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Credits: "PUBALI"🤗
CHAPTER 4Oh god may you have cut my heart deep, I would have resisted that pain, but the pain of losing love, kills me more and I feel really weak today as world again turned against me, this time causing more pain.
Her first love, was love of someone else, how could she love him , she could not bear the pain in love , her first love, where she was at fault.
Days passed and passed, 15 days were over, swara missed ragini alot, she wanted to share her pain with her sister, ragini's grandmaa was still unwell so she couldn't join as yet, swara was very thankful to laksh and his friends and yuvika and shipra. They were always with her. Swara usually encountered with sanskar but both ignored each other and use to select to carry on with their works .
Sanskar never missed to shave, as he wanted to be the way swara wanted him to be.
One fine day
Swara was passing through the corridor and she saw sanskar smiling on phone, actually he was talking to someone , but swara thought he was kavita his wife. She felt pang .
Swara went to class, yes she hurt very hurt. Tears were visible in her eyes, she sat next to yuvika , "hey, daredevil, wats up" yuvika giggled. Swara flashed a forced smile. "all okk.." shipra asked patting her shoulder.
"ya shipra, I m fine " she smiled. Her heart shouted, " you are a lier". "swara but u don't look okk anything wrong." swara's lips shivered but she had to control. "yuvika, shipra AC.. actually I M missing ragini.." swara let her tears flow from her eyes, yes this was the truth, but we can call it a half truth, she was missing ragini , she want to hug her, cry her heart to her sister. Yuvika and shipra hugged her.
Lecture started, during whole of the lecture, swara was mentally absent, her mind was stuck on sanskar, but no she had to forget him, he was not meant for her, lecture ended, she dint heard a single word. "swara come, lets go to garden , its party time yrr, omi's b'day" swara dint replied to shipra's questions . yuvika holded her hand, "swara u are okk na,, lets okk, all might be waiting for us" said yuvika , swara smiled and left with them.
GARDEN
"look the lazy people r here" omi said , showing his watch to 3 of them, yuvika and shipra bit their tongue. "OK sorry, actually class exceded a bit." yuvika giggled, amna came and wrapped her hand around swara's neck . "hey wat happened to you, so silent" she asked to which swara simply smiled. Laksh came upto swara and holded her hand. Just then sanskar was passing by and saw it. Laksh leaned on swara's shoulder and whispered in her ears "I want to talk to you, come" laksh completed and took her with him, still holding her hand. Sanskar saw this clenching his jaws.
You holding someone else's hands is like someone is abusing me of my presence, my heart is shouting , can't you listen, "you are mine swara" but my mind is smiling sarcastically "this heart is stupid, this will end u up in darkness , more darkness" the debate between heart and mind was never over.
"lucky, where are you going " asked omi. " just few minutes buddy" smiled laksh and took swara with him, sanskar left feeling disguised.
Laksh and swara were alone in the garden after some distance. "u missing ragini na" he said and swara nodded hiding her tears. "but swara you wanted to know about sanskar sir na, more is yet left to know about him" he wanted to divert her mind from ragini, but he dint knew he was digging her pained nerve. "laksh I dint want to listen anything about him" she bluntly said. "swara please listen, I know u were very curious to know" laksh said and swara stayed silent. "as I told you he is my cousin's husband" swara got weak on her limbs she can't again and again listen that she has lost in love. But his next words, shocked her. "my cousin sister kavita, passed away 5 years ago, since then sanskar sir is all alone, he never talks to anyone, all in his world,..."laksh kept speaking but swara's heart panged, she misunderstood him, all his smiles, his staring and admiring her were perhaps not fake. But he had lost his love, he is all alone. Tears took swara's eyes. "hey swara, I know yrr sanskar's tale is really painful, but u don't cry, I dint said u for that" swara wiped her tears and smiled to him and excused and left. She ran to the management building. "have u seen sanskar sir" she asked a boy, he denied. She covered almost whole complex searching for him, but she couldn't find him, and then she reminded of backyard and ran till there, because of running she started breathing heavily she was holding her chest, and saw sanskar sitting in the same bench, that according to her was not fit for any human to sit on.
