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Pain. Hurt. Grief.. Fear.. Yes fear.. That was the heaviest feeling that weighed down my heart as I watched my brother's body lay afloat on the pool water. What had I done in my life to witness such a horrifying sight. I had failed as a brother was the first thought that crossed my mind. I had sweared that what come may, I would always put myself between my brothers and death. We were not born of the same mother but that didn't mean we couldn't love each other. I loved both his brothers to the core. Such a shock it was that I could hardly move. I felt rage. Rage against my Uncle and Aunt for failing to supress their anger while the most vulnerable family member was present amongst us. Rudra may be the youngest but then I could shield Rudra away from all that but the same could not be done for Omi. Omi had seen more than him. He knew what was happenning around him. Omi was the most vulnerable who would want to lick his wounds in private rather than making a blast of it. He never shared even to anyone even me about it and that was what that made him the most vulnerable. I felt anger course through my veins. That girl !! She must have leaked it to the media. I knew it. I should have caught her yesterday itself. I did a mistake. And now, she's gonna regret for ever being born..
Visiting Anika'a place gave me only more anger than peace. I would destroy her. I would. She almost destroyed my Omi and she won't live with it. I will make her pay for it. But now, all that mattered to me was Omi. As I thought of it, I felt another pang of anger in my brain. Why should I see Omi ?? He was so selfish.. So selfish enough to let go of everything and think only about himself. He didn't care about his brothers. He didn't care about me.. How would I tell him that eventhough being the most protective of the three, I too need a big brother in my life. He didn't understand my pain. He was so selfish. But still I couldn't help but ask Dadi about his well-being. I quietly tip-toed upstairs to check on Omi. I qas still angry on him but I wasn't selfish enough like him to let go of my love for him. I saw him sleeping peacefully. Saala kameena !! Mujhe narak dikhaake tum aaraam se so rahe ho.. But then he needed to sleep for his well-being. I put the bedcovers over him properly when Rudra entered and looked lovingly at us. As I got up to leave, I heard a weak voice.
Omi : Mujhse baat nahi karega tu ?
I wanted to reply but then I remembered that I was angry on the long-haired Oberoi. I cursed my brotherly instinct. He tried to wake up, he felt weak, I knew it... I walked out of the room scared that my reverie would break and I would go back and hug my brother to death. I walked to the kitchen to make myself some tea. He had come to the kitchen.. Why did he have to do that ?? He was selfish enough to attempt such a disastrous thing then why is he here now ?? He passed the lighter but I took no notice of it. I didn't want his help for anything. If he could be stubborn, then as a younger brother, I can be even more stubborn. He passed me the sugar bottle, but I moved ahead and took another bottle. I did not bother whether it was salt or sugar. Heck, it was salt but I didn't care. I would drink salted coffee than take help from him. He went away and came back with milk bottle but I brought a glass aldready filled with milk and made tea. I tunred back to get tea powder when I felt strong arms embrace me. I ned not turn back to see who it was. Theses arms could belong to that selfish brat only. I didn't want to melt. I wanted to be selfish to him..
Shivaay : Om.. Leave me..
Omi : Sorry Shivaay.. I am really sorry
Shivaay : Shivaay. I am really sorry..
I was already melting. I hated to see both my brothers in tears. I broke free of the hug and went ahead when I heard the softest voice..
Omi : I am really sorry Shivaay..
I turned back to see him in tears. Omi never cried. He always kept it to himself. But now he let it all out and this meant that he was in distress and deeply meant sorry. But he had hurt me..
Shivaay : Tium apne aapke baare me kya sochte ho, haan ?? Tumne socha tum kuch bhi karoge aur mei maan jaaunga ?? Itna selfish tum kaise ban sakte ho !!
Omi : I am sorry Shivaay. I am really sorry. Mei tumhe aise nahi dekh sakta. Isse acha tho mei mar hii jaata.
Shivaay : OM !!!
I had almost slapped him. Heck !! I wanted to slap him.. Who does he think he is ?? What does he think about himself !! Talking about dying.. Did he really think that I was going to let him die !! I slapped him twice, out of anger and out of perplexion..
Shivaay : Ye tum kya bol rahe ho.. Tum pagal ho gaye ho kya..
Omi had his head down and was crying, his face red. He looked like a kid. Sometimes, I feel he was the kid in the family and not Rudra. But I know he wasn't a kid. He had had grown up fast, faster than boys normally do. I felt my own tears forming in my eyes. I patted his cheek lovingly where I had slapped him.
Shivaay : Om. Agar tumhe kuch ho jaata tho mei kya karunga ?? Tumne kabhi socha kii mera aur Rudra ka kya hota agar tum chala jaata tho.. Hum dono ka bada Bhai hai tu. Tumne kabhi socha mera kya hoga. Rudra ka bada bhai hai but mera bada bhai ka kya. Tumne mere baare me bilkul nahi socha.. Bachpan me, meine tumse bohot seeka hai. Tumhe dekhke bada hua hu main. Tum kyu sochte nahi ho kii Shivaay Singh Oberoi ko b hi ek bade Bhai ki zaroorat hai..
Rudra had joined the conversation. He was happy to see both of them patching up.Shivaay held Omi's face in his hands and said.
Shivaay : Tum dono joo chaahe kar sakte ho. Mei tum dono ko nahi rokunga. But ek cheez keliye tumhe permission nahi de sakta mein. Aur vo hai marna. Chaahe jo kuch bhi ho, mei tum dono ko vo permission nahi de sakta. Tumhaari zingidi pe tumse zyaada mera hak hai and vice-versa.
Omi : Mei marna nahi chaahta. Maa ko aise dekhke mei dar gaya tha. Bhaagna chaahta tha mein. Kahi dur. Isaliye meine sleeping pills lia tha. So that mei so saku. But hadbadi me meine thoda zyaada hii le lia tha.
Shivaay : Om, tu kab samjhega. Tum akele nahi ho. Mei hum tumhare saaath. Rudra hai tumhaare saath. Hum logo se baath karo. Talk to me brother. Call karo mujhe.
Rudra : Umm.. Vaise Chote Bhaiyya hamesha phone tod dete hai. Isliye u can always talk to me. Mera phone hamesha ON me rehta hai..
Shivaay laughed, Omi gave a small smile and Rudra smiled widely..
Shivaay : Tium aur tumhaare nautanki.
Rudra : Chote Bhaiyya. Aie hii..
Shivaay : Suno.. Hum alag nahi hai. Hum teeno ek hii ansh ka teen hisse hai. Omkara, Shivaay aur Rudra. Hum teeno ek hii Bhagwaan ke naam hai aur ek hii ansh ki teen hisse hai. Our soul is noe. ALL FOR ONE AND ONE FOR ALL.. Ab give me ur word that jo kuch bhi ho jaaye, tum dono kabhi aisa nahi karoge.
Om and Rudra : Promise..
Omi : Tum bhi hume yahi vachan do..
Shivaay : I also give my word.
They shared a group hug whith occasional Rudra complaining that their names had been taken from Ajay Devgn's movies while Omi slapped him at the back of the head and Shivaay slapped him slightly on the cheek..
This OS ain't about Omi. This is my first OS on Shivaay. Yesterday's episode belonged to Omi, no doubt about that but Shivaay's turmoil must be taken into account. No1 really understood the turmoil he went through. He had seen Omi at his most vulnerable state. He knows about Omi more than anyone else did. I felt his turmoil. I felt his pain. I felt his fear. I sawa Shivaay in a new light yesterday. He was a scared brother. I just penned down my thoughts. Do comment about what u felt about Shivaay in yesterday's episode 😳
