And once again we're off to Vrindavan-The place where little Krishna spent majority of his childhood. And by chance, it happens to be the place where the tune of my breath lives- Yes, it's my Roli's hometown. Since the day we got married, we have visited the place alone or with the whole family. Couple of times I have come here alone to take back my Roli home. But today me and my family; we're here to celebrate the total destruction of our married life; mine and Roli's. Quite sarcastic right? But you know what the biggest sarcasm is? It is that I couldn't differentiate my Roli from a stupid naagin that came to own me. Yes, I failed to realize my Roli. After the terrible accident that my Roli faced on our return from Dharampura, doctors suggested plastic surgery for her. And after the plastic surgery I saw a new face. Little did I realize that it was my not my Roli. I accepted her with whole heart in order to prove her that physical appearance wasn't the base of our relationship. But internally I never felt my heartbeat for her. But I thought, I shouldn't put my off my Roli just because her face is changed. My first mistake. Each time I hugged her, did the pinky gesture with her somewhere inside the corner of my heart I felt an immense pain. Then even when my Roli returned as Shruti I didn't realize her. She had lost her memory. Still she felt something for me that I failed to feel. And when she realized me and tried to prove her identity, I shoved her off. I called her characterless. Indeed I was the one who was characterless who failed to realize my wife who had spent 4 years with me. I'm the one who committed sin by putting my Roli out that midnight. Now I realize how big the mistake was. And two months later when she returned too, I failed to realize her. I realized her finally when n she had defeated the naagin and the truth was out. I went straight to her filled with guilt. I thought my Roli who had forgiven every mistake of mine will do the same again. But history didn't repeat. Roli couldn't forgive me. I remember that day. I went on my knees and asked Roli to forgive me. But instead of the love that always filled her eyes, I saw anger in them I tried to convince her. The words she said are afresh even now. "Siddhantji...Why is it that you always do mistake and I always keep forgiving you...Just think, if it was me in your place will you forgive me? No...I know it for sure. You might have forgotten; but I do remember; when I acted before Veeru to save our family, even you didn't believe me...You asked me to remove my mangalsutra. I forgave you just because you were unaware of the truth. Again when e reunited and Jhanvi's and Shourya's issue came; then too you didn't stand by my side. You felt that I was trying to ruin your sister's marriage. And you believed me only when you got proof. What sort of a relationship is it Siddhantji..When one have to prove herself each time for sustaining the relationship? Last but no t the least. This time...How could you ever think that some other girl is me? I've lived with you 4 years...I became yours in these 4 years...Still...not even a time you felt that you're wrong? Leave it, at least when you saw me you should have corrected your mistake. But you didn't do that too. And that night you put me out of the house. Siddhantji. When you took pheras with me you promised to protect me... not to throw me out...And now you've come...Again asking forgiveness...You just lok around our room; no the room which used to be ours. I see the pics of you with that naagin..Do you have any idea about the heartbreak I get it when I see it? No...You'll never understand...And now...I'm not going to forgive you...we're parting our ways...once and forever...bye" And she left our home for Vrindavan. Me and our family tried many times to bring her back. But each of those attempts failed. But now she had agreed to come back. But not as my wife; but as Amar's wife. Yes, roli had said yes to marry Amar. I don't understand how she could do that.And Amar, even after knowing ho deep our relationship is, still he wants to marry Roli. The funniest part is that even my mom is supporting her decision. I don't understand why these people do this to me? This big punishment? And now, two days later it is Roli's marriage...I don't know if I'll be able to see her becoming someone else's. But I'm accompanying my family; just to try for one last time to get back my Roli. And that's the first update...I'm really sorry if I made you remember the terrible days of the naagin track...Truly speaking, I'm the one who cried after seeing that moments with Sid and Maya...That time, Sincerely speaking; I wanted to kill Sid. So I'm taking that revenge now...But truly inside me, I feel like crying separating RoSid...But wait and watch, what's going to happen next...
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