She came in front of him, still breathing heavily , holding her chest, with her bag almost on her finger which she was about to drop, her heavy breathes made him open his eyes, he was shocked at the same time confused seeing her in front of him.
"swara" sanskar stood up panickly, and holded her tight, "what happened, you came running" he asked and swara flashed a smile from her pain. "where is your pump" at his question she opened her bag and took her pump and sanskar made her sit in the bench. He sat wrapping his arms around her. She took some time to stabilize. "wat on earth made you to run like an idiot" he shouted out of concern. Swara smiled and tears took her eyes. Without even thinking , she hugged him in the next second, yes! Sanskar was shocked at her act, her this action was confusing. But unknowingly his hands reached her waist resting there, and he felt her warmth.
His body became sand when she hugged him, he scattered at her touch and was unable to resist and hugged her back. His empty world got a person to fill up the empty blanks of his life. Tears gushed from his eyes. The blowing winds, took all his agonies along with them, this made him feel that he finally got his answer of still being alive, yes! Reason was she , she was her.
She couldn't resist seeing him right in front of him, he really admired her, that feeling was new to her, all social boundations were blown off with their love. Winds whipped their differences, she was complete today.
Sanskar realised wat he was doing and left her. He was unable to face her. "wat happened sir," she asked softly. "wat u just did was wrong swara" he stood without facing her. "wrong wat wrong sir, wat wrong I did, ohhh I don't tell me loving someone is wrong" she completed , sanskar was taken aback by her response.
He couldn't believe his ears , did she just said love, his heart melted his eyes couldn't control anymore, tears were almost on the gateway and were beating the doors to let them flow, but no he can't spoil her age for his so called love
He controlled him and faced her "wat you just said swara Bose" he asked almost arrogantly. "swara saw her in disbelief. [B]"sir I know that you lost your wife, you are alone, that's why you are always sad" swara said with tears, holding his hands. her cute orbs were calling him to kiss them, yes he wanted to hug her, after years he could share his agonies with someone, but no he wasn't that selfish
"stop it swara bose, I lost my wife, that's none of your business" he turned his back to her. "I love you" she said and this was enough for his eyes to shed tears , his lips took a smile, he wanted to reply back but he can't, his misery. "are you Mad, you are a student and I m your professor, I helped you few times doesn't mean I'll tolerate your this behavior." he shouted She smiled to him, "yes I m a student, I have never seen you helping random people and.."she cane close to him and touched his cheeks. "do you usually shave on understanding wat your students want." swara sweetly smiled in tears. He can't see her crying , her every point was right, she was right, but he is not right for her
He jerked get hand away "look swara I can't take your obsession any more , okk I understand college life is all about crushes and grudges but please not me I m warning you, and do you really think I shaved coz of you. How childish of u" he showed to huff in annoyance and left, swara was in tears , he broke her again.
Sanskar went to a silent area, and looked around to confirm no one was there, and cried his heart, he loved her more than anything "dumbo I love you too" he smiled sarcastically. "my world dint allow me to confess this to you" tears rolled down his cheeks.
Swara was crying there "I know Sir, you love me, but why, why you are not accepting that, you think I m immature" she cried.
AFTER FEW DAYS
Hostel
Swara was still in bed, flipping and flopping. When someone kissed her forehead, he opened her eyes to that affection and was really happy to see ragini back "ragini" she hugged her tight, and her pain flowed from her eyes , she started sobbing. Ragini was perplexed at her condition. "swara wat happened, u are okk na" she asked cupping her face. "ra... ragini.. I lost" she sobbed hard, ragini hugged her, she couldn't see her swara in this condition. "tell me wat happened, all OK na" ragini asked. Swara wiped her tears. "I ... I love sanskar sir..." swara completed , yes ragini could get a bit wat might have happened. "wat, .. I mean swara r u serious, and don't tell me u already told him this.." when swara nodded in yes, ragini huffed. She guessed his reply. "swara may be he was not meant for you, and he is very elder than you swara, you are so young now" ragini tried to make her understand. But swara dint listened anything, she narrated how laksh told her about sanskar and bla bla. "swara please don't think about him, he is not meant for you, now get ready smasap, we have to go to class. " swara nodded and went to washroom.
