Originally posted by: DexterRocks
I have mixed feelings about tonight's episode. The episode was filled with melodrama otherwise one or two genuine and high points.
My topic will revolve more around Rudra and his convo with Paro. I think i will and can rewatch this episode only to see the scene when Rudra sees Paro after he regains consciousness. The way he hums her name, and as soon as he sees her feet bleeding, the agony and the restlesness came out so brilliantly onscreen. Like the fact that how CVs keep Rudra and his reflexes so subtle, calm and human, and does not restrict him to any other random heroes we watch on TV.
A special mention to Ashish for the scene, he is so expressive, and his voice modulation is so heavenly, Paro otherwise is a name for us, but whenever Rudra mentions the name, the passion oozes out, the depth of his struggle and intensity which he suffers for Paro, it oozes out the way he calls her. Today it sounded so beautiful and divine that he was still on his death bed and still he took her name, he could see nothing but her bleeding feet. Such awesomeness can only be Rudra, one of the best male characters of TV right now.
Coming back to Paro, i found her better yesterday, yes she broke down, and had asked her major saab some questions, which she normally does not dare to ask. Tonight, all i could see her is back to square again, yes shiv mythology, and her notion of Rudra hating on her.
When Rudra says to her that she still does not know him completely and understand him, he is technically RIGHT. She certainly is unaware of the depth of his wounds, yes she also had an aweful past, but comparing her one with Rudra's one once again shows that how she is yet to get knowledge about his suffering and his inner struggle. The man struggles in his every breath, as he tries to supress his feelings for her and instead behaves in a manner only to color himself black in front of her with the hope that she will hate him and run for her life, which can only have bitterness if his love traps her. But unfortunately Paro is still naive, she still thinks and feels that Rudra hates on her, and he cannot tolerate her presence, thus her last lecture tonight. Yes she can claim to love him and understand him, but UNDERSTANDING is still not there.
Th moment she asked him that how can he hate her and for how long / the look on his face was of relief, he for once felt that the girl is believing which i wanted her to believe.
Lastly, i did not understand one thing, at one side she is advicing him to get away from his past which restrains him to express his golden heart, and on the other side she is preparing to leave him in an isolated state once again ? Why try and nurture his wounds when once again intentionally/unintentionally you are going to make him face the similar situation ?
Plus, it is easy for paro to give a 2 min advice on how life should be lead by moving on, because her wounds had a healing, she had a beautiful upbringing, her mamisa and maala were her two divine mothers, her saheli and nandu jija and now maithili are her friends, support, Rudra is her protector, the man who made her into a strong and independent lady from the delicate village girl she was. But what about Rudra, his life is a net of unanswered questions and nightmares, his mother abandoned him for her reasons, he did not have the opportunity to question her also, and his father brought him up for the sake of it, with all bitterness and the grief which he wanted to get rid off. His only pride, his uniform and job got snatched away from him, blaming him as a women abuser, the very woman whom he protects with all his life and blood. So it is not that easy as paro thinks, i like the fact that Paro wants to heal him, but she is too naive and still does not have the capacity to realize and understand the deep ocean Rudra is.
As i had said earlier, it is easy to love and worship a person when you know completely about him, that how he saved you, your nation, your pride, your honour, and thus Paro's worship towards him has no second thought, But it is equally tough to love a woman as passionately and as intensely when she thinks and presumes you as an abuser, a killer, a man who can stoop at any level for his ulterior motives and such is the case of Rudra. He was happy to recieve her hatred and still love her, as he never feared of losing her, but now he just wishes that she would never fall for him because as much as he loves her, he knows that he cannot tolerate a separation from her, especially when he has become so helpless in his love, he cannot even fake his rudeness and arrogance these days, eventhough he tries a lot.