FF-meri padosi...updated part 17 A on page 51... - Page 14

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Originally posted by: Just.Shanak

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So here is part 9...hope you all like it..

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FF- meri padosi -part 9

She screamed "The car did not hit me…it hit Varun…I killed him…I killed Varun…I killed him"

Khanak: It was his birthday...his parents had bought him a car...but little did they know that the gift they had bought for their son…would take his life...it was all over ..over in just a few seconds…forever…and the reason was me...solely me...

Shaan could not say anything...he was too shocked...he did not expect something like this...he was still holding her hands...they were still bleeding a little...

He knew what she was trying to do...repent on her decision that day...her decision to end her life...which cost her life of someone she truly loved...

Khanak was now feeling exactly what she had felt that day...helpless...he had died in front of her...trying to save her and all she could do was nothing...

She remembered his last words to her...that he regretted the day she had entered his life...and those words were carved forever...she knew he was right...she had proved to be a curse for him..

4 years she was living with this undeniable truth...regretting...

Hoping that just once if the clock turns back to that day...and she could change just a couple of seconds...seconds that sound so unimportant...but the ones that had changed her life...forever...

Shaan looked at her...her tears had dried away...she had no more left…she was carrying a huge burden with her for a long time...a burden which just grew with time...her wounds had never healed...because she had never let them to..

Khanak: Thodi si himmat..agar uss din main thodi si himmat dikhati...aur galat ke khilaaf ladti...toh aaj Varun jinda hota..he would have been alive…

Shaan: Khanak...(he could not find the ecaxt words to speak) Khanak..main jaanta hoon jo hua uske liye tum apne aap ko doshi thehra rahi hon..

As he said this...he carefully looked at her hands...pulled out a handkerchief from his pocket and very lightly…started to rub out blood from her wounds...she just looked at him.. as he began again…

Shaan:par kabhi kabhi..zindagi kuch aisi cheezen hoti hain...jinpar humhara bas nahi chalta...

Khanak looked at the man who was standing in front of her…caressing her wonds… she barely knew him for days...but he was the man she had shared her pains with this night...

Pains she had never ever shared with anyone in her life...not even her mother...

But with Shaan things were different...she didnt know why and she didnt want to know why...but she knew things were different…

Shaan saw her looking at him...he knew exactly what she was thinking...and that was a question he had as well...

Why did he want to know what was troubling her...?Why did her painfull eyes catch his attention the first time they met? Why couldn't he see her sad? Why did he like to see her smile?

"There need not be an answer to every why" was all he thought...

Khanak: Thank you Shaan...thank you..

Shaan: Thanks for what?

Khanak: For trying to make me feel...that I wasn't wrong...

but I know I was..and nothing is going to change that....

Shaan: you know Khanak...it is very easy to speak brave...and equally difficult to act...

tumhe lagta hain ki tum uss din agar himmat se kaam leti...toh shayad aaj situation kuch alag hoti..par uss waqt tum kya mehsoos kar rahi thi..ye sirf tum jaanti ho..sirf tum... tum insaan ho Khanak…Bhagwaan nahi...aur insaan toot jaata hain...jab apne bharosa nahi karte...

Khanak: par maine uski jaan li...

Shaan: jindagi aur maut ka faisla..hum nahi...woh karta hain (pointing upwards) hum sirf uska jariya ban jaate hain...Khanak ..tum Varun se pyar karti thi..isliye tum usse door hone ke khayal ko seh nahi paayi...Varun tumse pyar karta tha...aur isiliye woh tumhare piche aya..tumhe bachane...par kahi na kahi shayad uska pyar tumse jyada tha...isliye woh jeet gaya..usne tumhe bacha liya...

"You did not kill him...he saved you."

Khanak couldnt disagree to what he said...she knew Varun loved him...truly..

Shaan: I know you feel you did wrong...I would not say you were right ...but you need to put it back..someday or the other...I am not asking you to forget it...but its time you stop feeling guilty Khanak...It was an accident...whether you agree or not…you did not kill him...you did not...It was just an accident…

Khanak: Which happened because of me…I don't deserve to live..I don't deserve to be happy..

Shaan: You are anyways not living..

Khanak: I am still living Shaan...

Shaan: saans lene ko jeena nahi kehte Khanak..

