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Hi all, I hope IF family is well.
Was feeling a little emotional today so vented it out on this...hope you like it. Please let me know what you think
Mini OS : Parting Words - Letter from Zoya to Asad
Dear Mr Khan
It took me a number of attempts to finally put this together. I am writing this to say goodbye but also to say what I have been carrying in my heart for so long, things I wanted you to know to understand but I never got the chance.
You only live once Mr Khan, and it is in this life time that you aim to achieve what your heart desires, it is in this life time you fight for what you believe in and it is in this life time that you overcome your worst nightmares. My heart desired you...I fought for you, i tried to get you to see the truth but you turned a blind eye...and my worst nightmare...i live it everyday...everyday since you threw me out of your house and your life. You never really understood me Mr Khan, nor did you feel it necessary to...to take the time to really see me for who I am.
You chose to live with your own insecurities, your own turmoil, you chose to turn away every time I put out my hand, to support you to show you how much I care...but I guess it was never enough. In all these months the one thing you failed to realise Mr Khan is that I am human too, I have a heart a soul and just like you I also feel pain. My tears meant nothing to you, you didn't care that every word you threw at me crushed my heart and killed my spirit.
I was never right for you Mr Khan...something that I didn't quite get but now I totally understand and accept, I was right wasn't I when I said that we are two sides of a river that could never meet, two sides of a river that no bridge could ever be built over.
There is a belief that Allah tests his people, He tests their faith, their belief, their strength and their patience...Mr Khan I assure you that I will pass every test, I will never give up, I believe that Allah will forever guide me and protect me, He will give me the strength to fight whatever life throws at me and He will help me find what I have lost, no matter how hard it is and how painful it is I will never give up on life Mr Khan...never.
You may have separated yourself from me but you will never be able to separate me from you. I told you that I loved you I meant it then and I still stand by it today, I know that to love doesn't necessarily mean to gain...love is an emotion that runs alongside the depths of the deepest ocean, love is love and it is unconditional, it is pure and like with pretty much everything in my life it something that will only happen once.
Mr Khan some things are just not meant to be and the or thing that is never meant to be is Zoya and Asad. I have just one little regret that I could never get you to trust me, not even an ounce, if I could turn back time and wish for anything it would be for you to trust me.
Today I go back to where I came from, I came with nothing other than determination and today I leave with nothing other than memories of phoopi, Najma and you. I will pray to Allah everyday that He blesses you with the happiness and success you deserve and the ability to truly open your heart and starting loving life for what it is...as I said you only live once Mr Khan so make it count
Zoya.
