I know, this time I am just too late but it was not in my hands
Apologies for the delay
This chapter is dedicated to each and everyone who have been waiting eagerly and spamming efficiently for a kiss 😉
Happy Reading!! 😃UNRECOGNIZED EMOTIONS
PART 14
"I am so sorry Zoya... so so sorry... What have I done? Please forgive me...I am sorry Zoya..."
Zoya rested herself on her bed and stared at the rotating ceiling fan above her head. Asad's words rang in her ears. Few made sense and the rest were rather random mumblings. She remembered how Asad hugged her and whispered apologies in her ear. It rather seemed like he was apologizing to himself. She didn't question him further; she just held him in her arms and gave him the peace that he needed.
She checked the time. It was rather very late, so she dropped the idea of calling Asad. She knew that Asad would tell her everything when he would feel like.
Asad was there in the balcony, staring at the distant Moon and the Stars which occasionally hid themselves behind the clouds. 'It might rain tonight', he thought. He loved rains, he loved the smell of the wet mud, but he hated to get wet in the rain. But tonight was different. He wanted the rain to fall on him and wash away every bad memory of his past.
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Flashback starts
Asad got a message from Zoya in the morning and decided to leave early with her for the event. He did not know why, but he wanted to spend more time with Zoya after the beautiful dance that they had in the rehearsal hall. He got ready and decided to surprise Zoya by waiting for her at the bus stop. He took all his stuffs and made his way to his mother's room to meet her once before leaving. He waited outside the door and was about to knock when he heard his father's voice.
"Do you realize what you are saying Dilshad?"
"I know very well what I am saying. I wanted to tell you everything before, but you were not here. I was waiting for you to come back."
Asad was confused about the whole conversation that his parents were having. He decided not to eavesdrop on them and was about to step back when he heard his name. He opened the door slightly just to have a look of his parents.
"I think Asad knows about everything. Or else why would he even ask me about Shireen suddenly?"
"That's what I am saying. Why would he ask you about her after so many years?", said Rashid.
"What if he knew everything about Shireen already but didn't tell us anything?", suggested Dilshad.
"I don't think so Dilshad. We have tried our best to hide everything from him for so many years."
"I don't know about anything. But I can't lose my son because of one mistake that you did years back", Dilshad said with anger and fear of losing her son.
"He is my son too. And I am the one who repents the most for the mistake that I did. It was a blunder that I made. I was about to lose my wife and my son because of that mistake. I am still not able to forgive myself for that."
Dilshad knew that Rashid meant every word that he said. She calmed herself and kept her hand on his shoulders.
"I know that. I was hurt for what you did with me. I wanted to leave you when I got to know about your affair with Shireen, but I couldn't! I couldn't because Asad was just a young boy then. He needed his mother and his father as well. He was closer to you than he was to me. I couldn't take away his father from him! But now, I can't lose my only son because of what happened so many years before. I had forgiven you before for the sake of Asad, but I will never forgive you if that truth affects him in any way!". Asad heard Dilshad saying this, her voice quivering and tears rolling down her cheeks.
Rashid was helpless too. He loved his wife and his only son, but it was also true that he had slipped once in his life for another woman. He never wanted to betray Dilshad, but he Did and it did not matter anymore if it was done deliberately or not. Dilshad's forgiveness had always reminded him of his disloyalty towards his family. He wanted to set things right again, but it was never the way like it used to be before. He found his son moving away from him. At first he took it as the changes of his growing age, but later he realized that Asad had already moved far away from him. He tried to bring him back, but for some reasons, he could never do it.
But he had never imagined even in his worst dreams that Asad could know about Shireen and his affair. Dilshad was always a perfect mother and she made sure not to discuss anything in presence of Asad in the house. But now, his worst fears were coming true.
"Dilshad, why don't we ask him?", suggested Rashid, not being able to think about anything else.
"What are you saying? He was there to ask me but I pretended not to remember anything about Shireen. And now, you want me to tell him that I, his mother lied to him?? He will get to know that we have been lying to him all this while!! Do you even realize that? He is no more a small child. He will ask for the explanations and we will have to tell him everything!!", Dilshad shouted at Rashid this time.
Asad's feet were rooted at his spot. His mind could only decipher one thing out of all this- HE was the reason why Dilshad had to stay back with the man who had betrayed her for another woman. He moved away from the room without meeting Dilshad. He took his car keys and drove as fast as he could. He switched off his phone when he saw his mother calling him. He drove as far and as long as he could, aimlessly. He wanted to run away from everything, everyone! But he was not like his father. He had made some promises to his friends. He turned back his car and headed towards the venue to fulfill his promises.
Flashback ends
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He looked towards the sky. It was now covered with red clouds. What started with little drizzles, soon turned into heavy downpour. In just few more minutes, he was completely drenched in the rain. He did not want to move back to his room, instead, he stayed there until he was able to think of something. He sighed heavily as he set his mind. He knew what he would do; he knew what he had to do.
The next few days came as a shock to Zoya. She had never imagined Asad to be in such a lively mood after his emotional outburst. He was happier than usual; he talked more than what he usually did. Zoya decided to ask him but brushed away her thoughts when she saw him happy, as it was all that she wanted.
Rain was their regular visitor for the next few weeks. Zoya was less worried about Asad as he looked happier, but somewhere deep inside her heart, she got a hint that it was all a pretense. She liked the fact that Asad spent more time with her these days, but his flustered look had never gone unnoticed by Zoya when it came to going back home.
