Beautiful Post Vicky sa.. The episode was very emotional for me too.. At one point I felt my heart swell up with all this emotions that, I felt I need to take couple of deep gushing breaths.. Such beautiful emotions..feelings 😳
Happiness, hope, frustration, anger, scary, dejection, misery , love, hate.. All in one episode..👏..
I loved the puppet dance. The story was modified to have an ugly twist by none other than guest of the house - the CHUDAIL.
And I am very thankful for that.. Now The king understands the queens fear and the reason behind it right?
That scene where Rudra and Paro discuss their own story in the pretrense of the king, queen and pari story was so well done..👏.. So emotional.. When Paro says, may be the pari has the strings to the kings heart and the king is dancing to the pull of strings by pari, I was feeling paro's fear, her despair and her lose of faith/hope.. She was at that moment just an ordinary girl with ordinary emotions .. Her faith, her belief in signals from universe, her positive thinking, everything was over powered by the raw emotions that was invoked in her by the puppet show, the music and her own imagination.. Fear of loosing something very precious to us can only be understood by those who have exp such deep emotions. Itz hard to explain. And this fear makes you do many things that you normally do not ..
Its not that Paro doubts Rudra. Its not that his actions are not enough for her. Its not that she does not still blv that he loves her somewhere deep in his heart.. It is just the fear that she has a chance of loosing the only precious "thing" in her life to the Pari from the past.. This fear IMO is bcze Rudra is not ready to let go of his past and embrace present. The fear is that he will not leave behind his comfort zone of past..
It may sound very illogical. But for the person who is going thru this phase of lufe, very real and painful..battle of heart v brain is never pleasant.
Rudra ..oh my.. I feel for him.. He is trying. He is struggling to come to terms with his feelings. He is learning to accept Paro and show his love to her. He is getting there but he is not allowed to learn this lesson of love at his own pace. Rather he is being pulled, pushed and cornered by his own emotions and that of his "Queen's" He does not know how to reassure Paro, that no own has the strings to his heart. His heart is safe in the place he has hidden it, years ago, when his Mother left him.. He may have lost the way to this hiding place, but he can surely get it back. And he has started the process.He is yet to accept that.his heart belongs to his queen, beats only for her. But it will also happen.. Soon..
One thing that was very clear to me today was Rudra does not want Paro to leave him ever. And Paro wants to hear Rudra speaking this out. Rudra has many times told Paro that he wants her out his life.
Now is the time for him to nullify all that shout outs and assure Paro that he indeed need,wants her in his life forever as his wife.. Its time for words, just actions won't do any more..
Sorry for the long post Vicky sa.. And the post is just my rambling, may not make sense...
PS ..
To me there is no Paro no Rudra.. Its always Parud.. They are a unit. I support, defend, criticise either or both Depending on the emotions of that particular day episode..😃 ..Just saying...
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