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4.Who I Am ?
Freedom.
Smile.
Happiness.
Light.
These things didn't held any meaning to me, they are only remained just words as I felt how deep I am falling into become hollow. I am just a slave for my master.
Captive.
Tears.
Pain.
Darkness.
These words are more than reality in my life. Every single day every night, my screams echoes in the house. Uncertain things happens with me that I lost courage to even parted my lips to say something.
I leaned to the sleek window, resting my head into it. My legs curled upto my chest and I rested my chin on my folded knees. Deep hollowness and an tremendous peak of unwanted darkness embraced me in its fierce grip. I don't want to take myself back down to the years of my dark past. That time held a great effect in my life, not in good way of course. I unknowingly loose the thing to him which I wanted to loose to someone whom I will love and marry but the cruel fate had to played a nasty trick with me.
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FLASHBACK : 1851 A.D
"I don't need it." I said firmly to Abhayendra as he was forcing me to drink blood. "U do ! Princess " He sternly said. He pushed me over to the dead body of a reign deer and grabbed my neck in his grip and firmly leaned over its neck. "I can't do this ! U made me this disgusting creature for lifetime and now u are compelling me to drink over an innocent animal. I won't drink it...please let me go !" I cried. In a flicker of a second I was clashed into an stoned wall and an infuriated Abhayendra leaned over me.
"U need to otherwise u will be turned into some dustful ashes as your senses will be very weak." He hissed. But I was stubborn in my most way. "I won't ! Its better to turned into some pale ashes than being this awful monster for eternity." I said angrily and shoved him away from me. Again, he pushed me to the edge of the bed which I landed up furiously. "If that what u think of me than let me show u how much I am this awful monster which u loath so passionately and what exactly I can do with your..." he stopped but he flashed a sinister smirk as his eyes roamed over my body in an uncomfortable way.
"U can't ! I am a princess and u have no right to even think about such thing to do with me." I warned him. He closely took steps and i cringed to backwards. My back of my knee hit the bed and I fell upon it, involuntarily. I flinched but did hold some courage to shot him back. Like a harsh wind, I saw Abhayendra towering my body into him. "My Princess, I have every single right to whatever do with u. No one can stop me for that. U belongs to only me and now u are one of us. The creatures of dark and I created u just for me. U are mine now as my slave. But don't worry I will always treat u as my Princess but for that u need to please me." Abhayendra dangerously whispered in my ears as I closed my eyes in fear.
"But u won't hurt me, u promised that !" I whimpered.
"Until u agree on my each term." He said in a menacing enraged tone.
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I felt cold lips kissing my neck, nuzzling slowly my tender skin. "I thought u went to take shower." I meekly said. Abhay made me sit on his lap and wrapped his arms around me like a kid holds his favourite toy." I had some other plans." He whispered strangely in my ears. I felt escatic when he did that. "And what is it ? Let me warn u, if u won't bath today than I won't come near as much as you." I playfully said. He rested his chin on my shoulder and brushed his rough cheek with my smooth one."Oh ! Really ? Than I had to make it up for u, my love !" He chuckled. In a swift way he lifted me which was utterly surprised to me. "Put me down, Abhay !" I shouted. He smirked so knowingly that I knew he is upto something. After a struggled of a minute or two he finally made me stand on my feet."Bathroom ? So this was your plan." I asked him as he take me in it. He nodded happily. "Alright, if u want to take shower than go with it. What's the need to taking me also with u." I huffed and begin to leave. He grabbed my wrist and held me in his iron grip. "Why not ? Isn't long back since we took a shower together." He smirked. I blushed unknowingly as I felt heat on my cheeks and sensing his intensions. "Will u ever improve Abhay ?" I asked. He kissed my cheeks smoothly. "No ! Because u r in my life." He said while leaning over me. "That's means, if some day I will leave u than u will be improved and will become good." I curiously asked. He tightened his hold and never let me move. "And after that, I will make your life worse !" He said in a menacing voice. I surely understood the hidden threat in it.
