SS-The Story of My Life-AyaanAhemedKhan-part 2-pg3

The Story of My Life -Ayaan Ahmed Khan - Index

Chapter 1 - And suddenly...everything Changed.- pg 1

Chapter 2 - Ashes of The Dreams, I let Die - pg 3

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Chapter 1 ' And Suddenly..everything Changed

I had always been a fun loving dude.I had loved to laugh'and I used love to joke'.i used love to flirt'I used to live'.freely. My family was my world'my ammi, my abbu, my nikhat and nuzrat and my Bhaijaan. He was a step brother for the world but for me'he was the most important person in my Life.I loved him'and everyone who knew me knew that.Now that I think of it'I was sad for him'my heart did go out to him..to see him suffer so'to live without his Zoya'who was my friend'too'she had been missing since a month'and just as that thought came'my thought drifted to her'.Humeira.

Humeria'Mumani's daughter'I always thought you know that she somehow has some feelings for me'but as you all know already'I didn't think I loved her'because I didn't feel anything that way for her'yes I would flirt around always..joke always but deep down I had always wished to fall in love'and somehow I just felt that Humeira wasn't the one. And honestly more so'this view could have always been biased coz of my evil mumani..and all her forcing me to marry her. And I had been blackmailed right into doing so'and so I had agreed'coz I cudnt see any other option'somewhere deep down I knew Humeira loved me deeply'but I cudnt get myself to feel that way for her'and so even though we had been engaged'I did tell her that day ' that I did not love her'and that probably I never would.

And That Day.Suddenly everything Changed.

Humeira left.

I still get cold feet at the thought of when I had thought she had been in that accident.

I had felt helpless'.weird'.ever since I knew she was missing.At first for a few days I felt that It was guilt that was at work here'you know making me feel that it was because of me that shed left coz I told her that I didn't love her. But then as the days passed'and my helplessness and restlessness didn't stop'it made me look within'and I realized' I missed her'I missed her a lot'I missed having her around'I missed the importance she used to give me' I missed everything about her'.the way she used to look at me with those big eyes..always wishing for me to give something back in our namesake relationship too. And then as it became a montn and I had no news of her'I had felt myself lying down in the bed at nights..and think of her'and I used to send out a silent wish'to just get a simple glimpse of her.

My Wish was answered.And That Day again'everything changed.

They walked in with her looking all pale and lost'I was happy'I was so happy that I cudnt believe that the rush of emotion was what I was feeling.

And just when I was absorbing the sight of her'the words from her mouth shocked not only me but all of us around as she sadi ' My name is Rajni'not humeira'and then just like that'the happiness I had felt'washed away with worry taking over.

I tried my best to convince everyone to just let her be u know'she needed the time off'then when I had heard another blow ' Vikram'she said..she was married.

I felt a sudden sickening feeling in my stomach.

This girl maybe wasn't even Humeira'but then why did it feel like her'and why did it hurt so much to see that she was on the other side'too far off from me'like she never had been.

A few Days passed as I tried to comprehend'what I was feeling'I was getting pulled towards Humeira/Rajni'there were times I would find myself look at her when I thought no one would be looking'there were times..i couldn't get her out of my thoughts? What was this happening here'I didn't know.

Then one fine day ' she asked me ever so innocently to get her sindoor and managalsutra..and I don't know why I agreed even despite the pain I felt 'but I got it for her nonetheless'.

I had walked in her room and heard her ask me about Vikram and I told her that ' they were looking for him'and tried to comfort her by telling her not to worry that her vikram would be with her soon'.wanting to wash her worry away'why? I didn't know'but well I just did'and it felt good as she had smiled'and then she asked me for her sindoor..and mangalsutra'I had handed it to her..and I could feel my heart beat fast'.as I saw her apply her sindoor while I looked on in the mirror..maybe for the first time ever noticing how beautiful she was'and simple'and innocent.

I told her that I had ordered for her managalsutra'and the smile she gave me'made me feel good again.And just before I left'shed told me'that I should learn how to express myself'since there was no idea when life turned around'and the time slipped away..like sand'between ur fingers.I walked out thinking to myself'had time slipped already??? Was I too late'to feel what I was feeling for her'who right now thought and said was rajni'.married to someonelse.Where was the Humeira I know?? I missed her.

It was the same day I had caught her in my arms..as she bumped into me screaming and running away'making me just stare at her adorable scared expressions..as I held her to myself'.and I felt lost yet again.

And right then I just had to protect her from that tantrik who wanted to do some cure on her' and I asked her to rest inside'and then I asked my ammi and everyone else in shock as to what they wanted to do here.

Just when the doctor had asked ' Whether she had been depressed'and upset?

I admitted ' that yes'

And then the doctor explained what could have happened.As to why she thought of herself as rajni and not Humeira'and I was shocked that humeira had seeked refuge like that..in another identity..to run away from all that I had put her through. He asked us to let her be'and give her time'not to stress her out'keep her happy'and that was the only way out that she would come back.And he asked me specifically to keep her happy since I had importance in her life'and so I had deceided that I would not hurt her'humeira'ever again.

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And then ever since the past two days'we had heard her talk ill of Mumani'we couldn't control the urge to laugh ofcourse..we as in..me..nikhat and nuzrat.

And then with her acting all cute and adorable to find out the mystery of that cupboard..made my heart flip-flop and want to be the first one to help her..and so I volunteered to do'making her smile'which ofcourse made me feel wonderful.

But ofcourse Mumani had to come in and spoil it all yet again.I despised her to the core'.infact the only good thing about Muani's existence was that she had given birth to Humeira.Thats it.

And so today'as I lie down in bed yet again..i wonder'.what is it that I am feeling over and over again'could it be that I had had these feelings for all along hidden deep inside? Or could it be that they surfaced because of what had happened over the past month making me realize her importance in my life.

Was I falling in love with a woman who used to Love me??'.

Was I falling for the one who does not remember me??

Was my heart aching because it was falling in love with the heart'that it had always ignored in the past?? And that it feared'that her heart didn't recognize him anymore??

Was Love Finally happening to me??

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