Understanding Saumya
Some of us are having a hard time understanding why Saumya cannot acknowledge her feelings for Harman, why she is bending to Preeto's whims, why she is asking for Harman to remarry someone else, and now marry her sister. Some of what we think is based on scenes we have seen as part of episodes and some of it based on media segments, with partial information.
So, I tried to think why Saumya why? And I came up with the following conclusions. Although, I too want her to fight back, I understand why she cannot stand up against Preeto, not yet at least!
Saumya world is small, sheltered, and although she didn't know why, always felt hatred towards her even from her father and GM. Her abilities come from seeing Nimmi and Nimmi's sacrifices. What she saw was Nimmi sacrificing her happiness, her married life, just to protect the one she loved. Saumya was cocooned in that world created for her by Nimmi.
And then one day, everything changed for her. Harman came into her life, and although Nimmi tried to convey to her in many ways that she should consider Haraman as a husband, the first glow of love was felt by her. Harman was someone who showered her with feelings that she never even knew existed.
And then again her world was shattered by realization of the truth. She knew she could not be with Harman, one person who she loved. Unequipped to cope and her nature of honesty, she tells Harman the truth, and has to face his wrath, almost until the time Maninder, Preeto and Saaya drag her out of the house. I am sure Saumya was afraid, scared, and had no one to turn to. Didn't even understand what her life was to be.
Kinnar world was another shock to her system; changing the name, facing atrocities from inside and outside. Slowly she starts seeing the world but is still unable to comprehend her place in this world. She fights back, with one mission to go back to the world she knew, back to her mom and sister. She fought back, tried to escape? Why did Saumya do that then? She was doing it for herself and although she was not successful, she had no one telling her not to do that. She was just starting to find her own confidence.
When Harman finds her and showers his attention back on her, she is again pulled into his world; but now she knows enough to know that she can never fulfill a patni's role. Saumya was starting to glow again. Wanting, wishing to be in Hraman's cocoon of love, but reality was not too far off. Preeto's mental and physical torture and constantly telling her that the one person who she loved, his life was going to be destroyed because of he, was something her selfless nature cannot handle. She is after all nimmi's daughter, brought up seeing the sacrifice for the person you love.
Saumya who never really had a "complete family" and wished for that growing up, could see how because of her, he was losing all his relations and she knew, even if she loved him and accepted his love, she was not adequate for him Now it was not about her, it was about Harman. She only wants happiness for Harman and felt that although he may be unhappy now, it will be of a short duration and he will learn to love someone else and have a normal married life and have his family too. She tries to distance herself from Harman. What could she do? Leave the house...that would be the easiest solution. But she knew Harman would come to find her. She also knew she was the only one who could convince Harman to marry again. She doesn't know how, but knew she had to.
But why Surbhi? Why have him marry her sister? That is not her choice. It is not yet clear why Preeto has chosen Surbhi (at least not clear to me). Was Surbhi chosen to get back at Maninder or did Preeto think that Harman will not find anyone else? Does Saumya have a choice? She leaves because of not wanting this to happen, but circumstances brings her back full circle and in an agitated state reveals that to Surbhi.
What must be Saumya going through? A person who has always been abused in some way, cannot stand up for themselves. Nimmis love and Harman's love are her savior, as she was able to see some good side in her life. But she has always been made to feel different by Nimmi, felt intense hatred from her own father, Preeto and family. Scared she has withdrawn into herself. And trying to bring happiness in her own way to the one person in her life who loves her (and she knows it) and she loves him back but unable to reciprocate.
Yes, we want to see her accept Harman's love, we want to see her be able to stand up against Preeto. But Saumya's inane nature will not allow her to be that bold; she will in future with her loving and giving and sacrificing nature.
That's what I feel. May be you will agree, may be you will not. Please pen you thought, would love to know.
Some of you may have studied human behaviour, and may understand mindset of Saumya even better..
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