#3 Asya FF 'Love and Love Only' chapter 38 on pg72(20.04) - Page 47

Hi,

Here is the next update. I know it has been quite a long time. Most of you all might have forgotten about the story also. This chapter was written long back. But because of my health issues I couldn't post the update. I have been ill for such a long time and for the past one month I have been hospitalised post a surgery. But today I suddenly remembered that my update was ready but not yet posted. So I decided to post it .And I haven't done proof reading. So kindly ignore the errors and also forgive me for the not so lengthy update. Next update may take a while as I haven't completely recovered. Meanwhile you can suggest names for Asya kids...

And I am really sorry that I couldn't reply to all your comments...Please guys...sorry..

Chapter 38

Zoya suddenly withdrew her hand from Asad's hold.

Just then Dr.Saira came there.She checked Zoya.

Dr: " Zoya, you are fine now. Your blood pressure is stable now. But do not take any kind of stress. High blood pressure is not good beta. Take care of yourself. You can go home. But make sure not to stress yourself."

Zo: " Dr, are you sure everything is fine. My babies are fine, right."

Dr. Saira smiled and nodded in assurance. Turning to Asad, " Asad you can take her home. But make sure she is taking rest and timely meals."

Asad nodded to what doctor said.

On their return journey to home, Zoya was silent. Asad also did not try to talk to her as he didn't want her to be stressed. When they reached home, the maid was still waiting for them.

She informed them about Dilshad's call. Zoya thanked her for what she had done today.

Once maid had gone, Zoya called Dilshad and assured that she and her babies are fine. She also thanked Dilshad for not informing Zeenat and Anwar. She also called Zeenat and enquired about the happenings. Zoya talked to Haider also.

Zoya retired to her room. Asad too followed her. As Zoya was about to lie down, Asad tried to help her.

Zo: "Its ok Asad I can manage. But I want something to eat. I am starving. "

Asad ran to kitchen and thankfully maid had prepared food. He brought her food. She was about to have it when Asad volunteered to feed her to which Zoya obliged as she was feeling as if she has been starving for a fortnight.

After having food, Zoya went to washroom. When she came back, she saw Asad trying to make the bed ready for her.

As: " Zoya, now you get to bed and take rest. If you need anything I am here only. You can call me."

Asad was speaking to her but she went out of their room without noticing to what he said.

Asad was upset but he did not try to talk to Zoya and he didn't want her to stress herself.

After a few minutes, Zoya came back managing a plate of food on her hand.She kept the food on the table and went near Asad. She said: "Asad, I know you are there for me but you need to take care of yourself also. I know even you haven't had anything. You may also be feeling hungry.I am going to lie down. Go and have food. And you also take rest."

Asad smiled at Zoya and nodded his head. He knew Zoya was still upset with him but she cares for him so much that she has set aside her anger and brought food for him. Asad helped Zoya to lie down and placed cushions so as to provide comfort for her.

Soon Asad noticed that Zoya had fallen asleep. He covered her with the duvet and had his food. After food, even he thought of taking rest for a while. He didn't want to disturb Zoya; hence he decided to lie down on the couch. As he was about to lie down, suddenly it started drizzling outside and a few shattered rain drops fell over Asad's face. Asad got up and went to close the window but then he watched the rain. He remembered the time he had spent with Zoya. He remembered how she came into his life, spread his life with light and now she has become her life.

Asad in his thoughts: "Zoya is right. I am so wrong. Today because of me, I would have lost my kids and my Zoya who are my life. How could I be so irresponsible? Zoya is right. My addiction to my work has always over shadowed all my other priorities. But today, it is the limit Asad. You didn't even bother to turn back and look at your pregnant wife because you had to answer the phone call. It is true that I have started taking Zoya for granted. She is right now a days, I go to her to tell her that she and kids are my life but do I really care for them.. Yes I care for them and of course I love them...but it is also true that I never find time for them. Zoya is right. She waits for me for all day long and even after reaching home, I stick on to my work. ...But still she waits for me to ask about the little ones. And though how much late it is, she waits for my questions and with great enthusiasm, she narrates me about the day's activities...Though how tired, she never complains. Every evening, she goes for walk. Either she goes alone or ammi accompanies her. Even during Sundays, I have never accompanied her. I have noticed that she waits for me to accompany her but seeing me tired, she either skips her walk or else talk a walk in our lawn itself... I had promised her that I will be helping her to learn some technologies during her pregnancy period so that it could help her. But I could never find time for that. Zoya did remind me a couple of times and when she found out that I don't have enough time, she herself dropped her idea of learning and convinced herself that laptop radidations are not good for the babies. She always call me and share her cravings. But I never reach on time. By the time I reach with what she demanded, either someone else might have got her that or her craving might have changed. But still she always ate whatever I brought though how late it is but never complained...In all these months, I have never taken her anywhere. She has been only to hospital for her checkups, and that too I go with her but she has to come back either with my or abbu's driver but she never complained. Ammi did shopping for her as I was not available to take her for shopping and she didn't want to go with anyone else. I never realised that all these time she has been in a house arrest.How bad she would have been feeling but she never complained. Is this the life what you promised her Asad?? No...Definitely no...Love alone is not necessary ...She needs my time. I have been doing extra work these days as I want to plan some time off at the time of Zoya's delivery so that I can spend some time with my kids. But in my effort to plan happiness for future, I forgot to see my Zoya's today's happiness has been lost somewhere. I promise you Zoya, from this moment you and only you will be my priority and I will never ever hurt you. Please forgive me for all the pain I have given you."

