Jannal oram-218
"Because, if you could love someone, and keep loving them, without being loved back . . . then that love had to be real. It hurt too much to be anything else. ? Sarah Cross, Kill Me Softly
Tamil Nadu Finance Minister Durai Pandi Arumugam looked at his daughter Kavita across the table,both with the eyes of a loving mother and also with the eyes of a strict but worrying father.Not that he had to worry about his children,especially Kavita for like him and her mother,she was not only strong and bold in character but totally fearless.
Not knowing how to ask her what was preying on her mind,he gently cleared his throat and the sound of it which among them meant ' excuse me' and Kavita looked at him and smiled ' ennappa,do you want some water?'
Durai pandi smiled ' illemma,i want something even more precious than water?' and seeing her questioning eyes ' i want you to be happy.At peace and content.All i am and all that i have earned is for both of you and if you are not happy then it means nothing my child.'
Vijay Bhaskar looked at his father ' appa,nothing you say or i say will help her feel better.Believe me i have tried talking sense to her,but to no avail.'
Durai pandi looked at his son ' sorry vijay,i am totally lost and have absolutely no clue as to what you are alluding to.Please be more clearer and also include this old man into your young thoughts once in a while for how else will a father know what is going on in his children's minds.'
Vijay bhaskar looked at his dead ' Minister sir,please save all these melodramatic lines for your stage time and not while talking to your kids.'
Kavita began to laugh ' vijay,stop bullying appa.'
Durai Pandi Arumugam ' poda,kindal panreero.Summava sonnanga.Petha manam pithu,pillai manam kallu.'
Vijay bhaskar pounced on his dad's words ' dad,can you please explain what the bloody hell those words and that proverb means.For,according to me Pithu in tamil means mad.That is why in the film Thiruvarutselvar,Sundarar sings Pitha,pirai soodi.So obviously,if the father is mad,then the children have to steel their hearts and turn to stone.Right kavita?'
Tamil Nadu Finance Minister Durai Pandi Arumugam looked at his son in awe and with a voice tinged with sarcasm ' All this twisted intelligence is surely not from me or your mum and must be from your grandfather who was really a madcap.Such a beautiful proverb whose real meaning is in fact "A parent is mad when his or her children's welfare is involved, whereas the children on whom he or she showers his or her love are stone hearted when his or her needs are concerned" and you have managed to twist it and also corner me.'
Vijay reached out with his left hand and patted his dads arms ' Aiya,minister avargale.I was just pulling your leg and just playing with you and you are going all serious on us.
Kavita seemed lost in her thoughts and did not pay notice to the two men in her life as they pulled their chairs close to her and realising their close proximity suddenly looked down and stared at her plate that was still full of the food that she had not touched.
Durai pandi gently stroked her head ' Ennama,what is going on with you? if you talk to us maybe we will be able to help you with what is troubling you?'
Kavita looked up and durai pandi could see the tears and the sadness that had been tormenting her and made her beautiful face look like a wilted rose under the glare of the blazing sun.
She slowly collapsed into his arms and began to sob uncontrollably ' you cannot help me appa.Nobody can help me with this problem and it is my burden to carry forever and alone.'
Durai pandi arumugam ' appadi enamma unakku problem.Try telling me so that i can make sense of this immense burden that you are carrying all alone.'
Vijay shook his head ' dad,all your power,clout and money cannot solve this problem for this is a problem that is too complicated and for which there is no answer.At least not in this life of my sisters and your daughter's.'
Father looked at his son ' appa vijay.Please,i beg of you,what is going on with kavita?'
Kavita looked up at her dad and whispered ' Raman.My problem is Raman and that i love him and he is married to Jeeva.'
Durai pandi arumugam felt his heart slowing and then he kept looking at his daughter and realised how much in love she was with Raman and asked ' how,eppo?' and Kavita ' from the day he saved me and anna.From that moment when he shielded me with his body and stood like a wall between me and sure death.'
Durai pandi ' ammadi,why didn't you tell him da? He met Jeeva just now,some months ago.But why did you wait nearly 8 years and not do anything about it?'
Kavita looked at him pathetically ' eppadipa.How could i have approached him with my love and what if he had turned me down?'
Vijay sadly ' kavita kutty,if he had turned you down,then you could have gone on with your life after shedding a few tears.But now,you have doomed yourself for a life long suffering and all alone in it.'
Kavita looked at both of them ' i am not sure if you will understand what i am going to tell or explain.But i will try my best to make feel what i feel in my soul.'
Her eyes pouring tears ' what i felt and feel for raman is not something that can be forgotten for neither is he that kind of man nor is my love just a temporary state of lust or passion.If he had turned me down then that would have been the end of it and nothing could have been done about it and it would have left us all in a very embarrassing and delicate situation.But him not knowing at least allows me to continue my friendship with him even though it breaks my heart to know that his heart belongs to someone else.At least i know that he is well and doing great and we are in touch constantly.'
She looked at her dad ' appa.I don't deny it hurts.Yes,it hurts terribly but it is a life giving pain and it keeps me alive knowing that i am breathing the same air that he breathes and that is enough.They say,you need to hands to clap and make a noise.But in love,real love,all it takes is one soul and with that love in my soul i will live out my life with him as my husband,my lover and my everything.I have given myself to him and his thought and no man can replace that,ever and i mean that.'
Wiping her tears ' but apart from Raman,there is our party and the legacy that Puratchi thalaivi amma has left behind and that is my life and my journey in this lifetime.'
Durai pandi arumugam was lost for words and then he kissed her cheeks and forehead ' ammadi,i see the same strength of namma thalaivi in you and maybe one day you will make a great leader and lead this state to greater glory and fame.I hope i am around to see all that.I really hope i am around.'
Vijay Bhaskar smiled and thought to himself ' is it possible.could it be so that my sweet sister can be made the leader of this party?'
Anything is possible but one thing is sure and that is there is now present in the state of tamil nadu and India a great vacuum for a great leader and for a great revolution to take place and Modi failed that test for rather than work and lead India as a single entity,he has under his rule led innocent muslims to be lynched and terrorised in the name of GOraksha or saving cows.
What about chickens,dogs,pigs,goats and sheep? How does it matter what people eat and now in the name of beef,the country has been torn to pieces with govt sponsored terrorism.
When so many rapes are happening,not one law has been brought that will put fear and end to these sickening crimes against women and minor girls.
Why not the death penalty against rapists? Why not public castration of rapists and child molesters? why not bring all the parties as one against evil and crimes such as rape and terrorism?
Oh Modi,you were given absolute majority and yet all you have done is tear the fabric of a single nation which now stands as hindus and everyone else as opposite.
I am sorry to say that though i was born as a Hindu,i am human being first and my loyalty lies first with life of this earth and regardless of it being a muslim or anything else.
My religion,my god shiva comes last and it push comes to shove,i will take the side of innocent muslims than stand by my hindu blood and bretheren,even if it means my wife and family.
I swear to this.
"I have to admit, an unrequited love is so much better than a real one. I mean, it's perfect... As long as something is never even started, you never have to worry about it ending. It has endless potential. Sarah Dessen, The Truth About Forever
Edited by Raman_jeeva - 7 years ago
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