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Prologue-

"Sold For 13 lakhs. " I heard the woman decide my rate. My eyes were glued to the ground. My vision was blurred at last I was sold, I didn't know to whom and y. I am still pondering upon the number of sins I have committed. The number of mistakes I have made to deserve this.

If there is God then he have to answer me. What I have done to deserve this.

Chapter-1

At night 11 -

I am returning from a party with Rajat. He is a known best friend since years. We walked down the street when my head began to spin. I held my head, I glared at him in confusion while he had a tinge of smile breaking on his face. Before I could understand anything all things fell black. I perhaps fell down.

2 am in the morning

I slowly opened my eyes, only to find myself nude in front of Rajat. My frame was crushed under his weight. I tried pushing him but couldn't. I felt weak. All my energy was drained. My body ached like hell. Moisture formed in my eyes. I let the tears flow out from my eyes. With difficulty I pulled my hand and covered my mouth so as to reduce the sound of my sobs.

Perhaps it wasn't enough. Rajat woke up, it's the first time I feel scared in his presence. He smiled at me , I could sense his lustful gaze. He caressed my hair, it was no use questioning him why he did that to me when his lust dripping eyes were answering all my questions. He held my hands up. Perhaps he sensed my rage, before I could react he tied my hands tight to with a rope above my head. He smirked as he saw me helpless. I couldn't help but wished for my muma to save me .

Alas, there was no one. He already killed my dignity and now started his torture once again. He chewed my body, I couldn't help but almost every time a tear escaped my eye. Once by mistake I a sobs escaped my throat. Perhaps irritated he slapped me hard silencing me completely. I felt insulted and used. My body ached already but it got uncontrollable when he entered into me. I cried this time. I cried badly in pain.

Mrng 5-

My eyes were closed, I had no stamina to lift my eye lashes but the coldness around suggests it's mrng. A dark and devastiated mrng after the Strom entered my life. I lie still on the bed when I felt his weight getting away from me. The next moment I felt a splash of cold water on my face. I opned my eyes. He gripped my hair. I winced in pain but then he roughly cut the rope tied around my hands. I glanced at my hands they were red with little blood oozing out. He gripped his fingers around my cuts. I winced in pain. He with a jerk pulled me out of the bed. I somehow managed to cover myself with the comforter.

R- Get ready.

He threw my clothes on my face. I wasn't in a condition to respond to any action of his. I felt broken by his betrayal. He was the best friend. I like a lifeless body held my clothes. I was about to turn when he gripped my arm and pulled me close. He wildly worked his lips on my neck, he wildly gulped my skin turning it red. I winced in pain again, tears slipped my cheek once again but I didn't let a sob out. He turned my and did the same on my back and shoulders. His hands are coming over every curve of my body. I feel disgusted but couldn't help. I tried pushing him but he is too strong. His actions got even rough with my each attempt causing me further pain. Hence, I stopped defending. Within few hours I have been third time abused by the same man. He pinned me to a wall and threw the comforter away. I closed my eyes. He forced himself on me again.

There seemed no way he could be satisfied. I took a sigh of relief when he finally left me. He caressed my Cheek. With some courage I Lifted my gaze to him. I can see some water Twinkle in his eyes. But then he threw me and commanded get ready. He entered into a tiled room seemed to be the washroom. My head had hit the hard wood resulting in another injury. He came out fresh. His hand was bleeding, the mirror of the washroom was perhaps broken by him. Unable to understand anything I moved in and took a shower. He knocked the door again.

Rajat- Swara. .

A chill ran through my spine again. I couldn't reply.

Rajat- SWARA...

He shouted forcing me to give a weak reply.

Sw - hhh.. haann...(shaking voice)

Rajat- do use the shampoo, wash ur hair properly.

I didn't know what he was upto. I stayed silent and followed his instructions. He banged the door again and barked.

Rajat- Did u listen to me. SWARA...

Sw- H.. Han...

I said as a tear drop ran through my Cheek again. I turned the shower on. The water was cold. It was hurting and buring my skin where ever he left marks.

I came out of the washroom wearing my dress I wore last night again. I came out and saw him. He wipped his tears, his eyes were red due to crying. It was clear from the tear marks on his face. As soon as he glanced at me his face again stiffened. He moved to me and I shaked in fear. He pulled me in a hug. I could feel my shoulders getting wet. I didn't respond nor I resisted, I simply choose to stay still.

He parted as some one banged the door harshly. His face was again emotionless he pulled me out. I saw a huge gaint like man. Rajat gripped my hand and followed the man. We crossed a corridor to reach a suffocated yet huge room. It had a cheap decor. We reached to a woman on a chair. She smiled as we reached.

Woman- So done with this girl

Rajat nodded.

Woman- Last time r u sure u want to sell her, if u want pay us the rent and leave.

Rajat- i have no money but I need it. Pay me and keep her.

She shurrged her shoulders. The gaint man removed Rajat's grip from my wrist and pulled me to the lady. She held my hand. Lowered my sleeves and checked my shoulders and neck.

Woman- Boy boy what a devil I will not pay u 6 Lakh for these bites u left.

Rajat- y not this was the price we fixed, didn't we.

He debated.

Woman- we can't sell her back today itself. We have to wait for her marks to go, till then we need to feed her. Didn't we.

Rajat - come on I won't go below 6.

Woman- we were ready to pay 10 lakhs if u would have let her stay a vergin. U know the price for young 18 year vergin Han.

Rajat - i know but I need 6 Lakhs.

