My Love After Shivin, Karam and Param!!! <3
Hey guys how are you ?
I really miss u all sooo much. And hun, sahas we won't forget u we can't forget u!!! I am just joking yaaar!! I still remember u lloolllzzz... I know that members are no more active after I left. Why?
What happened ? I really hate you all !!! How can you guys stop coming to Suvreen guggal forum??
And I thought it was our second home. (???)
I am inactive as I am out of country. It's great here. I like it.
Hope you guys have read my first OS. It was my first OS. People say to continue it but how ? I dunno what to write? It was just one shot story. Tell me how to continue and I will think about it.
I am liking my holidays. Everything is going amazing ! First day we came in the evening. We were sooo tired. Many people were in our house and cooked food for us but it irritated me as it was too loud and I was tired and wanted to sleep but no !! But after some people left then it was better. And others stayed with us. It was nice as I like it being with my cousins. I liked it. We slept then.
Second day was great too ! We went shopping and ate something outside. Really missed Turkish food. It was great. Then we went on 3rd day again shopping. We wanted to buy dresses for the marriage of my cousine. I couldn't find any soo easily. But then we found one ! It was pink and black dress. It was again late when we came home so we ate again outside. Then on 4th day I went shopping with my sisters and cousins. You know Kayseri (turkey)? If not then google it. It's great and big city. We went shopping in kayseri forum. It's the name of the biggest shopping centre. It was great. We again ate outside ! lolllzz.. (I dunno on which day we did what.. isliye I said 3rd or 4th day.. I don't remember everything perfectly)
And then next day we were at my grandparents' house. We ate there. In the next day we went again in kayseri forum. But we met our cousin who gets married. We went shopping with her. Her best friend was there too. She is a nice girl. I like her. And then after that day we were at my cousins parents house. And then in the next day we went to a hairdresser as it was henna-night. After we were finished we went at the house of them. As the henna-night was happening there. I was soo excited for it. When we arrived I saw many people whom I don't know. Isliye it was not so good but then I saw a boy in a room. He looked sad and innocent. He was looking soo cute. Then I went from the room and asked my cousin who he is. She said that he is coming from Istanbul. She told me about his past. His dad and his mom were always having arguments. 6 months ago they were always arguing. His dad was living somewhere else. And then 3 or 4 months ago they were good together but 2 months ago his dad was having car accident with OTHER WOMEN ! I was soo shocked and said when I heard that and yes it was true ! His dad is dead !
I really can't believe how such dads can have such great children. He has 2 elder sisters. Both were nice. He came with his 2 sisters and his mom. But then after sometime he went to dress up. He was looking nice. It was evening the people who are making music have arrived. Then we all danced. It was great. I always wanted to know more about that guy. He is 17 and his name is Tuncay. He is just 4 months elder than me. It's great. I then got to know that he was not my cousin. We were dancing halay. Hope u know it it's a Turkish dance were people are hand in hand and dancing. Do google it. It's actually not always hand in hand it's small finger to small finger. But then I too started dancing then when the song started to be faster then we all hold hands. Then my cousin took my hand and put it to Tuncays hand as she was going. Tuncay looked at me and smiled. I felt so amazed. His hand was soo gently. I then enjoyed dancing. Then after it was too late. We went inside of the house. Everyone came there. He was always standing near to me and looked at me. I dressed a pink dress. It's ofcourse not the same dress which I wanted to wear in marriage! Then after some people left my cousin who gets married asked us to stay there with her as it will be her last night in her parents house. So we didn't want to say no. We stayed there but the problem was that we didn't have clothes to sleep. We can't sleep with the dresses. So I took clothes from my cousins. I looked soo stupid. Tuncay too stayed there. They have arranged TV outside of the house. There are couches outside too. We wanted to watch the football match so my sister my cousins were sitting there. Then Tuncay came when I saw him wooww !! He was looking soo cute and hot aswell ! in black clothes !! hahaha.. he asked my cousin to go away a bit that he can sit. But gues what?? He sits near to me. Woowww !!! We had blankets over us. We are watching the match. Tuncay was soo cute he said that it's cold for him. I was laughing and asked him if he was saying the true ! :D Then my cousins mother came and said to him that it should not be cold for him as he is sitting in the middle of two girls. And yes.. ofcourse he got embarrassed. Then he took his mobile phone and is writing in whatsapp to someone. I was looking with whom he is writing. Actually I just wanted to irritate him and it happened. He asked me why I am looking and I said what he is doing. Lollzz.. he laughed and me aswell.
