too much for hoping, the thoughts of a broken queen

hehe, im literally laughing at myself right now
lol, me and my hopes !!
well, my mum always tells me, my friends always tell me,
REALITY MEIN JEENA SEEKHO
well, turns out, unki baat maan leni chahiye thi
looks like what I wished for can never be true

I sorta knew, ki so much of HOPE and OPTIMISM,
im gonna be broken when I fall

a tiny part of me said, IF YOU FALL, YOU FALL HARD.
and itna hope rakhne par kya mila??
dude, I fell face first,
WE fell face first

can you imagine my condition? no
cuz you feel it
you feel the same, and I know it.

I trusted sidhant, and a part of me is glad ki he's doing what makes him happy.
he's doing whats good for him,
I for once know, that my unconditional support is always gonna be with him

but im sorry to say, I am disappointed in him too.
he chose SOMETHING ELSE over HIS FANS.
and that something else ? something big? being jdj ???

god, yes I love that show.
but no. I wont choose to watch it over something I love more.
I never thought sid would do it
but he did, and im broken.

my trust my hope and me ,
all of it is breaking apart.
im sad and hurting.

what pains the most is
IM HELPLESS.

when I have been in pain, it was always something I could finish
get over it
move on
but not this time'
this once, its gonna be hard.

*scoff* hard, will be an understatement.
lol. this is so funny
I am going berserk you see

totally mental.

GOSH EVERYTHING REMINDS ME OF HIM AND HE DOSENT KNOW ABOUT IT
IT SO FREAKING HURTS RIGHT NOW
I LOOK ANYWHERE AND I GET FLASHBACKS.

it is so difficult.

oh and yes.
I, QUEEN, HEREBY SWEAR, NEVER EVER TO WATCH ANY DAILY SOAP TYPE SHOW AFETR TEI, (sid's exit)
NEVER TO GET ATTCHED TO ANY ACTOR SO MUCH AGAIN
NEVER TO CRY TEARS OVER SOMEONE WHO WONT CARE.

lol yes, im mad, yes im laughing at my sick life and everybody else.
its just so agonizing you know
im numb
gone,

well, you see, I was hopeful, so DAMN HOPEFUL !!!
I trusted him not to leave
to think of US !!
but he didn't.

don't get me wrong,
his life his happiness and his decisions.

what I had was trust. trust on someone who broke it back.

I still love that guy, he is an angel, and a great human/

but im kinda mad right now.
im mad at not anybody else but me
for hoping
for trusting
for getting attached
for dreaming
for loving

I kinda feel sorry right now.
I feel like watching the show for jas and Zain,
but I know I would never be able to.

im sure they will introduce a new kunj, and it would be hell difficult for me to see someone in sidhant's place.

I hate everything right now.
and yes, once they show ki its sid's last epi as kunj, I leave the show.
last epi of mine will be last epi of kunj.

I am still coming to the forum though
trying to atleast.
I will keep pakaing you with my stupid talks and all,

I love you guys loads, soo much folks that you don't know.
well, lemme tell you a secret
this week has been hell difficult for me,
you know, I have been through hell.
nobody in my life understood me
my family and friends literally told me that it was wrong.
I ate little, focused little, and talked little.

but I hoped

well, to the topic, while life was hell I got support from you all,
you lovely people, who wrote gorgeous stories, and made wonderful posts,
you people, who made me smile now and then

you guys kept me going when I had stopped,
so here is a big hug for you*opens arms wide and hugs ther person reading this.*
heres a swarm of sakshi special queen kissies for all the lovelies*blows infinite kisses*
and heres a genuine thanks to all.

shout out to all the silent members too, who cared enough to cope up with me I love you folks too.
and a sorry to all of those, who kept their hope up, cuz of me or not.

I feel you guys, I know what you're going through
and I love you guys a lot.

hasta la vista !!
love you and keep in touch

forum chodne walo, tumko bhi bol rahi hu,
keep in touch with the queen, please.
silent members, tum log bhi, though I don't know you, and you might not know me, but I still love you and better make an account and be friedns with all of these beautiful humans here

before its too late.

love
sakshi

🤗

Originally posted by: ..queen..

hehe, im literally laughing at myself right now
lol, me and my hopes !!
well, my mum always told me, my friends always tell me,
REALITY MEIN JEENA SEEKHO
well, turns out, unki baat maan leni chahiye thi
looks like what I wished for can never be true

I sorta knew, ki so much of HOPE and OPTIMISM,
im gonna be broken when I fall

a tiny part of me said, IF YOU FALL, YOU FALL HARD.
and itna hope rakhne par kya mila??
dude, I fell face first,
WE fell face first

can you imagine my condition? no
cuz you feel it
you feel the same, and I know it.

I trusted sidhant, and a part of me is glad ki he's doing what makes him happy.
he's doing whats good for him,
I for once know, that my unconditional support is always gonna be with him

but im sorry to say, I am disappointed in him too.
he chose SOMETHING ELSE over HIS FANS.
and that something else ? something big? being jdj ???

god, yes I love that show.
but no. I wont choose to watch it over something I love more.
I never thought sid would do it
but he did, and im broken.

my trust my hope and me ,
all of it is breaking apart.
im sad and hurting.

what pains the most is
IM HELPLESS.

when I have been in pain, it was always something I could finish
get over it
move on
but not this time'
this once, its gonna be hard.

*scoff* hard, will be an understatement.
lol. this is so funny
I am going berserk you see

totally mental.

