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This story is based on upcoming SwaSan MU Track ,it's piece of my imagination on what may happen after the bomb blast in sanskar's car..
Scene 1(Swasan room)
"you look so admirable when you sleep peacefully , sanskar " Swara smiled looking at sanskar , who was sleeping there on his bed , peacefully..
Memory of that day still sends shivers down Swara's spine , that blast , that shock , only in a few minutes she felt as if she had lost her world , she rushed outside before everyone else only to find him unconscious lying in a pool of blood, she won't forget the pain she felt that time, even when she herself got injured , she never felt the way she sensed that day , she screamed "sanskar" and took his head in lap and called him madly to open his eyes , she can't remember what exactly she was blubbering that time but one thing she knows that multiple times she prayed to God for his consciousness in exchange of her own life, if possible...
Sanskar returned home from hospital yesterday, and Swara still can't understand why he is behaving in so changed way with her , she was equally shocked when few minutes before that blast , he offered her to go for divorce and that was also too firmly...
Sujatha was constantly blaming swara for everything wrong happened with sanskar , sometimes she is crossing all limits of insulting her community and character , but swara never felt bad , because it's sanskar whose cold behavior breaking her inside in every way possible, even after returning home, he objected over swara's genuine attempts of taking care of his injuries and continuously insisting her to return home , Swara pleaded in front of him to give her some time so that she can stay with him until he recovers completely , but he was too stubborn to listen to her but it was DP who intervened and granted swara's request to stay there with Sanskar in his room until he gets well.
But Sanskar seems to be avoiding her in every possible way , she shifted on couch fighting with sanskar's continuous "it was not needed, there are many more rooms in this house , you can stay there " type instructions but swara chose to ignore...
Swara was lost in her feelings and memories when Sanskar just turned his face and opened his big eyes...
"morning sanskar " smiled swara..
Sanskar wished "morning" but without any smile and tried to stand up but was about to loss his balance..
"sanskar..samhalke.." Swara came running there and held his hand to help him...but he made himself free from her grip at once and said "it's okay , I can manage.."
swara felt terribly bad but still said , "tum fresh ho jao , main coffee le aati hu , uske baad medicine bhi lena hai.."
"Swara, mujhe pata hai kab kaunsa medicine lena hai , main bachcha nahi hoon , aur you need not to worry for me.." Sanskar said firmly, Swara looked up at his face but there was no smile , no feelings , totally different from the Sanskar who was her friend , her shelter , her husband, this person is totally changed , and she really has no idea why?
"tumhe kya ho gaya hai sanskar ? kyun tum aise behave kar rahe ho?" Asked Swara, drops of tears were visible in her eyes.."
sansker saw that , her tears stabbed his heart immediately ,no , he still can't see her crying , he always feels an urge to kiss her tears away and he this time also he held her by shoulder to console her but at that very moment he remembered what he had seen that day in farm house , Swara laughing and jumping with joy with Lakshya, It's okay ,he always wanted Swara's happiness, but he could not accept swara's changed behavior , in front of his eyes swara always showed immense hatred for Lakshya , but then how come she got so changed in his absense ? Is it because he came between two love birds and swara is forcefully doing duty of his wife..Uhh that forceful word , he hates that word , he is forcefully living with a lady who loves another man with all her heart ,uhhh this thinking always makes him hate himself...
He controlled his urge of consoling her and backed off completely saying "Swara mujhe kuch nahi huya hai , aur mujhe nahi pata tumhe kyun aisa laag raha hai ki mujhe kuch huya bhi hai... dekho baat sirf itni si hai , tumhe ye sab takleef uthane ki koi zaroorat nahi hai... bas aur kuch din...fir main tumko iss takleef se azaad kar dunga... humesha ke liye.."
Swara was too shocked to say anything...she was not controlling her tears now, it was flowing freely down her cheek..
Sanskar avoided facing her further and turned to the door while saying " waise main ab kaafi theek hu , aj se office bhi jana padega, tum agar chaho toh , baadi chod sakta hu tumhe..."
"main khud chali jaungi Sanskar...thank you" this time swara replied controlling her tears . she looked at sanskar , Sanskar noticed both anger and tears in those big eyes and lowered his head to control his own tears and said "okay as you wish" and left..
