I think I understand the background of the story. I am sure you and every logical thinking person would have written off her past had she been honest to you from the start, but she hasn't.
I don't think you are not breaking up with her because you love her, it's family pressure that you don't deserve to carry nor if you explained it to each person in their own time .. I don't think they would want you to either. It's the expectations and responsibilities we have placed on our own selves and the disappointment we feel at our luck.. that makes us stall during these times.
The care less attitude you are describing is very normal given what you have been through, the anger builds up and eventually she will be shown her worth ( and no offence she is worthless, because she is a liar). when you have your impending meltdown your family will support you and help you pick up the pieces.
I personally think it's like this world is made FOR cheaters and liars and people that use other people. it's hard to find good people .. for example your wife deserves that man who would take her back after she got married on him. and who deserves that ? only some deluded person can make excuses for that. Don't get me wrong I am all for forgiveness and not judging someone's past .. but in your case it's not her past its her current.
I do think she loves you... because these days these type of people see a good person and want to drain them from all their energy and destroy them in the process because they lack any caring for anyone other then themselves. So she doesn't love you for you.. but it's the goodness in you that she wants to own or manipulate .
The world has changed.. either our expectations are too high? or because the good ones are purposely meant to get with the shitty ones thereby rendering the next 10 years for humanity devoid of happiness.
Can someone tell ME? why is it too hard to find a girl that doesn't lie ? would always pick the right path over the wrong ? no matter how difficult the right path would be? who doesn't drink? do drugs ? manipulate and show aggressive signs of selfishness ? can treat your family the way she treats her own. A person who believes that if they do something with the right reasons then the intentions will manifest and you will get good results. .. but it might be a long hard wait. anyway I think girls and guys these days are suckers for sex ..drink. .and drugs .
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