Swasan OS ' Never letting you go. '

She was scared and in tears. Her hands were in pain beacause of the tight ropes around it. Blind folded , her eyes ached to see. To see her parents, Ragini , the familiar surroundings , the vibrant blue walls of her room. Her room ; no it was his room. Sanskaar. The name haunted her mind. How she wished that he would be right now by her side. Assuring her that Swara its alright, we will be out of here in minutes. She missed him. She missed his smile, his talks. When she had come to trust him this much was a mystery. Maybe beacuse he was genuine, maybe because she knew he regreted his decisions more than anything. Maybe beacuse she knew he loves her.

Love. This word scared her. After all it was beacuse of this magical emotion that her life was in pieces. It was her love for her sister that made her blind to her activities, that she never realized what Ragini was upto. It was her love for her parents that made her to go into this fake marriage scenario that ended up in her getting married really. And it was beacuse the man she loved never really trusted her enough to believe her. Was her love that weak, fragile that it shredded in minutes. That it was now lost in a few days. Yes, she was not in love with Laksh and she will never be. The guy who does not have a mind of his own, the guy who cannot trust his love is not someone she will give her already broken heart. All love has done for her was breaking her into pieces which according to her will never fall together again.

She has read in books about love which stands against the world. The love which trusts.

Everyone has dreams. Dreams about a loving Prince who will stand for her no matter what. With Laksh she felt like she had finally found the Prince but in the end it turned out to be a mirage. If he cannot trust her then he has no right to love her. Something which he was claiming as of now. And Swara was sure enough that going back to him is not an option. She has moved on and now expected him to do the same with her sister. At the end of the day they were married.

Even she was married. It sounded wierd to her. But she then thought of Sanskaar and a sudden warmth passed over her heart. She has seen how much he loves her , trust her. Never once he doubted her when Laksh came out of her room late night. He knew that his brother was at fault and not her. He is everything that she expected someone else to be. He cares for her, trusts her and loves her selflessly. Infront of him she felt selfish. She knew she was using him and she wanted to stop but he would not let her do that. She felt bad about herself. How will she ever be able to repay was a question she had no answer to. He never asked for her love in return, not even a thankyou. He was her knight in shining armour and she was proud of it.

While she was busy doing comparisons in her mind, she felt her ropes getting lose. Someone was opening them. Maybe someone was finally here to save her. Her heart spoke out only one name and that was Sanskaar. As she was about to voice her thoughts her blindfold was off and she could not help but feel a ting of disappointment. It was Laksh. But the happiness of being safe overtook it as she clutched his hand tightly.

" Swara are you fine. Are you heart ?" Laksh asked frantically making her stand on her feets.

Swara broke out into tears again. She was sacred and out of fear she hugged him tightly.

" Its alright Swara . You are safe." Hearing his voice Swara realized the posution she was in and she pulled away from Laksh fastly. He felt bad but did not let it show on his face.

He made her sit on some stacks of rugs in a corner when he saw the wound on her leg. He was going to touch it when her voice stopped him in between. "Leave it Laksh. I am alright ."

He was disappointed. He wanted her to understand that he loves her and wants her back but she was not ready. He had no wish of staying married to monster and he wanted her back. She also loves him, dosen't she. He knew it was all acting to keep him with Ragini. He was not ready to believe that she does not love him anymore. He looked at her. She was scared, hurt and tear marks were all over her face but she was not ready to let him comfort her. Did she hate him this much ?

" You will not even let me tend to your wounds. ?" Laksh asked.

" These are nothing compared to the ones I already have . And for sure these pain less." Swara replied slowly.

" I never meant it to happen Swara."

" But you did not stop it. You did not trust me."

" But I Love... "

"Stop right there." Swara stopped him sharply. " You don't love me Laksh Maheswari , if you did you would have trusted me." She continued.

" I am sorry for what happened. I should have trusted you but don't deny my love. Maybe it was weak but still it was there. Don't deny those moments Swara."

" I never pointed out those moments .They were beautiful. They will always hold a special place in my heart. I am not denying that I loved you. But get it in your head that I don't love you anymore. Those moments I will always treasure. They showed me the beautiful side of love but that is past Laksh. And you should get it."

" I loved it when we sneaked out from our families to meet each other during marriage celebrations." Laksh smiled at the distant memories as he voiced them.

" It was fun. But those days are gone. It was a magical experiencing love but now it is long gone. It feels like years have passed."

" But Swara. How can you fall out of it. Please understand my love."

" There is nothing left to understand Laksh. You have to move on. Stop doing this again and again. I am never coming back to you. It was your fault that you lost me. That day you treated me like a option and today I am leaving you like a choice. What you feel is not love. And I am not a object that will get tossed from here to there. " Swara stated sharply as tears rolled from her eyes.

