New Asya SS: Heart to the test, Chap7, 28-8-16 - Page 4

Chap 1

What a crazy night, totally unexpected, she won the best actress of the year. She felt a mixed of emotion, she wanted to jump, to scream and even to cry in joy, she felt so lucky and so blessed. Her director Abi was looking for a new face and she was selected within hundred faces, and who would have bet that this film would have been such a success, she never thought about, when she took it, it was because of Abi's reputation, but could never dreamt so far to win this price. Only one told her about her lucky star and assured her that she will be praised for this film, because it was made for her.

-look who we have here, the best actress of the year, Mrs Zoya Asad Ahmed Khan, my lovely wife.

His voice brought her to earth brusquely. She cringed at his tone which wasn't welcoming at all, and she knew it better, it has been now her routine each time, she came back from outside. She approached slowly, her faced hardened while his lips curled mockingly.

-wow, I am honored to have to best actress of the year under my roof, he continued with a cruel tone.

-you are drunk Asad, she noticed the cup dancing in his hand

-I am not drunk, I am celebrating my wife's success, he lifted the cup to her, and you know what it's a bad luck to celebrate with an empty cup, do you want to join me? He asked knowing her answer, but she kept numb avoiding his eyes, she didn't want to throw him disgust look, he chuckled bitterly, I guess it's no. Never mind, I will drink for two. He poured his cup and brought it to his mouth when she barged to him, jerking away his brewage.

-STOP IT, ASAD, she yelled at him in pain and her eyes moistened showed the same emotion.

-YOU are not going to tell me what to do, I'm still in my sense and I don't need you

-But I need you, she uttered, his inside twisted in pain, forcing him to close his eyes, he didn't want to cry or to break down, he never cried since that day and he will not even for her.

-you know why you win this statue, because you are really a good actress, she flinched at his painful remark, she felt his words stabbing her heart a millions time, you know when I heard your speech about me, I was closed to cry and then I remember you are an actress, you know what I want to clap for you, it was a brilliant performance, really, and he started to clap holding her sad gaze, but she didn't move and let him insulting her again. Her tears rolled on her cheeks, she didn't need to pretend and he knows it very well, she never played in front of him and never hide, instead of him. Asad clapped loudly, and with every tears that she drops, pierced his heart, but he didn't want to stop. He was going through the same pain, he didn't know when he started to cry, he didn't feel his tears, even if his brain was playing badly with her, his heart expressed his rejection to this game through his eyes. Sweetheart, you deserve a standing ovation.

-Asad please, she whimpered

-No, please, let me do it for you, he posed each of his hands on the armrest of his wheelchair, and balanced his upper body to stand, it was hard physically and emotionally for him, and his face was the perfect witness of his mad gesture. He stood as best as he can, his legs lifeless and heavy, didn't move and he held his dead body in the power of his arms. Zoya let out a sad sob. See, I stood for you, he said breathless, but...I can't clap, I am sorry, this is my standing ovation, sweetheart. He fell on his chair, he couldn't stand anymore, his chest moved up and down and his breath came as sharp hiss.

She shook her head from side to side downhearted to see him hurting himself more than her and it hurt her to see him so hard about his illness, he didn't chose, it was written for him, for them, but he didn't accept it, and kept punishing himself everyday crossing sanity. He first let out a bitter chuckled which turned to loud and mock laugh.

-you didn't tell me how is Karan? What about your love story with him?

-Asad, please

-it was fun from you to put in your speech about your lover and husband in the same time, it was pathetically hilarious, Zoya

-Asad, you don't need to be insulting

-insulting? IN-SUL-TING? His teeth squeezed between them, are you fu**** kinding me, Zoya? You just tell to THE WORLD about your relation with him.

-you only listened to what you want and understand what it arrange you, it was just a joke, but you missed to feel what I said, you missed to who I attribute my success and you just missed love you prefer to stay blind at.

-Love? Do you still love me, Zoya?

-And you, do you still have some feelings for me? I don't need to say the word of love, because I know you are planning to kill every bit of it. Because I wonder each time I saw you hurting me and keep doing it again and again without showing remorse.

-I guess you don't love me, you didn't answer to my question

-I don't need to answer to this question, because you won't believe me, but I have my own answer for my question, Asad Ahmed Khan.

-for better or worse, in sickness and in health, we are just in, he said bitterly and she clenched her jaw.