Asad was in tears...He was crying...

Zoya felt her babies kick and she jerked off from her sleep. The kicks were quite harder and spontaneous that her sleep was disturbed. She placed her hand over her tummy and murmered: " Now what is it little ones ? Please stop playing foot ball and let ammi sleep. Your ammi is tired. But in response again she felt a series of kicks which made her get up. She got up to see a crying Asad by the window. He was lost in his thoughts that he didn't notice that Zoya had got up. Her heart pained seeing Asad in tears. She tried to get up from the bed when she again felt her babies kick. She kept her hand over the tummy and said : "Don't worry little ones. Your abbu is fine. He has become a little emotional. And your ammi can easily handle your abbu." She got up and went near Asad. She kept her hand over his shoulder. Asad was brought back from his thoughts by her touch. He was shocked to see Zoya standing by his side.

As: " Jaan, you need anything? You should have called me. Why are you up? Are you alrighht? Or is there any issue? Please tell me..please."

Zo: " Relax Aashu I am fine. But your kids are not."

Asad's expressions were changing to a more panic mode when Zoya said with a smile: " I was actually sleeping peacefully. But these naughty kids they want to be with their abbu. They kicked me so much that I had to get up and come to you. "

Asad felt relaxed. He kneeled down so as to talk to her tummy.

Asad kept his hand over her tummy and said: " Hey champs, You are missing abbu? Abbu too missed you today so much. But you abbu deserves to miss you both. I am a bad abbu who failed to take care of you both and your ammi. "

Asad was crying badly. Zoya somehow managed to sit down on the couch and ran her fingers over Asad's hair who was kneeling down and crying. She wiped off his tears.

Zo: " Hey little ones, tell your abbu that he is the best abbu in the world." By saying this she kept Asad's hand over her tummy and Asad felt the kick. Zo :" See Aashu, even our kids know you are the best. Then why are you saying this? Just because of what happened in the morning? It was just an accident Aashu. I know you did not do it purposely.It was just a mere accidental mistake. I agree I behaved too badly to you. I know I did hurt you. But Aashu I was scared. I am extremely very sorry."

As: " Zoya, Why are you saying sorry when I am at fault. It is not a mere mistake Zoya. I could have lost you and our babies. And it is not only today's incident Zoya. I have not been giving you proper time. I realise that Zoya."

Zo: " I know Asad. You are busy. And I also know that you have been doing all these extra work because you want to be with the babies when they are born. Do you think I don't understand that? I know due to hormones, I behave impulsively and without thinking, but it doesn't mean that I have lost my thinking ability too."

As: " Yes Zoya but what about you ? For planning a break from my work when kids are born I am taking you for granted. I am not at all giving you time.I am never with you Zoya."

Zo: " Who said you are not with me Asad? Asad, you are my life...I can always feel you with me whether you are here or not and that is my strength. And every now snd then inspite of how busy you are you never fails to call ammi and ask about me. Do you think I don't know that? I know you don't call me because you feel you may be disturbing me if I am sleeping. But Asad, I want you to call me or message me. You can never be a disturbance for me..."

As: " But Zoya, I have never taken you anywhere nor have I been there for you when you really crave for something?"

Zo: " Asad, you have never let me alone during my check ups where you are most needed. And in this condition, who likes to roam about. So don't worry about that. And try to remember Asad you have never come home without getting anything which I have demanded though how busy you are.."

As: " Yea after you are done with your craving, I bring those things. "

Zo: " So what Aashu, You brings that is it matters for me."

As: " But it matters to me that I cant do it on time. And about hospital visits, I take you there, but driver drings you back."

Zo: " So what Aashu you come with me, you stay with me till everything is done. And you make arrangements for me to come back."

As: " But Zoya, I.."

Zoya, before Asad could say something stopped him and said: " Aashu, I am really feeling tired. I really want to take a nap. Can you please come with me to lie down as your kids cant sleep without their abbu. Please..."

Asad with a smile nodded his head. He helped Zoya to lie down properly and got to bed and covered themselves with the duvet. Zoya cuddled to him and pecked his lips. Asad could feel that within no time, she drifted into a slumber.

Asad looked at her face. She was smiling in her sleep. She gently caresses her head and gently pecked her forehead and said: " Zoya, you are the best thing that has happened in my life. And thanks for being the kind of person you are...You are so understanding and forgiving...How easily you forgave me but I know I am guilty and I promise I will never ever hurt you even in your dreams."

To be Continued...

Thanks,

Sarita.

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