Will you cross the skies? KriYaansh OS

Two years have passed but still a part of me resides in St Louis with my friends, with Rey. In this time period I tried my best to move on and every time I was brought back to the memories I left back long ago. A part of me still wants to be with the relations I broke up with. I not only broke the relations I broke his heart, my love's heart. He was shattered when I rejected him at my place, he cried, begged in front of me not to leave but at that time I didn't have any option. The tears fallen from his eyes broke me into million parts. I wanted to wipe them off saying I love you but wasn't having that choice with me. I left him that way to make him move out of my memories.

It's easy to move on as compared to the task of moving back to sort out the relations you left messed. For me also it took quite an amount of courage to move back to sort out my past. Finally after two years I'm moving back to India, my country, my friends, my love. I hope they too have the strength to forgive for my sin of leaving them in middle of the journey of our friendship especially Rey.

In these two years it was only Swayam who had been in constant touch with me and gave every update about my gang. When I told him I'm coming back, he was going super crazy of the excitement. But I had told him not to tell anyone about us being in touch and my return.

He kept his promise as I myself wanted to face to consequences of the mistakes I did knowingly as the situation wasn't in my favor and neither could I hurt them.

My flight landed in Mumbai, after two years I was back to my own land. It was 7:30 am, I was badly jetlagged but the excitement of meeting them took over it. Walking down to the airport lobby I took my luggage when Swayam called, "Hi Kria, where are uh? Has your flight landed? Should I come?" he asked continuous questions.

"Calm down Swayu, Yup my flight has landed and I'm in India. You don't need to come I'll take a cab and meet you in college after freshening up. Thank you for arranging the flat." I replied.

"Chal chal huh, thank you. Ok den I'll see uh in college, byee."

"Byee" I kept the phone and hired a cab to the flat arranged by Swayam. It was a small but comfortable one exactly the way I wanted, Swayam knew my choices so well. I unpacked the stuff and arranged it in the cupboard. College had only half an hour left to begin. I quickly had a bath but got confused with what to wear. "Damn, how can I wear any regular wear? I'm meeting Rey after so long, I need to look gorgeous." I took the pile of clothes trying each of them one by one.

"No this too long... this one is too short... this one is lame... this one is too exposing" I kept on blabbering till I had only 10 minutes left. When clock indicated me the time, I picked up a golden dress (her look).

I took a cab to the college. It was an amazing feeling to walk through the place where I got so much to learn with unexpected amount of love. Every moment spent there was coming in front of my eyes. A smile came on my face. The place had changed so much but still the atmosphere was same. Walking through the corridors I reached the canteen.

I entered the canteen. My friends were sitting in the same corner where I sat with them once. Taking a deep breath I walked towards them. "Hi guys" I said with a bright smile. Everyone was having a surprised expression of shock instead of happiness. "Hi Kria, how are you?" Rinni said.

"I'm gud. How are you?" I replied.

"I'm also gud." she replied, Simmi nudged her to be quiet. I understood the situation for me and for them also. "Hi Rey, kaise ho aap?" I said.

He crushed the glass in his hand in anger. "Rey" I said being worried for his hand he but luckily he was safe. He got up and left without saying a word. I tried to talk to everyone present there, but everyone left one by one being upset with my presence except Swayam. He got up to give me a long comforting hug. "So how are you?" he said. I gave a fake smile, "I'm gud, aur tum?"

"I'm also gud and super happy seeing my best friend. Sit, you had breakfast?" he asked. I moved my head in negation, "I knew it" he said and ordered sandwich with my favorite chocolate pastry. I was having breakfast when he asked, "You want something else?"

"No" I said looking down.

"Kria, I know it's not easy but you also know it very well. They won't accept you so soon it'll take time for them to understand and till then I'm there with you" he gave a sideward hug supporting me with the situation. "Thank you Swayam for everything."

Next few weeks it went exactly what Swayam had said, not so easy but I didn't lose the hope. I sat alone, ate alone, studied alone with Swayam as a silent support beside me every time. I tried to talk to them especially to Rey but couldn't erase the gap between us. They took me as an outsider, I did feel bad but they were my friends and had complete right to do this to me.

After one and half month, I (outfit) couldn't take more rudeness from his side so decided to go straight away to him and tell the whole story. "Swayam, where's Rey?"

"Common room" he said.

I walked to the common room fortunately no one was present there that moment except him. He was there sitting on one of the benches. "Rey" I called out. He was still looking the other time but after few seconds he turned. "Rey, I wanna talk to you... Please" His expressions reflected anger clearly on his face.