-Ahsan, she called , AHSAAN, she called again and her eyes on Asad curved in his chair carelessly.

-Yes, Ma'm

-can you bring Mister Khan in his room please

-I told you, I don't need you, he spat out angrily

-you need to take a rest, she said coldly, he grabbed her wrist firmly.

-I AM NOT A KID TO BE PUNISH, YOU HEAR ME, I WILL NOT DO WHAT YOU ASK ME TO DO

-do what you want, I am going to sleep, good nigh Asad. She jerked from his grip.

-What you already leave? You don't want to be by my side, this is what you said, right? It's time to celebrate beautiful.

She didn't reply and left his side, crying even more when he didn't stop. He saw her figure retreat back, his heart asked for apology while his brain didn't move once. He rubbed his legs to trigger something in them, but they were still lifeless.

-Zoya, I thought I was your life but it seems that you didn't bare being by my side, he scratched his legs, sliding his nails inside his flesh but nothing change, his legs were still at it was, dead like him.

She fell on the floor, holding her knees against her chest. He was not anymore her Asad, she knows that he was still here, trapped behind walls of pain and totally veiled behind this monster that he became. His accident didn't only paralyzed his legs but his heart also. Her Asad was trapped somewhere and she can see him through his sad eyes, but she didn't know what to do to make him accepting his fate, to bring him back. She cried at her loss, poured tears of regrets for those happy days that they shared. They were married and living happily for 4 years when in one moment, everything turned their dream into worst nightmare, a moment when she lost the best part of him, his soul and his love. She laid her side on the floor, her tears fell drop by drop on the floor, like a drop of time bringing her back to the day where everything has stopped.

Year and half earlier

It was a normal morning, a day has raised for a new couple, Asad and Zoya will celebrate soon their fourth years of marriage. They had a normal life, they met at the bus stop and since then, they never left each other side, they commonly did all the step as man and woman to be together. Asad and Zoya were both artist, she dreamt to be one day an actress and he wanted to be film-maker, but unfortunately, they were still each other looking for a door to be opened. Zoya's passion was acting but for the moment, she only played some add spot or had a short role in serial but nothing really serious or interesting for her. She took what she had, because she needed to earn money. And for Asad, it was the same refrain, no one trusted him enough to direct a movie or theater, so to earn money, God has blessed him with a perfect body and good looking. So naturally, he became a model and for a change he was in front of the camera and not behind. Every day was challenging for them and they were supportive toward each other and believed in each other skills. They were two body with one soul.

Zoya wearing her nigh robe, was preparing food for him. It was a day off for her, like usual those weeks, she didn't have an interesting role to play, she received some scripts but for the moment, her choice was not fixed on any of them.

-hi Wifey, he held her from behind kissing the nap of her neck, making her closed her eyes and drawn a soft smile on her face.

-hi baby, she touched his cheek in response.

-what are you preparing? He looked below her shoulder

-your breakfast, Asad

-what about the dessert? He teased taking the string of her robe and started to pull it

-Asad, she warned him, tapping his hand

-Ouch, he faked to be hurt making her rolling her eyes at his antics. I don't care I have another interesting target, he nibbled naughtily a spot located in the junction between her jaw and her neck, he knows that she was sensitive and it drove her crazy when he kissed that part of her. And each time, he didn't fail to make her moan.

-Asad no, her voice and her body language were contradictive, she slide her hands into his hair pushing him further. His mouth travelled along her neckline reaching her shoulder and with another hand, he went through her robe pressing her tummy, he didn't even pull the string to enter. He groaned when he went upper, she was perfectly naked. Asad...Break...fast, she tightened the spoon that she was holding between her fingers and bit her lips to stop her whimper. Her breath shortened with all this assault his fingers playing with part of her body, she felt weak on her knees and couldn't hold anymore, taking his lips by surprise in passionate kiss. It has been 4 years now that they were married but time didn't decrease the hunger that they had for the other. They never got bored to kiss, to touch and to make love, between them, it's a strong and magnetic attraction. He adjusted her face holding on her neck pushing her more into his mouth, he liked her taste. He removed her dress from her upper body making her topless, the robe was only held by the closed string on her waist and she did the same pulling up his shirt. They continued to kiss and to dance flesh against flesh. He went back to her neck teasing again her soft skin. Zoya laughed seductively under his torture when a strange smell came tickling her nose.