Ragini went in deep thoughts , ya she felt something in swara, but she could hv never thought this could be the reason. She wiped the thoughts. As soon as swara came they left for college.
PSYCHOLOGY CLASS
There was test, all of them were scared about test, suddenly sanskar entered the class , all got shocked seeing new professor, the swara and group dint noticed him, they were engrossed in their books, but sanskar's eyes fell on her only, and her kept her admiring hastely snatching books from yuvika and ragini. But he felt a pang he couldn't see that carefree and charming swara, she was not smiling, past few days he had died to see her smile but no she dint smiled. " sir" said yuvika this was when swara and ragini saw him ragini clenched her jaws, he wants to punch him for making her sister cry,but she has to control. Swara blankly stood up and all wished him.
"good morning, actually I M here to inform you about the freshers that is tomorrow so please be there, we all feel lucky to have freshers like you" he formally passed the invitation. "wat if we couldn't come" ragini asked with bloodshot eyes, sanskar realised the reason for this "miss. Ragini, its totally your wish, but it would be good if u all can make time to come." he said to ragini but yes was in a sense inviting swara. And then he left. Ragini holded swara's shoulder. Teacher entered and they gave their test and left after the first class as they were supposed to prepare for freshers.
Laksh had called up ragini almost 100 times on deciding his dress, yes she became one of his best friends. But for ragini he was turning someone else .
All decided on their dresses and were ready for the freshers though swara had no mood of attending it, she did it for ragini.
FRESHERS PARTY,
Whole of the college was beautifully decorated. Every student was very excited , sanskar dumply stood near a wall . he was missing swara she was nowhere seen. He want to see her. He closed his eyes and "swara..." he said
and heard "yaa ragini, I m here" he opened his eyes, to see the prettiest girl of the hall.
Ragini and laksh entered together
Sanskar and swara's eyes met. They felt a sense of connectivity. Ragini and laksh were together roaming in the party hall. Swara excuses everyone and sat in the corner of the hall, whereas sanskar stood in another extreame corner.
Tenu itna main pyaar karaan
Ek pal vich sau baar karaan
Tu jaave je mainu chhad ke
Maut da intezaar karaan
Sanskar started walking and kept staring swara. She had tears in her eyes, and was hiding from everyone. Sanskar kept looking her. In between miss. Richa came to sanskar and started chatting with him, in actual she was flirting swara saw it, she was pained.
Ke tere liye duniya chhod di hai
Tujhpe hi saans aake ruke
Main tujhko kitna chahta hoon
Ye tu kabhi soch na sake (x2)
Sanskar talked to miss Richa, but stole glances from her. Suddenly she disappeared from there. And his eyes started searching for her.
Kuch bhi nahi hai ye jahaan
Tu hai toh hai isme zindagi
He panicked , she was nowhere, moreover he was worried for her health. He went to ragini. "ragini where is swara" he said , ragini was about to answer him taunting but then realised she was with all.
Kuch bhi nahi hai ye jahaan
Tu hai toh hai isme zindagi
Ab mujhko jaana hai kahaan
Ke tu hi safar hai aakhiri
Then ragini realised she was no where. She got scared. Everyone started searching her. Sanskar was the most disturbed with this, he asked almost everyone there.
Ke tere bina jeena mumkin nahin
Na dena kabhi mujhko tu faasley
Main tujhko kitna chahti hoon
Ye tu kabhi soch na sake
Sanskar finally found her out of the hall, siting on the grass, he went to her, "are you mad, where were you" then he realised she was sitting like a statue, sanskar shakes her, "swara" she kept smiling and collapsed in his arms. He then realised, she had cut her nerves. Sanskar got tears, this was second time, he was about to loose his love.
