SS-Blissfull life _ journey f all leads completed - Page 4

PART 8

"Hi Kunal, ve some sweets I got a gud news for you?"

"ma and dida u too ve sme sweets ts a gud news."

"Kunal is going to be a father."

"Nandini is pregnant"

"what's this Kunal I gave you the best news in world and u r reacting like dis "

"by the way I should thank you fr giving me this privilege ,as i vl be the 1st wife in this world who share the news to her husband that her husband is gonna to father sme1 else's child , and trust me I feel honored"

"it was always smethng i dreamed of!! on hw i vl be breaking this news to u tat u r gonna be a father and hw u wud react"

"and thanks for giving me this oppurtunity,but u disappointed me vth ur response"

"you should've said me tat I no longer appeals you in bed I would've myself cleared ur path u needn't had to back stab me", by the way is she better than me? u shared our bed r had special arrangements?

nyways she will be discharged by tomorrow and here are the reports"

These were the words she said me ,her words were so cold as if these things doesn't matter to her while her eyes were showing rage , anger and defeat.The girl who shied away from even hugging infront of ma now asked me whether NAndini was better than her in bed in front of ma. The girl who talked only in polite languages is now spitting venom. I no longer had the courage to look into any one's eyes and felt suffocated to even stand der. I just left the home and walked where ever my legs took me.

The rage in her eyes showed me that I won't be forgiven. The coldness in her voice showed me she is giving up on us. I sat there in a park where me and Mauli used to come from our college days .This is the place where we shared our dreams on life, family and profession. We used to watch children play here and promised each other that we would bring our kids here every weekend .Now I am sitting in the same place where we weave our dreams and I know I am the one who shattered our dreams nd life. A Recovery is impossible only the aftermath is what I need to wait for.

I am going to be a father.. How does a man feels when he hear this? I don't know because only thing that I am feeling is disgust for my thoughts tat I love Nandini ,Self loathe fr my action to sleep vth my wife's friend and hatred for myself to bring in an innocent soul in these chaos.

I sat there whole day and night. Next day I received a call from the hospital telling Nandini's discharge papers are ready and Doctor Swati wants to meet me before discharging , she vl head to OT before 9 and I need to speed up.

I was lost in my world and I was afraid to meet Nandini. How will she take the news of baby? hw will I tell her I wasn't in love with her? How will we go ahead?

Will she also blame me tat because of me she lost her friend and became a mother unwantedly... does she fear of facing Mauli

But the Nandini who welcomed me at hospital was not any of that I thought of.

She was smiling and said me she is happy to be a mother, I thought she is happy to ve some1 tat belongs to her.

but she was happy tat Mauli wont ask her to back out from relation as she s gonna ve a baby now.

that no one can seperate us.

she believed that ma and dida will forgive and welcome her.

Not even once she asked Am I happy vth the news of baby.

Not evn once she was afraid of wat the world wud say of a baby born out of marriage.

Not even once she felt guilty or sad for the friend who considered her as a sister.

that is for the first time I suspected her mental stability.

I met with Swati to get the discharge done.She just gave me prescriptions of medicines , adviced me to avoid physical contacts. Nandini needs bed rest and chances for miscarriage is more than a successful completion of the pregnancy, Nandini's uterus is weak due to last miscarriage and the body is only regaining from the surgery. A pregnancy was not advisable at least till next 6 months and here she is already pregnant in 2 months. Swati kept t as professional as possible and I understood she knew t.

I took Nandini to her home. The very next day I received Maulis application for mutual consent fr divorce from her tself. nothing can stop her now i know, no explanation vl justify mine acts. I had no choice other than agreeing vth the mutual consent.she said they are leaving I know ma wnt forgive me ever but a part of me wished that ma atleast vl hear me eventhough i ve nothing to defend.

I met Mauli again with in one week for the 1st motion of divorce. She looked so pale and has lost some weight. I admitted me being with other woman infront f judge. Mauli didn't even looked at me once.

One month has passed

And life has already become burden for me.

Nandini was advised bed rest and v had no domestic helpers. I had to do evythng from cleaning to cooking which is smethng I ve never done and t took me lot f time to come in ease vth it. We relied upon the savings account I had and money Nandini had for all the expenses . In addition to that I had to take Nandini to meet Swati where evy nurse nd doctors knew me nd Mauli in person. Even the attenders and bystanders we knew looked away. there wasn't a single one who knew about my betrayal came to talk vth.

The society v lived in started to raise issues and called for a meeting and we were asked to leave the flat as soon as possible, but I denied as I know the same issue vl rise anywhere else also and it won't be tough for them to make us vaccate if v r on rent, but here atleast Nandini own it. v were completely ignored by the people there. they even restricted kids from talking.