She was in pain. Physical as well as mental. Her leg hurt and also her heart. Tears were continuously streaming down her face as he recalled the past few months of her life. Meeting Laksh. Falling in love with him. Reuniting her family. Her marriage preparations . And then her sister's betrayal. Laksh's lack of trust. Separation of her parents. Laksh and Ragini's marriage. It hurt to much . How she wished that she can just delete these memories from her mind in a click. She had lost to much. And she was scared of loosing it all over again. Right now she only wished to get out of here. Right now all she wanted was to be with her family. To be engulfed in the comforting arms of Sanskaar and she knew that at that point of time for once she will forget all her pain.

Laksh looked at Swara as she was immersed deep in her pool of thoughts. He wondered what she was thinking about. Home ? His love ? His betrayal ? Sanskaar ? Laksh stopped right there. No not Sanskaar. He knew they were friends and he also knew that they do not love each other. They were just putting up a facade so that he will move on with Ragini. They can't fall in love. Swara love him, didn't she ?

While Laksh was struggling with his thoughts Sanskaar finally reached the place where they were. He quietly came in and began searching fir his brother. For Swara.

Was she alright ? If she was hurt he knew he was going to kill those people who had laid their hands on her. If he can beat up his own brother then others ; well just imagine. How he came to love her this much he will never know. She reminded him so much of Kavita. The same fire within. The same will to live. Swara was his life now. And he was not going to lose her. Maybe she will never love him back and he also has never expected anything. He loves her and keeping her happy is his main priority. He silently walked up praying that she was alright. Seeing her in pain was something he did not want.

He has seen how she cried during the nights. How broken she looked when she saw her parents separated. It was all becuase of him and he was going to everything in his power to give her back the happiness she deserves. Even if it meant letting her go. He will miss her smile, her long talks, the feel of her hair brushing him, her big doe eyes but if it will make her happy , he will do it. He finally came to a door and a sudden feeling that Swara was inside came over him.

Swara looked up to door. She knew someone was there. She knew Sanskaar was there. She saw Laksh was lost in his thoughts. She got up from her place as her leg began to hurt more. She knew it was him. She just had to reach till the door. She felt like she will fall but steadying herself she started to take a step when Laksh stood up and looked at her questionably. She ignored him and began moving atleast tryed moving when the door opened.

"Swara"

It was his voice. Swara felt shivers down her spine. She can recognize that voice everywhere. The voice full of care. She looked up to see Sanskaar running towards her and in that moment she felt all her pain wash away. He came to a halt just infront of her as if refraining from going very close to her. But right now nothing mattered to her. She engulfed him in her arms and hid her face in his chest. Sanskaar's arms immediately shot up as he held her tightly. Swara has started crying as he caressed her hair lightly.

" Shh. Stop crying Swara. First tell me are you hurt ? "

Swara pointed down at her feet but refused to leave him. She was feeling safe in his arms. She was feeling complete.

Sanskaar gently parted her from him and made her sit down. He cupped her face gently and wiped of the tears with his thumbs. And not for once Swara felt uncomfortable. She was calming down under his touch.

" Look at me Swara. I am here then why are you crying? . Its alright Swara . We will be out of here in minutes."

Swara looked up at him and hugged him again.

" Why didn't you come here earlier, you idiot. What took you so much time ?"

" Idiot. Your comic timing is not at all good Swara. I am here finally and you are calling me an idiot ?"

" I am scared Sanskaar. It was all so dark and the ropes they hurt. I was crying out helplessly and no one was there."

" Quiet Swara. Don't worry. I am here and I promise I am never leaving you alone again. "

Swara felt like she lost a piece of her heart. Her already broken heart. She realized that she was loosing those pieces to Sanskaar and he was silently joining them together again. He was mending. She falling in love all over again. Maybe slowly because this time she did not have to give just one big piece to someone but this time she was giving it in pieces and hence it was slow. If someone loves you like Sanskaar loves her anyone will fall in love again. She had realized that there is no use in stoping her heart beacuse her husband's love was bigger and stronger than her fear. She gripped him more tightly with no intention of letting him go.

A pair of tear filled eyes was silently watching the scene play out infront of it. Laksh felt broken. The two people sitting infront of him did not look like they were doing acting of being in love. From the point when Sanskaar entered he saw Swara's eyes filled with love and safety. The way she hugged him , the way he calmed her which he was not able to do. Or the way they bickered or the comfort he saw Swara felt in Sanskaar's arms. The way Sanskaar promised her or the way he looked at her, it all gave him a clear picture of two peaople in love. Laksh saw how Swara's eyes had lit up when she saw Sanskaar. The gleam that was missing when she saw him. He realized that he loosing Swara. No, he had already lost her. And this time he knew he was never getting her back.