Swara broke down in tears as he left..."why sanskar ? why you are doing this to me...I ,..I did not tell you but..your words killing me a thousand times...galti toh batao mujhe maine kya kiya hai? I can't bear this pain sanskar..I love you, yes I love you..I am sorry I realized it very late , uske liye joh bhi sazza do manjur hai , par aise mujhe dur mat karo khudse.."
1 hour later :
Sanskar was ready for office, even after repeated attempts by his family to stop him , he did not listen and remained determined that he would start office work from that day... DP arranged a new car for him and he was just checking that , suddenly his brother Lakshya called him from back "tune swara se kya kaha" his tone was quite rude..
Sanskar did not turn back he continued checking car and said " use kahne ke liye mere pass ab kuch hai nahi.."
Lakshya forcefully made sanskar face him and said "fir wo ro kyun rahi thi ? maine sab dekha.."
Sanskar felt pain at once thinking about swara crying but managed to say " mujhe nahi pata , maine kuch nahi kaha aisa..."
"jhoot mat bol..you know what bhai? saare problem ka karan tu hai hai...dekh , meri Swara ko rulana mat..warna.." shouted Lakshya
"Warna kya? mujhe koi shaukh nahi hai teri swara ko rulane ka.." Sanskar replied in rage , "meri swara" words made his blood boiling in anger at once...
"aur sun mujhe pata hai , woh teri hai , haan I am sorry sorry sorry tum dono ki bich aane ke liye...mujhe pata nahi tha ki ab bhi wo teri hi hai...kiunki usne kaha tha ki wo tujhe nahi chahti hai ab warna maine use pahle bhi kaha tha ki main usse iss rishtey se azaad karna chahta hu...ab mujhe pata chala hai , ki uski khusi tere saath hai , mein to problem hi hu , maine tum dono ko alag ki hai , and trust me main ab bhi bhugat raha hu us galti ki saaza,haan mujhe pata hai swara tujhse pyar karti hai , tujhe chahti hai , usko mere saath rahna achcha nahi lagta hai isiliye ro rahi hai , ab khush ?? main bohat jaldi usse azaad kar dunga, fir toh wo humesha ke liye khush rahegi hai na? tere sath ? I will make it sure ki mera shakal bhi use na dekhna pade? okay ? maaf kar mujhe mere bhai main teri Swara ko khush nahi rakh paya.."
Sanskar stopped realizing that his eyes are teary and Lakshya may see that...Lakshya said " chalo achcha hai , at last tujhe sach ka pata chal hi gaya..I hope, aage se dhyan rahega..." he left..
sanskar also got in his car and left..
But none of them noticed Swara who was standing just the doorstep of the house and could clearly hear whatever sanskar told Lakshya...she was broken and shocked at the same time too upset to react , she was so surprised to hear all these ,"sanskar , tum aise sochte ho mere bareme? toh ye baat hai joh tumne aapne andar dabaye rakkhe hai? isiliye tum mujhse dur bhaag rahe ho? kiunki ..kiunki tum ye sochte ho ki main...Lakshya se..cheee"
Swara silently entered their bed room , she was neither crying nor angry...she was calm, she took her bag , packed her few clothes, then took a paper and write a letter for sanskar
" Sanskar, mujhe nahi pata tha ki tumhe mujh par bharosa hi nahi raha, ya phir bharosa hai bhi, toh galat baat ki , mujhe nahi pata achanak kis baat se tumhe lagne laga ki main Lakshya se... maine kabhi nahi socha ki tum mujhe iss tarha galat samjhogi..lekin galati tumhara nahi , mom theek kahti hai , sayed mujhe hi nahi pata rishtey nibhate kaise hai , aur main tumhare layek bhi nahi hu...main tumhe mere wajah se takleef me nahi dekhna chahti hu... isiliye me jaa rahi hu , humesha humesha ke liye..jate jaate bas ye baat kahungi..mujhe tumhare bhaai se koi matlab nahi hai , me uske zindegi me iss janam toh kya , aanewale kisi bhi janam me wapas nahi jaungi , kiunki mujhe usse pyar nahi raha ..nahi karti hu me pyaar usse, aur yehi baat maine usko usdin farm house me bataya tha, aur usne muhse wada kiya ki wo bhi mujhe aur force nahi karega...isiliye main khush thi..mujhe laga main