As the black sleek blanket tangled around our naked body, I sighed. My mind still lingering about the thought of being with Abhay from last 2 centuries. His malignant behavior, his love, his violence to devastating every single thing or being which will part me from him is jeopardy. I took an brief sigh again. Abhay was resting his head on my one of my breast and hold me tightly in his arms. It was suffocating how his huge body pressing mine and his movements of head which was quite uncomfortable to feel. His eyes closed. "U can't do this to me. If u ever run away like that, I will kill u !!" Abhay greeted in an agitated tone. I was shocked. He was murmuring something in low pace. His eyes still remained shut. I tried to shook him up and wake but he was still in his hibernation mode. "Abhay are u alright ? Can u listen to me ? Wake up Abhay please ?" I said worriedly while doing that. "You are mine !!!!" He growled furiously and grabbed my breast into his large palms and squeezed it hard. I screamed in tremendous pain. He wasn't using his normal vampiric powers instead it had utter intensity, viciousness and blind rage. "Abhay u are hurting me !" I cried. I tried to shove him away from me but that all cause me more pain. "Abhay !" I screamed. "Get off me please !!" I whimpered. His eyebrows narrowed slightly and he opened his eyes slowly. Tears were beaming in my eyes and I just cried and cried. "Pia !" He raised his voice. I looked upto him. In a flicker of second, he held me to his fierce embrace and it did hurt my sensitive parts. He kissed me all over my face including my lips, rapidly. "Pia, promise me u won't leave me ever. U won't betray me by being with in someone else's arms. U won't think of anything but me. U will not run away from me and be with me forever. Just promise me Pia please ?" He cried. I nodded reluctantly as if I had a another choice.
I looked at the crescent moon-shaped pendant, it was kinda like a locket. My past related with it and somehow I guess Abhay's also. The locket was made up of pure gold and a large white moonshine stone stuck in the center. It has petals like design around its lining and it was shone as an glitter. It was manoeuvred with tremendous art and skill."U wh**e ! U ungrateful human ! U have taken aback the person who I dearly loved and now you will loose everything u had ever loved. U lures for freedom and compassion isn't ?...And now these is the only two things which u will never get back to your existence ! U will never ever get away from him and u know he doesn't know the meaning compassion. Don't u ?" Her words accursed my fate. I will always kept this as cipher but I know her words didn't blown away just like that and it will always remained ill-fated. I immediately concealed it when I found Abhay's presence around me.
That afternoon Misha and Sid were at our house. I was glad since Abhay doesn't take me out and never allows anyone in our house except his proteges.
"Hey ! Pia. Last time I showed u my whole house and when I came to visit your house, u are just sitting and talking !" Misha frowned. I looked at Abhay as if asking for the permission and he nodded slowly."hmmm...now let me give u the confirmation Misha that there is no skeletons, coffins or dooms in my house." I grinned. Misha laughed. "How did u got to know about what I was exactly thinking ?" A curious Misha questioned. "U do know the obvious answer. Don't u ?" I teased her and she grinned back in a nod.
I exhibit her all over the mansion and she left flabbergasted and out of words. "Trust me Pia, now there is only one word to describe your beautiful, elegant house is extravagant !" I smiled and said "Thank u." Misha was a mere human but there was something in her flamboyant attitude that makes me feel like a human or may be more than alive, which obvious I wasn't. She told me a lot about Sid and how she now used to his primal instincts. I was happy for both of them.
Sid had something important to finish and they both left sooner. I waved back at Misha as she was waving at me by sneaking over the window and their car disappeared from our sight. "They do make a wonderful couple. Isn't ?" I asked Abhay as he was still staring at the empty route.
"But not more than us !" He winked at me and I furiously blushed.
In the evening, I sat up in my bed and was reading a novel. I was so engrossed in the story that I completely forget that Abhay wanted me to take out for a date. I heard loud thumping of footsteps across the corridor but as if it will diverted my attention.
"What the are u doing ?" Abhay greeted his teeth as he furious entered in the room.
