SwaSan SS: The Postern of Fate: Epilogue 2 (Final) updated on Page 48 - Page 33

Originally posted by: bennetlizzy

Dear Vijji.

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Hey Nalini 🤗 🤗

Hope you had a great day.

Im finally here to congratulate you on this postern you have worked on and still are ( because I so want to read what happens after sanskar regains his memory)

Thanks so much, dear. 😳 🤗 So happy that you loved Chapters 1 to 4. Hope you liked Chapter 5 also, which I posted just a bit after this lovely comment of yours.

It feels like a window into the past sanskar we all so adored. I'm glad you took this up. And as always you did a commendable piece of work. Im so sorry I was late to give a proper comment.

Please yaar, no need for sorry between pals. And I am really overjoyed that you loved this portrayal of Sanskaar. As you know, I find Sanskaar to be the most fascinating persona on the show. He is such a layered, complex person, with tremendous depth to his nature; a lot of angles and shades to his personality. Glad that you liked a look into the multi faceted Sanskaar. 😊

I love the way Ragini and sanskar are being portrayed here. Since the time when they have first announced a this ml track I have been so want to see how they would rekindle that lost friendship when swara gradually regains her memory. But here you have something much more enticing. A Ragini and sanskar face off just something cvs always failed to gives ( though again it's a postern here I'll enjoy this with equal enthusiasm)

I really think Ragini, next to Sanskaar, is one of the most intriguing and complex characters on the show. She has several shades and layers to her nature, too. I love to envision Sanskaar and Ragini as being allies and friends again; but even more, to think of them as frenemies, matching their wiles, guile, wits and wills against each other. 😉 😊 So happy that you liked this face off between them, in a sense.

Swara has been so subtle and beautiful with her ways here. Even with all the grief and desolation she is so patient with him and all the time with such unwavering confidence. She doesn't for once let the doubts fog her mind and push her in to grief. I think thats most of the difference between swara and sanskar. Swara though equally in love with sanskar could keep her cool and think through clearly. But sanskar being the one who loves with a passion often ends drowning himself in his own emotions. The reason being that swara is not just the reason for him to live but also for his sanity. He gets scared and angry when her life is in danger. Even the slightest idea of losing her in anyway makes him lose himself.

Loved the way you put Sanskaar and Swara's love for each other---which though equally intense, differs based on their personality, in the way it is felt and expressed. Yes, I did want to show Swara's intense and deep adoration for Sanskaar here. She is completely confident in Sanskaar's potent and selfless love for her; and even when he can't consciously remember her, Swara is confident and assured that she will have his love back again, soon.

I think you have delivered that too, here. When sanskar thought about how swara would react to his plans , if she would love him the same or detest him for his actions. Really how much he depends on her sometimes amazes me. Even when he doesn't have the memories that connect them both he realises that she is after all the light of his life and with out her he won't exist.

I really wanted to portray that---and I am so very happy that you loved this. Yes, Sanskaar has certainly come to be drawn inexorably towards Swara again, can never resist the undeniable connection that they share. Though he has his doubts and misunderstanding initially, he is unable and unwilling to hold on to them for long, in the face of Swara's evident adoration for him. And while he is certainly plotting against the Maheshwaris, caught as he is in the web of his partial retrograde amnesia, he can't help feeling guilty about using a secret connected to Swara's parents, as leverage over Ragini. He can't help feeling what Swara would think of him, once his plan succeeds and he sends the firm of Maheshwari, Karma and Sons, staggering into the dust.

Though his conscious mind may not have memories of their time together, his heart, his subconscious psyche and his innermost soul, recognize Swara for the passionately intertwined twin soul that she is. That he simply cannot exist without her by his side.

The two always never stop to reminding me of Heathcliff and Catherine Earnshaw.

Where Catherine tells Nelly " I'm Heathcliff - he's always,always in my mind - not as a pleasure, anymore than I'm always a pleasure to myself - but as my own being- so don't talk of our separation again- it's impractical" it seems so much in line with what swara feels for sanskar.

And when Heathcliff takes the news about Catherine's death " be with me always-take any form- drive me mad. Only do not leave me in this abyss, where I cannot find you! Oh, God! It's unutterable! I cannot live without my life! I cannot live with out my soul!" - I relate this to the agony sanskar feels in her absence

(I'm hoping to use these sometime somewhere. I'm a die hard fan of Wuthering Heights) 😃

Oh, I am so thrilled to hear that! 🤗 Wuthering Heights was, is and will always be a favorite of mine. I just adore the book!