tumse request karungi ki humare rishtey ko aur ek mauka dete hai..par mujhe ye sab kahne ka mauka hi nahi mili...usse pahle hi tum mujhe talaq dene ki baat kar li sabse... chot laagi mujhe Sanskar , maine kuch nahi bola, uske baad agar main iss ghar me hu . wo sirf is liye ki , main tumhe dard me chodke nahi jaana chahti thi , main toh bas dilse tumhare pass rahke tumhe theek hote huye dekhna chahti thi..lekin sayed tumhe wo bhi manjur nahi, tumhe pasand nahi main ihaan rahu...toh theek hai main chali jaati hu , par ek baat zaroor kahungi , mujhe nahi pata tha ki me itni buri hu , ki apne hi devar ke sath sambandh banau.agar aj tumne na bola hota...lekin , khuda jaante hai sach kya hai , aur ab koi jaane ya na jaane mujhe aur fark bhi nahi padta...meri galati bhi hazar hai , maine tumhe bohat hurt kiya, aur isske liye agar tum zindegibhar mujhe punish karte rahoge toh mujhe manjoor hogi..main apni safai me kuch nahi kahna chahti hu , kiunki ab jab bharosa hi nahi raha, toh aur baat badhanese faida nahi...God tumhe dunia ki saari khusi de, khuda kare , tumhe mera shakal bhi kabhi na dekhna pade... divorce paper main sign karke isske saath hi rakhke jaati hu...tum jis par pahle hi sign kar chuke ho... good bye sanskar"
Swara left the letter on the bedside table and silently opened the drawer and took out the divorce paper, stopped a little and took a deep breath , then signed it and placed it on the letter...then silently left the room..
Sujatha and AP noticed Swara leaving mm, AP became worried and questioned "beta , kahi jaa rahi ho kya?"
Sujatha thought in mind "chalo achcha hai "
Swara smiled and took blessings from both of them and said "nahi badi maa, wo main soch rahi thi ki, sanskar ab theek hai , toh main ghar laut jaati hu"
AP:"lekin beta , achanak kya ho gaya? Sanskar ko pata hai na ki tum jaa rahi ho?"
Sujatha :"aap chodiye na jiji , chodi chahti hai toh jaane dijiye na, waise bhi padeshan karke rakkhi hai mhare chode ko.."
Swara smiled and said :"ab aur kabhi padeshan nahi karungi mom , aur badi maa, aap chinta mat kijiye... Sanskar bhi yehi chahta hai.."
AP :"beta driver tumhe chod de?"
Swara :"nahi badi maa, please, main khud chali jaungi..."
Ap was about to say something but Sujatha stopped her and said "theek hai tu ja haan , khush rahna..."
Swara nodded and silently left..
4 hours later at Sanskar's office:
Sanskar was talking over his phone , he was visibly worried ..
Sanskar :"haan badi maa, kya problem hai , boliye naa?"
Ap: "beta tum bas jaldi se ghar aa jaao , baad me batati hu , jaldi aana haan.."
On returning home, sanskar got to know that swara left and Ap told him that she gone missing after that, she did not return baadi , and none knows where she has gone...
AP :"beta wo upsetthi , mujhe bohat chinta ho raha tha isiliye sharmishtha jee ko maine phone kiya lekin wo woha gayi hi nahi..beta. mujhe bohat dar lag raha hai , Baadi me bhi sablog bohat chinta me hai beta, tumhe pata hoga wo kaha jaa sakti hai?"
Sanskar was shocked at this news, his anger , pain everything got vanished at that moment and he felt as if he has lost his everything..he tried swara's phone but it was not reachable ... he was about to rush outside when Sujatha called him...
"choda jaate jaate chodi ne, achcha kaam bhi kiya thare baste...ye dekh"
Sujatha handed him the divorce paper signed by swara, as Sanskar took it from sujata, the letter which was kept in between the pages of that document , fell on ground..
"arrey , dekho ye letter bhi chod gayi tumhare liye.."
Ap picked up the letter and gave it to Sanskar...as Sanskar going through each line, his eyes became teary , he felt her pain , her disappointment , he started cursing himself for hurting her this way , "I am sorry swara , dear ,I am Sorry ,mujhse bohat badi galti ho gayi , par ek baar mujhe maaf karke mere saamne aao , fir jo bhi sazaa chaho de dena main sir jhukake maan lunga" thought sanskar..
