Message to Cal-Gal:
I don't want to paint a picture of sadness and doom and gloom as I am really happy for her because she has got a job, she will spent time with extended family, have fun, enjoy summer in lovely mountains and meanwhile also try to get off her addiction of forums etc. So yeah there is nothing to be sad about and I honestly feel happy for her and wish her all the best. Her career, her well being, and her future is most dear to all of us here at IF who care for her and our sadness and sorrow is just too little of a price to pay for that.
Having said all that, I honestly can't lie to you all as I am just in a sad mood. You all know me by now and you know that what I am inside, I am outside. There are never two sides to King Anu. Love me, or hate me but always remember you have got the real me.
So why am I getting emotional for a virtual person?
I have hardly seen her (saw a picture once which was not even clear), never talked to her, believe me never ever asked her one personal thing, yet I feel as I am losing someone so dear to me. Ever since she told me that she will not be here, I have not been the same and you know what after coming to forum I further felt sad when I noticed that my come back for her was taken as if I came back because I am attracted to her.
I just don't know why people always end up thinking like that. There are other things more important in life than love, attraction, crushes, etc. I mean we cannot value someone without talking about such stuff? What the heck is love anyway? I love people for their goodness, their kindness and generosity towards me. What will I do by loving people here? And more importantly what they are getting if I love them? Please do not mistake me as Hirthik Roshan doing dhoom machale, and Krazzy 4 (LOL) as I am farthest from that. I am not exactly cute like Shahid either. I am just your regular types and there are enough of them out there.
I came back because her goodness made me feel disgusted at myself. I promised to both WA and CG that I will not leave the forum in 2009 and while WA gave me permission to leave (keeping my interest first), sweet gal never did. I like a loser broke my promise and left anyway and yet she didn't mind one bit and if anything ended up supporting my action. While I was away, she kept pushing me when are you coming back, and I like a loser gave her lame excuses each time and yet again she didn't mind. On forum she would always remember me, dedicate songs to me and if anyone said anything bad about me, she was there to defend me and confront them. Didn't I see her goodness? This went on and on and I never came back. All of a sudden I got a shock that she herself is leaving and the way she told me the news believe me I just went mad over myself. She said it's sad you didn't come back while I was here but you focus on important things in life. Even then she did not get mad at me and ended up saying good things to me.
While she felt this way, what was I doing? LOL. I had created an account on April 01 thinking I will use it later to justify to everyone that hey I came back and although I did not post but kept my promise. LOL. Yeah this loser was not thinking about her or people at forum but his own promise and how he didn't break his promise by forming a dummy ID. Shame on me!
I don't know why people are so good to me, and why the heck I don't see such people in real life. I am amazed at all this actually.
I found her innocent from day 1. I observed her and I sometime felt like she was oblivious to so many things. She would just answer back instinctively and then realize later and adjust herself. She did that many times and I found that as innocent and it was me who kept calling her innocent and that caught up. I don't know much about her but she does come out as innocent in personality and obviously sweet and bubbly. I always treated her well, respected her, and supported her even in her fights with people like dawg, always cared for her and in my heart always wished her well.
Let me just say to her that you never hurt me dear, you never once. You are an amazing person and I doubt there is anyone on this forum who feels even a little bit bad about you. You always brought life, goodness, cheers, and happiness to the forum. I also doubt if anyone felt sad and gloomy because of you as you just can't do that to others. Well what you didn't do in your presence, you did in your absence. There is sadness on this forum, there is gloom but you don't worry about it as after all yours best is what counts and none of your friends will ever want you to sacrifice your best over themselves. We are not that selfish dear. All we want is your best, you go out there and make your life, career, and try and work hard and leave the rest to God. With your intelligence, I know InshAllah you will achieve all your goals with flying colors.
Oh yeah life moves on, forum moves on, people come and go, new will come, we will be discussing issues, making briyanis, confessing things, dedicating songs, captions will continue, sher o shairi will be there too, discussion on lyrics will be there, funny emoticons will be there, so yeah I mean life doesn't stop and it shouldn't and that's the beauty of it. It just doesn't stop for anyone and time goes on and on and on an people forget people.
Well let me tell you this sweet gal, life has never been able to do this to me as I just don't forget people who are good to me. You have seen my commitment to people with whom I didn't even chat on forum and many i don't even know properly so imagine how I feel for someone like you.
Let me confess that I came for you not to keep my promise as to hell with my promise. Once broke, always remain broken. I came back so that your tough days at IF become easy (although my sad songs didn't help much hhahaa). I kept thinking whether I will ever forgive myself and when I was thinking that a thought came to mind. I will not leave forum now (will become less active) as I should see and feel how is it to loose a person who was there for you. Yeah its my time and there is no bigger punishment for what I did dear.
Finally, let me tell you this sweet gal, you never ever, even in your wildest of wild imagination, think that this royal has forgotten you. I will miss you sweet gal! Yep I will miss you a lot!
You have fun, always be yourself, and May Allah/Eishwar give you the best in life.
Your true friend and well wisher,
K
P.S: oh someone give this royal some tissues. LOL
P.S # 2: I like to apologize to Kuri, Who Ajnabee and Mahi as I have been unintentionally ignoring them. I was just not myself since last week and just didn't get have the energy to focus on all different topics. I have not forgotten you as you are also dear to me. Please never doubt me and do forgive me
A song for sweet gal and I think made for her. LOL
http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=9sUh4RBD-5E
Aadha Sa Wada Kabhi, Aadhe Se zaada Kabhi
Jee Chaahe Kar Lu Is Tarah Wafa Ka
Chhore Na Chhoote Kabhi, Tore Na Tute Kabhi
Jo Dhaga Tumse Jur Gaya Wafa Ka
Main Tera Sarmaya Hoon, Jo Main Ban Paya Hoon, Tumse Hi, Tumse Hi
Raaste Mil Jaate Hai, Manzile Mil Jaati Hai, Tumse Hi, Tumse Hi
Alvida CG
[YOUTUBE]http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=ZNdpoWhLDFE[/YOUTUBE]
chupake se kahin, dheeme paanv se
jaane kis taraf, kis ghari
aage badh gaye hamse raahon mein
par tum toh abhi the yahin
kuchh bhi na suna, kab ka tha gila
kaise keh diya alvida
jinake darmiya guzri thi abhi
kal tak yeh meri zindagi
dono baahon ko, thandi chaanv ko
hum bhi kar chale alvida
alvida, alvida, meri raahein alvida
meri saansein kehati hai, alvida
alvida, alvida, abb kehna aur kya
jab tune keh diya, alvida
sunle bekhabar, yuun aankhein pher kar aaj tu chali ja
dhundegi nazar humko hi magar har jagah
aisi raaton mein leke karvate, yaad hamein karna
aur phir haar kar kehna kyun magar, keh diya alvida alvida
koi puchhe toh zara, kya socha aur kaha alvida
alvida, alvida, abb kehna aur kya
jab tune keh diya, alvida
??? dil chale, phir bhi dil kahe
kaash mere sang aaj hote tum agar, hoti har dagar gulsita
tumse hai khafa, hum naaraaz hai, dil hai pareshaan
socha na suna tune kyun bhala keh diya alvida alvida
koi puchhe toh zara, kya socha aur kaha alvida
alvida, alvida, abb kehna aur kya
jab tune keh diya, alvida
kyun socha aur kahan alvida
dono baahon ko, thandi chaanv ko
hum bhi kar chale alvida
Edited by King-Anu-Lives - 16 years ago
Kumkum Bhagya
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