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*ll{The Confession}ll*
She stood quiet staring at the silver sky at night in a gazebo. It has become her favorite place for quite a while now, where she spent time in peace of garden. When the darkness of night spread mysterious silence, she heard the penetrating voices of her intertwined emotions again! The thoughts of him thrust themselves out of a chamber in her mind. Her mind was occupied by his thoughts these days. When the thoughts of recent events surfaced in her mind, the idea of her behavior, towards them, didn't escape her...She felt nervous again!!..Why was it happening to her...Why? Her growing concern for him seemed to exceed all the boundaries.
..She never thought she would feel it again!! Her eyes just needed a chance to steal a glance of him......Her heart danced in joy to have his attention...His presence made her feel ecstatic..When did he enter her heart and earned himself a special corner in it??...she wondered.
He was a stranger when he entered her life. But a decision of Ranveer made him much more than a stranger. He became a crucial support of the family..a piece of puzzle that completed the family. She reluctantly gave in to Ranveer's wish, as nothing was important to her not even her life, but her husband's wish. She entered into an agreement with Ranveer's last wish by marrying him. She could not deny his devotion for the family; Rajvansh business never faced any crisis in his supervision. He seemed to fit-in every aspect of family, smoothly. He connected with kids the quickest and he made his way to others' heart gradually. He deserved to be appreciated to understand her plight and help her raise kids. His geniune affection towards kids made him father to Tamanna and a 'Father figure' to Khushi, Guni & Pratham...She knew she had no word to describe what his effort meant to her. With the flow of life, She had accepted his precious 'friend-ship'; she knew the relation-ship she shared with him, meant much more than a friendship to society. She could give him nothing more than this as she had loved someone in her life before and with her husband's demise, the emotions of love burried themselves in 'dungeon of loneliness'...Still, He brought many color of happiness in her life and she experienced a new phase of friend-ship with him, where trust and understanding played a siginficant part in their relation ship.
Feeling concerned and protective was valid, she knew; But what should she do about newfound emotions in her. How else should she describe her recent behavior??.. When the ice-berg around her heart melted and he invaded it....When?..She didn't know when the strong wall shattered on its own and gave him a way to her. With this thought, many events crossed her mind. Behind closed eyes, one after another scene demonstrated her emotions...
She remembered the day when she stood, working on dinning table supervising Guddi, and he came into living hall with 'Bachcha-Party' accompanied by Guni; how her heart rejoiced leaving a beautiful smile on her face. It was hard to concentrate on work, now. She looked at him as he took a glass of 'lassi' from Guddi and took a sip from it. Her gaze didn't leave his face, not even when he stopped drinking and realized he was being stared at. He suddenly looked at her, making her drop the plate...she was caught gawking at him!! How could she forget...she stuttered with her heart pounding in her ears. His eyes bantered her when he asked if she was alright or not, as if he comprehended her heart at the moment
...She felt anxiety taking over her and her hand getting colder as the party event made itself clear from clouds of memory.