He walked towards me and stood in front me. I was nervous and didn't know from where to start, how to tell him my situation, my compellation. He shot deadly glare towards me and moved forward to leave. "Rey please I wanna tell you something." I tried.

"Listen you're a student here that's why very calmly I'm telling you to leave me alone" he said.

"Rey I just a need chance to explain" I said. He dropped his bag on the table with anger, "What do you wanna explain? I don't wanna know and listen anything from you, got it. You're nothing to me." His words were harsh but it couldn't stop me for what I was there. He was walking out when I said, "You're saying you're not bothered then why my presence has a deep impact on you? Why are being affected by me?"

He paused and walked towards me in anger, I walked back being scared of his anger. His eyes had grown red, he held through my shoulders and pinned me to the wall.

"Don't... just don't ever think you affect me. Two years back for your own success you used people who loved you, if you think I'll accept you back after all this then get your thoughts corrected and what do you wanna explain? Your nonsense won't make a change but still I give you few seconds." he held my arms tight causing pain.

I silently took the pain, "Rey, I didn't want to leave"

He moved closer making it difficult to speak but still I tried harder to say. His hold on me was turning more hurtful, "Jaldi"

"Rey, I never wanted to hurt you" he wrenched my hand taking it towards my back. It was hurting a lot, tears fell down from my eyes but I had to say. "Rey, that Valentine's eve I..." he left my arms. "Time is up Miss Ghai" saying this he took his bag and moved out of the common room.

After that incident I never dared to talk to him and in college now also only Swayam was my friend. I (outfit) was in locker room taking out my stuff from my locker. "Hi Kria" someone called.

"Sharon aap? So wat is it?" I tried to be polite.

She forwarded her hand, "It's for our friendship won't you be holding it?" It was an extreme surprise for me. "Sharon you wanna be friends with me?" I was still taking it in me that Sharon is giving her hand forward. "Ya, and after what Swayam told me why not?" what was she talking about I couldn't get it clearly. "About what Sharon?" she smiled, "Everything you did for us, every sacrifice you made and I'm really sorry I could understand so mujse dosti karogi?" I shook my hand with her "friends". We moved on to the bench in the locker room to talk more.

"I must say Kria you're really brave. You handled everything alone at such young age. Don't you miss your mom?"

Tears were formed in my eyes I tried to look away to clean them from my eyes, "hmm I do" but she understood, "Hey you don't need to strong in front of me. We're friends right." I hugged her tight crying silently. "Shh it's okay" she consoled me like sister. "Kria, don't ever feel alone. I'm there with you."

I moved out of the hug wiping off the tears, she held my hand. "Aahooch" I said. "Kya hua?"

"Nothing" I said.

She didn't listen and folded the sleeves of my kurta to see the wrist which was swollen, "Is this nothing? Are you crazy? Tell me how it happened, who did this?" I tried to cover up but she was smart enough to understand. "Rey?" she said. I turned my gaze to the other side, "Tell me was that Rey?" I couldn't deny the fact it was him only.

"How dare he? And you said nothing?"

"It was me who went to talk so..." I said. She was angry, "This is not a way to talk neither treat someone. I'll talk to him" I stopped her from doing this as I would create more trouble. "Kria but"

"Plz Sharon, Don't" She agreed to be quite, "Everything will be fine soon and about Rey it's for the last time he's hurt you." Sharon was right everything began to settle, soon hearts of my friends melted for me. A small step of friendship taken with hi and hello moved ahead they began talking with me to quite an extent but one piece of ice was still left to be melted. Rey still didn't spare a single glance towards me.

A week later in class I was sitting with Sharon discussing the notes when my cell beeped. It was a message from Rey, "Meet me in fire exit in 10 minutes" Sharon asked about it. I told her about the message and left to meet him.

He was already in there, "Hi"

I was nervous as well as scared to talk, "So what was it you wanted talk about?" he didn't say anything for few seconds. I too looked down waiting for him to speak something. When he didn't say anything I turned to move out.

"Baatcutter" he held out my hand. Did my ears hear right? He called me Baatcutter. "plz don't go" he said. I moved back to the stairs, "Baatcutter, I'm sorry" he said. I looked up to meet up to his eyes waiting for him to speak more. "I'm sorry for that day, I was so blind in my anger that didn't care about the pain I gave to you." He apologized. "I just wanna give us another chance so let's begin with friendship wat say?"

How could I say no to this? I had been waiting for it from so long. "Hmm we can be friends" I said calmly but inside I was jumping with happiness. He took my hand which was wrenched by him in his hand, "Does it still hurt?"

"Not at all" I said.

