Os : Meri Zindagi ..ab tum hi ho!!

You might be surprised when you hear me say this, but I must say it Mr. Khan.
You might become angry, give no reaction, or laugh at me, but I must be true to myself. I must say this to you. I am going to tell my true feelings about u.

I know U think a misfit for your family...and believe me it is not necessary that you must think the way I think. You are free to think whatever pleases you. It is not that I will become happy if you think the way I think and I will be depressed if you don't think like that. I would be happier if you are true to yourself. Your true feelings towards that will not affect our relationship a bit. In fact, it will strengthen our relation after knowing the feeling of each other. You can choose anything you heart decides. Please don't care about other things such as society, family or other person while you think. Become true to yourself and answer to yourself.

Emotion is very amazing. It keeps on wandering. Sometimes it gets attached to one thing, and ceases wandering. We are unaware of anything but the heart is after something. We don't know where the heart is wandering but at last find that it desperately wants something.

I must tell these feelings to you. It were u, listening the word, at the most distressed situation in my life, I was able to forget my pains. It was u, seeing which in my difficult times, made me conclude; one day there will be U turn towards happiness in my life. It was u which helped me express different words in the most distressed situation in my life. And it is u, which helps expressing many words of happiness today. There was u in the journey of life from the most painful situation to this situation.
I know we are different...we are not meant to be together...may be Tannu is the right person for you...but I want to tell my feeling...just for once before I go back from your perfect world!

Please pardon me if you don't like the thing I am going to tell. But I must express these feelings. I must be true to myself.

I love u.

I love u so much.

I love u from the bottom of my heart.

I love u so much with all of my heart, soul and body.

I love u so so… so…... soo……… very much Mr. Khan.

Please, say something...this words from my heart conveyed my message through my eyes to you...i can see deep in your eyes feelings for me ...is that love Asad?
Please tell me...just for once!!!

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I don't know where to start ,this is not easy. I don't know even what to say to you,zoya. I just need to tell you something. I am in love with you and it hurts me so much that I don't know what is harder,trying to pretend that you don't mean anything to me or this feeling.. I am in love with you but I am just too stubborn and I am too scared to admit it because you know na what happened to my Ammi,!

.I know we have a great time together , I really do, but I can't do this anymore. You make me smile,you make my day better as soon as i see you , you make me feel butterflies in my stomach when I see you and that need to stop. It is not fair,not to me,not to her. I know that you are here without your friends,without your family ,
I know that this isn't your world but I can't fill that cavity in your heart and you know that. You know I am here for you anything you need but we need to figure out what are we. We used to fight in every sligtest matter...at the same time missed each other.
Are we just two people who are pretending that they are not in love ? Or we are something more ,something stonger? Everytime when I wanted to talk with you about this you just ignore it? Why?

. We need to stop doing this,stop pretending that this is nothing when actually this is everything to me. I am not going to try to change anything because even if I do I thing that it is not going to be enough. That is what I am afraid of,not being enough.Not pretty enough,not smart enough,not good enough. And I need somebody who is going to convince me in opposite and I thing that you are just not right person for that.

.I tried so hard to understand our relationship but I can't. I need you to tell me what is this. If it is just a joke it has to stop because it much more painfull than you think. You don't know that , you wanna know why? Because I have been trying to be so strong and don't let you to see that and honestly I succeed in that. In a order to that we are something thoughtfully you need to clear away your feelings and let me be part of its. But you are not going to,aren't you? And I am okey with that .

The most difficult part of all of this for me is that I have to leave from your life , we are just not function on this way. I don't know why did I even said 'we' cause that isn't right word for us. We are never going to be 'we' and deep in my soul I am aware of that. I wish I colud stay but I don't know in which signification. Like you friend or something else? And if you want that we be something , anything, you have to decide what.

I am happy, I really am. I have my friends who are here for me no matter what will happen , I have my family who will support me no matter what I decide but sometimes I thing that I would be much more happier if you were here..I missed you so much ...i was hurt more than you whenever i hurt you...but you know me naa...that my words are only words coming from my mouth and not my heart.

Zoya...please tell something...don't stare me like that...i can't take anymore those questioning eyes...
Just tell me you can read my mind...your Asad's mind.

Tell me that this marraige is not a drama...bcs if it so...then may be I won't able to live my life anymore!!!