-Asad, wait, she tried to push him but he pulled her more against him, growling frustrated, she can't ask him to stop. Asad...ASAD, IT'S BURNING. She jerked him abruptly and took the stove from the fire. Her eggs was dark and white smoke came from it. She pouted sadly.

Asad bit his lips, she was going to be mad at him now.

-Asad, look what you did, she shouted on him

-it's not my fault,

-really? If you hadn't distract me, I wouldn't have burnt your breakfast,

-you call it distraction now, he narrowed his eyes playfully approaching her dangerously

-Stay away from me, ok, she avoided to look into his eyes, she knew that she will not resist longer. Go the other side, she said sternly.

-anything for my lady. He took his shirt laying carelessly on the floor and slide it, while Zoya covered her body now. Frustrated breakfast, he muttered

-What did you say? Zoya didn't hear well

-Mmm, nothing, he played the innocent, and he let his eyes on the numerous script on the table. Zoya, you didn't chose yet. He said exasperated.

-No,

-Why?

-What why? I don't know what to chose

-we discuss about and you like one, but I don't know why you don't want. It's a good story, a famous director and I am sure you will be awesome in it. It is made for you, sweetheart.

-Asad, I..

-What's wrong?

-it's a love story

-then

-then, they will be intimate scene and I...Look Asad, it's a good story but I can't do it.

-because of me?

-Asad, I can't see myself kissing another man than you

-Zoya, it's acting, it's a part of your job. You are not going to flirt with another men, you are playing a role. And if you are not convinced you can negotiate to have stand-in for intimate scene

-I am not at all famous and I started to play the diva

-you can ask, you can say that you are not familiar with those scenes and it will be better for the movie to have someone else.

-Asad, please, it's not so easy for me. She gave him her back and didn't want to argue with him. He sighed, he didn't like when she hide behind her shell and cut the discussion quickly. She was never good to express herself and when the voice raised, she preferred to step back than to argue.

-Zoya listen to me, he turned her by her shoulders and held her close to him, but she didn't look at him and played with button of his shirt. I have to admit that I will not appreciate seeing you kissing another man, she looked up and wanted to talk but he posed his fingers on her lips, but I trust you, and I know you will not kiss them with your heart, you will be in your character and that's it. I trust you Zoya, and I love you.

-Asad, she felt weak and she started to lower her guard.

-I want you to tell me the differences between those kisses.

She looked up surprised but before she could ask, he pulled her down in his arms, and kissed her lips softly, teasing her lower and upper lips between his, he gave her a movie kiss. He stepped back and saw a soft smile on her lips. He waited for her to open them again.

-What about this one, this time, his kiss wasn't soft, he went deep, it was bold and intense, he triggered his tongue, and he kissed like she loved to be kiss, he conquered her and kissed her soul with his love. Zoya rolled her eyes heavenly the moment his lips touched hers and he swallowed her moan in his mouth. If she wasn't in his arms, she would have fall, feeling her body melting like ice under the sun, he took all the life from her body, relaxing her muscles to their limits. She was totally under his mercy, he can do whatever he wanted from her body, she was his puppet, she surrendered completely and irrevocably. Asad lifted her up, and he stopped his demonstration. Forehead against each other with eyes closed, both were still under the effect and with their chest moving back and forth in unison.

-the difference is your love for me. Zoya, I know what you like and what you dislike, I know how to kiss you and what drive you crazy, she groaned at him when his fingers touched some sensitive spot of her body, your heart knows my touch and reacted to my love, your body, your heart and your soul only belongs to me. No matter who you are going to be with, your heart will always recognize me and wanted to be with me, her chest moved back and forth in response. Just the way my heart will only beats for you, Zoya Asad Ahmed Khan, you are my love, my life. Open your eyes, he ordered and she moved lazily her eyelids, still forehead against each other. You will call the director, negotiate with him and sign the contract. This story is going to make you famous and who knows maybe you will win the best actress. She chuckled softly. I believe in you and in your talent, and I don't say because I am your husband but because I am your fan number one.

-I love you Asad

-I love you more, even more and more and more. He gave a plenty kisses all over her face making her giggle.

-Asad stop it, she shove him away, don't you have shooting today.

-Oh Shit, I forget about it, you are really distracting me, Mrs Khan.

-Me? She pointed to herself outrageous with his audacity.

