hey all..this was a concept which i myself had given in the Fic-O-Thon...so i dnt knw if it should be a part of it or not..neways i hope u guys like it..do give ur precious comments...theme..sad😛
.......THE LAST LOOK......
The air was scented with the glow of candles, the night had the essence of melody, where two people had danced in the beautiful halo of each others' arms.
The fragrance of this memory still hung in her mind and all she could do in this past one week in London was to wait desperately to get back where her heart resided.
Now that the plane was about to land she felt her heart thumping and her tummy being attacked by a million butterflies. She couldn't believe that even after 246 hours of rehearsing, she was still nervous. She looked at the mouth organ which she had bought for him and blushed deeply at the twinkling eyes and the grinning face which would be an obvious after math on him. And then he would say Thank You ..he would come close ….so close that she would feel his breath dancing on her face ….and just when he was about to seal her lips ….a voice cracked "Passengers are requested to fasten their seat belts for a safe and smooth landing …"She rolled her eyes and prepared herself for the last lap of journey which would finally take her to him.
Since the past 99 minutes Ashi was walking to and fro in the tiny shed, stumbling at every two steps. She was way too anxious anticipating his reaction and worried that as always he might not take her seriously and instead conclude that this was her newest method of irritating him. She was very scared as this one move of hers would change her life for better or for worse.
The night before she had left, this very place had witnessed mountains of ice being melted away to leave behind the warmth of unsaid love. For her this love was nothing new. She had been hiding it in a small corner of her heart for a long time now. But that night, this love had shown in his eyes …The resilience in those eyes had given her a wishful hope of building a crazy future with this geeky yet cute Doberman.
But today she was apprehensive and looked back to ensure that all those looks of adulation bestowed upon her were for real. Suddenly the nervousness within her made her unsure of the response she would get …would her feelings be reciprocated… what if they weren't…. just this mare thought made a shattering noise within her heart.
She forced herself to calm down and gulped in few hasty breaths to silence her hammering heart and hurried to a corner upon hearing the familiar footsteps
The door opened and their came in the aura of light which brought him to her. she gasped as her eyes bathed in the glory of his presence. He looked just fantallaciously PERFECT…he wore her favorite black T which showed off his muscular arms and broad built and made her skip a beat. His hair was still wet with the recent wash they must have had which gave them a jelled look and his eyes had a weired kind of joyful mischief.
Her heart soured at his happiness. She had seen him so blessed and cheerful after ages and she couldn't help but wonder if this was a consequence of cupid's untimely attack.
She prided of being the reason of his radiant smile and was about to pounce on him when the ground shifted and she felt herself sinking in the deep trudge of despair.
Instead of she enfolding his eyes and revealing her pleasant surprise, there was this girl, voluptuous and alluring, who did the honors and got his encapsulating charm
"you are late by two minutes" he said, pulling her close…too close to himself and bringing her hands to his lips…. And ashi felt her own hands go numb.
She ran his fingers through his hair and through each and every feature of his face till they rested on his lips. Ashi saw him respond with every single touch of hers. She saw the passionate pleasure that gleamed through him and blinded her in its force. He hugged her tightly and then, then, ….he did that which broke her heart and her soul into granular pieces of grain
.
He had kissed her, …. Very slowly at first as if tasting every bit of hers and then that kiss turned into a wild act of desperate need and a much stronger emotion that may be called…LOVE
Ashi thumped to the floor whose coldness was nothing as compared to her frozen heart which was now a warehouse of her smashed feelings. She saw them hugging and kissing and giggling and holding hands for a lifetime journey, shunning her out FOREVER
They left the shed, which had been the testimony to all her dreams and desires, without even noticing that they had just trampled a soul beneath their shoes. Yes her soul had died here at this very shed which no longer would make her blush in its reminiscence but rather would remind her of wound of heart break which even the almighty time may not cure.
She looked at the mouth organ and regretted for having bought it so lovingly.. the person whom she had wished would play it had just now played wid her feelings like a tennis ball. She was still trying to grasp the fact that he was happy… without her. Maybe he had never actually wanted to be with her. Maybe she had taken that night way too seriously or maybe her own love had forced her to believe that something might be there at his end too.
She did not know whether to blame him or not. Her heart cursed him for being so selfish and ruthless for walking out on her. But her mind reasoned that he had not held any promises. He had arranged that night to make her feel special. But that didn't implied that he loved her. It was she who had assumed it and now she was bearing its brunt.
She was feeling like a fool who had ran after a silly dream. Yet she felt badly hurt and jealous and immediately a pinch of haltered took over jealousy. She envied that girl with whom he had walked out and closed the door to reach him. For the first time in life she felt sad of not being a beautiful lady. For the first time she wished that she had given more concern to her looks. For the first time she realized that just being real from inside was not enough and beauty did matter after all. And for the first time she felt her confidence being shaken into tears of empty sadness.
She cried for hours hoping to wake up from this nightmare. She waited for him to come and kiss away all her pain. But she knew he would never come back. For once he was happy and for once she was sad to an extent which made her selfish enough to ebb on his happiness.
She knew she was hating him for no mistake of his but a rejected heart was too heavy to bury. She shivered at the thought of her feelings being made public and she thanked her bhaggu for saving her face and thanked him for the fact that he had made her so nervous that she didn't react instantly. Now at least she had this one grace of holding her defeata nd rejection to herself. He would never ever come to know that he was the one who had snatched her heart out of her body, filled it with unwanted desieres of love and affection and now broken it in such a manner that it could never be repaired.
She wiped her tears and set her face into a plastic smile. She had always prided herself of having led a real and unprejudiced life. But from now she had to be artificial and fake because any real show of emotion would bring her nothing but mocking laughter.
She gave one last look to her beloved shed. That look held all the love which was flowing through her nerves, it held all those fights she have had with him, all those songs she had sung with him and all those instances where she had felt he belonged to her and ditto. She knew that after this last look he would be nothing but an acquaintance whose life would be far away from hers
She shed one last tear of regret and turned to go back to Room No. 15, where her friends awaited her. But before going she went to his guitar and hugged it possessively one last time. She kissed it goodbye and left the mouth organ besides it hoping that it would remind it of the beautiful moments where she had laughed and cried with him.