I hardly steps out of the home and I knew we can't go lyk this anymore our bank balance s almost finished and medicinal and transportation expense to and fro to hospital was also high. I need to get a job soon. I have the clinic keys vth me but i dnt knw wat to do of t!!!

Tomorrow is my second hearing on the divorce I am excited to see Mauli eventhough i know it vl be my last chance to meet her.I just wants to ask her forgiveness ,knowing i wont get t nd i dnt deserveit either .

I heard a bell ring.which is new for us as der is no one who looks for us

I opened the door to see ma standing infront of the home.

"Ma"

"Ma , come in pls come in,I knew u would come to c me"

"I am not here to ask about ur life , neither I am willing to come inside tat Woman's home"

" I came here for another purpose"

"what is it ma,"

she took the shawl infront of her and holded t in her both hands as if asking for alms and said

"I am here to ask something from u, that only u can give me"

"wat is it ma, nd wat are u doing, y r u begging infront of me. tell me wat is it ?wat is in my hands to give you. I promise i vl give with out hesistancy"

"peace of my daughter"

"ma I didn't understand"

"I am asking peace of my daughter. I want u to give t to her. Give her the baby, give her the baby tat she nurtures in her"

"Ma ,u want to say"

"Mauli is pregnant with ur baby, and she is afraid tat u wud ask fr the babies rights. U ve a partner and another baby on ur way. she doesnt ve u but atleast give her ,her baby"

"for the first titme in all these days I saw her smiling,talking wen she came to know about the baby.She s living now,She was living like a corpse till den.. please i beg uu"

she fall on my legs

"please Kunal for all the sacrifice i ve done for u, for all the love i ve given u .. please let my daughter live in peace. she would loose her mind f baby is taken away nd i would die of guilt if something happens to her"

"Please Please"

I kneeled down to her and made her stand

"I promise ma ,I wont fight for babies right"

"I never come in her ways to snatch her peace of mind.I have done enough damages to her not any more"

"can I Trust you"

" You can trust me. I wont break ur trust anymore"

she was about to turn away

"can't you hug your son one last time ma".

She hugged me and we both cried our hearts out, then she walked away with out looking back.

I turned to see a stunned Nandini, I understood from her face that she heard everything

"Mauli is gonna me ur childs mother"

"ma will never accept me, she got Maulis kid. and u vl also go vth her, i vl be left alone vth my baby, u once said that you still loves Mauli.

After tat day u never said tat u love me, means u love her isn't t?"

she was going mad , I know ts not gud for her and baby so I hugged her and started to say soothing words, after lot of coaxing and promises she slept.

Least she knew I am still here only because of Baby and I know Mauli vl never accept me again ven if i goes back to her...i have come in terms with this compromised life.

My Mauli is pregnant with my child, how much she wished for t? what wud ve been my reaction f v were together? how would she say me? I couldnt sleep whole night.just wanted the night to get over.

Next day I reached the court half an hour before the scheduled time. I wanted to see Mauli . has she gained weight? is her bump visible? does she have morning sicknesses?

I saw her stepping down from taxi vth ma.

She looks so pale, vnt gained any weight. there are dark circles on her eyes.

she has covered her upper body with a shawl to hide her bump I guesss.

It was ma who was talking all the time and she just sat there looking down and answered in monosyllable when ma pestered.

I stood there hiding from there, I wanted to see her till my eyes hurt. after nearly half n hr i saw her heading to room and i followed. she halted for a moment recognizing my presence den walked ahead. she didn't talk to me inside also nd I followed her once she reached the door.

I was dying to hear her voice.nd i saw a lot of emotions in her eyes when she looked on me

Was it care, concern i dont know but her lips quivered when she was about to talk.

but suddenly t changed to indifference wen her eyes reached someone behind me and I too turned back to see Nanadini there.

I didnt expect her there but I know yy she came.She was feeling insecure from the momemt she heard about Mauli's pregnanacy and had been tagging behind me since then. she had been continuously asking me to take her vth me as she too wants to ask Mauli for forgiveness but restricted reasoning her bed rest. and also because I knew her prescence would make Mauli more angry and sad and I didnt want to stress Mauli.

I didnt had anything to say to Maulis's sarcastic comments . so just gave a look to Nandini and went away. I knew talking to Nandini would only result in her crying she had been doing nly tat fr last 1 month. At a moment vl feel guilty at a moment and cries and the next moment says ,its just pure love . now he feels the word love itself seems a joke for him.

He didnt treasure the rue love and went behind an illusion nw he s only left with an illusion which also vl fade away smeday.