Each coming day was more blissful than the previous one. I had began to relive the dreams I stored somewhere in a corner of my heart of being with him. Our bond had grown stronger and it wasn't just friendship, it was more than that yet it wasn't confessed. He cared for me more than anything. I was enjoying being pampered by him.

It was evening I (her look) waited for Rey outside the college, "Booo". I screamed, he laughed out loud. "How dare you Rey?"

"You want another demo of it?" I made a face. "Acha sorry, come sit"

I sat on his bike and he rode to my flat. It began to drizzle on our way. I enjoyed the rain drops falling on me but suddenly he gave a pause to the speed of his bike, "What? Why you stopped?" I said aloud. "Your house is here." I looked in front letting out an "oh" and got down from his bike. "Bye" he smiled at me. I too smiled and began to move towards my house while walking I wondered if he loved me then why he never said. I waited for him to say something as a month was over of being together.

I turned back to see him, he was completely drenched in rain. Parking his bike aside he took few towards me, I stood my place. He came forward and encircled my waist and pulled me closer. My breaths grew uneven, "I love you, Kria" he said, my heart skipped a beat.

It began raining heavily so we moved inside my house. Did he really say or it was me who imagined those words from him? Will he say it again? Should I reply something?

I passed him the towel. He sat on my bed drying his hair, "Kria, you didn't reply?"

I took the towel from him and kept it back in cupboard. "About what Rey?" though I was aware what he was asking about but still pretended to be unaware."You want coffee?" I couldn't face him so thought of moving towards the kitchen. It had to be a dream or was it really happening.

He held my wrist and pulled with coercion that I landed upon him on my bed. Before I could release myself he came upon me, "You know well about what you have to reply?"

I looked here and there thinking what to say, he moved towards my ear and whispered "I love you".

My heart again skipped a beat. All this while I was waiting for him to express but didn't thought about my own self, what will I reply to him when he will express his love for me. Now he confessed and I'm not able to give a response. My breaths grew uneven lying under him looking away from him at the same moment. He was waiting for me to say something but I couldn't say even a word.

He kissed on my nape to bring back attention towards him. I let out moan. He grabbed my waist, kissed on my collar bone and went nibbling on my neck which made me moan again. I was just taking in the most delighted moment of my life when he came so close that his lips converged on mine. Slowly he took my lips in his kissing them softly.

He moved back to know my expressions, "Kria"

I was breathing hard when he took my name. My eyes were shut tightly, he entwined his fingers with mine and pinned my hands above my head.

When my breath went normal I opened my eyes and found him staring deeply at me. His hands still holing mine above my head that's when I gained consciousness of the intimacy and moment we were sharing. The impetus of his wait was at a decrease, "Baatcutter" he said being querulous from my unresponsive behavior. It was understandable from his eyes that he couldn't wait more for my feelings for him.

I took a deep breath and peered at him saying, "Rey, I love you"

We stared enormously at each other with fervor increasing. I blinked my eyes and before a second could split we kissed each other deliriously to erase the minute farness we had. This was just the beginning of avidity of love. After a short time we were out of our clothes placed under a single silk sheet. He kissed my throat giving the sweet pain. His touch on me wasn't smooth, I moaned, whimpered and cried silently but still I was in pleasure.

The next morning sunlight threw its rays on my face which awaked me from my slumber. I was lying upon him in his embrace.

After a long I felt like I too had a family, brother cum best friend like Swayam, Bhabi cum sister like Sharon, friends like my D3 gang and someone special like Reyaansh. It felt so soothing to be in his arms as if it was the safest place to reside in this world, away from every affliction. My unsheltered feelings had a home now. "Rey" I caressed his cheek, he didn't respond.

"Rey, wake up" I swayed my hands on his chest tapping lightly to wake him. Few minutes later he opened his eyes, "Rey don't be lazy, get up"

"If I didn't then what will you do? Leave me again overwhelmed in pain?" he said satirically.

"You still haven't forgotten about that?" I asked.

"I haven't neither I will let you forget about it" He dropped me on the bed from his chest and moved inside the washroom taking his clothes. What had happened to him early morning? Why he behaved so strange? He came out after taking some time. "Rey are you still infuriated of the fact that I left you two years ago?" I said. He didn't reply anything back, "Rey, I'm sorry for that."

He sat on my bed tying his shoe laces, "As if your sorry would matter to me, the damage has been done and the same I've returned to you." But I didn't understand what he said. I hugged him from behind, "What do mean Rey? I didn't get what you're trying to say." he removed my hands from him.

"Rey?" he just smirked back.

"You're joking right?" I tried to convince myself. "This is it, Miss Ghai. Accept it" he said smirking more.