Woman- Alas I won't go for 6 lakhs , 5 only. Got it. If u would have kept control over urself then this would not have happened.

Rajat- u don't need one lakhs to feed her for a day.

Woman- ah.. point. So 5 lakh 50 thousand final. Or give me 8000 rent for the last night and leave with this girl.

I never felt this cheap n low and useless before. Mom I miss u. I wanted Rajat to take me back. I promise I will forgive him for the last night.

Rajat thought for a minute and then said yes.

Rajat- Done.

The Woman smirked and threw a bundle of notes on his face. He held them and the gaint monster gripped my hand. Rajat paused for a while and gazed at me. I glared back into his eyes. I couldn't control my rage anymore. Hence, ended up with a tight slap on his face.

His eyes turned red in rage he moved to me and pulled my hair. The next second he places his lips on mine, he was wildly kissing me. I didn't respond to it, I tried pushing him away but in vain. The lady shouted.

Woman- Oye. She is our property leave her.

But he didn't listen. She got up and pulled him out. She held my hand and pulled me back.

Woman- what an asshole. Get lost.

She shouted at him. The gaint man pulled him out. I kept looking at him, my eyes only had one question , "Why?" Perhaps he read those and files his eyeballs to the ground. He was dragged out. The lady held my hand in her tight grip untill that gaint man was back. He pulled me.

We were Passing through the corridors when gathering some courage I asked slowly.

Swara- What will u do to me.

He smiled.

Man- Let's see if u could be sold otherwise u have to pay back 11 Lakhs to Ma'am and then u can go.

Swara- how will I do that.

Man- Work for her.

Swara- what type of work.

Man- hmm.. uh... I thought u will be intelligent. Well prostitution.

Swara- What ... No..

Man- yes this is what happens here.

Swara- Pls sir let me call my mom she is a rich lady she will pay u but pls let me go.

He laughed and brushed my plea. We entered a dark room. He made me sit on the floor and tied my hands with a chain.

Swara- sir pls sir.

Man- wait dear perhaps ur mom will reach to u.

He left.

2 days later-.

I am here tied like an animal and treated even worstly. Thay serve some dried chapatis once in a day. They r hardly edible but hunger overpowers everything. Today they have given me some cheap looking clothes. Atleast they r fresh. I bathed after 2 days. My body is vibrating. I miss my brother and father. If Nikhil was alive I wouldn't be in this condition. My brother Nikhil and father Shekhar Bose. They died in an accident 8 years ago. I was 10 at that time. Now I am only worried about Maa. I don't know how worried she would be for me.

I feeded up and was pulled to the suffocated room again. I saw the same lady again, thus time was accompanied by some 10 men around.

The gaint called her " Salma"

Man- Salma here is she.

Salma-Janab this the girl. 18 years.

A guy from those people asked- vergin or non vergin.

Salma- non vergin.

He smade a face and then moved to me. He touched my body. He weaved his fingers in my hair and sat back in his place.

"8 Lakhs " he decided my price " 8 Lakhs for her."

Salma- then u may leave.

"9" another man shouted.

Salma - nah.. y r u all joking I think no one is in a mood of purchase today.

"13" another man said.

Thus silenced all others.

The eyes of the lady shinned.

Salma-Janab anyone else.

But there was a silence.

"Sold For 13 lakhs. " I heard the woman decide my rate. My eyes were glued to the ground. My vision was blurred at last I was sold, I didn't know to whom and y. I am still pondering upon the number of sins I have committed. The number of mistakes I have made to deserve this.

If there is God then he have to answer me. What I have done to deserve this.

Salma held my hand and pushed me to my buyer.

Salma- all urs sahil ji.

Sahil held my waist and threw a huge bundle of notes to Salma she catches them and placed her red painted lips on the notes. She pecked them and smiled.

Sahil pulled me along with him.

Sw- Sir please let me go. Pls sir I am not this type of girl sir. My mother is a rich lady she will pay back ur money pls let me go.

I begged to this man. He smiled.

Sahil- Do u think I am a fool. Thank ur God that I am not making out here with u. I have paid 13 Lakhs for u now u r mine.

Sw-sir pls let me go my mom will give u twice this amount if u want.

Sahil laughed.

Sahil- that's great but I have enough money. I need u got it.

He patted my Cheek and we kept moving. I felt confused with what to d. We reached the main entrance and I got an idea I bit his hand and slipped out his grip. I began to run. He shouted. Perhaps I underestimated the things. The same gaint man was behind me along with many others and Sahil. The Huge man got hold of me as soon as I fell down. He pulled me to Sahil. He gripped my hair.

Sahil- what u think Han. Bloody bitch. I was being good so u can run away. Now let me show you.

Sw- sorry sir aahh.. I won't repeat it.

Sahil- I am sparing no chance now see what I can do.

He pulled my hair and dragged me into a room. I kept pleading.but they had no effect on him. I closed my eyes and cried when he slapped me. He threw me inside a room and Beated me badly with his belt. He then almost tore apart the dress I wore. He forced me to the bed. I kept pleading but in vain, I tied pushing him away but no matter how much I tried he was too strong for me to handle. In just 3 days i am forced the 4 th time and thus time it is another man. I felt disgusted at myself.

After 3 hrs hrs.

Sahil got up from me. He was too harsh to handle. I felt a numbing pain in all my body. He ordered me to get ready. I followed. He pulled me and dragged me to his car. He pushed me in. I was about to sit on the seat when he screamed -" Down" .