Khanak knew he was right...after Varun's death...that was the thing she had promised herself..."to just breathe..do what every living creature does..it couldnt be that difficult" she had thought

Shaan: You might feel you don't deserve to be happy…but people who love you deserve to see you happy…your mother.. she has all the right in this world to see you happy...how could you forget her...your father..who might still be seeing you from somewhere...he does deserve to see you happy…

Do you think Varun would have been happy to see you in this state..? If you feel..he died because of you..then you are living his life..and he has the right..to live it to the fullest...

Khanak I know I am no one to say this...I am no one to advice you..but if you have shown a little trust upon me by sharing your pains...then trust me a little more Khanak...get over with it..

Khanak didnt know what to say..she wanted to agree... but there was something that was stopping her...an unknown thing...she didnt know what it was...but it was making it difficult for her to do what she wanted to...

She spoke after a while…

Khanak: I will try Shaan... for my Mother...you are right..she should not be the one suffering…she has the right to see her daughter happy..

Shaan: Good...(he thought for a while and then spoke ) waise ..ah…Kabirji ne kaha hain...kal kare so aaj kar..aur aaj kare so ab..

Khanak: ye tum kya keh rahe ho?

Shaan: main nahi kabirji kehte the...

Khanak: Shaan...

Shaan: dekho I cannot see pretty girls unhappy...aur tum mujhe iss waqt bahut udaas lag rahi hon..aur mere paas...tumhe khush karne ka ek perfect plan hain...

Khanak: Kaisa plan?

Shaan: Woh toh tumhe tab pata chalega..jab tum mere saath bahar chalogi...

Khanak: bahar iss waqt..pagal ho gaye ho..mamma wait kar rahi hogi..mujhe jaana hain...

Shaan: toh maine kaha bhaag jaane ko …aunty ko batakar jayenge..aur unse baat karne ki jimmedaari meri..you dont worry...

Khanak: par hum bahar jayenge kaha..?

Shaan: that will be a secret..

He looks at her from head to toe...

Shaan: perfect..you are dressed well...chalo...

Khanak tried to protest but Shaan pulled her hand and took her away...

He spoke with her mother and she agreed to let him take her out...

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Shaan was driving...Khanak kept asking him. .where they were heading to...but he kept on saying its a secret...she finally gave up. .pouted and started looking out of the window...

He found her gesture too cute to not smile...

Shaan: Khanak yaar ..naraaz mat ho...warna date par maja nahi ayega..

Khanak: (quickly looked at him) date?

Shaan: haan date...

Khanak:ye date kab ho gayi..?

Shaan: c'mon Khanak..ek ladka aur ek ladki ..akele...shaam ko ek saath kahi bahar jaate hain..toh usse date nahi toh aur kya kahte hain...

Khanak: aisa nahi hota...

Shaan: aisa hi hota hain...

Khanak: ye cheating hain...

He was amused at her chioce of words.. she went back to her pouting.. and he couldn't help smile again...

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They reached a park...Shaan got out from the car…and held the door for her...she got out...still pretending to be angry...but they both knew...she was faking ...

She notices it was park...a park perfect for kids to play….

Khanak: ye tum mujhe kaha le aye ho?

Shaan: park main..

Khanak: Shaan main 5 saal ki bachi nahi hoon...jo tum mujhe park main le aye ho..

Shaan: Ho nahi..par banane main kya burai hain..

Khanak: koi dekhega toh kya sochega Shaan..

Shaan: koi nahi dekhega..tumhe dikh raha hain yaha koi…itni raat ko yaha koi nahi ata…ab chalo..

Khanak: lekin...

He dragged her with him inside…

Shaan: ab batao..tum kya karma chahti ho..jhula jhoolna hain..slide pe jaana chahti hon…ya

see-saw…yea that would be perfect…

Khanak: Shaan..please main ye sab nahi kar sakti..

Shaan: kyu nahi kar sakti?

Khanak: because unlike you..I have grown up..

Shaan: yahi toh problem hain..we think we have grown up…alright...so you want to do things what grown up people do…then I am ok with it…(he started pulling up his shirt) humhare paas time bhi hain..aur space bhi..