Tears were formed in my eyes, "Then what about last night confession? And love?" I screamed. "It was nothing more than a revenge." I let my tears out of my eyes. "Why?"

"Why? Huh... I had loved you but you left me shattered and what love? My love for you saw its end the day you left. Two years ago you exceeded your limits to reach success and you expect me to accept a girl like you? I can't even tolerate your face. You wanna know why I did this? Because nothing could have tore you apart more than this. When you came back I thought my rudeness would hurt you but it didn't show an affect for long as emotions don't bother you. You took everyone from my gang on your side by acting sweet, leaving me alone. So this is what you get in return, a sweet revenge from my side." He said and left banging the door.

Five days had passed still she didn't attend college, and how could she even face anyone after what I did to her. I returned her exactly the same vexation what I had been through because of her. In these two years I thought how a girl can do this to the heart hacker of million girls.

I unlocked my locker to take out the stuff, "Hey wassup brother?" Swayam said from behind.

"Hey bro" I gave a hug.

"Rey by the way where is Kria? It's been five days she is missing from college." What was the need to take her name I said in my mind, "How would I know where is she? And I don't care." He couldn't agree with what I said, "Hey what you mean you don't know? You guys were together, hand in hand since a month and suddenly you're saying you don't care."

"I never cared, it was just a part of revenge" I said.

"What revenge?" he said being concerned, I told him everything including what I did to her. "Rey, do you even realize what have you done?"

"Oh come on dude, she broke my heart and I had a one night stand with her for my revenge. What's the big deal in that?" He punched on my face, "What an animal you've turned into? You aren't able to see your own mistake. She left because her mom wanted her to so and she broke your heart so that you could move on, you fool. After few months her mom died in a car accident leaving her all alone. In these two years she found herself to be responsible for your breakdown so she left her scholarship in London Dance School to come back for your apology. She has suffered a lot in her life and after what you did she would have ripped her into pieces."

I fell on the floor hearing his words, she did so much for me and what I gave her in return. "You're right Swayam! How could I? She left her everything just for me and came back for my apology, to be with me. What an animal I'm" I said, my thoughts pondered over my misdeed with her.

"I need to go" Taking my car keys I hastily drove towards her house.

I banged the door of her house for quite long but she didn't open. Anxiety ran through my inner self, would she be fine? What if she would have left?

"Kria open the door, it's me Reyaansh" I thwacked the door, "Kria plz open the door once, plz" I kept on detonating the door longing for her to open it for quite some time but she didn't turn up. I was feeling unsettled thinking about why isn't she opening. At last my forbearance broke and, I climbed inside through the window of her house.

I gave a sigh of relief seeing her, she was lying on her bed with closed eyes. Taking steps forward I went to her and sat on her bed. "Kria" I took her name with love but she didn't say anything. Placing her hand between mine, I kissed her cheek.

"Kria, Your anger is fair but plz at least open your eyes."

But no response from her side, I shook her several times. She didn't wake up and I wondered what had happened to her? Why isn't she giving a response? I took her other hand in mine which held an empty of sleeping pills. "Damnnn"

I rushed her to the hospital informing the gang. She was in ICU, Swayam and I paced between the corridors while Sharon sat on the bench controlling her tears. I gave her a fade smile to which she glared at me in annoyance then turned to the other direction. Sharon was too hurt by my deed as she had never expected such a low thing from me. I was the culprit for all the ruination, just for my own avengement I dragged Kria to this position where she is fighting for her breath. I'm responsible for her this state. Tears in Sharon's eyes, fret on Swayam's face, tenseness in our gang of losing Kria is all because of me.

Doctor came out of the room where she was kept, "How's she? Is she alright?" Sharon asked.

"We can't say anything about her right now she is still critical. I don't wanna give any false hope, her survival is difficult" doctor announced. "We are waiting for her consciousness, till tomorrow morning if she doesn't respond to the medication then"

"Then what doctor?" Swayam said.

"Then her heart would begin sinking due to the pills leading to her death." Saying this doctor left. His words rang in my ears. I decided to stay with her overnight, "Guys you all can leave for home, I'll stay with Kria tonight." I said.

"No ways! The condition you made of her wasn't that enough for you?" Sharon screamed. "I know Sharon and I realize my mistake, plz let me stay with her." I pleaded, Kria was like a sister to her and this behavior from Sharon was obvious. "I won't allow you to be with my sister at any cost." She said aloud. "Stop it guys, it's a hospital. Rey you can stay with Kria" Swayam said but Sharon didn't agree, "Swayam, How can you allow him?" Swayam did understand my guilt so he supported my decision of staying. "Sharon plz" after a lot of explaining she agreed.