..Guni won the state level competition and a party was organized to celebrate this occasion by 'Dance-event's Sponsor'. Guni was invited along with all the contestants and she chose to take her Chachi-chachu to the party. Everything was fine; She felt happy for Guni so much....and a moment came when he complimented on her smile. Now, her face was not only smiling but she felt blush creeping up to her chubby cheeks and his constant stare on her face made her redder....She didn't know that the feeling of joy will convert into something she would loathe. Guni was called to say some word and a moment came when she praised her Chachu so much..Her heart swelled with pride to hear his contribution in Guni's performance. She knew she couldn't thank him enough for what he did, admired him from far away as he smiled modestly at Guni's word. When Guni speech ended, she hugged him and he wiped a tear off Guni's face, gesturing to smile and enjoy the moment. Guni was surrounded by her few friends who were wishing her. Guni introduced them to him and they informed Guni...how fortuante she was to have a chachu like him...she observed him and he was quietly smiling; her eyes saw something on his face...something red..He was blushing!! He was enjoying all that praise he was getting from girls. She lost her smile and looked askance at the current view. One of her friend said something that left her stunned, her eyes came out of socket, staring at the source of words as they echoed in her ears,"Guni agar tumhare chachu Married na hote ..tu Main Unse definitely shaadi kar leti. He is sweet, supporting and considerate." To her surprise, he smile again!..and she looked away but her ears heard him saying," Sorry!..I am taken!.." Those words could have brought her smile back but his next sentence pushed that half-smile back and brought a look of despair on her face. "...warna mein 'Haan' keh deta." They all laughed and she left the place. Her heart sank hearing him say this. Neither she felt good nor she liked his words; she stood outside the party venue. Her eyes expressed her heart's situation and many tears rolled down her cheeks. She wiped them off when she heard herself hiccupping. Taking a deep breath, she realized the surrounding outside the party venue. she didn't know why his word made her feel terrible. She heard some foot-steps approching her and she saw Guni looking at her worriedly. "Aap theek to hai, Chachi?" Guni asked. She smiled to Guni and saw him standing few steps away. He was silently looking at her; her heart stirred and the nervous feeling rose again! He came and ask," Aap theek to hain..Ragini?" Hearing her name in concerned tone, gave her a relief and an emotional storm came to halt. She simply replied, "ab..theek hoon."
There were many memories she had where her mind questioned her heart and she had no answer. Her heart somehow justified her emotion but gave no satisfying answer. She opened her heavy eyes to feel cool air filled with shimmering moonlight. Her prickling eyes saw moon peeking from the clouds, giving a hope she would get her answer soon. Many sleepless night were leaving an effect on her and surrounding seemed to inquire her for the reason. The blowing wind caused goosebump in her body. Sound of some rustling leaves pulled her back to reality and she looked around to find darker blanket of night taking over the scene. She left the gazebo to enter the house and found herself being showered by moonlight; she entered Rajvansh House with preplexed mind and made her way sucessfully to her room.
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He was lost in deep thoughts, leaning in arm-chair in his study. His constant consideration led him to a conclusion that her behavior towards is changing. The confident and virtious Ragini was hiding so many emotions in her heart. He saw her struggling with emotions as he had for years; he could see the passion in her eyes that touched his heart. He had seen her grieving for her late husband and he knew 'the love for Ranveer ' will rule her heart for ever. The pain her eyes, and voices expressed while requesting Ranveer to stay back, had shaken him. She started trusted him with time and shared things to him as circumstances demanded her
After unexpected mishaps in her life, she had become reseved person. With burning pain in her heart, she had become aloof from happiness. A mother dominated in her; she smiled when her 'fairies' spread the magic with innocent chuckles. Her life welcomed happiness through her daughters where he joined in to see her smile. Time, being the best teacher, befriended them and, he along with her, became parents to Tamanna..he was glad he had a family...but love. He knew it was hard to fall in love again.......and it seemed impossible for her to fall in love again..or he thought....Her long hair graced her back...her dusky complexion made her look prettier in any saree she wore...Mangalsutra surrounded her neck...forehead adorned with 'Sindoor' ...Her eyes deep and full-of-hope....Her simplicity that accentuated her beauty...Her smile-The most beautiful one he has ever seen.
He never knew when his heart found a life partner in her. New found emotion in him , threatened him to come out; he was frustrated and clueless. He couldn't tell her and she didn't see it. He was angry at his fate for once but his anger disappeared the moment he saw her smile. He was happy to have his family and happy to have her around. The amount of happiness increased when she expressed a little concern for him....she softly adressed him..'Suniye.' The emotion that had taken a back seat emerged again...his eyes reflected his heart to her but it went unnoticed...or he thought...
A flickering hope he was about to loose when another ray of hope entered his heart.