I do identify Sanskaar and Swara as true soulmates in every sense---completing and complementing each other wonderfully, To that extent, I do completely agree with you, that their wonderful bond is described well by what Cathy tells Nelly about her feelings for Heathcliff. There's another sentence also there, I guess, where Cathy says "He's more myself than I am. Whatever our souls are made of, his and mine are the same". 😳 Amazingly apt for our Golden couple, too.

But in the expression of that love, I find SwaSan's to be a beautiful, shimmering thing of light, pure and divine. It is deep, intense, potent, selfless and unconditional. Heathcliff and Cathy, for all that their souls were forever intertwined, have a doomed, dismal, dark trait to their bond as well as their individual natures. Don't you think? They wind up ripping each other apart, consigning each other to the very pits of hell on earth.

Two very fascinating, and I would say, almost opposite approaches to a deep, soul deep bond, though the bond itself has similarities. While their relationship elevates SwaSan, fills them with joy and peace and enriches them; Heathcliff---Cathy are perhaps, unable to handle the ramifications of that powerfully intense bond that they share---thereby destroying them.

Thankyou so much for this piece. Eagerly waiting for the last chapter.😳

Thank you Nalini...for making my day with this comment. And I hope you loved reading Chapter 5 too; let me know when time permits. 🤗

Love

N

Loads and Loads of Love, 🤗🤗

----Viji

Originally posted by: ...Penknife...

Vijii, I dont even know what to say. You're done a brilliant job .

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Thanks so much my dear Nandini 🤗🤗🤗

Chapter four and five have been amazing.

But chapter five has to be the winner because of a special little part. 😆

😳 😉 So glad you loved all the chapters, especially 4 and 5. And I know which little part you loved that extra bit in Chapter 5. ☺️

I'm actually awed at your portrayal of Sanskar Maheshvari.

I think what I like best is the fact that you don't try to present him as a perfect all enduring person.

He is human, he has his ups and lows, confusion and doubts. He is not an all trusting black and white kind of person. He is a complex, aggressive and a bit shady.

It's always easier to connect with people who are not afraid to be a little dark when needed. It's really brings out the balance.

This really made me feel so very nice, yaar. 🤗🤗 I consider it a wonderful compliment, to be told that I portrayed Sanskaar well. As you know, I consider Sanskaar the most layered, intriguing and complex character in the show. He has so many fascinating shades and angles to his nature, a lot of depth to his character. I did want to etch that bit of grayness/ edginess inherent in him, and am so glad you loved this.

Sanskar guilt was painful to read.

He was concerned of how Swara, of whom he had no recollection whatsoever, would think of she found out his almost successful evil plans. He was afraid he isn't worth her love.

For someone as self assured as him to ever doubt his deserving her love, that has to come from real regret.

And it is for that reason, I believe, that Swara has forgiven him.

She also seems to know exactly what he needs to hear or feel ;)

Their connection is simply amazing.

Ah love written in the cosmos

Sanskaar had already come to realize how deeply he felt connected to Swara, how much he treasured and cherished her adoration for him. His conscious mind has not recovered any memories yet, of the lovely moments they had spent together. But his heart, subconscious and very soul, do fundamentally realize that she is an irrevocably intertwined twin soul. That he simply cannot exist without her.

He had already felt considerably guilty, using that secret concerning Shomi's pregnancy, as leverage over Ragini. Using such a weapon concerning Swara's parents, her unborn sibling; to kind of blackmail Swara's sister, was not something he was very comfortable with at all----it kept bothering him what Swara might think; what she might feel once his vengeance against the Maheshwaris was complete. And when he came to know from Kunal, all that had happened in the past year and a quarter, he was simply devastated by what had happened to Swara, partly owing to his initial machinations. Though he was also told about his immense remorse and quest to redeem himself, Sanskaar is a person with tremendous integrity and sincerity. He does feel things very deeply, and I think he would be quite harsh on himself. Plus, the fact that he, howsoever briefly, had some momentary doubts about Swara's love (in the grips of his partial retrograde amnesia), thought that she might have tried to shoot at him, would also weigh in his mind terribly.