"Badi maa, aapke Sanskar ne bohat bada galti kar diya...usne apne hi pyar ko chot pouchya, muje pata hai wo iss waqt kahja ho sakti hai , aur aap apne kanha jee se kahiye ki mujhe wo wohi mile , jaha main ab jaa raha hu , kiunki agar woh mujhe nahi mili , toh main bhi kabhi wapas nahi aaunga..."
Saying so he stormed out of the house...
Sanskar reached Devi maa's mandir and there he got her ...sitting in front of the idol, and sobbing ...sanskar knew it , swara used to share her deepest secret and pain with devi maa only , recently Sanskar also came closer enough to know something about her feelings but as she got hurt by him , so she is back to her only shelter , her devi maa...
Seeing her in that devastated state, sanskar could not control his tears...he silently entered the temple, and sat exactly behind swara...Swara was lost in her questioning "to the God " woh mere bare me aise sochte hai? kyun maa? kya main itni buri hu ? main kaha jaun maa? baadi mein nahi jaa sakti..uske bina main nahi jee sakti ab , toh main aap ke pass chali jaun kya maa?wo mujhse ab pyar nahi karte toh main jeeke karungi kya? maine sabkuch kho diya hai maa"
Her last words sent shivers down sanskar's sine, he immediately covered Swara's mouth from behind and said "Swara aise mat bolo..."
Swara was shocked at his voice , his touch and turned back to see a broken sanskar standing there with a lots of guilty feelings on his face... but immediately after that swara remembered everything she heard in the morning and pushed him little and said " ab kyun aaye ho ihaan ? maine tumhe azzad kar di hai , ab kya dekhne aye ho ihan, chale jao..."
sanskar folded his hands and pleaded :"maine tumhe bohat hurt kiya swara, mujhe pata hai , isske liye koi bhi saaza chalega , par plz aise naraaz hoke rishta todke mat jaao, main nahi rahe paunga tumhare bina...bharosa tumse hai khudse kayi zyada, kabhi bhi mere aankhon me padh lena, mujhe laga , Main ne tumhara aur Lakshya ka rishta toda, toh mera koi haq nahi banta tumse pyar karne ka, jaise Ragini outsider hai waise me bhi outsider hu naa? mujhe laga tum mere saath happy nahi ho? tum zabardasti rista nibha rahi ho mere saath , isiliye main chahta tha ki tum azaad ho jaao mujhse...aur main isiliye tumse dur bhag raha tha, kiunki rokna muskil hota hai khudko , tumse pyar karne se...mere liye tumhare khusi ke siwa aur kuch bhi important nahi hai swara.. I love you more than anything else on earth.."
Swara cried " aur meri khusi tumse hai Sanskar, mujhe aise khudse kabhi dur mat karna, kabhi mujhse mat ruthna, warna agar firse main chali gayi na, toh tum kahi bhi dhundoge main aur kabhi nahi milungi.."
Sanskar could not take it more and pulled Swara in his embrace and said "Wada raha, main tumhare aankhon me aur kabhi aansu nahi aane dunga...aur kabhi tumhe apne se alag nahi hone dunga... kiunki tumhare bina mere toh saans bhi nahi chalta ab.."
sanskar cupped her face and kissed on her forehead and then on eyes to drink her tears...then he placed her hand on his chest and said "samajh rahi ho na..jaan lo...ye tumhare wajah se dhadakta hai..agar ab firse tumne dur jaane ki koshish ki, toh ye banda dhadakna chod dega..phir tumhara pati God ke pass.."
"Sanskar bas karo , kuch bhi bolte hi ja rahe ho.." Swara said with a cute anger..."tum mere ho , bhagwan ka bhi koi haq nahi mujhse bina puche tum par nazar bhi daale,"
swara said and blushed..
"achcha aisi baat hai? " Sanskar said teasingly, toh aaiye shrimati jee, isi baat pe diwali manaya jaye.."
"hawww Sanskar , tum mujhe manane patakhen kharidke laye ho... tum bhi ajaab ho , arrey log flowers laate hai , chocolates late hai , aur tum pataakhen laaye ho.." swara said with surprise
Sanskar gave a smirk " arrey my princess, patakhen nahi , sabse badi dushman ko laya hu , janane ke liye..."
