PaYa OS: Spoken Words and Broken Hearts
Warning: I have created a brand new Boyish Pankhuri and Arrogant Adi, a change is always good, right? Do not if you don't find the character change interesting!
She stared through the transparent glass into the medium sized yet well occupied room known as the Intensive Care Unit'. Unknowingly, lone tears escaped her eyes frequently which she kept on wiping off. She couldn't take her eyes off from the person lying there lifeless and breathing with the help of an oxygen tube. He was connected to a large number of machines. Doctors were doing something on him murmuring to each other quite occasionally. She wasn't familiar with all those biological terms to explain what happened to him but she was certain about the fact that His Life Was At Stake', which made her heart stop and cry for seconds.
The Hospital veranda was really soundless, or was it her ear which has stopped working? She never knew!
The surrounding atmosphere was calm and quite. There were numerous activities going around her, for which she wasn't even paying a bit of attention. A Nurse was standing at the reception helping the patients to their respective doctors, she could hear a baby's cry from a far end, patients with different disorders and diseases passed her eyes frequently. The woman sitting beside her was weeping, Pankhuri felt that someone close to the lady had something horrible just like Her Adi' had.
Her Adi? Did she just say that? Why is she feeling that the same person whose heart she crushed a while before, is hers all of a sudden?
Only if she hadn't said those words, only if she hadn't broken his heart, the moment right now would have been totally different. It would have been the start of a new beginning but only if...
"I love you.." The words which escaped his mouth some hours before echoed in her mind. It made her head pain worse than ever but the pain was nothing compared to the pain her heart was going through, the pain he went through when she casually broke his heart.
The echoing words came to an abrupt end when she heard the ICU door creak open. She suddenly stood up and helped herself towards the doctor. There were moments of silence, she didn't know what to ask and what not to ask. Finally she politely asked, "Is he okay doctor?"
She observed the hope in the doctor's eyes slowly fading away and a sense of helplessness took its place. Pankhuri's eyes craved for an answer, a positive answer very badly.
"No he is not." The doctor finally replied breaking her heart into millions of pieces. "His condition is very bad. We are trying our best but there are hardly any chances of survival. Pray and let's hope for the best!"
Pankhuri didn't reply but kept staring at the doctor's face. "You can meet him now if you wish." He added.
No words came out of Pankhuri's mouth but she quietly made her way into the ICU silently praying for a miracle, a miracle which can make the impossible possible.
She entered the room which was extremely quiet but it couldn't calm her down. Her heart was skipping thousands of beats in a second. She slowly moved towards Adi sobbing very quietly. She went and sat on the chair next to his bed and held his hand within hers.
"I am Sorry." She whispered very quietly within her sobs.
A simple apology was not a compensation for what she had done and said to him, even the sacrifice of her own life would not be the right compensation either because what she did was greater than that. Only if..
Her mind flew back to the moment when everything happened, when her life changed forever; his life changed forever. And maybe it can never be alright, can it be?
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Pankhuri and Adi were college mates, who talked very rarely and hardly knew each other well. But whenever she was near to him, her heart used to beat faster. On the prom night, when she accidentally ended up dancing with him, she was sweating badly than ever. Whenever he was around, she couldn't resist the temptation to keep staring at him. She always adored his handsomeness, hotness and arrogance. On the other hand, Pankhuri was the sweeter and smarter one who never let go of her ideals and morals even at times of crisis. She never was the girlish type of girl; she never wanted to be that; she was always the boyish girl.
So it was another normal day for Pankhuri but it was a nervous one for Adi. After loads of thoughts, he had finally decided to go with his heart. He realized The Arrogant Adi' had fallen in love. He knew it does not make sense if he keeps it for too late waiting for the right time, because he knew it would never come. So he decided that NOW was always the best choice. He slowly moved towards her who was having tea in a restaurant with a group of girls.
He carefully crossed the road, while his heart bet as fast as it can, he felt that it would just burst in excitement. He slowly neared their table when Pankhuri looked at him. His lips slowly turned into a smile, and his Pankhuri smiled back.
"Pankhuri, may I have a word with you", he asked with expectant eyes.
At first Pankhuri was confused but later agreed, "Yeah" She stood up and moved towards the door while Adi silently rehearsed the speech he decided to give before opening up his heart.
"Pankhuri, it has been a long time, I wanted to tell you something. We don't know each other very well but I like every fact I know about you. I like the way you smile, talk and behave, You are simply the perfect life partner I have dream of." He stopped, took a deep breath while her eyes widened in surprise. "I realized I.." he fell short of words and finally blurted it out "I love you Pankhuri." He slowly took out the red rose he had in his pocket about which he had forgotten and was quite late after the confession to give it.
It was actually a moment for which she had been waiting for a long time and it seemed nothing to be given a second thought, but suddenly she realized she never was the girlish type. She wouldn't fall for someone so soon, would she? No she wouldn't. So she decided to refuse it first but she obviously knew she had fallen for him. Her giggling friends were watching her badly and she didn't want to lost the boyish impact she had on them. So she sweetly said, "I am sorry Adi. But I don't think you can be my better half. I have always dreamt of a sweet and not so arrogant life partner. I am really sorry." She wondered if her refusal was clear or if her eyes had given up the truth. But it never had. Adi stood wonder struck. He had never thought of this possibility, the possibility of a refusal; he never wanted something like this.
Pankuri slowly turned facing her back towards Adi; her heart questioning her badly. Was she crazy? What was wrong with her? Her ego was extremely high, he refused the proposal of the college's most charming guy simply because of her ego. Her heart was indeed right; SHE WAS MAD!
Her mind flew back to the very few moments she spent with him, the time when they both together worked for a project of Anti-Ragging Squad, how caring he was? Then the time when they both realized that they had quite a few similarities, like they both loved reading and painting! The moment when both of their group of friends went for lunch together, when she sat beside him and compelled him to try something different like Spanish Masala! And finally the moments when she could feel his breath on her hair, the time of the prom dance, when she felt that his warm hands were the perfect place! How her heart desired to be with him forever?
Those beautiful memories, for a moment made her feel that she was totally wrong, Adi will indeed be a perfect life partner, she should give him a chance right?
She was still facing the backside and could hear her friends giggling and murmuring, "But Adi, I guess..." , she turned to face him and realized that his deep ,green eyes were gone, he was not there! Her eyes searched for him when she heard THUMP'
A Truck had hit him, and he was there, in the middle of the road lying in a pool of blood.
Pankuri felt herself helpless, why didn't she speak before? Why was she ignoring her heart?
"Adiii", she screamed but deep in her heart she knew that it was already too late.
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"I am sorry Adi, I am really sorry. I LOVE YOU!!" she said sadly but she knew he wasn't listening at all. She tightened her grip on his cold hand and kissed it. He breathed shallowly and very slowly.
Pankhuri stared onto the machine which indicated Adi's heartbeat. It was hills and valleys on the line for a long time, she continued to stare and she saw the line falling straight. She looked at Adi and knew it was over. She didn't cry because she knew it was too late.
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Words and hearts should be handled with care for words when spoken and hearts when broken are the hardest things to repair..
~Unknown
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A/N
I made Adi die this time, LOL!
I know the OS is really cr*p, but I cannot help. I had no idea when I started the OS and ended up writing this. According to me, death and emotions are the easiest concepts to write, aren't they? That's why I actually went with it.
Forgive me if you were really bored.
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