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This OS is written in the form of journal entries that Ranveer supposedly kept during the three day camping trip that turned his life around
Day 1
10:00 am
The camping trip started on a bad note with my girlfriend refusing to acknowledge me. After she saw Panchi at my house yesterday night, she lost all sense of reason. To think, here was a bright intelligent girl falling into the age old trap of suspicion and insecurity. Panchi is my best friend, my childhood buddy and honestly I don't think I can survive without her. Why doesn't she understand that I feel comfortable with Panchi? Thank god Panchi understands me.
2:00 pm
Honestly, my girlfriend has lost her mind. See, it's not like I don't love her. I do. She really is going overboard with the Panchi hate. We have always been like this. Ever since we were kids. We would play around, that's us. These are our memories. I kind of understand why she gets insecure, these moments with Panchi they are very exclusive. Nobody can replace Panchi in my life. I wish she would understand. She is just making us unhappy. I hate to see Panchi unhappy. I'm just glad Panchi understands.
8:00 pm
I patched up with my girl friend. At last!! Honestly I was getting tired of our fights. She was really worried when we were gone for hours though. Poor thing. You know, I wasn't too concerned until I reached the camp back. I mean come on, the jeep tyre got stuck, what can I do about that? Panchi, she is a sport though. If not for her, I don't think getting that four wheeler unstuck would've been possible. Also, with her around,even trouble seems fun. When my girl friend was crying I don't know why I felt terrible for Panchi. I wish I could just go and comfort her, but thankfully Panchi understands.
11:00 pm
Piddi and his dangerous ideas. I chose dare in a game of truth and dare because well, last thing I want is for my girl friend to ask me - so if you have to choose between Panchi and me who would you choose? Do you love Panchi? Etc etc. Her brain has been on an overdrive lately. Though I am not quite sure, if its entirely her fault anymore. Like see, my dare was to dance with Panchi. She would dance standing on my foot. Not something we hadn't done before. Then they played bin tere. That song totally messed up my mind I think. You know its Panchi's favorite song and everything about it reminds me of her. I was reminded of the days she spent away from me when she had gone off to Delhi. It just totally made me want to never look away. I am not making excuses trust me. It's just that I don't know what came over me while dancing with Panchi. We were dancing happily when she decided to punch me like she usually does. I just pulled her close. I have no idea why, just something I did on an impulse. It was nearly catastrophic. We kept staring into each other's eyes. I felt such attraction towards her at that moment. It was like the years that we had known each other had meant nothing. How could I have not seen earlier what I saw now? If she hadn't turned away at the right moment I am pretty sure I would've kissed her. Man, I almost screwed up. Thankfully I made up for it immediately, I think because my girl friend was fine enough to ask me for a walk. I hope Panchi is not too disturbed with what happened between us while dancing. I'm sure she won't be, Panchi understands.
Day 2
10:00
Screwed up. That's how the morning was. My girl friend was feeding me breakfast, she can cook, that I give her. However, the minute she spots Panchi, she starts force feeding me. Panchi is never looking for a fight so she tries to ignore but I feel her eyes on me. There is not much I can do, I'm sure Panchi understands.
Long break
11:00 pm
Messed up. My brain is all messed up. The day was going on just fine and the at night Piddi gets the urge to send us on a wild goose chase . He saw a ghost apparently. It's a forest for god's sake what good would it do us to go looking for a ghost in the middle of the night? It felt like we were walking to offer ourselves to the animals as dinner. All this seems like a blur now. I only remember getting separated from Piddi and my girl friend because I took Panchi by hand as we ran when we thought we heard something.
It may not make sense to others that I wasn't holding my girl friend's hand. The truth is, I wasn't thinking. I just did what came naturally to me. To hold Panchi's hand as we sought our way back. Old habits die hard.
I was actually glad that she was with me. I would've been very worried if I was with my girl friend separated from Panchi. I know it sounds messed up but that is how it is.
Panchi. What can I say? She is the brave one among the two of us. Smarter too. I didn't know she could climb trees. Then that is there, my Moti is always surprising me. I did scare her with the animal sounds on my phone but the sweetheart that she is, she was worried for me!
Like a dream, we found a place to stay. Right in the middle of the jungle. Imagine our luck. Then things started getting out of control. The house was owned by an aunty who looked like a fortune teller. She took one look at us and asked if we were boy friend/girl friend. An easy assumption to make seeing how close we are. Frankly it wasn't the most unusual question put to us. Having answered these questions hundreds of times, we had come around to having standard answers for them. No we are not lovers. No we are only friends. Childhood buddies hence the deep friendship. Etc etc.
She however kept saying the weirdest of things. First she said we looked like a couple in love. Then she said we were meant to be. Then she insisted that she could read our faces and it said we were meant to be together and she believed that everything had its time and ours was about to come very stortly.
