone.

"I'm sorry." I weakly offer an apology. She smiles, her eyes glazed, her pupils haunted. Still she says nothing. I can hear her heavy breathing though, and that's comfort enough. I close my eyes momentarily and I relive the time when her breathing was my music. I feel as though I'm the only one pushing the conversation and I know the more I push the more likely something's going to snap.

"I'm really sorry. I don't mean to hurt you. I don't want to hurt you. I want to make sure no-one ever hurts you, never ever. Never can anyone get to you because like a shield I'll be there first, i know it was wrong of me to come back after seven months and except you to forget everything and be with me, all the tears you wasted gone dry for nothing and all the problems you faced but now i am here Niharika. Your rudra is back."

I'm kneeling down at her feet, clinging to her hands, staring into her eyes. She closes her eyes briefly and tears fall to her cheeks. I bring a finger to her cheek and flick it away, stroking the more definitive contours of her face. She opens her eyes and bolts to her feet, running out of the room. I don't follow, but still that lonely feeling without her almost brings me to do just that.

What have i done? From the day i came back Niharika has been acting very different then she was before. She hardily is in the same room as me and even if she is then it feels like their is a wall between us. The love that i used to see in her eyes for me is gone. She has changed.

I creep onto the hallway, transferring my weight onto the floorboards I knew wouldn't creak and give me away. I sit myself down beside Krishna's door, resting the back of my head against his room's wall. She's crying. Each sob she takes is long and drawn, but muffled as if she's too afraid to cry openly. Perhaps that's why she retreated to Krishna's bedroom. I feel a pain of guilt lining my stomach just to know that I've caused her pain again.

It's all I seem to do. Sometimes i feel that the new guy what's his name oh yer shivam gives her more comfort to her heart then i ever did. It feels like he knows her more then i ever used to do. Whenever i see them alone i get a feeling like they were made for each other and then i feel a stab of pain thinking about my wife like that. My heart tells me the only reason she is acting like this is because she has been used to thinking i am not alive but whenever i saw her the first time she was a married women. She had all the stuff that married women should have.

She's happy, content, walking round with him, laughing, joking, and even being herself again. I come along and wreck all that bringing her back to the teary, vulnerable thing I always convert her into. I came back and she has started to be lonely. At least when i was not around she had the guy's comfort but now she is all alone again

It's all I seem to do. Bring her to misery

She begs me not to say what burns away at the inside of me. The feeling is so overwhelming I can't help but blurt it out. She's shattered.

It's all I seem to do.

Part two of this is in page two and it contains little kissing scenes so beaware.

Here's the another part as i wrote it together hope you like it

I know I shouldn't be sat outside his bedroom door. I feel as if in some way, shape or form I'm begging to be part of his life as he's made clear that he doesn't want me a part of anymore. I'm fearful. I promised him I'd never let there be an afterwards, and how wrong I was. Surely I should've realised when I made that vow, he was a lie! He just loved me because he wanted somewhere to stay and i was the victim of it. I stand to my feet and run down towards my room. Tears streak my cheeks as I run, hazing my view. I lose my balance on the cardboard floor second after i ran.
I make a desperate attempt to cling to the cabinet but instead I bend down, rolling over and smashing my head upon the table placed near his door. The door is wide open and all I can see is the wall on top of me as I close my eyes to ease the pain that I am feeling. I curse loudly and stand to my feet, placing my hand where the pain is greatest. I look at my hand and am not surprised to see blood.

"You o.k.!"

Shivam's stood towards his door that i barged into it, still dressed in his wet shirt. He opens the door fully and comes to get me and strokes my cheek with his fingers. His eyes plead with me, their rims reddened. He takes my hand and leads me into the kitchen. I sit in the same place I was sat before whilst he moistens some cotton wool. Then with a box full of things he kneels by my feet and starts cleansing my wounds from the clumsy fall.

"How did you manage to fall down?" I ask. I keep my eyes firmly on hers. Her sari falls a little away from her body and I can't help but steal a glance. She catches me looking but does nothing. Does she want me to look?

"It's entirely your fault." she whispers. I question her with my eyes and place the cotton wool on the table. We share a long gaze before she forces me to answer by placing her hand on my leg. The chemistry soars.

"You were on my mind, as usual, I was crying over you and I tripped. You'll be the death of me you will!" I smile. At least somehow i know that at least not much space as rudra but i have made some space in her heart. I can see it in her eyes, love. She comes closer to me, leaning in, giving me the perfect opportunity to see even further down her sari, though I don't look. I keep my eyes fixed on hers as she leans so close her lips are almost touching mine. She's going to kiss me! But then, " Niharika darling where are you and what was the noise?"

She moves over a little and rests a tiny kiss on my cheek. The pleasure stays for a few seconds and disappears.

"I love you." I choke. She looks at me a smile huge that covers her face as she cries. The little sobs she is used to do and she hugs me. I hug her and we sit their. I can hear Dhruv talking to rudra but we didn't dare to move in case this moment is lost. If anyone sees us like this then that cared because a wife is giving her husband a kiss on the lips as she says the word that i wanted to hear.

"Don't you dare leave me again, i love you"

I smile hoping it's not a dream but it isn't because the pain it brings to my heart makes it sense that this is not a dream but a reality. She loves me and i love her, no matter what.

She kisses my cheek again, for a longer duration of time. I feel a sharp surge of passion as she waves her fingertips over my neck and then onto my chest. She laughs at me and places her finger on my lips, keeping my quiet though she has no reason to. I'm scared.

I remove her finger from my lips, placing my lips on hers. Our tongues entwine, venturing one another. I open my eyes and her eyes are closed. I plead with her silently to open them, to give me a sign that what is happening is what she wants. She stands to her feet, locking her arms round my neck and physically dragging me to my room. I hang back but the disappointment in her eyes is evidence enough to suggest she knows what she wants.

I lift her into my arms and carry to my bedroom, our lips never leaving each others. She moans as I kick open my door and rest her down on the bed. She lies still, not actually doing or saying anything, just biting down on her bottom lip. I pause, waiting for a respond. She slides towards me and slides one hand towards my top. That's good reaction I suppose. I lay her down on the bed ending the perfect day.

Please tell me how you like it as this was my first script that containes physical love so please all you comments will be taken on board