She quickly stopped him from lifting his shirt further up…

Khanak: Shaan..bakwaas band karo...aur isse neeche karo..(pointing at his shirt)

Shaan: Aree..sharma kyu rahi ho Khanak..you have seen me without it before as well…

Khanak: Ah…Shaan stop it..tum akir chahte kya ho..?

He was not smiling anymore and spoke in a serious tone…

Shaan: I want you to be happy...(she looked up at him…his eyes look genuine)

for once Khanak...just forget your sorrows...forget your responsibilities….forget your burden ...

and live…set yourself free ... do all the things you want to...

Scream... shout...sing...dance…play...there is no one to stop you...(he moved closer...very gently took her hand and placed it on her heart) do what your heart says...set your mind free...

She gently closed...her eyes...to feel her heartbeats...while he just looked at her...she opened her eyes...saw him and gave him a smile...he smiled back…

Khanak: toh tum chate ho main woh sab karo…jo mera dil keh raha hain..

Shaan: exactly…

Khanak: thik hain..

She strongly punches him on his shoulder…

Shaan: Ouch! That hurt..

Khanak: pata hain..main hamesha se kissi tagde insaan ko maarna chahti thi…

Shaan: Really?

She nods..

Shaan: toh maro…

She lifts her fist to hit him again but he dodges it…and runs away…

Shaan: C'mon..catch me if you can Khanak...

She runs behind him...they both run around the whole area...laughing...screaming…teasing…

Khanak finally gets hold of him…

Khanak: Got you Shantanu Khandelwal...

She did what she wanted to..punch him..but this time lighter…light enough that he couldn't even feel someone had hit him…

He looked at her smiling…but she did not smile back… showed out her tongue to him and ran away...and all he did was smile again at her childishness...

She looked happy...she went and sat on a swing...swinging it as fast as she can…

He went towards her...she was smiling throughout...trying to swing faster...just like a small kid...who feels he might be able to touch the sky if he swings higher...

Every time she rised up and came back...she closed her eyes...and he was mesmerized looking at her...he felt as if he was looking at the most beautiful person ever...

She saw him staring at her...

Khanak: (almost screaming) Mujhe ghuro mat..tum bhi jhool sakte ho..

Shaan: No..I am fine...

Khanak: (still screaming) abhi khud hi toh keh rahe the..do what you want to..no reservations etc..etc...

Shaan: nahi woh actually mujhe chakkar ate hain...bachpan se hi..I used to stay away from this one thing..

Khanak: chakkar haan..?

Shaan: haan..

She slowed down...

Khanak: I can help you get over with it..

Shaan: and how exactly?

She got down...moved towards him...held one of his hand...in both of hers...and started to twirl him around…fast...and he couldn't stop laughing at her move...

Shaan: (between laughs) aree..Khanak..ye kya kar rahi ho..?

Khanak: help..kar rahi hoon..ghoomo...fast…fast Shaan…

She tried twirling him as fast as she could…

She finally stopped…both still laughing...They did not realize when they had stepped closer.....

Shaan had his hand on her waist…while Khanak held his other hand in hers close to her chest...

They both looked at each other…and felt as if the time had come to a standstill...

She was feeling awkward...with his closeness...but when she looked deeper into his eyes...the awkwardness was no more there…

She smiled...He moved away…

Khanak: Thank you Shaan...

Shaan: c'mon tumhare saath date par aane ke liye main itna toh kar hi sakta hoon...

Khanak: (eyebrows raised) ye koi date wate nahi hain..(pointing her index finger towards him)samjhe..(she pouts a little)

He starts looking here and there...as if finding something..

Khanak: kya dhundh rahe ho?

Shaan: woh tumhari smile..

She immediately smiled as he said this..

Shaan: Mil gayi..

Khanak: bahut hi puraani trick hain Shaan..

Shaan: par hamesha kaam karti hain..

Khanak: haan haan jaanti hoon..Varun bhi aksar…….

She stopped mid sentence...and started to look down...her smile had disappeared...he noticed this…He gently held her chin and made her look up...

Shaan: Dont make it a sad chapter Khanak…dont...(She looked at him...not understanding what he wanted to say...he continued) He was a part of your life...someone you loved...someone who loved you…don't make the memories sound dark…those were your happy moments with him...keep them that way....don't spoil them….

Khanak: you think I never tried..? it is difficult Shaan...