I walked inside the ICU taking a seat next to her, time passed hour after hour but she didn't open her eyes. Whole night I looked upon her hoping that she would wake but she didn't, seeing Kria in this condition penetrated my heart.

The morning was here, I still focused on her eyes waiting for her to open them.

A slight motion took place in her eyes, slowly she opened them. I called out for doctor then a nurse went to call. We stared each other briefly, my eyes were swollen due to tears but tears were formed in her eyes too. She took off her oxygen mask, "What are you doing? Don't remove it." I said.

"Aren't you happy? Look I'm in pain" she said.

Happy! Huh after knowing reality I wasn't able to face my own self. "Kria I know I can't be called a human after what I did but" she didn't let me complete. "Rey I'm not angry with you, just a bit scared while leaving you all." I kissed her hands caressing her face. "Plz don't say that, you aren't going anywhere leaving me here... Why didn't you tell me before?"

"As if I never tried to tell and if would have told you then would you have believed me? Now it's too late I have to go." She said.

I bent down and hugged her tight regretting on my mistake, "Plz don't go, and I promise I won't hurt you again." She gently stroked my back. "Shh dont cry... Rey plz don't cry for me. The heart hacker of million hearts is crying for a girl? Your reputation would flush down the gutter wo kya kehte hain aapki language main, rep ki to jack lag jayegi." I smiled between my tears, not being able to believe in her tactics. She is in tremendous pain but still trying to make me laugh, who only made her suffer.

Her breaths grew uneven making it difficult for her to breathe. It put back her oxygen mask meanwhile Sharon and Swayam were also there. "Guys she's sinking" They left to call the doctor, I rubbed her hands while her eyes closed. "Kria" I called her several times. "Kria, I know you're kidding... Plz don't do this to me... plz open your eyes."

The doctor came and examined her pulse but after few seconds he began switching off all the machines, "What are you doing doctor? She'll die if you switched off the machines" I said.

Sharon fell on the chair next to the bed, "You killed her."

"Kria... Hey baatcutter plz don't joke with me... Its killing me inside plz wake up... Don't close your eyes forever." I pleaded hugging her.

She was gone and this time forever, the saddest part was because of me. I went blind for revenge to such an extent that it killed her. What she left behind was only regret for me. I hugged the frame tight which had her photograph regretting. "Kria please come back"

I cried in my room lying on bed, "Rey... Rey beta" Kria's Masi came to my room. She caressed my forehead. I hugged her crying more hard. "Masi plz tell her come back... I will agree with everything she says but just tell her to be back. You know she never liked me in beard and grown hair, I promise I'll shave regularly and my haircut would be of her choice... just tell to come back."

She consoled me giving hopes which I also knew won't ever come true, I slept in her laps listening to stories of Kria's childhood.

Next morning Swayam and Sharon were there for breakfast. Sharon pressed her hand on mine giving a smile, she forgave me but I wasn't able to forgive myself. "Good morning" Masi said getting the breakfast.

"Good morning Masi... What's in breakfast?" She asked chirpily.

"Bhurji pau, Kria's favorite dish" Sharon instantly forwarded her plate. "It tastes yummy Masi" She was just gulping down one bite after another anticipating I would eat. "Arrey for whom I made he didn't even had a bite." Masi got up to serve on my plate but I was in no mood to have something. I kept my plate upside down and left from there.

Weeks passed but I wasn't able to forget her. I was breathing but my life was stuck somewhere in past with her. The reminiscence of her always followed me like a silhouette. I stood at the edge of Bandra-Worli sea link when Swayam called, "Hey dude where are you? I'm at your place."

"I can't live without her"

"Rey, What are you saying? Just tell me where you are?" he said in panicked voice. "Swayam, hum apni zindagi main bahut se lagon ke shukraguzar hote hain par mohabbat sirf ek se hi hoti hai aur wo na rahe to humara rehna asaan nahi rehta. I'll always be thankful to you and Sharon to support me during the worst days of my life but it's not easy to live without her."

"Rey, plz don't do anything wrong to yourself? Tell me where you are, I'm coming... Rey are you listening." He said but I kept the phone.

I survived recalling her eyes which had formidable love for me, her laughter which was more pure than music but these weren't enough to keep my body and soul together. The memories spent with her came in front of my eyes one after another. Golden light of sunrise fell on my face, remembering her face I jumped down.

It felt so soothing down there in water. I saw her (outfit) floating towards me in white like an angel. She stood right in front me. I touched her cheek to feel her presence, moving closer I placed my lips on her.

"Coward fool" She said and smiled.

I took her in my embrace rising towards the white rays, never to be apart again from her.