Tere liye duniya chhod di hai
Tujhpe hi saans aake ruke
Main tujhko kitna chahta hoon
Ye tu kabhi soch na sake
"swara, wat was that are you mad" tears gushed from his eyes and fall on swara's face. "I love you sir, and I know u also love me... But don't think I cut my nerves for you.. , swara Bose is not soo weak, ... hhh.. Hall me na.. Naill dig hua tha... hhh.. she heavily breathe smiling lovingly . sanskar hugged her tight at her still attitude.
Aankhon ki hai yeh khwahishein
Ki chehre se teri na hatein
Neendon mein meri bas tere
Khwabon ne li hai karwatein
"swara you are mad,,, I love you dumbo" and buried her in his chest. Swara tightly hugged him back, sanskar then realised she was touching him with the same hand that was injured. "swara..." sanskar freed her and saw her hand damn it was colour, he fell for her trap. She saw him and laughed. "Mr. Sanskar maheshwari I m swara Bose, I said na I m not so weak, look u accepted na, sirrr..." and she smiled.. "I really want to slap u swara, are you mad was this a joke" he almost shouted. "ohooo, it means next time, I'll have to try it seriously" she said making puppy face. Sanskar playfully slapped her and hugged her. "u mado , I love you, I don't care watever the world will say, u are mine" sanskar got his world.
Ki teri ore mujhko leke chalein
Ye duniya bhar ke sab raaste
Main tujhko kitna chahta hoon
Ye tu kabhi soch na sake
Swara was really happy, she couldn't believe she got her love, her only her sanskar.
Tere liye duniya chhod di hai
Tujhpe hi saans aake ruke
Main tujhko kitna chahta hoon
Ye tu kabhi soch na sake
"now lets go in all will be waiting, n ya I m still professor" sanskar said , swara nodded in a childish way.
"swara look please don't share this with anyone okk, let me fix the things, then I'll myself talk to everyone" he cupped her face. Swara felt in his palms.
"okkk, but I'll tell ragini, I can't hide anything from her plzzz sanskar sir please." she pleaded and he nodded in approval. "and now it's my turn, can we get married after my UG???" sanskar smiled at her silly quest. "swara you are just 19 now and after your UG u will be just 22, do you really think I'll let you spoil your career, and ya if in that you start loving someone else please let me know" he teased her, she slammed his shoulder. "sanskar I have seen my world in you, and ya we ll marry after my UG only, after that Ill complete my studies, I can't trust the girls around she made a puppy face. He nodded, he wants her to make her career.
They entered the hall, swara was blushing , sanskar simply admired her, swara ran to ragini as soon as she saw her. "ragini, I m very happy" swara hugged her. "wats so special" came laksh. "nothing much I m happy coz we got admission here" swara said and laksh smiled to her. Ragini perplexly looked at swara, before vanishing she was so upset and now.
"Guys and girls , this is time for the Miss. And Mr. Fresher of the evening.." said a girl in her late 20s, probably she is a professor. All holded their breathe except swara, she was really happy today she dint wanted anything else. "and the winner for Mr. Fresher is Amish Roy, Sociology department" a handsome boy came from the middle of the crowd. Laksh hooted as his department turned out to be the winner.
"And for miss. Fresher there is a tie, coz these two girls have unmatched excellence I guess, Swara Bose and Ragini Gadodia. sanskar and laksh, along with their friends were the most happiest with this. The sisters hugged each other and took to the the title.
HOSTEL
Swara narrated each and every incident in detail to her. Ragini kept her eyes widening with her every word, "wow!! I don't know how to react, but I M happy that you are happy, ragini smiled. "but swara do you really think this relation can end up somewhere in peace " ragini said collecting the point , swara went in deep thoughts and then sanskar's smiling face brighted her eyes " ragini , I don't know about that but he is my life now, i n this one month, he changed the definition of love for me" swara got tears in her eyes. Ragini hugged her.
love finds its way on its own, we are no one to teach it its path, they were finally one, but is it so easy to find the love and more importantly to accomplish it, no way there is lot more they have to face. PRECAP:laksh came to know about SwaSan affair, and leap.
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Guys before Wednesday I couldn't update due to busy schedule I'll update on Wednesday for sure.
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NIYATI
Edited by Niyatiswaragini - 9 years ago
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