GOSH EVERYTHING REMINDS ME OF HIM AND HE DOSENT KNOW ABOUT IT
IT SO FREAKING HURTS RIGHT NOW
I LOOK ANYWHERE AND I GET FLASHBACKS.

it is so difficult.

oh and yes.
I, QUEEN, HEREBY SWEAR, NEVER EVER TO WATCH ANY DAILY SOAP TYPE SHOW AFETR TEI, (sid's exit)
NEVER TO GET ATTCHED TO ANY ACTOR SO MUCH AGAIN
NEVER TO CRY TEARS OVER SOMEONE WHO WONT CARE.

lol yes, im mad, yes im laughing at my sick life and everybody else.
its just so agonizing you know
im numb
gone,

well, you see, I was hopeful, so DAMN HOPEFUL !!!
I trusted him not to leave
to think of US !!
but he didn't.

don't get me wrong,
his life his happiness and his decisions.

what I had was trust. trust on someone who broke it back.

I still love that guy, he is an angel, and a great human/

but im kinda mad right now.
im mad at not anybody else but me
for hoping
for trusting
for getting attached
for dreaming
for loving

I kinda feel sorry right now.
I feel like watching the show for jas and Zain,
but I know I would never be able to.

im sure they will introduce a new kunj, and it would be hell difficult for me to see someone in sidhant's place.

I hate everything right now.
and yes, once they show ki its sid's last epi as kunj, I leave the show.
last epi of mine will be last epi of kunj.

I am still coming to the forum though
trying to atleast.
I will keep pakaing you with my stupid talks and all,

I love you guys loads, soo much folks that you don't know.
well, lemme tell you a secret
this week has been hell difficult for me,
you know, I have been through hell.
nobody in my life understood me
my family and friends literally told me that it was wrong.
I ate little, focused little, and talked little.

but I hoped

well, to the topic, while life was hell I got support from you all,
you lovely people, who wrote gorgeous stories, and made wonderful posts,
you people, who made me smile now and then

you guys kept me going when I had stopped,
so here is a big hug for you*opens arms wide and hugs ther person reading this.*
heres a swarm of sakshi special queen kissies for all the lovelies*blows infinite kisses*
and heres a genuine thanks to all.

shout out to all the silent members too, who cared enough to cope up with me I love you folks too.
and a sorry to all of those, who kept their hope up, cuz of me or not.

I feel you guys, I know what you're going through
and I love you guys a lot.

hasta la vista !!
love you and keep in touch

forum chodne walo, tumko bhi bol rahi hu,
keep in touch with the queen, please.
silent members, tum log bhi, though I don't know you, and you might not know me, but I still love you and better make an account and be friedns with all of these beautiful humans here

before its too late.

love
sakshi

Oh my god,I can literally feel how broken you must be right now. I can understand what your going through. I'm going through the same.our hopes have just got shattered. And it's very difficult for all of us. All of us here were trying to be so positive and hopeful. I feel so stupid for getting attached to someone who doesn't even know I exist. But we have to move on. I haven't watched TEI since the news of Sid leaving thinking when the news of him not going will confirm,I will sit back and relax. It hurts to know we did so much but we couldn't stop him. I wish him well. I wish you well too. Thank you for the posts,tho I'm new,I've nearly read all of them. Thank you for warm welcome. Take care and your truly a queen.

Hey dear hugs !!

Originally posted by: sa86

🤗

For u.

Just now I lost my faith

and word also.

heyyy *returns hugs*
now im not gonna say be hopeful and faithful
all of it sucks na
take care

Originally posted by: Jambread3

Oh my god,I can literally feel how broken you must be right now. I can understand what your going through. I'm going through the same.our hopes have just got shattered. And it's very difficult for all of us. All of us here were trying to be so positive and hopeful. I feel so stupid for getting attached to someone who doesn't even know I exist. But we have to move on. I haven't watched TEI since the news of Sid leaving thinking when the news of him not going will confirm,I will sit back and relax. It hurts to know we did so much but we couldn't stop him. I wish him well. I wish you well too. Thank you for the posts,tho I'm new,I've nearly read all of them. Thank you for warm welcome. Take care and your truly a queen.

hehe, thank god, you guys are the only one who can actually understand me rn
we all feel the same
and god, it dosnt help does it ?
exactly, he dosnt know that there is a me, who is so broken now
I did watch, im trying to keep the moments intact rn
he should have stopped but he didtn.
we treid our best and it is not our fault
aww, how sweet, ur most welcome and most welcome
take care you too
hehe, thank you

Originally posted by: .Anjum.

Hey dear hugs !!

Just now saw jas insta update :(((

Me too going thru lil lil same stage like you lol

But don't let anything affect ua health n life dear !

Importance of ya love n ua health can be known n felt by you alone only !!!

No one can feel that worth of ya life n health except you ... so plz keep aside all these differences n sad parts of our life n focus on ya life n health n ua career ...

Ok naa

Take care :)

Anjum. .

hugs to you too
it hurts so bad na??
yup im trying now
bohot kar liya hurt apne aap ko,
youre right
only I know my love and importance(along with you guys)
so im going to love myself more than any actor
as I said, no more attachments now
take care and be in touch

m requesting everybody if u want to entertain yourself then never get too much attached with a show or a actor or character in Indian TV daily soaps because they will only hurt you...if not now then after sometime
you know what yesterday I watched jamai raja after a very long time and there was a intense scene going on and I was laughing on them I know I shudnt do that but what can I do I was laughing on the stupid situation they were in no doubt Ravi and Nia was doing very good in it but the condition was so diff. a wife is saying inspector to beat her husband as much as he can...
and at that point of time I understood how we should watch a Indian show ...
so plzzz ppl never get attached with any serial they will effect ur feelings a lot
watch them only like a show

From d past 1 week im not keeping well...since d news came of sid leaving..TEI was d only show i watched n in that half hour i felt so happy that nothing else mattered😃 i was still hoping for a miracle ...but nothing is in our control 😭 he chose jdj...i just wish him gud luck...but wont watch jdj...coz it really hurts😭

Sakshii