One evening he sat that day loosing all hope..telling himself...He would never get anything in return..no feeling..nothing. The bitter the truth was, the angier and more helpless it made him feel. His heart sobbed and eyes poured warm tears out; With intense pain, his grip on glass which he held in right hand, got firmer and it..broke. A piece of glass dug deeper in his palm and warm blood spurted out. "Damn!" a word escaped his mouth in a hoarse voice but his intertwined emtions diverted his attention from his palm and he almost forgot about it......A grapsed on his wrist, pulled him out of his trance after a while. He looked into her deep-dark brown eyes, something peeked through them...She was not calm at all..."Yeh, kya hua....aap ke haath ko?" His eyes followed hers and saw drops of blood on the floor, a piece of glass still in his palm."Oh, woh...Ah..Kuch nahi." He pulled his wrist back and stood up. His mind was engrossed in thoughts that he didn't respond to pain. He started walking off when she grabbed his wrist and he sensed something. Something similar to what he saw in her eyes, he looked back in those eyes again. His tensed body calmed a little and he found her behavior a bit...peculiar!!.."Kahan ja rahe hain..aap? Ye kaanch kaise laga aapko...aap bethiye mein abhi nikaalti hoon." She ran to closet to come back with a first aid box. She grabbed the water-jug to dampen a big cotten ball and took out the piece of glass carefully. As blood rushed out, she put the cotten ball on the wound. He just stared at her with teary eyes and his lost smile found his way back to his lips. Somehow he saw a glimpse of something such as...Passion in her eyes. She cleaned the blood, applied the ointment and put the gauze bandage on his wound. "Mein theek hoon...Ragini Aap Fikr na Kare!." He said to calm her down and she stuttered, "Mein..Fikr....woh" She trailed off.
He remembered when he felt her intense gazes in living room the other day and looked back at her; she dropped a plate she was holding and...stuttered. He couldn't help but smile teasingly and a part of him was angry with him..After noticing this, he could not look at her as his face was occupied by her gazes oftenly; he just smirked to himself and tresured the moment.
He didn't know how horrible he felt when he saw her leaving the party while girls surrounded him. Her tribulation bothered him and he followed her. Her quite exit made him feel guilty but she smiled to see him...he was relieved!
He looked at the window infront him that gave him the view of passing night...how many night will pass like this he wish he knew......or he thought..He was restless to see her struggling....A very familiar and unusally heard noise brought him back to reality. His curiosity made him search for the source and he exit the study.
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She stood in her room with burning passion in her heart. Her mind needed a distraction from her heart but her heart seemed to control her. In a mooonlight of passing night,her room glowed and so did she!A long lost passion left the dungeon of 'lost & found' in her heart and spread in her body. Her body & mind followed the step of heart and she felt anxiety evaporating in heat of passion, her heart produced...she began to follow her heart...she began dancing...waking her 'long slept-self' to be awaken again! Probably, it was her escape from her heart. She danced with aplomb, with passion, with growing love in her heart. Unaware of the attention her anklet's 'Ghungroo' attracted, she engrossed herself in the moment. The entangled emotions released themselves from her heart and she took determined circle and circle and......
He stood on threshold for a long while, looking at her.......she was dancing & glowing with determination ...This was sign that something upcoming.....something big was on the horizon...She listened to heart & danced gracefully. The long-kept emotions bursted out from his heart and responded to the scene. He started taking his steps further which he had held back himself...today his heart was afraid of nothing.
...she started taking determined circle and circle and....*thud*
She bumped into something strong and human. The moment was short to balance herself. She was about to fall when a hand wrapped itself around her waist.
...His touch worked as a tranquilizer to calm her heart down....His eyes looked into hers and emotion wiggled in them. Her heart's situation reflected in his eyes.
She surrendered to her heart and released emotion escaped through her mouth
.."Bahut..Bahut pyaar karti hoon mein aap se...I lo...love you Anmol.."
She said it finally feeling...Special...She couldn't struggle anymore.
His heart revived again ! Along with his heart, his lips said,
"I love you too, Ragini."
He held the 'love of his life, ' 'Queen of his heart' in his arms and smiled at the most awaited moment of his life. She stood looking at the answer her heart gave; she looked at him.
Ragini closed her eyes as Anmol left a kiss on her forehead and embraced him...'The Breaking Dawn' witnessed 'The New Begining' in her life.
.....Somewhere a tear of joy escaped Sadhna's eye and a smile played on Ranveer's lips in heaven....
Kyunki Saas Bhi Kabhi Bahu Thi 2