I knew what it meant I sat on the floor of the car and tested my head on the seat.

On a lonely road he asked the driver to leave. He pulled me up.

Sahil- u know it's worth paying for u. U make it impossible to stop. He pushed me and again used my body. He is so harsh. It pains so much.

After a week-

Sahil treats me like garbage. I am whole day locked or tied to his bed. He Beats me like hell. He forces me to sleep with him. But today he slept here without locking the door and without chaining my hands. I took a chance and finally escaped.

It's the midnight I am running. As far as I recognized I am near to my place only. I ran for few kms and reached my mansion. I took a sigh of relief. Watchman dada opened the doors and I ran in. I opned the door and entered in. I expected Maa to be in the hall. She was not there I didn't know what to do now. I stayed silent and began looking for her. When I heard a moan from her room. I ran there and pushed the door lightly.

My world shattered few days I don't know if I should Thank God or question him, I got to know the real face of all the once I trusted. I saw my mother and a man wrapped in a single comforter making out with eachother.

Man- where is that disturbing daughter of urs.

Sharmishta- she won't ever disturb us again Ramesh.

That man smiled.

Ramesh- how.

Sharmishta- I payed Rajat 7 Lakhs and he sold her to some prostitution house.

Ramesh- y??..

Sharmishta- come on Ramesh u know Na what a hindrance was she, mom my clips, my dress, how am I looking. Ugghh.. irritating wasn't she.

Ramesh made a face.

Ramesh- emm yes she was the biggest one.

Sharmishta- that is y we sold her. Removed her from our lives.

Ramesh- this is the reason I love u.

He dug himself in my mother's neck and she smiled. Tears escaped my eyes.

I held my books and packed all of them. I am a medical Student.

I ran away. I didn't knew where but I was getting far away from her.

"I hate u mom. I hate u." I whispered tears blurred my vision. I didn't care I was on a lonely road. I was running untill I dashed with a car. I didn't know whose but I knew I ended up dashing with it. Nothing else I knew perhaps I will be dead. I could feel an unbearable pain for a second and then everything turned black. Perhaps I closed my eyes.

Chapter -2.

Laksh POV-

I tried my best to press the breaks. A girl from nowhere suddenly mushrooms up in front of my car. Ragini my wife is pregnant. We got this kid after 6 years of marriage. I am a doctor by profession. The car stopped with a jerk and the first thing that came into my mind was Ragini and my child. I cupped her face to check if she was okay.

R- ji Laksh I am fine

I took a sigh if relief.

Suddenly rage gripped me, what if something would have happened to Ragini or my unborn child. This is my problem I am shirt tempered. I moved to the girl that hit my car. She was unconscious. I don't know what to lable it fortunate or unfortunate, whatever she is saved from my rage atleast. I turned her head it hit a stone badly. Blood was oozing out. I Lifted her and placed her on the back seat.

L- Ragini pls pass the first aid .

R- ji

I tied the bandage and called Richa my nurse.

R- y r u not taking her to the hospital

Ragini asked as I started driving.

L- No. First of all u r with me and I can't risk ur health and second at hospital case will be filled as it is an accident and procedures will be wrong it's better I treat her at home.

She nodded and drove to our place.

I first helped Ragini to move in. She is 5 months pregnant. Sanskaar was on the sofa with Ashi.

Sa- Laksh u r back.

L- yes, Is Richa here.

Sa- yes. I asked her to go to the guest room but what happened

L- Bhai a girl suddenly dashed with our car.

Sa- (cuts) is she serious

L- hmm no extremely but yes, a head injury and she is unconscious.

He nodded.

Sa- okay I will see to it.

He left.

Sanskaar POV-

I was playing with Ashi. 6 months old daughter of my late elder brother Adrash and Parineeta Bhabhi. I placed her on the sofa with my mom, Sujata. The only elderly figure of our shattered family. I ran out and lifted the girl. She had a bag. I hung it and lifted her up. She looks young perhaps a student. I reached inside and mom walked behind me.

Like my brother I am also a doctor, a Neurologist. I placed her on the bed. Bhai too left Ragini in their room. We two were examining her.

Sa- Laksh these marks ..

L- No these aren't because of the accident.

Yes there were unusual marks on her skin like red beating marks and biting marks around her neck. I wonder what have happened to her.

Laksh did some tests. We are waiting for the results.

1 day later-

A day passed. I was sitting by her side in the evening playing with Ashi as a routine. This mrng her reports came, it was dreatful. I felt disgusted on discovering that she was raped several times in a recent period of time. What was her sin to face this I wonder? My mom cried when she heard me and Laksh discussing this. I know y, this is the pain my sister Uttara had to suffer. Some Devils abused her and she was killed by them. My eyes still get filled with rage disgust and guilt whenever those memories hit me. It has been 7 months to her death. The case was last month finalised. My sister got justice. Alas, it is of no use. She is dead. I wiped the water which slipped my eyes and pecked Ashi's forehead. The 6 year old princess of my held my lip in her little fingers. She touched my wet eyes perhaps wondering what is there in them. She turned to this girl, she looked at the stranger with wide eyes but then started smiling and laughing. She is pulling herself out of my grip. She wants to go to this girl. I stood up and bend down so that she can come close to this girl. She held her finger and her petite hands. I made her sit on the bed. She started playing with the curles of this girl. My hand still held the little girl for support

She caught my hand in hers and pulled it to touch Swara's. I smiled. She adjusted my fingers over her hand and when my hand covered her hand completely she clapped. I smiled.

