Help me cope up

Hi. I was a silent reader of this forum for almost a year. I was actually am addicted to this show. then they suddenly replaced her. I was traumatized for almost one month. I did not eat for 2 days. then i could not do my work. I went to my home for 1 month. I consulted psychiatrist. I took medication for anxiety and sleep. I played songs in highest volume to keep those memories away. I dreaded those five times of day when the show is on. I ran from the place whenever anyone started talking about the show. One word one sound one memory one smell sends me in that world and i feel deep sorrow. What aches more is that it feels ridiculous in context of other people's sorrow. It just doesn't feel worthy of this pain. I feel stupid. I am crying right now and don't know if i have explained myself. the pain is not going away. what should i do?

How old are you? and have you told someone in your family that you are going through a depression? I do not mean to be prying. But you need to continue getting professional help. I am not going to say that I understand what you go through because, honestly I do not.

I agree with Harini on this. But this is extreme. Is there any underlying reason for you feeling like this? When she was replaced a lot of us were shocked but some accepted the change as others did not. We all had valid reasons for doing so. But she is an actress who played a character that touched on us all.

listen dear when giaa left i was upset and stopped watching the show ..every-time sns came on tv i change the channel its like i washed my hands off sns but in the mean time i kept up with giaa progress in jalak she was happy dancing laughing all in all having the time of her life..and now look at her now she got a new show where she'll play a Jeannie ..things are looking up for her she has moved on from saathiya ..when i heard she got a new show i accepted that she would not be returning so there for i was happy for her and i also moved on and got back to watching saathiya and i have accepted devo .. my point is look at giaa and how happy she is with her new show ,your upset with giaa being out of sns ok i get that but now she is doing a new show where she will be smiling 😆laughing 😆 joking 😆 and most probable pulling pranks so meri jaan plz plz dont dwell on the past and be happy for giaa and you will feel better insallah and keep us updated on how your feeling as we saathiyaans are here to lend an ear if you need to let loose your feelings good luck 😃

@Swasti I have the exact same questions.. glad you put them across...will await a response from her end.

Originally posted by: gargigx

Hi. I was a silent reader of this forum for almost a year. I was actually am addicted to this show. then they suddenly replaced her. I was traumatized for almost one month. I did not eat for 2 days. then i could not do my work. I went to my home for 1 month. I consulted psychiatrist. I took medication for anxiety and sleep. I played songs in highest volume to keep those memories away. I dreaded those five times of day when the show is on. I ran from the place whenever anyone started talking about the show. One word one sound one memory one smell sends me in that world and i feel deep sorrow. What aches more is that it feels ridiculous in context of other people's sorrow. It just doesn't feel worthy of this pain. I feel stupid. I am crying right now and don't know if i have explained myself. the pain is not going away. what should i do?

Thanks everyone. I am not a good writer and i am an introvert so dont know if i have explained myself. In past four years 4 events happened to me which included a death, a betrayal. I was highly depressed then also. this one was last in this chain and the response from me was exaggerated. i couldnt even believe myself that i can feel this way about a fictional thing. I have a beautiful family and real friends. they all helped me. whenever they helped me and they were sad about me i felt more sorry and sad for putting them through this for such thing. I cant put in words how much i have tried but it doesn't go away. I have been trying for last 3 months and sometimes it still feels the same. i could not justify this in my brain so i couldn't even live this pain. I am just feared that what if it never goes away, what if i waste really too much time in between.

Everyone above has expressed their views so beautifully, there is nothing for me to write.. Things do happen, most importantly our personal lives. We learn to move on and we have learned to move on with the biggest tragedies... So this is just a show... no big deal...