SwaSan's connection is truly amazing---they are soulmates in every sense after all. Truly meant to be---they complete and complement each other wonderfully, they are really like two halves of a seamless, complete whole. 😳

I particularly loved the last bit. I mean I've always imagined them kiss onscreen and although I know Indian creative's would never so something like that on such a Sanskari show, I always hope against hope that they do. 😆

I am so thrilled you loved that. I was in SwaSan dreamland 😳 ☺️ when I wrote those bits.

I also liked those little face offs between Rangini and her jeeju. Those were, evidently the turning point.

And Nakul is indeed an amazing chap. I was so happy that he didn't hesitate before briefing everything to Sanskar. He understands his boss/friend/family's need to know. Their bond is so sweet. 😳

Next to Sanskaar, Ragini is certainly one of the most intriguing and complex characters on the show. Again, there are so many fascinating layers and shades to her nature. I really wanted to envision Sanskaar and Ragini as being Frenemies in a sense, though they were, in a sense, on the same side. So happy that you loved this portrayal.

I wanted to flesh out Nakul's character and back story a bit, to delve into the nature of his deep loyalty towards Sanskaar. Very glad to know you loved that. He does consider Sanskaar to be the family he never had---he is his elder brother, a quasi paternal figure, apart from being his hero, his idol, his guide.

I'm usually a very fast reader but it took me a while to get through this one. I wanted to savor every bit of it. And I'm happy I did too. This is one of the best fanfictions I've read.

(And I read a lot of fanfiction, so you can take my word on it 😆)

😳 🤗 When I read this, I was so, so moved. Really felt immensely touched and blessed by all the love. I just don't know what to say---except that it meant a lot to me. Thanks. 🤗

Keep writing such beautiful stuff.

Love,

Nandini🤗

I certainly hope to keep writing on SwaSan. 😊

Originally posted by: Nynaeve

Viji Sweetheart,

How could I not, I was sort of stalking the forum ( yesterday you were sorely missed😭, but this makes up for your absence🤗). But I am so upset with myself, I take a break to get dressed for office and voila! you update it then.😡

I know I have res for each chapter which I will unres, but could not stop myself from writing this short comment.

🤗 🤗 Thanks Nynu sweetheart. Your short comment filled me with so much joy. 🤗

This story is brilliant in concept and execution. It was a twist on the ML track and yet nowhere did the characters step out of line. Sanskaar with his sheer brilliance, Swara with her immense propensity to understand Sanskaar and his feelings even before he is completely aware of them, Ragini's clever counterplay and Lakshya was...good...

I am completely at a loss as to what to say, I am so immensely touched by your wonderfully warm words. I did want to etch the four leads, bring out various aspects of their character in different ways---and I am overjoyed to know what you loved it.

It was woven so well (which goes without saying, since you are the author), each of their thoughts, conflicts, their understanding of each other, even Ragini and Sanskaar, or rather especially Ragini and Sanskaar - the strategems each used to outbid the other. I so love these intelligent and logical battles.

😳 Once again, I feel just immensely humbled and blessed by this. I wanted to envision Sanskaar and Ragini as Frenemies in a sense---quasi antagonists though they are in reality, on the same side. I wanted to portray that battle of wits, wiles, guile and wills between them, and I am deeply moved that you feel I did complete justice to such layered, edgy and complex characters.

This story and your impeccable style do bring out truth, that the brain that controls the memories and the brain that drives our emotional personality are two different parts, one can lose their memories, how can they lose themselves?

The undeniable truth that one can lose their memories, but not themselves, especially when the love of their life is there by their side.

Yeah, so very true. Losing one's memory would no doubt be an alarming experience, bringing about considerable angst and frustration. But it would not change the essential personality traits deep within. The person would remain inherently the same, his/her deeply held values, beliefs, action and reaction patterns...they wouldn't change.

Swara and Sanskaar's discovery of each other was sheer bliss - to know each other yet again, and hold to each other all over again - that would be the best part of losing your memories - a chance to relive the magic all over again.

Thanks dear...that is something which I feel very deeply for SwaSan. That their love and adoration for each other is just so deep, so intense, so potent in its soul deep connection; that regardless of when or whether Sanskaar (in my story) or Swara (in the serial ML plot) regain their conscious memory fully; they would have already fallen in love all over again, with their inextricably intertwined soulmate. They would simply be unable to ignore or resist that inexorable, undeniable, powerful connect between them.

love you tons,

Nyna

Love you even more, Nynu 🤗

PS I am not done yet, will be back for detailed chapter wise comments, soon🤗

Look forward to it, whenever you have the time. Don't stress yourself.🤗🤗

Originally posted by: svg98

Speechless..
Literally you made me speechless today by your writing.. I m finding it difficult right now to find the right words for expressing the magic you create by bringing them to life by your words..they are so beautiful..enchanting..u don't even have to dreams about them..you can see Swara and Sanskar right in front of your eyes..