Shaan:I know its going to be difficult...but nobody ever said...the journey of life is going to be easy...

Khanak: He would never ever get to know..I didn't cheat him...never…

He could feel her helplessness…he knew she wanted to tell him the truth but could never..

He spoke after a while…

Shaan: then tell him..

Khanak: (confused) what?

Shaan: tell him what you want to…do it..

Khanak: I wish I could..

Shaan: you can Khanak…you know..meri dadi kehti hain…jo log hume chod ke jaate hain…woh hamesha humhare saath rehte hain…humhe dekhte hain…sunte hain..(pointing upwards) waha se...He is listenning to you…tell him what you want to..just ..tell him..

He took her hand in his...guided her towards a bench….made her stand on it....

Shaan: just say it ...

He let her hand go...he wanted her to deal with it herself...he stepped away...she slowly closed her eyes...remembering all her memories with him...their love…their fights…everything…She took time before she spoke…

Khanak: (Took a deep breath) I could never hurt you Varun…never even think of...you were my life…I know that day I was at fault...I should have tried being strong...

I wanted to tell you the truth...but you did not listen...and that hurt me the most...but that did not change my feelings for you…you felt I ruined your life…but believe me...I can never think of doing so...I would have given you my life if you had asked me to…but it happened otherwise..

I wish the end of our journey together was different…I would have lived without you…knowing you are somewhere there…happy...but to live knowing you are no more here…is very difficult Varun…very difficult...I am sorry ..I am really very sorry for whatever I have done…I know my sorry wouldn't give you your life back…wouldn't give your parents their son back…but still I want to say it…that I am extremely sorry…(she paused...took a deep breath) I love you Varun…and will love you for the rest of my life...till my breath is there with me...I will love you..

She opened her eyes...and looked at the sky above...she could see him...his smiling face...as if he believed what she said...as if he was there...with her...

She smiled...raised her hand above...trying to touch him...she felt as if his smile was widening as her hand moved closer...she was just staring at his eyes...moved her hand closer...and finally touched his face...

But as soon as she did so… she realized there was something different...his eyes were not the same...

She looked at the face...it wasn't him ..it wasn't Varun…It was Shaan...smiling..

She immediately pulled her hand back...and looked besides her…Shaan was standing there…

She couldn't make out...why she saw him...

He gestured her to come down…she did so absentmindedly...

Shaan: are you alright?

Khanak: I am fine..

She was indeed feeling light...her heart felt lighter…as if someone had taken out a huge load from her...but she still could not reason out seeing Shaan's face..

They started to leave...reached the car...

Shaan: Khanak.ah...chale?

Khanak: (she was confused as to why was he asking her so) haan..

He pulled his hand upward to show her that she was holding it...she did not realize when…but she had held his hands...all the way while they were walking...

She immediately let them go..

Khanak: I am sorry..

Shaan: Its ok Khanak...date pe itna toh chalta hain..

She gave him a stern look and he corrected himself...

Shaan: alright….no date...

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They reached the building...He parked the car and both of them headed to their floor together...

As soon as they reached their floor...Khanak wished him "Good night" and began to leave…but was stopped with a strong pull on her wrist...

He had held her hand…he moved closer …she could feel her heartbeats fasten...but did not move even a little...he moved very close...let go her hand...leaned down...so that he could reach her height...he looked straight at her...but she kept looking down...she felt she would lose herself if she looked at him...

Shaan: (whispering in her ears in a husky voice) It was a date Khanak...

She did not retort this time…she did not have the courage to…and he knew she won't...

He moved back a little so that his lips were angled to her cheeks. .his lips were not even an inch away from her cheeks...he waited for a moment...not because he was in two minds. Because he wanted her to move away if she felt like...but she did not...

He moved closer and gave a very light peck on her cheek...She closed her eyes... felt her heart racing and body shivering...when his lips touched her..

How could that happen...how could a slight touch make her feel...what she never felt...her mind could not answer...

He whispered in her ears again...

Shaan: now the night will be good for me…good night Khanak...

She did not look at him…turned around and left...but he could feel she was blushing...

He kept looking at her disappearing figure...as his smile widened....

Such an adorable part....!!

superb n extremely touching
beautifully written dear

loved it superb:)

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