Then I asked my sister to give me her mobile phone as she has internet. I took it and opened facebook. I wanted to talk to my other cousin whom I trust more than everything ! But it only showed that I got message I clicked on it but it didn't come. Then I noticed that Tuncay is looking at it. I then asked him why he is looking and then he said that I too was looking then I said that I looked only 2 seconds. He laughed. You really have to see how he is laughing.. he is shining my heart !! llolllzz.. He is soo cute when he laughs isliye I was always joking. I wanted to see him laughing and not being sad. Now I think that he was not sad when I saw him for the first time. I think he was just tired as it takes 12 hours from Istanbul to kayseri with bus. But they came with car. I think it took 10 or 11 hours. Uhhmm... yes.. It was too late when we went inside. Some people slept already. I couldn't sleep. Just lying on the couch. We were too many people so some of them slept in other room and some of them slept in living room like us. Then Tuncay came. His sister was lying on the floor. She asked me to teach them german. Tuncay too wanted to learn. She asked me in Turkish what Askim means in german. I said schatz and my sister said schatzi. It means darling in English.. Then guess what? Tuncay jumped on his sister and said cutely schatzi .. awww... You must see it ! It was soo cute. I was laughing out loud. Then he left.
We couldn't sleep. Many phones ring. I think I could sleep only 1 hour. But I don't care !!! I could go home and sleep there but I wanted to be with Tuncay. So I will give up all my sleeps just to see him only for 2 seconds. The night was really nice.
Then in the next day. We make breakfast. And hunn.. the boys were sleeping in bedroom. Only 3 boys were there lolllzz.. We had breakfast very early. Then my sisters and I went from there to go to hairdresser. As it was Monday and it was the marriage of my cousin. After we finished we went home and wear our dresses. Then we went there. I saw Tuncay. He was looking sooo handsome!!!.. I went sitting in living room. He came and sat near to me. I am really missing his smell. :D Then the guy came whom my cousin will get married. He takes her with him and they go to the marriage salon. We all too go there. We sit there. Sometimes Tuncay too comes near to me but that day I felt that I am nothing for him. I really dunno. Why he is behaving good to me 1 day before and then he ignores me ? Why ?? I was sooo confused. I knew that I was nothing for him but I knew something too. That he was everything for me !
Then after the marriage both of them who married went to their house. And all the others went to the parents house. There I was really tooo tired and wanted to go. Then we went , before we left Tuncay said bye with his hand. Me too. I was too sad as they will go next day. If I can't meet him again? In the next day. I was really ill. Couldn't eat or drink something. But I am still not angry at me that I stayed there with Tuncay at night. It was cold but ok. I asked my mum to go there but nooo... finally we went at 5 clock. I went there but they said that everyone left ! I was sooo sad.. I really can't tell you how I felt when I heard that. I couldn't see him again for last time. I went and cried. Nobody understood it. I cried soo badly. Couldn't control myself.
Guys, In the night of henna-night they showed us a picture of 2007. They was me and my 2 sisters and Tuncay and his sisters. Lollzz.. we met already in 2007 as child. But yes, can't remember it. I was 10 there. Guys.. please tell me what u think. Is it DESTINY or COINCIDENCE? I say that it's destiny as I would not come if I had school. And he would not come if he had school and his sisters had works. I really think it's impossible if it's coincidence. And I don't believe in coincidences. Tell me please. I want to know your choice and views. It's really important !
My cousins tell me that I won't see him anymore. ! As he is living in Istanbul and me in Germany we only go to kayseri and gazi antep. I am really sooo sad.!! And confused too !!
I know its too long what I have wrote. But he means everything for me. I am always praying to god to meet him again. I too think it's impossible but then I think that it's LIFE everything is possible in life. If it's written in my destiny then nothing can remove it.
My biggest ever wish is to meet him again !! AMEEN !!!! <3 <3 <3
PS: Anam if u are online please pm me. I will send u pics from me and my Tuncay.
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