Hey Piya...🤗 🤗 So very touched by your words, dear. Throughout this fic, I have been looking forward to your very analytical, perceptive and insightful comments. They really make me feel so blessed and motivated. 🤗 To hear you say that you could envision SwaSan so well while reading this story, that I could bring them o life----that was the ultimate compliment.😳 Thanks so very much.

The beginning was beautiful..Sanskar finally accepted her by all his mind..I m saying that because she is living in his heart long back it was just his mind which was playing with him and now even that is gone..It was not really their first kiss..but in a way it was for him in a way and then he looking back at Swara and saw her blushing..gosh that was so amazing..I don't know how Sanskar even stopped from going back to her..he surely has a lot of self control..

Yes, Sanskaar had finally let all the remaining slight reservations he had in his conscious mind, evaporate. He knew already, at the fundamental level of his heart, soul and psyche, that Swara and he belonged to each other. That they completed and complemented each other perfectly. He had already realized that he cherished that look of adoration in her eyes for him. The interlude that they shared---he knew, at some level, that it wasn't their first kiss. But as far as his conscious memories went, for him, it was in a way. And so he decided, quite mischievously, to add considerably to his store of memories in this area.

He certainly did want to go back right then and there and envelop Swara back into his arms. But his concern and worry for Nakul made him decide to finish his talk first.

And then the moment I was waiting for..Nakul I knew in a way would know everything about him..he is his soul brother..a person who was with him when nobody was..Nakul's portrayal of emotions was fantastic..he was really a lost child when Sanskar found him..a father figure he never really had in disguise of a friend..and then he told him everything..what has exactly happened..Sanskar inner turmoil here was so painful..he would have drowned in his guilt and agony if Swara would not have found him at the right time..Sanskar could have never hurt anybody..yes he was agony but it was obvious..It was so Sanskar when he told her everything and told her that he deserver better..he always try to his fault or blame himself whatever happens..Swara made him realize that he could never really hurt her..he loved her..they were part of each other belong to each other..Swara was so calm and serene and she provided peace to Sanskar mind and heart as well by telling him nobody could love her as much as Sanskar do..

Thanks so much for those very warm words. 😳 🤗 Yes, I wanted to give a bit of a back story to Nakul as well, an insight into his absolute loyalty and devotion to Sanskaar. I feel Nakul considers Sanskaar to be an elder brother, a quasi paternal figure, in place of the parents he never had. Sanskaar is his idol, his hero, his guide, apart from being his only family member in a sense. Nakul is absolutely, unflinchingly loyal to him at all times.

Sanskaar would surely be consumed with guilt at the thought of what he was about to do again, in the grips of his partial retrograde amnesia. He would feel devastated and utterly remorseful once more, for what he had done to Swara in the past. And also, for having some temporary misgivings about her love for him in the present, even though he could not and did not hold on to those doubts for long. Sanskaar always feels so very intensely, he is intrinsically a man of considerable honor and integrity. You are perfectly right, he would have been anguished by the depth of his guilt and remorse. Swara was completely unable and unwilling to see him go through that. As she says, anything which hurts Sanskaar, causes her tremendous pain, too. She would not want him to berate himself for something she knows he could never do.

She knows very well, that whatever temporary misgivings Sanskaar might have had regarding her and their love, he had himself come to realize the depth of their soul connect, the adoration they had for each other. And she knows that whatever Sanskaar might have planned, regarding blackmailing Ragini with the truth of Shomi's pregnancy, he would never let any harm come to her parents or her unborn sibling.

Oh I so missed their blazing chemistry and passion..the teasing and mischievousness..their becoming one was so pure..as if rain has drenched the earth after a long drought..the sunshine coming in the morning..Swara was fast to runaway from him..Sanskar surely would have thought by now the number of ways of not letting Swara go in the morning away from him..he is becoming so naughty day by day..the romance outside the kitchen in the hall was amazing..it was so soothing to watch them happy and glowing..Sanskar will surely make her pay even is she hides in the guest room or any of the rooms..he will find her..they are so cute together or say beautiful together..his smrink and hypnotic eyes surely give away his intentions..gosh he is so intense and hot..