-Yes, he replied without shame

-Just go away now, RIGHT NOW, she tried to sound angry but fell miserably.

-Remember baby, I have shooting and next I will join the guy for basketball, she nodded. And one more thing, I want to hear you calling me that you sign it today or I won't talk to you.

-O-K, she rolled her eyes

-and something more, he took his bag, we will continue what we started before you let my breakfast burning, because it was a frustrated breakfast for me. I didn't finish my dessert.

-ASAD AHMED KHAN, JUST MOVE ON NOW. He laughed at her and went to his work.

She looked at his silhouette going away from her, and as always, she didn't like to be away from him, but today she didn't know why she felt strange seeing him going, something clenched her inside painfully. She removed this strange feeling from her. He was her strength, her love and her reason to believe in herself. She sighed dreamily.

4 hours later

He lifted his head from left to the right, it was exhausting shooting, with a capricious photographer and models. What was about to finish in 2 hours, took twice of the time. Finally, he finished his shooting and went to enjoy the time with his buddy. He raised the volume of the music and shook his head with the rhythms. His phone laying on the next seat started to vibrate.

-Zoya, he said happily, hi baby

-ASAAADDD, HE ACCEPTED, HE ACCEPTED, she shouted on the other side making his ears erected.

-Calm down, what are talking about?

-The director accepted for an intimate scene, I don't need to do all of them

-that's fabulous baby and so did you accept?

-of course yes, I signed

-that's amazing baby, I am so proud of you, he said with teary eyes, finally one of them has put one foot in their dream. He was happy for her, she fought a lot and met a lot of deception, but today, her day has finally come.

-Thank you so much Asad, I couldn't have done it without you, thank you so much for your support, your love and for being who you are. I love you, I love you. She thanked him with shaky voice, he smiled and wanted to hold her right now knowing that she was on the edge to cry.

-This is really a good speech, you will have to remember when you will receive the award of best actress

-Asad, I am really far from receiving any award, the shooting will start in 3 months and it will be released in one year.

-Enough reason to train your speech, you will have to be prepared, don't make me ashamed by saying some rubbish speech like thank you, thank you, I don't know what to say, bouh bouh, he pretended to mimic some random speech finishing by crying loudly.

-Asad, she whined, you can't joke because it can be really disturbing,

-I know but you will have to control yourself and I know how you are when you are happy, you like to cry.

-No, I don't

-of course yes, I can see you receiving your award, crying happily and me also. I will be here sitting and watching you shaking from head to toe, being totally emotional and seeing rubbish words, which going to make no sense, and I will wish to hide under my chair.

-Asad Ahmed Khan, you are mean with me. I don't want to talk to you, bye

-hey wait, wait, wait, see I am holding my ears mentally to apologize, I was joking baby,

-you always got what you want for me

-I know how to make you melt, anyway, we have to celebrate this tonight

-Yes, we have too

-so I was thinking, you said it's because of me, so...Maybe...I can...He can't see her but he can imagine her smiling from the other side, I can have an award for being a supportive husband?

-Tonight you will have e-very-thing you ask for, better than the morning breakfast, she emphasized seductively all her words

-ooohhh, I love how everything sound in your mouth, it makes me wanting to do some dirty thing with your lips.

-Asad, you never miss any occasion to flirt with me

-You are my wife, I have full right

-Don't abuse

-I am NOT, I am an angel

-Oh God please, she rolled her eyes, Asad Ahmed Khan and angel didn't rhymes

-because you think Zoya and angel makes rhymes ?

-I never pretend to be

-But I can confirm that you are one, he said sincerely making her smile widely

-Asad you are good for talking, anyway, where are you now? And when are you coming home?

-I am on my way to see guys

-You are in the car?

-Yes

-Ok, cut the call we will talk later

-wait, tell me how it went with the director?

-Asad, you know that I don't like you driving and talking on the phone

-Zoya, I can manage and I am driving safely

-You are a good driver indeed, but you are driving fast, and I don't like it and I am pretty sure you are holding your phone, am I right?

-No, he said quickly

-You are lying to me, Asad

-ok, I am lying, but before you go, I want you to tell me what are you preparing for tonight?

-I can't say anything but all I can say that I am going to buy some lingerie

-Oh God, have a mercy, I will cancel with the guys, RIGHT- NOW.

-Asad, let me at least buy something before you came home. She heard him growling annoyed, Ok so now cut the call, I see you later, bye.