Soon I saw her eyes opening. I called ma and asked her to sit out with Ashi. She slowly opened her eyes, I moved to her but she was too scared.

Sa- hello I am Sanskaar.

I said but she didn't seem to understand,she looked confused. I held her arm for support but she jerked my hand and pushed me she ran out. I followed her. She dashed with Laksh. She took a few steps back and held her hair. I was behind her, Laksh frowed and glared at me. She saw both of us and was perhaps scared. She pushed laksh and ran by the corridors.

L- Hey u stop there.

Laksh shouted ragefully at her. She stood still. Mom came out of Ragini's room and locked it. She came forward and tried to talk to her.

Su- hi.

She looked on perplexed.

But then tears flowed again from her eyes. She ran and hide behind a pillar slowly glaring at us from there. We pretended to walk away. I turned and pinned her to the pillar restricting any movements from her.

She shivered and closed her eyes. I pressed her cheeks b/w my fingers.

Sa- hey girl.. look look, open ur eyes, look into mine. Pls pls..

She refused. She covered her eye lids more tight.

Sa- Open ur eyes. Open them Dam it.

She opened her eyes slowly as I shouted and looked into my eyes.

Sa- shh.. calm down, calm down, calm down.

The tension between us lessened.

Sa- what happened y r u scared.

Sw- (trembling voice)- I.. I...U.. u.. all r bad... Gande... Sab gande... Gande... Chii... Gande...

And she tried pushing me away.

Sa- shh... See no one is bad... Shhh... Look in my eyes, look

She slowly lifted her gaze.

Sa- am I looking bad. See I am doctor. See (I prointed to my mother) she is my mom. Is she evil.

She slowly gazed at my mom and murmured again.

Sw- I .. I hate u mom... I hate u... I hate... U...

Saying this she fainted. I was shocked at her statement. She was burning in fever. I Lifted her up and placed her on the bed my mom entered behind when I was already examining her. I knew now this was my case. I think we needed to go in for some tests. My mom sat by her side on the bed and caressed her hair. I looked at her. She was teary eyed and pecked her forehead.

Su- sanskaar what happened to her.

Sa- I don't know mom I will tell u soon.

She unzipped her bag. It had her books. Medical first year, she searched further and we got a fee receipt.

Su- Swara Bose.

Sa- is her address there.

Su- Han see.

Sa- I shall contact her parents.

Su- I will come with u.

I nodded. We urgently need to inform her family. Me and mom decided to visit her house while Laksh called Richa for swara's assistant.

Me and Maa reached her place. It was a mansion. We entered and were shocked. It was being decorated for a grand function. We urged a servant for meeting her mother. A lady came smiling.

Sa- good morning. Are u Mrs. Bose

Sharmishta- yes good morning

Sa- I am Dr. Sanskaar Maheshwari.

Sharmishta- nice to meet u doc.

I smiled but really something was fishy. I mean her own daughter was lost and thus lady was not even bothered.

Sa- Ma'am ur daughter swara. She is with us.

I paused for a second but her face showed no change of expression so I continued.

Sa- and I am sorry to say she have been physically abused and have.. have perhaps lost her mental equilibrium.

Sharmishta- so. How am I suppose to help u?

Her replied shaked me like I was given a 1000 volt electric shock. I frowned.

Sharmishta- See Mr. Maheshwari she is dead for me. If u want u can also try spending a night with her or rather throw the garbage out like I did.

Sa- excuse me !! What do u mean?

Sharmishta- she the daughter of my husband's first wife Janki. My own son Nikhil and My husband Shekhar died 8 years back in a car accident. I have nothing to do with that girl. I myself have money to her best friend Rajat to sell her to some prostitution house rest I don't care. So kindly excuse me today is my engagement with my love Ramesh.

Sa- and what about swara and shekhar uncle.

Sharmishta- forget and move on this is what life is about. I loved him once but now he is no more I have all rights to move on. I am not doing anything wrong just naming my and Ramesh's relationship.

Sa- r8. U r not wrong in moving on but still selling a gurl and being this heartless is non-explainable. I am sorry we interrupted while u were busy.

Sharmishta- no problem. But never show her face to me ever again.

Sa- Don't worry Ma'am we won't let her disturb you.

Sharmishta- thank u so much wese u have purchased her for how much.

Sa- I haven't. (Gritted teeth)

My mother I glanced at her she was holding back her tears. I gripped her wrist and we left. I saw a new shade of Woman. I and mom sat in my car I started driving and we moved away from the mansion. I halted on a lonely road.

I cupped my mother's face. She cried her heart out in front of me on my shoulder.

This is how she is. She can never see anyone in pain. Perhaps this time my own heart ached it was too dreatful life for a person. It was void and vaccant.

Mom composed herself and we reached home back.

I entered her room and collected her reports and fee receipts. I never wanted her to see them. I can't say what state will she be in but all I know is not much of this should be known by her perhaps she won't remember anything atleast her condition suggested that. I kept them in my Almera. I returned back with Ashi.

She gained conscious again I was there with her.

Sa- swara.

This time she was calm.

Sa- swara.

Sw- hmm..

Sa- do u remember anything.

Sw- no.. am I swara.

Sa- yes.

She sat up.

Sw- who r u?

Sa- Dr. Sanskaar Maheshwari.

Sw- nd she.

Sa- my mom Sujata Maheshwari

She sat silently and quized again.

Sw- who is the baby.

Sa- she is Ashi.

Sw- sanskaar .

Sa- hmm.

