Inspirational Women in the
Entertainment Industry: Felicia Day..
Fans of genre shows can be so
protective of their beloved characters
that they have their guards up when
anyone new comes in, but when
Felicia Day entered the Supernatural
universe her warm personality and
quick wit had her embraced
immediately. It certainly helped that
she was already known for being the
Ultimate Geek Girl after creating a
web series for herself to tear down
gender stereotypes and the all-too-
often-in-fighting of fandom and
gamer culture. On The Guild , Day
portrayed a quieter character, while
on Supernatural she embodies a
quirky go-getter young woman. But
whether it's tapping into one
character written by someone else or
writing one for herself, Day breathes
a kick-ass creative and confident
spirit into them all that gives anyone
who watches her a positive image to
which to aspire.
Day is in a rare position for many
actors in that she hasn't just sat
around and waited for the phone to
ring with her agent telling her she
booked a job. A few years ago she
went out and created a job for herself
in the role of Codex on The Guild .
She did it to work, but more
importantly, she did it to work on a
very specific kind of material-- one
in which she could see herself
reflected and one that she felt was
lacking in more mainstream media.
"When I wrote Codex, that was really
a reflection of who I was at the time.
I wrote that part for me because I
thought 'I want to see a girl who is
like me!" Day said.
"It was not easy. I didn't just wake
up one day and was like 'Hey I'm
going to take over the web series
world!' It was not like that; it was
months of self-hatred, crying,
depression, and then I was like 'Oh
just write [but] every word is pain. Oh
it's pain, uh I want to play video
games.' It was terrible, and it was
not easy, and a lot of people from
the outside, they always think about
goals, and they don't appreciate
processes. And I think that some of
the best advice that anyone has ever
given me is to make sure that
whatever you want to do, it's not just
for the goal. You take into
consideration how you have to get
there from A to B. So love the fact
that you're going to be in pain, and
you're going to make mistakes, and
you going to feel low some days.
Know that's part of filling in the dots
between where you start and where
you want to end up."
Since Day's focus with The Guild was
to give herself and others like her an
outlet and a place to connect, she
was able to truly embody her own
philosophy of finding "joy in every
step" of the process, rather than
worrying about running toward some
sort of end goal. This allowed her to
connect with those around her--
from collaborators to the fans
watching and interacting with her
through social media. And it was in
those connections that Day saw
success in her project.
"I just do what I do, and you know
what's very powerful? Just being
yourself and saying 'I'm going to
make a decision, and this is the right
decision for me whatever the
consequence is.' That's a very
powerful thing that I think a lot of
people don't take hold of. We do a
lot of things for other people and for
external reasons that might not be
what you really want, and that's what
I meant by in finding meaning and
joy in the things I do, I am not afraid
of what other people think of me,"
Day said.
"There's something in the joy of
creating something from nothing and
allowing yourself to be as weird as
possible that you can't really do
when you're doing math or
something. You have to be doing
something creative, so that's what
really drives me. One of the things is
that you really surprise yourself when
you're performing-- even when you
get a script and you're just reading
the words, everybody is going to
interpret them differently, and I just
think that's really beautiful."
While Day has noted her interest in
perhaps tackling another project for
herself sometime soon, she has
most recently been seen as a
recurring guest star on Supernatural,
a role that was created in large part
in Day's own personal image thanks
to the success of her web series to
begin with. And it is a role to which
she has also certainly lent her geek
girl cred to become a fan favorite
(something that is unfortunately rarer
than it should be for female guest
stars of this series). Self-proclaimed
"fan girl" Charlie was introduced in
season seven of the long-running
CW series with a gaggle of sci-fi
figurines on her IT desk. Over the
seasons, she has come into her own
was a warrior by shining in her own
element (LARPing and hacking
computers, for example), as well as
by stretching and challenging herself
(facing her past, as well as
Leviathans and the magical land of
Oz). She is also a rare representative
of an LGBT character on network
television who isn't defined by her
sexuality. In fact, Day was really
proud that a recent episode saw
Charlie striking up a friendship
(rather than a hook up) with another
bad-ass woman simply because
human relationships are more
complicated than attraction and she
"didn't want to see her just jumping
into bed with the first woman who
could be a real friend"-- a lesson
that more shows could use across
the board with characters, gay or
straight.
"The fun part of playing Charlie is
that I take those qualities of Charlie
[that] I have-- that everybody has.
That's the cool thing about being an
actor: you just have to find the truth
in yourself and pump up certain parts
of it. And of course the root of
Charlie is really personal to me but
the parts of Charlie that are most
define are parts that I definitely, at
least five years ago, didn't tap into--
that sort of boldness in a sense, and
I really love that about Charlie .She's
had to make her way in the world in a
way that Codex never had to. That's
sort of Codex' problem in life in that
she's a fish out of water all of the
time. So it's super fun to be able to
play both sides of those coins and
have people see that yeah they're the
"girl" part but not all geeky girls are
the same, you know? They have
some similarities, but there are
similarities in any two characters that
you can point out. And I love the
subtlety with which you can paint the
brush of somebody-- because we're
not all the same. Geek girls are not
all the same. Some people are geeks
about paper crafting, and that's just
as legitimate as people who love
Star Trek , and those are the
subtleties we lose when we...use the
word [as a] label to define," Day said.
The label of "geek" may no longer be
one that comes with negative
connotations, thanks to the kick-
assery of people like Day (who
proudly proclaimed that she "likes to
be in bed by 10 to read"), but that
doesn't mean that it is universally
celebrated yet, either. In fact, some of
the toughest critics can be found
within the culture itself-- female
gamers are often still looked down
upon, often by other female gamers
who may feel threatened rather than
supported by seeing someone who
looks like them representing them
but perhaps not playing exactly like
them. Things that are typical in such
a culture are generally used as
escapes, but it can also be easy to
lose one's self a bit in the vastness
that is the well of information and
now commentary surround it. Day
sees this as a double-edged sword
and believes it's immensely important
to make that space as positive as
possible to preserve it as a
sanctuary.
"What really matters in life is the
people who will be there in years and
the people who really know you. If
something really affect you, just
reach out to the support around you
and know that that's way more
important than trying to please
everybody. Because that's the good
thing and the bad thing that the
internet gives us is access. I think I
wrote in The Guild that the worst
thing in the entire world is to know
what everybody thinks about
you...and that's the internet. It's a
blessing because you'll meet some
people that you otherwise would
never have met or had in your life,
and that's fantastic, but then at the
same time, you're exposed to all of
these people who you really wouldn't
have cared what they thought
anyway, but their opinion seems as
valid as any other because they're
put on the same stage," Day said.
There is a lot of noise surrounding
this culture and Day's day job, but
she distracts from it by filling her
spare time with "silly dance classes"
and photography and other creative
things that she knows will bleed over
into her writing and her acting. One
creative endeavor may enrich
another, but they also all work to
make her a unique and well-rounded
woman in general. And that is
something she wants us all to
celebrate.
"We are defined by our individuality,
and unless we're allowed to express
that, I don't know what we're doing
here," Day said.