-Hey, wait, bye like this, with no proof of love

-What do you want now? Asad or you stop the car or you cut the call?

-Where is my kiss and love you.

-Such a spoil baby, you are, he let out a loud grin, ok fine, muaahhh and I love you, happy?

-I lov...NOOO, a scream came, followed by strange noise when the call was finally cut

-Asad? Asad? She called him worried, She tried to dial his phone but she went directly to his voice message. Asad, like last time, you let your phone falling and for sure you break it. Ya Allah from this man. She shook her head and took her purse to prepare this night.

One hour later

She was finally home, and found some sexy clothes, that she knew will make him yelling like a wolf. Her phone vibrated and Asad's name was displayed

-Hi sweetheart, you are coming home? She asked lovingly.

-Mrs Khan, came a lady voice from the other, she froze, who was it? And what was she doing with her husband's phone?

-Yes, it's me, her heartbeats increased madly.

-Mrs Khan, I am sorry to inform you, your husband has been carried to the hospital for car accident, and I dialed his last call.

-Asad, she whimpered and her chest constricted roughly, Asad, how...when

-He is still in operation room, you will have to come as soon as possible, in Saint Grace Hospital.

The phone fell on the floor crashing into pieces, Asad, car accident, she held her head in her hands and collapsed on the floor, her tears flowing non-stop. Something was wrong. She felt lost and her head started to spin. Asad, she whispered.

-Asad Ahmed Khan, I am his wife, she asked breathless, since this awful calls, her brain stopped to work protecting her from thinking about the worst. She didn't how she drove to the hospital shaking like a leaf and furthermore, she didn't know how she was still able to walk, but her prayers gave her hope and enough strength to face this test. She needed him to be safe, to be alive because she was losing her life slowly without him with every passing seconds.

-Mrs Khan? A doctor called her and she rushed to him, please come with me

-What's wrong? She didn't like this tension of his face.

-Your husband lost the control of his car

-Asad is a good driver, he can't

-Your husband lose the control of the car when another ram into his, he suffers concussions, multiple fractures and he is immersed in an artificial coma. But.. that's not the most worrying thing. Her heart skipped a bit. His vertebral column is broken also with partial lesion of the spinal cord, we tried to repair as best we can but unfortunately, we will have to wait to see if he still have some sensation, but I'm afraid he might lost his lower part. I want you to be prepared, he maybe cannot walk again. I am sorry Mrs Khan.

She started to hyperventilate and couldn't breath, her husband was inside fighting for his life and if he succeed, he will have to face another fight, another test. What are they going to live more after such a tragedy?

She blinked to remove those curtains of tears that didn't stop to flow on the floor. As the doctor predicted, he didn't feel anything starting from his waist. He reacted violently when he knew about and didn't accept his fate. Since that day, he became a shadow to what he was. Before the accident, Asad was a true man with all meaning, he was smart, funny, active and confident, he has a perfect body that make girls going crazy and face where he can have everything he wanted. Asad was blessed with pure heart and aura that made everyone sensitive to his charm, but today, he was no more.

After leaving the hospital, he hide behind a long silence, he didn't speak to anyone, not even her, or wanted to see his close friends during one month. He refused to be touched, to be kissed, he always rejected all her affection and pushed her away each time hard and violently. She was patient and never said anything. When he started to speak again, his words was harsh making her cry for several nights, like today. She supported all his anger every day and only replied with devotion. They didn't share the same room anymore, when before, he can't keep his hands away from loving her, he bare now to be away from her. He never talked about his accident and never shared his pain. All his smile, his teases and his love were replaced by a rejection, indifference and coldness. He refused all contact with his outside, and chose to stay at home. His new friend was the bottle, he lived with alcohol and became what he was now, broken, bitter and sad. Ironically, when she lost a part of him, it's when destiny make her meet the success and glory. She realized bitterly, that human can enjoy innocently and blindly his life when in moment of unawareness, everything turned upside down putting you in hardship test of life. You can fail, you can abandon, you can stop to fight, but one moment, you will have to go through, because there is no other road to escape. Asad decided to stop fighting but she didn't. She wished she could turn back the time, when love was her only success. She wished she could close her eyes to wake up from this nightmare, but she knew that once she will close them, it will be still the same. However, every day, she closed her eyes praying for a miracle to shorten their test and his agony.