Sw- how do u know me.

I was numb what should I tell her. I didn't want to reveal the truth to her. I stayed silent. When Maa answered.

Su- husband. He is ur to be husband.

Sa- mom

I gasped y was she lying. .

Sw- am I ssupposed to marry him. But y don't I remember anything.

Su- because u lost ur memories. U faced a sudden accident and this happened.

Sw- what happened to me.

Su- u .. hmm.. Han u got angry with him and ended up with this accident.

Sw- y was I angry on him.

She asked with innocence she made me smile.

Su- that u ask him.

Sw- leave it. Sanskaar is she ur daughter.

Sa- no swara she is my brother's daughter.

Sw- where is he.

Sa- he is dead.

Sw- I am sorry.

Sa- it's Okay baba.

Acha u stay here I am coming.

I left as Ashi slept. She kept on asking questions from Maa and she kept on answering them. I knocked Ragini's room and placed Ashi in the carrdle. I reached back that room.

Swara was in the washroom and mom asked her to come asap I questioned her about her statement.

Sa- mom y did u say that she is my to be fianc

Su- it will help her connect more to u, she will comfortable.

Sa- but Maa.

Su- wese bhi Sanskaar u tell me till when u will live with memories of Kavita it's high time that u move on. Stay with this girl treat her and tell me if u like her u both can marry.

Sa- mom what are you saying.

Su- what's wrong sanskaar, Swara has no one in this world and see you are also alone it's better u both give eachother a new life.

Sa- but Maa how should I forget Kavita our marriage and our unborn child and then their death.

Su-sanskaar I am not forcing u, just think about it. Beta u r too young to spend all ur life alone if u were not here if something had happened to u and kavita was here with me I would have asked her to marry Someone.

Sa- Acha then y didn't u marry anyone else after papa.

Su- sanskaar 6 months back ur dad died in an accident, see perhaps my love was not strong otherwise I would have been like her. She died with Bhaisa and see here I miss ur dad so much but he left me. But see Na sanskaar i am old my life is just for few days more God knows when ur dad will start harressing the angles of death to bring his sujju. I bet he misses me a lot.

Sa- mom. U r not going anywhere.

Su- Han Han okay sanskaar.

She wiped her tears. I embraced her.

Su- tell me will u think about her.

Sa- mom

Su- mahri kasam. Ek bar pls

I nodded. She smiled and left.

6 months later-

I have been treating Swara. My day apart from hospital goes with her Ashi and Arman. The new little kid who joined our family few months back. Swara still gets nightmares and gets very very scared. But this is normal many of my patients get them.

She takes care of everyone Ragini Laksh Maa Me and both the Kids. She is so young and yet so perfect or rather she is very sincere.

As she thinks we r going to get engaged so we talk at night when we both are free. She is still a bit hesitant about even holding my hand. I know she will be. After all those Devils have given her scares for life. At times like today I ended up holding her hand. She was hesitant at first but then she slowly relaxed. She was comfortable and could sense it. The way she respects me and takes care is different from all others. Her hesitation and at times her blushes make my heart swing. She at times stand by my side and searches for words but end up taking my name slowly in a wispher with a pink blush. She is Making me do things I won't generally do like having milk.

Sw- sanskaar.

Sa- Bolo

Sw- Woh .. woh. Hmm.

I frowned at her loss of words.

Sw- sanskaar .. do u love me.

She said drilling wholes on the ground.

This question caused a numbing effect.

Sa- I.. I.. I like u swara.

She lifted her gaze to me. I don't think my answer is satisfactory.

Sw- Do u still love Kavita.

My jaw would have hit the floor.

Sa- u know about her.

She nodded in a yes. I turned her to face me.

Sa- swara. Do u love me.

She gazed at me and then down. With a crimson red blush thus time she nodded.

Sa- u never told before.

Sw- u never asked.

Sa- swara if you want to be with me then I will surely think about this.

Sw- no Sanskaar if you love Kavita then u r never forced.

Sa- nothing like that swara, hey do u really love me.

Sw- yes . Sanskaar I .. I .. love u.

As I heard those words I was dancing in my heart. I embraced her.

Sa- Swara are u ready for the engagement.

She slightly nodded. I pecked her forehead.

I sensed her hesitation again.

Sa- I am sorry.

Sw- it's okay. But sanskaar are u sure, I mean u don't love me

Sa- swara sometimes. Respect acceptance faith and trust are all u need to be together.

She smiled a little.

Sa- u r too young Swara but trust me it's true. Love can lack these but these can never lack love.

Now she gazed at me confused I smiled.

Sw- y u complicate it. So u respect me.

Sa- yes

Sw- trust me

Sa- yes

Sw- accept me.

Sa- hmm yes.

Sw- then do u love me as well.

Sa- hmm sort of yes.

U always confuse me.

Sa- sorry.

Sw- okay come I shall give u milk.

Sa- swara

Sw- bolo.

Sa- I don't like it

Sw- hmm okay elaichi adrak wala. It's so tasty.

I made a baby face.

Sw- okay then I will drink it alone.

She sadly turned and moved her hand out of my grip. I felt bad for leaving her.

Sa- hey swara.

She turned to me.

Sa- I am coming

I held her hand again. She giggled and we left.

Chapter -3

Sanskaar POV-

Sa- swara acha u did not ask if I have faith on u.

Sw- no because this is what I have on u and mom.

I frowned she smiled.

Sw- I don't just trust u I have faith on u, u both won't ever harm me.

