Originally posted by: inlieu
Lovely piece. Can I add, though, that you've touched on an important point here?
We all know Swara isn't ready for this relationship, but neither is Sanskaar. He loves her, but is he really ready to move on with her? I don't think so. There is still too much angst in him, too much of his past spilling over to his present that is not healthy for this relationship. I don't he has actively thought that far into the future about growing old with her, though his subconscious and heart know that's what they want.
Yes, it's obvious that being in love with Swara, he would want to marry her. That is the natural route to take, but I don't believe Sanskaar has had the chance or time yet to envision them living as a married couple and being together just for each other. Free of boundaries, obligation, and guilt. My belief has been reinforced by his dialog in today's episode.
I'm not talking about Sanksaar resisting this marriage because he doesn't want to bind Swara to him by force. That is a big factor of course, but what I'm trying to say has nothing to do with Swara's rejection of him, and everything to do with his state of mind. I want to stress that Sanskaar himself is not really there yet, not fully ready to be a husband and life partner. He's doing and saying all the right things, being supporting and caring as one ought to, but there's a part of him that he's holding back.
His nightmares haven't gone away completely and are also the reason he is so protective of Swara. He can't let anything happen to her. Until he is completely free of the guilt and pain of his past, he won't be able to belong to Swara fully. I think he is still tied to Kavita and his past in a major way, and I hope the CVs explore this angle as it would make for beautiful storytelling. It would be stupid to just forget about her, because Sanskaar's journey in this show started from his revenge, and it defined who he has become. Swara's Sanksaar is a totally different one to Kavita's, and he would not have connected to Swara had it not been for the pain they have both suffered.