RAABTA-Part 96 on page 148 on 9/3 - Page 91

Originally posted by: chandu8881

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All the best, for your exams, will wit for your comments😊
You won't be there for so many days😭 i will miss you!!
But don't worry, do your exams well😃

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Originally posted by: chandu8881

hello:)
today its my sis birthday, had thought of writing it before the party, everything went upside down, will update tmrw for sure:)
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Part 78

A hug!! What do you think a hug might create in your insides, when you need it the most???

A hug, from family (includes everyone) is caring, loving, and just out of the world…

A hug from a lover, what could that cause?? Yes, it does make them physically closer, and want or the need or the longing (whatever you want to refer), would get more intensified, the feeling of holding each other, not letting go off, all comes at a same time…ofcourse, it includes caring, loving…

Khanak remember's the words-

'Disappearances happen
Pain goes phantom
Blood stop running
and people, people fade away'
No she would never want Shaan away from her life, ok, not forever, that tells that, she knew somewhere that, their paths would cross?? She was not sure, she just wanted to step back on that day, when she decided that she would leave her life there?? Mind you, its leave and not live…

Once again, all over, she wants to run away…she want to run away from herself; from everything which haunts her in his form…..Him staying with her, in the same house, is really disturbing her…

She thought that she needed some time before she could ask him her answers….She needed to find her grounds first, before she assure him everything, and this time she doesn't want to be a mess, again, this time she will compose herself, first….Shehad found herself grow as a mother, now she wants to see herself grow as a woman, so that she's strong as a wife….

Her realization of the event, also told that, if he didn't express his problems, then there must be something lacking in her…..

Shaan!! Shaan!! It takes no time, to realize to Shaan, that Khanak is calling him, he runs from the living hall from his house, to his bedroom, fearing to even think about the bad things….

There she is in his room, panic striken all over her face, she's sittign in the middle of his bed, in the hurry he fails to notice the things around him, he fails even to see, the toys strewn around his room and all over the bed…

Shaan jumps on the bed, to ask her what's troubling…

Shaan: (sits on the bed, cups her face from his right hand) Khanak!! Kya hua?? Is everything fine?? (tensed)

Khanak: No Shaan!! Nothing is fine!! Look here..(points to her lap)

His 5-month old, little girl, her skin fair as milk, soft as butter, her eyes glittering, just as her mother, a small cute nose, her pink lips, her cute small ears, just a perfect one, she's their angel, he notices her, she is having a great time on her mummy's lap, he smiles widely at his girl, caresses her cheek…

Shaan: how cute!! (smiling and looking at his baby girl)

Khanak: cute?? Bahut badmaash hain!! Kabse khilane ki koshish kar rahi hun, lekin nahi…(shakes her head)

Shaan: Khanak, chill shayad use bhook nahi lagi hogi, khaleegi, I mean doodh peelegi…(focuses on his child once again)

Khanak: haan toh teek hain na, jab use bhook lagegi, toh mera paas leke aajana, (hands him the child)

She gets up slowly..Aayush comes running there…hugs his mom, Khanak fondly caresses his hair, in the next moment, she gently extricates herself, Aayush walks over to his papa, plays with his little sister, by making faces, making the girl shows her bald gums wildly, she's just enjoying, Shaan smiles at the interaction, his first son and his daughter sharing…He looks up to look at his wife's face, she's moving to the door…

Shaan: kahan jaa rahi ho?? (holding his 5-month old) She doesn't respond…

Shaan: Khanak!!

Nope she isn't there, he circles the room, no…Suddenly, he's in a room, which is unfamiliar, he just can see everywhere white, now he also feels his arms loose, looks down, finds that, his girl is also not with him, once again looks Aayush who was standing beside him, is also absent, looks all over, tensed…

He shots up in the bed, sweating, looks onto the next side, Aayush is sleeping soundlessly, though his part of the blanket is spread out…

Shaan breathes heavily, relaxes first, realizes it was his dream, leans back…

After the talk with Raj, she had returned his phone, suddenly she was disturbed, he did realize that, after that she was gone…

He looks at the side, realizes there isn't any water, gets up, fully awaken, walks out of the room, to fetch some water…

For his surprise, there she is, she has got a small light lit, sitting on one of the chairs of dining table…She's drowned into the screen of laptop, he knows that something is troubling her, she's already working late hours in the hospital, she goes early, gets back late, she checks on Aayush, but still doesn't ask him a word, he feels lonely more now….

He do knows that even she feel the same thing, but he's unsure of the reason why she's running…

He's reminded of-

'Distance never separates two hearts that really care,
for our memories span the miles and in seconds we are there.
But whenever I
start feeling sad, because I miss you….'

He just walks over and takes a seat next to her, she very well knows that he's beside her, but she concentrats on the work, wich she has promised to someone that she'll do it…

Shaan: Khanak!! Abhi bhi tumhe hamare bare main baat nahi karni hain…

She pauses her job….

Khanak: baat karni hain!! Lekin…

He straightens up, Shaan: lekin kya Khanak??

Khanak: (she looks at him now, confident) Can I borrow some time??

Shaan: time??

Khanak: haan Shaan!! Just some time, so that I'll be strong this time, I agree, this hurts both of us, but this is necessary Shaan!! I have to be strong, you can't be baby sitting me all the time….i, Shaan…(she fumbles)

Shaan: lekin Khanak, I love the way you are, you are not careless, that's evident by the love you shower on Aayush and me, you just get scared some times…and sometimes, to be afraid, is not wrong…

Khanak knows what he uttered was right, but still she's adamant…she gets hold of his hand, he engulfes his hand on hers…

Shaan: Khanak, you know you are the strongest, if you were not, then you and Aayush wouldn't have survived those 2 years without me….(he's being meaningful)

Khanak: no Shaan!! Im not… those 2 years, I know, I survived only because of Aayush, agar Aayush mera saath nahi ho tha, then I would not be able to survive that accident….tab mera jeene ki maqsad sirf, Aayush….

Shaan inhales deeply…looking into her eyes….

Khanak: then you came, you know that I love being around you…(this brings smile on both of their faces)

Khanak: Shaan, if you didn't chose me to share your feelings, then there must be problem in me na…

Shaan: No Khanak, (stopped by)

Khanak: I know you won't agree, but still, may be you thought im weak, unable to understand you, may be, you even thought I'll break down…(laughs at her own self)

She was right, he did thought the same….

He doesn't have any more to talk, but he know that he love her guiding, he won't be able to tolerate, if she's not the same, as he's the soul person in her life, him guiding her in all parts of her life, he wanted to remain the same in her life, he wanted his Khanak back, not a new person in her behalf, he can't even imagine her without that naughtiness in her, he didn't want her to change even a bit, he just loved her how she was….He just wanted his Khanak back…

Here, she is, trying to change herself only because, she thought, she was not right for him…She didn't say that in pure words, but he knew what she meant….

Originally posted by: chandu8881

hello:)
today its my sis birthday, had thought of writing it before the party, everything went upside down, will update tmrw for sure:)
please oblige...