Honestly it was all very disturbing.
She had given us herbal sherbets to keep us warm but it had gotten us intoxicated. Panchi was completely high. She kept asking me if I were her soulmate. Why I cared for her like a boyfriend. Before declaring us as best friends. Oh, Thank you for that confirmation Panchi, what would I do without your declarations?
I washed my face to clear my head. Seriously though, my mind was a mess. I kept thinking of everything that happened between Panchi and me . Well not everything obviously because that would be like recounting almost my whole life. Just these few moments with her I spent with her. It suddenly occurred to me that we did behave a lot like couples did. We hugged and kissed and flirted with each other but it was always in good spirits. However, something had changed. I could feel it. It was bothering me.
When I walked back in, Panchi held me tightly asking me never to leave her. I promised her I never would and meant it. She was not in her senses but I was in mine, yet I could totally understand her state of mind. Her leaving me and going was unthinkable for me. I was not about to leave her either.
I thought I could finally catch some sleep when I put Panchi to sleep on the bed and went to lie down on the mat. This was when everything got messed up all over again. She came to lie down besides me still half asleep. I extended my hand and let her rest her head on it. The thoughts that were bothering me came flying back. We were meant to be my brain repeated to me in the voice of the fortune teller aunty. I looked at Panchi's innocent face, asleep,completely lost in dreams - I didn't feel afraid instead I felt myself agreeing. If the concept of soulmates had any truth to it, Panchi would be the other half of my soul. She complemented me in every way. We fit together perfectly like two different puzzle pieces. I curled my arms around her. If I told her what I felt, Panchi would understand.
Day 3
8:00
Turmoil. The whole night with Panchi lying next to me happily asleep might I add, I didn't catch a wink of sleep. I loved this girl lying next to me that I knew. There is a big but that follows that sentence though. I always thought I loved Panchi as my best friend. We could never be in love , it was that unshakable faith I had based our relationship on. Suddenly it felt shaken. Everything seemed to be coming apart. We were attracted to each other, I could feel it. Since we have always been such good friends it made sense for us to not realize it all the time but it was there that attraction. Even I, who is particularly dense when it comes to such things, couldn't miss it. It was disturbing honestly. I can't imagine my life without Panchi but I have a girlfriend. I can't just give up on her. Did I love Panchi like that? Was the aunty right ? What next? Would Panchi understand my dilemma?
8:30 am
I rudely woke up Panchi and walked away , leaving her confused. What was I to do? My mind was so muddled up torn between all my thoughts of Panchi and my girlfriend. Let's hope things get fine once we reach the camp. And Panchi? She will understand.
9:00 am
Sigh! All kinda of thoughts were running through my mind and almost every bit of it was about Panchi and me. It was disturbing, what was wrong with me? As if on cue, Panchi decides to ask me if she hadn't let me sleep. O Panchi Panchi, you got that spot on my moti. You didn't let me sleep. You, thoughts of you and me. I pushed her aside roughly when she tried to ask me. Then there she was on the ground, hurt. My heart!!! How could I hurt her? Then I was on my knees trying to soothe the wound. The attraction though was unmissable, pronounced and obvious. We were actually stealing glances at each other! When did we come to this? I think I may have wanted to kiss her then. Don't even ask me why. Even if I had, Panchi wouldn't be mad because she knows me. She understands.
2:00 pm
Life changing. What just happened ? I am still a complete mess. Only in a matter of few hours I nearly died, I kissed Panchi and my girlfriend hates me. Well that kind of stuff is what you call life changing right?
So first things first, how I nearly died . I felt into quicksand. Yeah that bad. Then Panchi rescued me. Simple as that. Honestly, I was sinking and seeking her help. I just knew she would help me somehow , like she always does. After much struggle I was out of the quick sand. I can't believe, I had nearly died. Panchi. Panchi, she saved me yet again. I could trust her with my life. she had saved me. Again.
Then I looked at her crying and cursing me for not taking care of myself. I did the only thing I felt like doing. I kissed her. Then I looked at her again. I felt not even a twinge of regret. I kissed her again and again, she responded with equal intensity. I had never felt so complete in my life. It felt perfect. Kissing Panchi felt like if this was the last thing I did, I would die happy.
Then the bomb dropped. I saw My girlfriend and Piddi watching us in shock. This is what people mean when they say the shit just hit the fan. My girlfriend who always suspected that Panchi and I had feelings for each other had seen us kiss. Ugh. Like seriously? Did she have to see it. I feel so miserable. I also feel like a loser, a lying cheating manipulative boyfriend . She didn't deserve that from me. I would understand if she hates me but I really have to apologize and set things right. This was just wrong !
We were leaving the camp. There was no way we could carry on like nothing happened after so much had in fact happened.
I am ignoring Panchi, but I'm sure she will understand.