Sa- what if me and mom have lied to u about something or are hidding something.

Sw- I said Na I know that will be for my own good.

Sa- y u trust us so much.

Sw- idk sanskaar, but u gave me a new life. I was unknown of my past, I was blank. U and mom created a new life for me. Leave all this when will you talk to mom.

Sa- tommorow.

1 day later-

Me and mom had a long conversation with Swara.

After being assured today we r preparing for the engagement.

Ragini is in my room with kids. Swara me mom and Laksh are preparing for the engagement. Mom handed over some clothes to be kept in my Almera. She went upstairs. I went out for caterers and other arrangements.

2 hrs later-

I reached home mom was worried she couldn't find swara. I assured she will be fine. I searched my room and the whole house but she was absent. We decided to wait and continue to prepare for the engagement.

3 hrs later-

It had been 5 hrs she had been missing. I am in my car searching for her. I wonder where was she. Ragini did not notice any change in her expressions when she left my room, but I wonder where is she. My search ended as I saw a girl standing over the bridge on the river bank. She was looking down. I halted my car and ran to her. Before I could reach there she let her body fall with gravity. Before all things actually messed I held her hand. I found her unconscious. I shouted her name but in vain. The people around help me pull her up. I noticed few papers in her hand. I sat on the road and lay her head on my lap. I opened and recognised her papers. They were her reports and her fee receipts. I turned to look at her. I patted her cheek. But no response. I Lifted her up when a chill of horror ran through my spine. Lather was forming at the corner of her mouth.

I called laksh. I reached my place and he was ready and waiting with Richa. We reached her room and Laksh started working. I had to get ready I was accepting my fate it was possible that she remembered everything. It stabbed me bad that I have broken and lost her faith on me. A tear escaped my eye. A day before I confessed I loved her. Things seemed so happy. Now I feel empty again. It's astonishing how life goes in a matter of hours I again lost everything once again. I began to adjust and now everything seems to fall apart.

L- Sanskaar don't worry she is safe.

Laksh assured me. I nodded.

Me and mom waited for hours. The mrng turned heated up and turned into afternoon. She slowly opened her eyes. I was on the couch gazing her. I helped her sit. She looked at me.

Sa- swara. What were u upto han. What if something would have happened to u?.

She couldn't speak but burstedbout crying. I immediately embraced her.

Sa- what happened to u tell me swara.Say it

After a few minutes she parted and glared at me.

Sw- I .. I remember everything now sanskaar.

Sa- did u get ur memories back

Sw- yes I saw those papers and when I read them all the haunting past came to again. I am Sorry Sanskaar here I was all set to gulp ur life in my void. I am sorry. I .. I am not the one who deserves to be with you.

Sa- shut up swara.

I pulled her again.

Sa- u know I love u. And I will marry u for sure. If some Devils made a void in u, Swara give me a chance to fill the void. I want to imbue ur life in the Colors of our love.

Sw- no.. no.. Sanskaar I... I am not worthy of ur love my body has been used by 2 men before.

Sa- shh swara I don't love ur body. I don't just love the idea of u. I love ur sincerity, ur dedication, ur love for me and my family. See Na time made a void in my life as well I lost everything but then found u. Trust me Swara mom loves u so much. I love u so much, we know everything. Pls be with me. I know ur fears and hesitations. I can understand them. Pls swara give me a chance when u came u imbued us in ur Colors. We laughed and smiled again in ur presence.My life is imbued ur love. Now it's my turn pls. Swara and don't even dare to do what u were upto. U almost killed me along, Samjhi. Don't dare to do that.

She nodded. We sat there for long and very long preparing ourselves for our life together. I pecked her forehead and tried to part but she was too broken , scared and shattered to let me go. I sat there it felt heavenly. No lust in b/w us just respect, acceptance, trust and faith. Perhaps nothing else was required.

EPILOGUE-

Swara POV-

I felt soothed in his arms but still me will be me I am still scared of men. I parted from the hug and encircled my arms around myself, I won't lie but I was shivering from head to toe. All the memories of mine were haunting me again and worstly. I heard the door open. Mom entered. I didn't knew weather she knows about me or not, perhaps not, or y will she lie to me about sanskaar n my marriage. I think i should tell her. I saw her eyes getting filled with tears. She embraced me. I felt the motherly affection, she pecked my forehead. I simply sat there with her. Sanskaar patted my cheek.

Sa- don't be afraid swara.

I nodded but held my dress even tight. I was sacred. Very very scared of men. All these months I was unknown about my hesitation from him but now I know y I was scared. He simply left the room. He perhaps knows that I am scared. I saw mom and pulled mysef out of her embrace.

Sw- mom

Su- say it swara.

Sw- mom I want to tell u something.

Su- Han kaho.

Tears welled up in my eyes, they chocked my throat,yet I have to tell her n so I did.

Sw- mom I ... I was.. s.. sold... And ..

Su- (cuts)- shhh.. my child I know. Shhh...

She pulled me again in her warmth. She kept on patting my hair. I was shocked,i never knew she knows all about me. I slowly closed my eyes and can't say when I fell asleep.

Few hrs later-

I saw mom and Sanskaar downstairs with Laksh Ragini and kids.

"Chachi.." Ashi said n ran to me, I Lifted her up. She pecked my Cheek. I smiled n decended downstairs.

Mom caressed my hair.

Su- Swara.

Sw- Ji mom

Su- Tell me child u want to get engaged to Sanskaar.

