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Hey Arshi... Looking at a day packed with meetings, so just some quick thoughts today...
Brilliant CB as always. Very beautiful song. Thank you for a yet another gem in my SC playlist 🤗... "Chankachoor"... Such an aural, visceral, evocative word. So loaded, so brittle, chock-full of potential to cause damage and yet the v embodiment of something damaged... with impunity and beyond repair, at that. Perfect selection by you for this epi... 👏
Performances: Gautam 👏 Aanshul 👏 Jennifer 👏, take a frickin' bow, all three of you!
First, K was resolved to push the envelope with Pramad today. She had mentally steeled herself to keep strong or else her husband was going to run roughshod over her always. This resolve also depicted a split-second of her thinking practically and pro-actively about her situation. She is aware that by handing her the monthly purse strings BD has essentially dropped her into the deep end, curiously waiting to see if she will emerge or submerge under the dark deluge that Pramad brings. And she was determined to make a stand today. Till Saras entered the picture and her resolve broke. Chaknachoor. He may be her Achilles heel, ehsaas-wise, but in her current predicament, her prejudice, disdain and contempt towards Saras is her most fatal weakness. Her "hatred" of him, equally matches the "love" that rears its pure head, time and again. It is a weakness strong enough to diverge her from her most set of paths. Simply because she factors him in the picture always and by implication, in her life "decisions" still. Saras might be binded by K's explicit kasam but more tightly than him, Kumud is binded by her own prejudices towards Saras. Her desire to not owe anything to Saras makes K conceede even when she knows that weakness now will be detrimental to her cause in the future. Today too, the "Navinchandra ji" was a verbal "stop right there, Mister" and she implicitly showed him that she could handle the situation on her own terms. Fully aware that those terms are such that it will only further diminish her worth to herself and in the eyes of Pramad. Identification in the mirror is going to be further difficult now, for more reasons than one.
Second, a literal mirror broke today. By Pramad's sheer brute force, his twisted "victory-stomp" to assert his dominance again, a tiny part of illusion went chaknachoor and pierced Kumud, not only at bodily level but also at the level of soul, consciousness and identity. That mirror had caged Kumud herself. It was a perfect square of marital facade shattered beyond repair. Witness how her reeling visage got reflected in one brilliantly jagged shard? A tiny bit of Kumudsundari's true soul, self-esteem and identity got released today. More telling what she did with it then... She refused to let Kalika sully it with her "dirty hands"... She herself walked over it, uncaring, in a daze, until a tiny bit penetrated her on something more than the visceral level... Her "soul" trapped, recently freed, thus entered her body again, causing a "mini-awakening" of sorts... And what did she do then? She blazed another trail in "red" to finally release her tormented thoughts in a way "Kumudsundari Desai" was prone to do. She sought refuge straightaway in the habit of old. She penned them, her nightmare, like she used to pen her brilliantly promising dreams and desires, once. This is a crucial point. As soon as granted "release", Kumudsundari submitted an earnest, breaking petition, a soul SOS... And it was heard. She may have believed she was conceeding only to herself, but at soul-level her anguished entreaties reached elsewhere as well. To their true soul-destination.
After the press conference apology, the "twin monologue" scene or perhaps, a single monologue scene of soul-companions today, was also entirely at the level of soul. Witness how she closed her beseiged orbs only for him to open his barely in control ones, and turn away aghast, shamed and unable to confront the very witness of their love. They were so perfectly in sync. The scene also continued yest's reprised version of the engagement night sequence. Only the moon and lotus pool were missing yest. Today the moon was present but not to bear witness to their love, as it used to be her custom but it was more to illuminate the burned out golden halo's lying at S' feet. Halo's that used to represent the vows he made whilst "in love"... It was there today to bear witness to Saras' "fall from grace" in his own eyes. Where, once not long before, S delivered passionate, soulful proclamations staring at it straight in the eye, confident that his commitments will be divinely "rubber-stamped"... Today he averts his face from it, fully abashed, realising he has but utterly failed to uphold the vows he so purely undertook. Another chaknachoor. This time of Saras' tender hope and faith in himself, that he is still worthy of the love that he once proudly and fully claimed as his, in an utterly different life. Their "ehsaas" may be fully intact but it has survived through nothing less than a malestrom of hell. And the moon showed him today that if Kumud has "fallen" in her own worth and eyes, then Saras too has fallen, in the eyes of his own love (K), his ehsaas, and his witness (moon). A brilliant parallel in operation... Whereas one mirror broke and granted release, another mirror (moon) was revealed to reflect, shame and imprison a bit of Saras in itself today. Now to heal, Kumud needs to turn her back to the mirror completely, while Saras, needs to be able to fully face the moon again and see his love, himself and his vows reflected back, basking his soul in their pure luminescence. A bit of Saras' soul was left in the dark today... The bit he can only re-claim when he is able to turn to the moon once again, and unflinchingly call upon her to bear witness...
Ergo, what today brilliantly showed was that for Saras to "rise" Kumud needs to "rise" first. That is a must. Their destinies and redemption still lies entwined in the wreckage of their dreams somewhere. Not in two pieces, but still as one.
Precap: Not sure where I stand with self-harm... It just veers into the territory of typical romeo-ish stunts... Not judging but. It is kinda like a literal electrocution delivered to K. His "red" because of her "red"... She will have "red" in her ledger now. Red that she will want to wipe out. It will compel her to act, to strike, but pro-actively, practically, in contempt, in self-or-love-sacrificing mode is anyone's guess. Because a bit of "Kumudsundari" has been let loose. Exciting times to see how the lil' Alpha unleashed will deal with this full-frontal "unwarranted" body-blow. And how will the remaining, Beta counter? With the breaking of the mirror, a disconnect has happened within K's dual identities. And now, imperceptible clashes will begin anew, inside. Clashes bound to make ripples in her actions as well once S finds K's immediate breaking point. Will that be the point where his skin breaks and "red" gushes out? Or will it be another cutting red line lashed upon her self and esteem by Pramad? Or will it ultimately be the more prosaic humiliation of watching a "third-party" render her desperately guarded and replaced lines, a deception at best, invisible, struck off, & nowhere to be seen again?
P.S. Kumari, Kusum and lantern... Hints of illumination to come? Or a yet another hyped red-herring Kumud will again render implausible...?
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