This OS is my idea of a journal that Ranveer kept during the three day camping trip that turned his life around.
Day 1
10:00 am
The camping trip started on a bad note with my girlfriend refusing to acknowledge me. After she saw Panchi at my house yesterday night, she lost all sense of reason. To think, here was a bright intelligent girl falling into the age old trap of suspicion and insecurity. Panchi is my best friend, my childhood buddy and honestly I don't think I can survive without her. Why doesn't she understand that I feel comfortable with Panchi? Thank god Panchi understands me.
2:00 pm
Honestly, my girlfriend has lost her mind. See, it's not like I don't love her. I do. She really is going overboard with the Panchi hate. We have always been like this. Ever since we were kids. We would play around, that's us. These are our memories. I kind of understand why she gets insecure, these moments with Panchi they are very exclusive. Nobody can replace Panchi in my life. I wish she would understand. She is just making us unhappy. I hate to see Panchi unhappy. I'm just glad Panchi understands.
8:00 pm
I patched up with my girl friend. At last!! Honestly I was getting tired of our fights. She was really worried when we were gone for hours though. Poor thing. You know, I wasn't too concerned until I reached the camp back. I mean come on, the jeep tyre got stuck, what can I do about that? Panchi, she is a sport though. If not for her, I don't think getting that four wheeler unstuck would've been possible. Also, with her around,even trouble seems fun. When my girl friend was crying I don't know why I felt terrible for Panchi. I wish I could just go and comfort her, but thankfully Panchi understands.
11:00 pm
Piddi and his dangerous ideas. I chose dare in a game of truth and dare because well, last thing I want is for my girl friend to ask me - so if you have to choose between Panchi and me who would you choose? Do you love Panchi? Etc etc. Her brain has been on an overdrive lately. Though I am not quite sure, if its entirely her fault anymore. Like see, my dare was to dance with Panchi. She would dance standing on my foot. Not something we hadn't done before. Then they played bin tere. That song totally messed up my mind I think. You know its Panchi's favorite song and everything about it reminds me of her. I was reminded of the days she spent away from me when she had gone off to Delhi. It just totally made me want to never look away. I am not making excuses trust me. It's just that I don't know what came over me while dancing with Panchi. We were dancing happily when she decided to punch me like she usually does. I just pulled her close. I have no idea why, just something I did on an impulse. It was nearly catastrophic. We kept staring into each other's eyes. I felt such attraction towards her at that moment. It was like the years that we had known each other had meant nothing. How could I have not seen earlier what I saw now? If she hadn't turned away at the right moment I am pretty sure I would've kissed her. Man, I almost screwed up. Thankfully I made up for it immediately, I think because my girl friend was fine enough to ask me for a walk. I hope Panchi is not too disturbed with what happened between us while dancing. I'm sure she won't be, Panchi understands.
Day 2
10:00
Screwed up. That's how the morning was. My girl friend was feeding me breakfast, she can cook, that I give her. However, the minute she spots Panchi, she starts force feeding me. Panchi is never looking for a fight so she tries to ignore but I feel her eyes on me. There is not much I can do, I'm sure Panchi understands.
Long break
11:00 pm
Messed up. My brain is all messed up. The day was going on just fine and the at night Piddi gets the urge to send us on a wild goose chase . He saw a ghost apparently. It's a forest for god's sake what good would it do us to go looking for a ghost in the middle of the night? It felt like we were walking to offer ourselves to the animals as dinner. All this seems like a blur now. I only remember getting separated from Piddi and my girl friend because I took Panchi by hand as we ran when we thought we heard something.
It may not make sense to others that I wasn't holding my girl friend's hand. The truth is, I wasn't thinking. I just did what came naturally to me. To hold Panchi's hand as we sought our way back. Old habits die hard.
I was actually glad that she was with me. I would've been very worried if I was with my girl friend separated from Panchi. I know it sounds messed up but that is how it is.
Panchi. What can I say? She is the brave one among the two of us. Smarter too. I didn't know she could climb trees. Then that is there, my Moti is always surprising me. I did scare her with the animal sounds on my phone but the sweetheart that she is, she was worried for me!
Like a dream, we found a place to stay. Right in the middle of the jungle. Imagine our luck. Then things started getting out of control. The house was owned by an aunty who looked like a fortune teller. She took one look at us and asked if we were boy friend/girl friend. An easy assumption to make seeing how close we are. Frankly it wasn't the most unusual question put to us. Having answered these questions hundreds of times, we had come around to having standard answers for them. No we are not lovers. No we are only friends. Childhood buddies hence the deep friendship. Etc etc.
She however kept saying the weirdest of things. First she said we looked like a couple in love. Then she said we were meant to be. Then she insisted that she could read our faces and it said we were meant to be together and she believed that everything had its time and ours was about to come very stortly.
Honestly it was all very disturbing.
