PART:91
His eyes were lost in her eyes and her eyes were too. They could feel eachother's breath.Ashi realising the position she was in moved back a liitle and asked
Ashi:'' is it paining Yuvi ? ''
Yuvi was busy feeling ashi's touch on his lips . he didn't reply ...
Ashi : '' are you going numb or what ?"
Yuvi : ' huh?"
Ashi : " tumhe dard ho raha hai kya ?"
Yuvi : " no no I am fine ... I don't think nothing can be more painful than the pains I have caused to you "
Ashi withdrawn her hands and turned the other way ...
Yuvi : "Ashi please try and understand things from my side too ... I really really really love you ... I honestly do so and I am not faking at all ... From the moment I have realised what true love is , it has always been you ... For me the true meaning of love is you ... please don't make my life meaningless by taking the love away from it ... I have suffered too through these years ... and the pain was in no way less ... but I don't want you to just forget whatever has happened but also to forgive me ... I know that its very difficult to do it but atleast give it a chance " Ashi slowly turned to face him ...
Ashi : " Yuvi ... for me too love meant you but whatever you have done to me makes me feel hollow from inside "
Yuvi : '' so please give yourself a chance too to fill that hollow "
Ashi :''and what if ...?''
Yuvi : '' ashi for once just break down the walls around you ... please ... for me , for you , please Ashi "
Ashi : " Yuvi ... the advice that you are giving me now , I have been giving myself the same in all thse years but somehow couldn't manage to follow it ... Anvesha ne apne khud ke diye giye advice khud hi follow nahi kar payi ..."
Yuvi : '' please ashi ... just give us one more chance ... probably I am asking too much from you but I know it very well that somewhere deep inside you too want it , isn't it ? and please don't lie this time "
Ashi : " pause" ' i am not denying that I want it too but it is not necessary that things will always go our way ...so how does my 'wanting' matter in any way ?"
Yuvi : "Ofcourse it matters ... For me it matters the most ..."
Ashi : '' really yuvi ? "
Yuvi ; '' Yes ashi yes ... everything about you matters to me the most " he moved forward and cupped her face in his hands ... he softly wiped her tears and said :
Yuvi :''ashi ... You have always been very special to me and will always will be ... I can never imagine anyone else in your place ... I want it to be always you about whom I will care about and worry about and love the most ... please don't take this away from me .. I need you in my life ... I know I am being selfish but I honestly can't imagine my life without you.. please come back to me ... please .. I promise I will never ever break your heart again ... please "
Ashi :'' you made that promise earlier also but in no time you broke it ... How am I to trust you ? "
Yuvi : '' You have taught me Ashi to always listen to your heart and to follow what it says ... today I ask you to do the same ... close your eyes and listen to your heart ashi " he softly closed her eyes with his hands ... all the memories of Yuvi and them came flashing to her ... every memories of theirs flashed like a slideshow in front of her inner eyes ... she knew it what she wants but is she ready to accept it ? her eyes shot open and she looked at yuvi with eyes full of tears ...
Yuvi : '' so ... what does your heart say ?? I don't think I need to ask that as your eyes are clearly giving the answer but still I want to hear it from you "
Ashi turned the other way ...
Yuvi : " kya hua ? "
Ashi : maine apne dil ki baat sunna chhod di "
Yuvi : " Ashi please don't ignore what it is saying ?? I don't want us to regret this forever "
Ashi : '' what to you want me to do yuvi ? What do you want to hear ??? yes ... I love you ... I love you very very much ... but what's the use yuvi ? I don't want to allow myself to get hurt again ... I am really scared Yuvi ..." she broke down sobbing bitterly ... Yuvi just engulfed her in a bear hug ... she too wanted it badly ... both hugged each other tightly and was sobbing their hearts out ... they remained like that for a long time , then finally broke away from the hug ...
Ashi :''I am really sorry yuvi ... maine tumhe apne aapse door rakhne ke kitne koshish kiye but never managed to do it kyunki shayad main yeh dil se kabhi nahi chahti thi ... I have never stopped loving you even when you cheated me ...I tried hating you , ignoring you , hurting you but none of these worked .. shayad isiliye kyunki pyaar itna zyada tha ke nafrat ke liye jagah hi nahi bacha ... It was just I never managed to forgive you for whatever you had done ... par aaj shayad maine woh bhi kardi ... I forgive you Yuvi and I don't hold any grudges against you ... agar main yeh nahi karti main kabhi bhi life ko ek aur chance nahi de paoongi ... Ek dusre ko itna pain dene se yehi better hoga that we give love another chance and I cant imagine it with anyone else than you ... Yes ... yes ... I love you Yuvi ... I love you a lot but please iss baar mujhe hurt maat karna ... I am offering you my love with lot of trust this time ... please don't break it Yuvi or else ... "
Yuvi hushes her with his finger on her lips ... " no 'or else' this time ashi ... I will not break your trust and promise it on my life ... and I love you too wacko "
Ashi : '' duh-ha psycho ! " they both hugged each other ... after breaking the hug they looked at each other ... they both can feel and see the love for each other in each other's eys ... their eyes were talking thousand while they were enjoying the silence ... they they both leant forward and shared a passionate kiss on their lips ... the sensation of it lingered for a long time ...they were breathing in each other's presence ...
Anupamaa
Iss Pyaar Ko Kya Naam Doon