I fell silent. Sanskaar the man I love. I am offcourse scared but how can I forget his pure feelings. His beautiful heart. The way he respects me. All the events from Rajat, Sahil, My Mother, Father and Nikihil to finally here with mom and Sanskaar were flashing in my mind.

I simply nodded.

Su- We have no issues Swara u can take ur time.

Sw- no maa I am fine.

She caressed my hair n took me to the dinning area. She feed me with her hands. I smiled.

Sanskaar POV-

Swara agreed for the engagement but first I want to converse with her. Mom was feeding her, I played with Ashi.

Soon they finished, I offered to have a chat with her. We moved out.

Sa- swara

Sw- Ji

Sa- woh. I wanted to ask r u comfortable with the engagement thing. .

Sw- no , no Sanskaar I am not comfortable. I feel scared from any men around.

I looked at her confused, I knew it she wasn't comfortable but my only question was y she agreed for our engagement then. Perhaps reading my mind she smiled and continued.

Sw- but trust me Sanskaar as I said I have faith on u, I know you are different, u won't ever force me, I know u will respect me. I know u r the r8 person, my angel who will pull me out of my fears.

She almost chocked as she finished. I pulled her in a warm hug. She clutched my shirt tight as if her world depends upon Me. I patted her back. I never knew our relationship was so special.

I gave her medicines.

6 Years Later-

Sa- swara.

Sw- sanskaar say

Sa- This is ur lehenga for tommorow mom has sent.

She had a soft pink blush on her cheeks and slowly she moved to me n held the dress.

I could help but grinned.

I moved out of her Finally we r getting married. I reached my room n once again read the invites that state, Dr. Sanskaar Maheshwari weds Dr. Swara Bose. My Swara she worked day and night for this. I had been treating her for all this time. She was afraid of me, my presence and it pinched me always. These coming days I have seen a new Swara, brave bold yet shy at times. I have seen her facing Eve Teasers. She wasn't afraid or running she faced them. Reported them. Never to forget how she just ran into my arms after the mess. "Bengal Tigress" I named her at that time. She blushed n her cheeks showed shades of pink darkening slowly into red.

"Sanskaar.." I heard her melodious voice .

Sa- say it swara.

She moved in and wrapped her arms around me.

Sw- sanskaar thank you.. thank you so much for being there for me. Fir making me feel special again. Thank you...

Sa- shhh.. Swara u are special n as I said Dosti aur pyar mein no sorry no thank u.

I heard her laughing a little. I broke the hug n wiped her tears. Our moment was spoilt as her phone beeped. She rejected the call once but then it again rang.

Sa- don't worry I know it happens u attend the call

She smiled and conversed.

Sw- hello

Person- Ma'am there is an emergency, u need to be here soon.

Sw- u complete formalities n preparations I am coming.

She cut the call.

Sa- kya hua

Sw- have to go , emergency.

She briefly described.

Sa- come I will take u.

She smiled n we left.

Su- (little angry) y u both have to go now , tommorow is ur wedding some other doctor can check the emergency case Na.

Sa- mom pls now let us go.

Su- do as ur wish n come soon.

Sw-sorry maaa..

Su- I can never get angry upon u my princess.

Ahh.. this partiality. Mom always scolds Me but never swara.

We reached hospital in no time.

Swara rushed into the operation theatre, i sat out for the time being when I heard her scream.

"Sanskaar..."

Horrified I stood up. She came out n pulled me into a hug. She was shivering.

Sa- swara what is this? Kya hua?

Sw-Sanskaar woh woh. .. Andar

I cupped her face.

Sa- what happened..

Among her tears she replied.

Sw- R.. Rajat... H.. he is ...

My eyes widened and pulled her into a hug.

Sa- calm down. I am coming. U go n start the operation.

Sw- pakka...

Sa- go..

She slowly departed towards the OT. I too changed n joined her. I stood by her side all the time.

She was masking up her reborn fears under a stiff emotionless face but I know she is scared deep within. We treated the Devil. He who used he body, scratched her soul, sold her dignity. Alas, we r bound by duties. He had a head injury and major fracture in left leg, along with injuries all over the body. There were 2 doctors along with us treating him. The staff around staired us in confusion. Neglecting every thing I stood still. They were stitching his skin, bandaging his wounds.i saw her hand temble, I held firm. She gazed into my eyes I could see relief in her orbs. She slowly empty her lungs n moved back to her work.

2 hrs later-

We walked out of the OT, she assisted the senior doctors well. She was still trembling, we had to stay there in the hospital for the first check up till he gained conscious. We sat together, my arms encircled around her shoulders. Her past was again haunting her. I gave her medicines for calming down. We waited in my cabin. She dosed off in my embrace. Time flew the nurse informed us about Rajat gaining conscious.

I held her hand we entered his ward. His eyes were wide open, he was perhaps shocked to see her. Tears were escaping his eyes. She emotionlessly sat next to him, questioning him about how he feels now and prescribing medicines. We heard a young lady call him, she ran and embraced him.

Lady- I am sorry, I was angry but Don't go away from me pls.

Rajat- no I am sorry. I.. I .. love u Sahi. I am sorry.

He embraced the lady. She turned and thanked us for saving her husband. She smiled.

We were about to go when he called her.

Rajat- Swara.

Sa-(cold tone) What u want now?

Rajat- who r u? She is my best friend I want to talk to her!!

Sw- I was, I was ur friend now I am ur victim. And Sanskaar is my fiance, we r getting married tommorow. So stay away.

Rajat- I am sorry Swara I had no option.