She had given us herbal sherbets to keep us warm but it had gotten us intoxicated. Panchi was completely high. She kept asking me if I were her soulmate. Why I cared for her like a boyfriend. Before declaring us as best friends. Oh, Thank you for that confirmation Panchi, what would I do without your declarations?
I washed my face to clear my head. Seriously though, my mind was a mess. I kept thinking of everything that happened between Panchi and me . Well not everything obviously because that would be like recounting almost my whole life. Just these few moments with her I spent with her. It suddenly occurred to me that we did behave a lot like couples did. We hugged and kissed and flirted with each other but it was always in good spirits. However, something had changed. I could feel it. It was bothering me.
When I walked back in, Panchi held me tightly asking me never to leave her. I promised her I never would and meant it. She was not in her senses but I was in mine, yet I could totally understand her state of mind. Her leaving me and going was unthinkable for me. I was not about to leave her either.
I thought I could finally catch some sleep when I put Panchi to sleep on the bed and went to lie down on the mat. This was when everything got messed up all over again. She came to lie down besides me still half asleep. I extended my hand and let her rest her head on it. The thoughts that were bothering me came flying back. We were meant to be my brain repeated to me in the voice of the fortune teller aunty. I looked at Panchi's innocent face, asleep,completely lost in dreams - I didn't feel afraid instead I felt myself agreeing. If the concept of soulmates had any truth to it, Panchi would be the other half of my soul. She complemented me in every way. We fit together perfectly like two different puzzle pieces. I curled my arms around her. If I told her what I felt, Panchi would understand.
Day 3
8:00
Turmoil. The whole night with Panchi lying next to me happily asleep might I add, I didn't catch a wink of sleep. I loved this girl lying next to me that I knew. There is a big but that follows that sentence though. I always thought I loved Panchi as my best friend. We could never be in love , it was that unshakable faith I had based our relationship on. Suddenly it felt shaken. Everything seemed to be coming apart. We were attracted to each other, I could feel it. Since we have always been such good friends it made sense for us to not realize it all the time but it was there that attraction. Even I, who is particularly dense when it comes to such things, couldn't miss it. It was disturbing honestly. I can't imagine my life without Panchi but I have a girlfriend. I can't just give up on her. Did I love Panchi like that? Was the aunty right ? What next? Would Panchi understand my dilemma?
8:30 am
I rudely woke up Panchi and walked away , leaving her confused. What was I to do? My mind was so muddled up torn between all my thoughts of Panchi and my girlfriend. Let's hope things get fine once we reach the camp. And Panchi? She will understand.
9:00 am
Sigh! All kinda of thoughts were running through my mind and almost every bit of it was about Panchi and me. It was disturbing, what was wrong with me? As if on cue, Panchi decides to ask me if she hadn't let me sleep. O Panchi Panchi, you got that spot on my moti. You didn't let me sleep. You, thoughts of you and me. I pushed her aside roughly when she tried to ask me. Then there she was on the ground, hurt. My heart!!! How could I hurt her? Then I was on my knees trying to soothe the wound. The attraction though was unmissable, pronounced and obvious. We were actually stealing glances at each other! When did we come to this? I think I may have wanted to kiss her then. Don't even ask me why. Even if I had, Panchi wouldn't be mad because she knows me. She understands.
2:00 pm
Life changing. What just happened ? I am still a complete mess. Only in a matter of few hours I nearly died, I kissed Panchi and my girlfriend hates me. Well that kind of stuff is what you call life changing right?
So first things first, how I nearly died . I felt into quicksand. Yeah that bad. Then Panchi rescued me. Simple as that. Honestly, I was sinking and seeking her help. I just knew she would help me somehow , like she always does. After much struggle I was out of the quick sand. I can't believe, I had nearly died. Panchi. Panchi, she saved me yet again. I could trust her with my life. she had saved me. Again.
Then I looked at her crying and cursing me for not taking care of myself. I did the only thing I felt like doing. I kissed her. Then I looked at her again. I felt not even a twinge of regret. I kissed her again and again, she responded with equal intensity. I had never felt so complete in my life. It felt perfect. Kissing Panchi felt like if this was the last thing I did, I would die happy.
Then the bomb dropped. I saw My girlfriend and Piddi watching us in shock. This is what people mean when they say the shit just hit the fan. My girlfriend who always suspected that Panchi and I had feelings for each other had seen us kiss. Ugh. Like seriously? Did she have to see it. I feel so miserable. I also feel like a loser, a lying cheating manipulative boyfriend . She didn't deserve that from me. I would understand if she hates me but I really have to apologize and set things right. This was just wrong !
We were leaving the camp. There was no way we could carry on like nothing happened after so much had in fact happened.
I am ignoring Panchi, but I'm sure she will understand.
This OS is my idea of a journal that Ranveer kept during the three day camping trip that turned his life around.