He took out the divorce paper from his pocket and came outside the temple, then he took out his lighter and before burning the paper teased swara "soch lo...fir puri zindegi tumhe mera romance jhelna padega... dekho waise bohat dinose dabake rakkhe hai ,ab agar mauka mili pyar karne ka toh kasam se, meri bahon me hi raat hogi aur subah aankh bhi wohi khologi..phir mat kahna pyar nahi atya char hai...main thoda zyada hi romantic feeling mehsus kar raha hu , tumhara I love YOU sunne ki baad"
Swara who was blushing too much punched playfully on his back and Sanskar laughed and burnt the paper...
Then he turned to swara and streched his arms "tumse wada raha Swara, ab duniya ki koi bhi shakti hume kbhi alag nahi kar payega, hum dono ek honge humesha ke liye... har toofan aur har musibaat me main tumhare samne khada rahunga,bas tum itna karna, mera saath dena...taaki meri dhadkan chalti rahe..tumhi meri zindegi ho , aur jeene ka wajah bhi.."
Swara rushed and hugged him tightly , she felt completely safe now in his warm embrace, she was getting back her life, her love, her world..
Your eyes, mischievous and saline.
Your laugh, an airy insolence.
Your hair, waves undone and shine.
I will not forget this memory rife.
Until I breathe this life.
Until I breathe this life
Your laugh, an airy insolence.
Your hair, waves undone and shine.
I will not forget this memory rife.
Until I breathe this life.
Until I breathe this life
Swara broke the hug after few minutes and gave a cute smile watching sanskar who was standing there with closing eyes..
"hello mr...bohat huya...ab yehi rahne ka iraada hai kya?"
Sanskar opened his eyes and made puppy face "Kya yaar , tumhe nahi lagta ek do baar tumhe bhi mujhe manana chahiye..chalo main gussa hu ki tum theek se mujh se pyar nahi kiya nahi mujhe karne diya ab chalo manao nahito ab mein ihaanse ghar nahi jaunga..waise bhi ghar kaun jana chahta hai? main hu, tum ho sab perfect hai..."
"hawww Sanskar , bahana toh suno ekbar koi inka...main tumhe kyun manau ? gussa tumne dikhya tha merepe.."
Swara teased..
"okay toh main dikhata hu , manate kaise hai.." Sanskar pulled Swara again in his embrace , and suddenly it started raining...
The wind started blowing strongly,The thunderbolts made swara's body shiver and she tightly hugged sanskar back..he was feeling every beat of her heart, he could feel her every breath and with her every breath his heartbeat went even faster...
Yeh Saazish Hai Boondo Ki, Koi Khwahish Hai Chup Chup Si
Dekho Na...
Hawa Kuch Hole Hole, Zubaan Se Kya Kuch Bole
Kyun Doori Hai Ab Darmiyaan
Dekho Na..
.Sanskar held her shoulder, moved a strand of hair which was on her beautiful pink lips..
Phir Na Hawaayein Hongi Itni Besharam
Phir Na Dag Mag Dag Mag Honge Yeh Kadam
Saawan Yeh Seeda Nahin Koofiya Bada
Kuch To Baraste Hue Keh Raha
Samjo Na...
Sanskar moved his hand and with one stroke he opened swara's beautiful hair... Swara was blushing, sanskar hugged her and whispered in her ear " I am always there with you wherever you will go you will find me. You are never alone in this walk of life" saying so sanskar gave a light bite on her ear..
Jugnu Jaisi Chaahat Dekho Jale Mujhe
Meethi Si Mushkil Hai Koi Kya Karen
Hoton Ki Arzi Aisi Tukhrao Na
Saanson Ki Marzi Ko Jutlao Na
Chulo Na...
Swara blushed and moved little and kept her hands around his neck... Sanskar held swara's waist and pulled her more closer, he looked above and thanked God , everything was perfect at that moment , like a pure bliss, Sanskar could feel swara's warm breath against his wet chest ,Sanskar brought his lips near her cheek and kissed away a drop of tear that appeared due to the immense pleasure swara was experiencing that moment ...he looked into her eyes; eyes that said so much. She closed them as he brought lips close to hers and touched them gently..
they shared a long passionate lips, under rain , with an unspoken promise of being there with each other no matter what happens, with a feeling that finally their souls are being connected with each other , where none speak , still both heard one another's heart's commitment " You are mine, and I will be yours , will remain yours, till the end, and beyond...eternity"
and the two souls kept standing there hugging each other while the time, the wind , the rain and the universe ceased for that moment to bless the heavenly couple for a new beginning .
#end of OS
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