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Chapter - 5
N i fell into his eyes...yet i couldnt feel what was in there...
I was soo close to him,yet i couldnt understand what his eyes were saying...He looked into mine,n then released my face...
Breaking the Ice that had formed between us in the past few mins he spoke,"How r u now Sanyu...hows life??i havent been in touch with u after that farewell night...wassup nowdays with u...r u ok??"
I could feel the ease with which he spoke all this to me...i wish i had the courage to speak up...gathering all my confidence,i spoke finally that i have done my masters n am in search of a good job now...he gave an assuring smile n replied that i shouldnt be worried for it n that i will get a good one soon!!!
ok..so now the air there was geting familiar...the dim light was somewhat less scary now...i could feel ease in the convo i was having with him...So finally without wasting much time,he came to the point...he sounded a lil less confident when he spoke "Well,u know why we r here at this moment,right??" ..i nodded in approval of his question...
He proceeded towards the swing n sat there...gazing towards the sky he spoke "can u see those stars??we can see them all rather close to eachother from here...yet in reality they r many light-years away from eachother" ...i just gazed him n then back to the stars,trying to understand the depth of his words...he always amazed me the way he spoke so much in a few words...this star situation was also one such peice...
He spoke again "I know we have been sent here,to make a deciesion regarding our future being togather...see,i love n respect my parents a lot..since childhood they have pampered me a lot..n if now they want something from me,i cant backout...i dont have a choice,i have to marry the girl of their choice...n they think me being married to u will be perfect for my future!!!i cant deny them...but think about it,u have been my classmate since so many years...yet there wasnt any connection between us...or was there???atmost there was some kinda friendship in the end..but thats it...nothing more than it...do u still think there can be anything more than that between us??see,i dont have a choice,i will have to do the way my parent says...but u,i know u have the choice,n its better u should think about whatever i have said n then give ur answer...coz u have ur whole life at stake for it!!!" He had spoken so much in such a less time...He sounded serious too...
But this convo left me in a state of confusion...Yeah i had never imagined i could ever be his wifey,but was i not happy at thought of it???..Just the thought of it brought me goosebumps...yet each n every word of whtever he had said was making sense to me...n now i understood why he spoke about those stars - to make me realise that we may seem that we r similar or closer to eachother,but actually me n him r poles apart in every way...this situation of mine wasnt lettin me conclude anything...but of one thing i was sure - that he didnt had any kinda affectionate feelings for me...but yeah he did cared for me!!!
He was about to speak once again to me,but just then panditji came upstairs and asked us to get back downstairs now...we looked at eachother,my eyes met Randhir's...n now i could understand what his eyes were saying...no they were not asking to say not to marry him...they were just saying to think deeply of whatever he has said,n then give the answer...
We came back to where everyone was waiting for us...all were having a loving smile on their face...I could see tears of hope in my mom's eyes!!!So did i have a choice of saying no n dishearten not just myself,but my mom as well??No i couldnt break her heart anymore..but then,whatever Randhir had said,was true too!!or was there any way that love could happen between us even now??
I was soo close to him,yet i couldnt understand what his eyes were saying...He looked into mine,n then released my face...
Breaking the Ice that had formed between us in the past few mins he spoke,"How r u now Sanyu...hows life??i havent been in touch with u after that farewell night...wassup nowdays with u...r u ok??"
I could feel the ease with which he spoke all this to me...i wish i had the courage to speak up...gathering all my confidence,i spoke finally that i have done my masters n am in search of a good job now...he gave an assuring smile n replied that i shouldnt be worried for it n that i will get a good one soon!!!
ok..so now the air there was geting familiar...the dim light was somewhat less scary now...i could feel ease in the convo i was having with him...So finally without wasting much time,he came to the point...he sounded a lil less confident when he spoke "Well,u know why we r here at this moment,right??" ..i nodded in approval of his question...
He proceeded towards the swing n sat there...gazing towards the sky he spoke "can u see those stars??we can see them all rather close to eachother from here...yet in reality they r many light-years away from eachother" ...i just gazed him n then back to the stars,trying to understand the depth of his words...he always amazed me the way he spoke so much in a few words...this star situation was also one such peice...
He spoke again "I know we have been sent here,to make a deciesion regarding our future being togather...see,i love n respect my parents a lot..since childhood they have pampered me a lot..n if now they want something from me,i cant backout...i dont have a choice,i have to marry the girl of their choice...n they think me being married to u will be perfect for my future!!!i cant deny them...but think about it,u have been my classmate since so many years...yet there wasnt any connection between us...or was there???atmost there was some kinda friendship in the end..but thats it...nothing more than it...do u still think there can be anything more than that between us??see,i dont have a choice,i will have to do the way my parent says...but u,i know u have the choice,n its better u should think about whatever i have said n then give ur answer...coz u have ur whole life at stake for it!!!" He had spoken so much in such a less time...He sounded serious too...
But this convo left me in a state of confusion...Yeah i had never imagined i could ever be his wifey,but was i not happy at thought of it???..Just the thought of it brought me goosebumps...yet each n every word of whtever he had said was making sense to me...n now i understood why he spoke about those stars - to make me realise that we may seem that we r similar or closer to eachother,but actually me n him r poles apart in every way...this situation of mine wasnt lettin me conclude anything...but of one thing i was sure - that he didnt had any kinda affectionate feelings for me...but yeah he did cared for me!!!
He was about to speak once again to me,but just then panditji came upstairs and asked us to get back downstairs now...we looked at eachother,my eyes met Randhir's...n now i could understand what his eyes were saying...no they were not asking to say not to marry him...they were just saying to think deeply of whatever he has said,n then give the answer...
We came back to where everyone was waiting for us...all were having a loving smile on their face...I could see tears of hope in my mom's eyes!!!So did i have a choice of saying no n dishearten not just myself,but my mom as well??No i couldnt break her heart anymore..but then,whatever Randhir had said,was true too!!or was there any way that love could happen between us even now??