I was completely lost in SwaSan dreamland when I wrote their romance scene and the morning after one. 😳 ☺️ So very glad you loved reading it. Yes, Sasnskaar is certainly back to being his intense, naughty and flirtatious avatar. He would certainly ensure Swara wakes up only along with him in future. I was so thrilled that you loved their chemistry. 😳

Ragini efforts paid of..if it was not for her..Sanskar would have hurted his family and then deeply regretted it..and would have never be able to forgive himself..he word have gotten his friend back..and also the deep affection for his brother and family could be witnessed very well..atlast everything was well..like a daylight after a storm..only Swara cod have done this..she was as to bring Sanskar from the dark path in the past and today also it was only her who could have brought him back from where he was getting lost in the turmoil of his incomplete memories.. I m sure in the course of time he will regain the beautiful memories he has lost and heal back from inside..till then can make even mor beautiful new memories..I with surely miss this saga..it is one of the most amazing one I have ever read..

Yes, Ragini did do her utmost to ensure that Sanskaar did not err severely, in the grips of his partial amnesia. She knew that he had again gone back to those days of bitterness and vengeance, and also knew, that if his plans succeeded, he would be absolutely consumed by shattering regret and guilt once he realized the truth. Ragini also wanted to ensure that Swara and Sanskaar's happiness would not be affected by this. In a sense, she was herself atoning and redeeming for the numerous times she had hurt Sanskaar and Swara.

I am feeling so humbled and emotional to hear you say how much you love this fic.🤗 🤗

And I would say once again..you make me speechless..please always keep writing because we love you works and as I always I just want to read on and on..

Thanks again, dear. I hope to keep writing on SwaSan. 😊 Pals like you certainly motivate me tremendously to do so. 😳

Piya

Originally posted by: ishanita

oh my my!
this was so gud ...a complete swasan episode ...I luv nakul seriously as sunny is already committed then let me be contented with this dedicated 'eklavya'...lol...silly me

Hey Ishita sweetheart 🤗 🤗

Firstly, hope your didi's sagai went off very well. Wish her and your jeeju, a lovely life of bliss, joy and togetherness. 🤗 🤗

So glad you loved the intense SwaSan moments of chapter 5. And you like Nakul huh? 😉 😆 He is certainly a very determined and loyal lad...and he has learned a lot from his idol, hero and the person he considers his elder brother---Sunny himself. 😉

my fav part was when swara understood his thoughts and pull him of the guilt AGAIN...and their moments were ...ufff...aag lag gai mere lappy m

SwaSan are true soulmates na...they complete and complement each other perfectly. Swara would always realize what is running through Sanskaar's mind and heart---she can read his eyes so well after all.

I was completely lost in SwaSan dreamland when I wrote their romantic moments. 😳 ☺️ I am so thrilled that you loved reading that. 😉

lucky boy still has no idea of all things but ragini is seriously brilliant...sometyms I wonder how can he handle the business when he is clueless abut his close surroundings? ragini k bina kya hota uska?

Lucky has become more mature, and aware of the consequences of his actions. He has sincerely repented for his past acts, for the way he contributed to the mess they all landed in, and has redeemed himself completely. He has certainly become a loving and caring husband towards Ragini, a very dependable and affectionate brother for Sanskaar and a true friend to Swara. But inherently, he would remain a happy go lucky, rather laid back and easy going chap. He would not become so perceptive and insightful as his biwi or his Bhai. 😉

but but of all chal I am literalyy more biased towards chap 4 ...its my fav ...with all the elements be it 'master planning' 'revenge' love' ' romance'or 'care'

Thanks so much dear. 🤗 So happy you loved Chapter 4 so much. 🤗 And the entire story and other chapters as well.

ur swara understand sunny boy better than he himself does!
be ready swara tonight for your punnishment !

Yes, SwaSan are such true soulmates, they complete and complement each other in every way. She can understand him, his thoughts and feelings so very well. And Swara certainly is in for a most enthralling, delicious punishment that night, and the next morning, too. 😳 😉

can we have a little glimpse of how n when sunnny revived his memory?
actually I don't want a usual epilogue of a few years leap with two kids of swasan...I want something diff from u...

Planning that in the epilogue dear. Actually I might be writing 2 small epilogue shots. I hope they meet your expectations. 🤗
luv
ishita