"Asad!! Please stop!! Stop the car!!", shouted Zoya and Asad brought the car to a halt hastily.
Like the other days, Asad and Zoya once again had their lone time in the park after dropping Aafreen and Farhaan. It had become their habit in the past few weeks. Asad helped her in her studies, or sometimes they just sat and talked, and enjoyed being in the embrace of Mother Nature. It was a rainy day today, and there was no way that they could be outside. The very thought of not being able to spend time with Zoya had troubled him. Zoya's sudden scream brought him out of his reverie.
"What happened now?", he asked, slightly irritated.
She pouted hearing the irked tone of his voice. Her innocent look immediately eased his frown.
"What happened?", he asked again, his voice much softer than before.
She smiled and answered, "It's raining outside!!"
Asad eyed her disbelievingly and looked outside once before answering her. "I can see that! You asked me to stop just to tell me that?"
"No silly!! ", she said, smacking his arm with her hand dramatically. She stopped her antics when he glared at her. "I Love rains!!!"
"And??", asked Asad, not being able to understand anything.
"And I also love to get drenched in the rain", she said, mischievously.
This time Asad understood what she was trying to say.
"It's so not happening Zoya!! Let's go back home!! Now!!", he said and started the engine. But it was too late already. Zoya had released herself from the seat belt and opened the door of her side. She hopped out of the car and stepped into the rain even before Asad could stop her. She spread her hands on her sides and looked up and allowed each drop of water to soak her completely.
She looked at him and motioned him to come out to which he denied promptly. She shook her head and got back to enjoying herself in the rain, alone. Asad kept his eyes fixed at the beauty in front of him. She was in her regular jeans and a full sleeved top, but her smile captivated his heart for a moment. He got an involuntary smile on his lips just by looking at the alluring sight. He could no longer hold himself back inside the car. How much ever he hated getting wet in the rain, his heart refused to accept it. Without giving any second thoughts, he also joined Zoya. His mind was nowhere focused in the rain, instead, he was tempted by her glistening eyes that showed the glint of her happiness. He came and stood beside her, took her hands in his, and let the drops of water consume his restless soul.
Zoya was shocked as well as happy to see him standing beside her, but she could not ignore his gaze on herself. She suddenly became conscious of her water drenched state and pulled her hand out of his hold. She threw water on his face and tried running away from there in order to lighten the atmosphere, but his strong hands took hold of her wrist before she could go far. Holding her by her waist, he pulled her closer to him and he moved a step forward. His piercing gaze on her was playing havoc with her senses. Even after being in contact with the cold water, she still felt herself warmer under his hold.
With one hand he moved her hair that was blocking the view of her pretty face while his other hand tightened his hold on her waist. Her hands inadvertently rested on his broad chest and eyes drooped down, unable to comprehend his emotions. Her cheeks turned into a darker shade of crimson and this mere act of shyness broke his self-restraint.
He inched his face forward towards her and she reciprocated his action. Their wet faces were just inches apart, his eyes were fixed on the water droplets dripping down her cheeks. She looked ethereal in her wet form and her beauty was enhanced with the blush on her cheeks. He was about to place his lips on hers when he saw her lips parted a bit and eyes tightly shut. Her heavy breaths unveiled her nervousness. Asad smiled at her innocence and moved back, keeping his arm still wrapped around Zoya. He kissed her on her cheeks just where her dimples resided.
"You are Beautiful Zoya!", he said in a low whisper in her ears.
Zoya opened her eyes and saw Asad smirking at her. She too smiled sheepishly at him and turned around to save herself from the embarrassment.
"What the hell did happen right now?", murmured Asad under his breath, while they again took their respective seats in the car. They never looked or talked to each other for the rest of the journey.
At night, Zoya's room
Dear Diary,
What did it exactly happen today? Was he really going to kiss me? And what was wrong with me? Did I really want him to kiss me? Not that he didn't kiss me...He did!!! And I kept blushing all the time like a fool!! I wanted to have my first kiss with the person I will love.. But then, why didn't I stop Asad? Why did I not want him to stop? What if he wouldn't have stopped??
Arrrggghh!! How will I face him now? What is happening to me? It was just a friendly kiss. What is there so awkward in that? Then why can't I stop thinking about what was going to happen? Why did I want it to happen?
I find Asad so changed these days. He smiles a lot and never shouts at me. That is kind of something good, but why do I feel that he is trying to hide something behind his dimpled smile?
His dimples!! How much I love to see them!! They make him look so innocent!! Just like a baby!! Wait... Baby??? Did I really call him baby?? Allah Miya, what's wrong with me??
I need to SLEEP!!!!! Bye... good night!!!!
Asad checked his phone for the umpteenth time that night. He wanted to call Zoya and apologize to her for what happened during the day.
What did I do? I shouldn't have done it! That's wrong! But why did it feel so right? But I don't want to offend Zoya in any way... Not now at least! I can't let myself be her weakness. She will be hurt and that is the last thing that I want. I will tell her everything just after we finish with our exams.. I can't do this to her!
His mind debated with his heart for the whole night and he went to sleep when the former won.
A/N: Okay okay... Now don't kill me for this!!! You all wanted a kiss and I just gave it to you.. You never mentioned the place 😉😆
Moreover, a kiss on the lips would not go well with the character of Asad and Zoya in this story at this stage...😛
Please leave your love and encouragement in the form of likes and comments as it really motivates me.. 😃
Edited by BeYourself - 11 years ago
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