SS-The Story of My Life-AyaanAhemedKhan-part 2-pg3 - Page 2

Chapter 2 – Ashes of the Dreams, I let Die

It was Iftaari time..and I walked in to see everyone ready to break the fast for the day…as I heard Hassena bi announce Nikhats wedding to be held the day after Eid. I was a little taken aback…because I did not want my sister to be married into that family and not to Imran.Just then I heard hassena bi say – Why don't we have Ayaan and Humeira's Nikaah happen soon to…,' making my gut wrench with pain….at the thought that the Humeira I knew was lost..

Right then I saw Rajni/Humeira walk in and Haseena Bi making fun of her being a vegetarian and she was fighting back ..and I wanted to get up and slap Haseena Bi..right then as I heard her say – oh that I can see that..you eat a lot' …making everyone go into a sudden shock over what she had just said…only I wanted to laugh out loudly and actually hug her for saying that aloud…well the look on Haseena bi's face was hilarious.

It was a while later..when I observed Nikhat throw away the kebab from her hand…and as Humeira/Rajni realized what was about to happen..I saw her yell back furiously at haseena bi..making me admire her guts. Although I was mad and angry at Haseena bi…just like everyone was…I felt myself fight yet again the feelings that had been emerging within me and I heard myself saying furiously to haseena Bi – you better keep out of it..

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A while later..i saw her standing out and so I walked up to her and asked her if she was still annoyed.

Her reply cracked me up as she said – no..im fine…but that Haseena aunty is a witch just like ur mami…they are ate devils witched indeed…I cudnt believe what she was about to do in the first place..that fat witch…' but then my laughter vanished when she continued – ' that right now I wasn't thinking that…I was thinking that why am I not able to remember anything about Vikram..,'making my heart wrench with pain…but I tried to comfort her nonetheless…that she would remember it all soon and it would be ohk..and so I cracked one of my sher's to make her smile..and so she did..making me feel good…and right then it thundered…and she got scared and hugged me tight..making my heart go all haywire…by her closeness..and she pulled back instantly making me miss her in my arms already…as I led her back in the house.

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The next day as we discussed Nikhat and Imraan and she tried to comfort me and then admit that if one has love in his heart..they should just admit it…I lost myself once again in her constant chatter.

She wanted to go to the temple…and I stopped her…and involuntarily I had held her hand but then I knew she didn't remember and so I volunteered to take her there too…what was happening to me I did not understand…

I saw her search around frantically for Vikram…and my heart went out to her indeed…why was this happening to her and me??

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A while later as the police stood and interrogated about badi bi..and rajni said that shed seen ammi's tasbi…I was shocked to the core…as I heard everyone question her…and then when she said that she saw it Mumani's room…I grew suspicious…very suspicious of Mumani..

I stood talking to ammi and abbu when I heard a voice from the doorway – Rajini…and when I turned to see a man standing there…I walked up to ask him who he was…and when he said that he was Vikram Shukla…rajni's husband…I felt my blood boil…as I stood rooted to the spot..and then I heard him say that he had come to take her…and I didn't know what I exactly felt as I looked at her smiling face and then to his face…and felt my heart break..as if the world had slipped underneath my feet..

I saw her walk up to him…and talk to him…making me boil further..and just as he hugged her…I wanted to beat him up….i felt jealous very jealous…as I saw him touch her…and I stood back helplessly as abbu stopped me from doing anything..

But just as she left to pack..i couldn't control my anger as I asked him that who the hell he was….and why was he here…that she wasn't rajni…she was humeira…my fiance..and I pushed him with the rage as I felt..and I tried to explain helplessly to everybody…that this man was nonsense..and he was just fooling us….mamu asked him for evidence and when he took out the photo of their wedding and flashed in in our faces…I literally felt my heart stop beating.No…this cudnt be true…this cudnt be…as he explained to us what had happened and why hadn't he come earlier.

Just then I saw her walk out ready with her bag…making every cell of my body scream with the pain it felt…no…I cudnt let her go…I explained to everyone …I tried my best to…that she was Humeira not rajini…but no one listened to be…as they all wondered about her health…when nikhat came and told us that she was ready to go…

I ran outside as fast as I could..and I stopped them…and I looked at her confused face as she asked me – Ayaan ji…kya hua?

My heart made me say – rajni ji…its late in the night…why don't u both stay here tonight…and u can go back later…

I didn't know how come my heart came with that excuse…but luckily she and that fake Vikram bought it..and Nikhat and Nuzrat took them to the guest room..

I sat dejected in my room as I tried to figure out what was happening…here…and I realized that I needed to talk to her..i had to…or this was getting way too complicated…just then Nikhat walked in to my room and I asked her where was she? And as she said- that she was in the guest room with Vikram…I felt as though somebody had slammed me , boxed me a zillion times in my gut…

I ran towards the guest room and I pushed the door open…and the sight I saw…killed me…she was in his arms…and then suddenly as they saw me they pulled apart….and looked at me shocked…and I just stood there in shock…shock over what I was feeling in that moment…when she walked up to me and said – ayaan ji…kya hua?

I steeped back dejected for a minute as I said – nothing…just that I was just checking if u needed anything' – I lied

She nodded in negative and smiled as she shut the door..and I walked back to my room…dejected…and broken…

I lied down on my bed…and I felt my self cry…as I realized…

I was in love with Humeira.

The Humeira I had lost.

The Humeira who was now Rajni.

Rajni- who was with Vikram as his wife.

I cried for a long time until sleep came over….i pitied myself…I pitied for all of this that happened to me…I pitied the fact…that in this moment…all I was left with was…Ashes…Ashes of the Dreams..I let Die.

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