Dedicating this os to each and every reader of mine, for liking my stories and appreciating them... I am not going to name anyone as I don't want to miss anyone's name..Regards;
shehriz...
~heart break~The phone rang once, twice. He hoped she would pick it up.
"Hey," his heart sank. She sounded the same as she had three weeks earlier, the last time he heard his voice.
"Hi." She sounded defeated,she didn't wait for laksh to respond before ragini launched her speech. "I think i know laksh whyyou are calling, so I don't want to waste your time with small talk." She took a deep breath, but his end of the line was silent. "Things have not been right for a while now, and I kept making excuses and justifying it away, but I'm ready to call it if you are." The line was so quiet she thought he might have hung up, but after a moment he drew in a ragged breath.
"Call it?" laksh asked shakily, although he clearly knew what she meant.
"I mean divorce. I can't live this way." Her voice was strong, clear. Laksh thought She'd been practicing this for days.
"We can fix it," his voice sounded small.
"We keep saying that. Over and over. And we never do, it always stays exactly the same. And I just can't keep feeling this way.i know from tbe first day you love your freedom that time i was not ready lakshs before i believe in happy endings and fairytale but i now i knew reality and i am ready to give you divorce as you already make me signed it so you can file for it"
"I know, and I'm sorry. But everything is changing and I'm just not sure how to integrate the old with the new. I'm scared, I don't know what to do."
Her resolve wavered, she can hear laksh's voice was shaking and it was obvious that he was on the verge of tears.
"You know ragini I would do anything to fix this. You know that now really I love you and that I want this more than anything, but I can't fix it by myself. I could kill myself trying to make this work, and it could still not work." laksh voice cracked. She could feel the tears coming, pricking the back of her eyes.
lakshs continued "I know, and I'm sorry. I've been awful to you, I haven't been treating you the way you deserve to be treated and I know that." He was definitely crying now, and every sniff of his broke her heart a little more.
"I know, but I also know that it isn't all you. These things work both ways, and neither one of us has been doing a great job." She wouldn't cry. She couldn't cry.
"So what should we do?" He was barely more than whispering.
"I don't know, but I think you need to be the one to decide right now. I've told you how I feel about it." The line was quiet again. Ten seconds passed, then twenty then thirty. After a minute ragini spoke again. "There are three choices here. We should divorce, we figure out a way to make it work, or we take some time to figure it out." She waited a beat and then spoke one more time. "We don't have to make any permanent decisions tonight." Ragini glanced at the clock , already 25 minutes had passed. Again the line was silent. She pulled the phone away from her face and checked to make sure they were still connected. He sniffed again, loudly.
"How can we make it work?" Her heart fluttered,
Laksh painfully sighed this conversation was not going the way he expected .
Ragini thought for a moment "I also want it to work laksh " Again silence. Before she could stop herself more words came spilling out. "But only say yes to that if you want to. If that's not something you even want to do, then we need to end it. Because I don't want to feel like a burden or like I'm annoying you "
"You're not a burden! I do," laksh paused for half a second "care about you." The fact that laksh couldn't say "love" brought every hope she had of saving the relationship down in a fiery crash. Now as she know the bitter reality she cant compromise her self -respect, dignity and most important forced love.
"If you are not crazy about me, don't settle. You deserve to be so happy, and you deserve to be crazy about someone." As she said it, she remembered the first time he told her he loved her, and how after he had used that very phrase to used her And she knew he remembered it too.
"I'm so sorry," laksh was crying in earnest now, so hard that the words became difficult to understand. "I am the biggest jerk, because the perfect girl is right here in front of me and I know
you would do anything for me, and I'm not crazy about you." The admission broke her resolve not to cry, and for a moment they sat, not saying anything, but crying with and for each other from thousands of miles apart.
This time, she let him break the silence. A minute passed, and then two before he finally spoke.
"I think," she took a breath. "I think we should call it." Hearing the words, the world sharpened into focus.
"no," he said, taking a deep breath and steeling herself for whatever was coming next. But although she had every intention of letting him speak, she found words tumbling out of her mouth at an alarming speed.
"You are going to do great things, whenever you figure out who you are and what you're going to be, it's going be great. And I'll be okay, I don't want you to think that I regret anything because I don't. I had so much fun with you, and I wouldn't have changed one second of it." ragini could feel the tears making their way back into her eyes. "You are going to be so happy, and you are going to find a girl you are crazy about and you'll just know. And as sorry as I am that she isn't me, I hope you have the happiest life. I only want what's best for you." laksh was sobbing on the other end of the line. "I will always care for you. Don't worry about me, I will be fine. You will be fine too."
The words reminded her of a conversation they had had in the winter.
It was silent again. His breathing had returned to normal. "I guess this is it then." She said. "I don't really know what else to say."
"This isn't a goodbye forever," laksh told her, his voice still shaking, but without tears. "I will talk to you later. I have no intention of not having you in my life."
"Okay," ragini said, trying to ignore the growing lump in her throat. "I need some time though. And if you want to be friends, you'll have to be the one to initiate it. Because I don't think I can." This time her voice sounded small.
"no no no ragini i want you," he said, and she knew exactly what his face looked like as he said it.
She began to cry again, so rather than let him hear her tear laden voice, she clicked the off button.
And she cried.
She cried for all the times he had professed his love for her when he didn't mean it, and for the future that would never be. And he cried because he knew deep down that she would never speak to him again. She cried for the last goodbye, and he cried for losing her, for not able to hold her kiss her again.
Heyy raglakians
I sure hope you enjoyed this. :) My next os update will be either on saturday or sunday
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Edited by shehriz - 9 years ago
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