We frowned at his statement. He continued.

Rajat- Swara mh mother was ailing, she was suffering from cancer and ur mother offered me a huge amount. I needed that money for her treatment.

Sw- Acha. Okay u sold me for that, but y u... Y u played with my dignity. There is no justification for what u did.

Rajat- I loved u. I did but what to do before I could confess my feelings, before anything good could happen I was stuck in circumstances. I couldn't see my mother dieing, I couldn't hold on to my feelings, I am sorry. I know it's not enough, it won't ever be but this is all I can do.

Sw- What type of love was that Rajat that u scratched my soul, sold my dignity, used my body. Was it love, attraction or just Lust. Do think about it.

Sa- Swara come let's go. And Mr Rajat I request to stay away. U have gifted enough of scares to my wife now I want to see her healing. Don't scratch her wounds again.

Rajat- I am sorry.

Sa- u ought to be.

I held her hand and glared at Sahi, her head was bowed down and her eyes showed her rage towards Rajat. She glared at him. When he pleded again - " Sorry .. I didn't want to do that to her ."

"But u did Na.. " she cut him in b/w.

"Pls forgive me"

" I don't know Rajat, I need time, I never knew I married a Devil" she taunted him again.

He closed his eyes, tears of guilt made their way out of his eyes. Me and Swara moved out as the other doctor took charge of Rajat.

Next day

Me and Swara are sitting together in front of the holy fire. The presit requested us to take 7 rounds and make 7 promises to eachother. We sat there back on our seats, my mother lifted her wail and I filled her partion with vermilion. She closed her eyes and so did I. We wanted to feel the moment. I tied the mangalsutra around her neck. Her face was again covered with the Vail. The priest declared we r legally husband and wife now. Our eyes locked for few seconds when Ashi clapped her hands and danced in excitement. She ran to Swara and sat in her lap, she pecked her Cheek.

Ashi- chachi u look so pretty.

She blushed.

Our little bundle of joy she hopped to me and pulled my Cheek.

Ashi- Chachu u look so handsome.

Sa- my Ashi is also looking very pretty.

Ashi- I know that

She pecked my Cheek and ran to Ragini.

I entered my room. I saw her sitting in the center of the bed. She was nervous or scared I couldn't tell. I moved to her and lifted her up.

Sa- swara.

Sw- Ji..

Sa- go n change.

She looked relaxed yet confused.

Sw- a.. are u sure..

Sa- swara listen, I have married u to heal ur wounds not to gift u new ones. We are married not just to satisfy out physical needs but to complete eachother's void. We need to fill the spaces we have in our hearts. Okay.

Sw-sanskaar. But what if I take too long.

Sa- take ur time. And if u never feel comfortable, we won't ever go in for this. Just be there and complete my soul. Can u do this for me swara.

She nodded. I embraced her.

We changed our clothes. She rested her arm on my bisep her hands rested on my chest. I pecked her forehead and we slept.

1 year later-

Swara POV-

It had been an year. Things are changing, I am falling more deeply in love with Sanskaar with every passing moment. The intensity of our relationship is growing. His presence around makes me blush. I often loose myself in his eyes. There are times when we both are on the verge of losing control.

Today he is taking me out. This is what I have asked him. We need to take our relationship forward we already have had a conversation about it. Where r we going is a surprise for me as well.

He halted after half an hour. We moved out. It was completely dark here. He covered my eyes and we moved forward.

He lifted me up in his arms. We moved inside a room or building. I am not sure about it.

He slowly opened my blindfold. I saw surprised. We were at his house on the outskirts of the city. He held my hand and we paced forward. He made me sit on the chair. We feeded eachother. He served my favorite ice cream.

Sa- how is it my princess.

Sw- lovely

He smiled and so did eye. He moved close to me and pecked my forehead.

He held my hand and we moved to a fully decorated room. It was sented with lavender Fragrance. It was decorated with dim candles. I couldn't help but smiled. He came and encircled his hands around my waist.

Sa- kesa laga

Sw- beautiful.

Sa- and here is our first anniversary gift.

He kept all my hair on my shoulder and slowly made me wear a platinum pendent.

Sw- sanskaar all this..

Sa-(cuts) Shh... Is for my wife.

I smiled. His intense chocolate gaze made my blush go crimson red from Rosy pink. He scooped me in his arms. He slowly paced me on the bed. He sat there with me. He cupped my face n pecked my forehead. He moved to my eyes n placed his lips on them n then he paused in front of my lips. I opened my eyes as his hot Breath burnt my lips. His eyes seaked permission. I blinked my eyes once and then closed my eyes. I moved my hand to his neck followed by intervening my fingers in his thick black hair. He gently kissed my lips. His touch was tender and soft. He made me turn n slowly pulled the dori of my blouse. I felt shy, he brushedhis lips on my shoulder slowly. He then slide my blouse down my shoulder, slowly he started giving wet kisses from my nape to my shoulder. He unpinned my sari. I felt numb, my hands and body were not moving, I was shy. He slowly made me lie, I then gathering courage crawled my fingers on his chest and unbuttoned his shirt. He smiled, we kissed again. Soon our clothes were discarded. He was over me , he whispered slowly into my ears-" Are h sure".

"Double sure," I replied. He smiled n entered into me. It was painful yet he was soothing it. He sipped my tears. We made love. United in all ways, our souls already bonded by love.

"I love u Sanskaar" I huskily wisphered

"Love u 2,3 and infinity princess" he replied as we dossed off in eachother's warm embrace.