"Reading a book I guess." I casually answered. I looked up and was utterly surprised. Abhay was wearing a pair of blue denims and a black sleek skintight shirt which was looking outstanding on him.
"Since half an hour, I am waiting for u in the downstairs and u are here reading this nonsense book !"
I frowned. "It really went out of my mind and I keenly apologize for that and please its not an nonsense book in compared to your black-covered, nothing ever as title book."
Of course he didn't like that answer and lashed me out in rage. "Don't u dare to talk to me like that ! U will be only one to hold the responsible for the punishment I will give u." He choked my throat with his one hand and other held me tightly into his grip. I wasn't exactly struggling for breath as I do never take it but it was surely hurting me in other way.
"I don't care. If I had to be the responsible for the punishment u will give me but sooner or later, its u who will be blamed." I said sternly.
His grip tightened and this time more fierce than before. "Because u compelled me to be the way I am right now and that causes pain and suffer for both of us and mind my words, I didn't ever had a single moment of regret for the punishment I had given u because I had created u for me and I have every single right upon u and your everything !"
I huffed. "U didn't have regret of what did u do to me ? U stole away from my family, the people I had ever cared for. U forced me to be in the path of darkness and never ever gave me some freedom. I can't dress up like myself because u think I dress up some kind of SL*t ! I can't talk to anyone especially men because u think I am flirting with them. U can't stand up on my choice and rights because u still believe on such old fogies that a girl can't achieve success and what she does is always wrong. If I ran away from u...u caught me and ties the heavy chains into my nude body and forces yourself upon me out of punishment or your love and Abhay that can never make me love u or even like u the way u are !" I busted in tears. I held the meaning of each word and every word I blurted out in my emotions and now I waited for Abhay's reaction. He will may be hit me or force upon on my fragile body or will give me a tight slap or and tied with me with his enormous bed or may be pierced my dermis with sharp silver needles and give the punishment for insulting him and raised my voice against my master but something unusual happened that I had ever expected from him.
Abhay let me back away and I took my steps back nervously. "Its just that...that I can't loose u. Every day, every minute and every second I feel u will also leave me just like others did to me. U will also cheat on me and I will be never be able to get your love. I can't imagine my life without u Pia and if that ever happens than I am afraid what I will do to u but at the same moment I want to give u happiness and everything u had ever craved for unless freedom but I know u can't return my feelings; so I had to take those steps Pia." Tears of blood rolled to his cheeks. He again became the same child-like Abhay who wants me as I am his favourite toy but somehow I can't really judge his feelings; it has a very long way to go.
"U should trust me Abhay. I won't let u down; I had already given u my words for it."
"But what if -"
I didn't let him complete his line and slowly sealed my like to him. He did answered with his brutal passion.
"Than I won't blame u for your actions." I grinned when we broke apart.
He stared at me with his same fierce intensity and smiled."I will..." he uttered.
Happily, he hugged me so tightly in a suffocating embrace that I felt I will be bruised soon." Ugghh ! Abhay I will be cracked in a minute if u continue this anymore !"
We broke apart slowly as he chuckled and brushed his lips over mine turning it into a passionate raw kiss.
"Now can we leave for our date love ?" He asked smilingly.
"Impatient ! Aren't u Abhay ?" I teased him.
He flashed a mischievous smirk."I simply can't wait for it."
I blushed unknowingly at his remark.
May be right now Abhay is reluctant to change but may be sooner or later he will be willing change as I will there for him to make him better and make our future more delightful than some blood plotted gruesome incidents.
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OK ! Finally updated !! 😆 I know I always take a long brief time to update my stories but since I struggles for a lot of time and I always left unsatisfied with my own writing ( I know its worse 🤢 :( ) I am really really sorry for that guys hope u all are getting my point since I am std 10th so there is always a pressure on me from my parents to maintain my ranking and try my fullest !
A/N : Please don't get confused between why Abhay is like that and why Pia is not falling for him. There is more into it of what I am already defining and u will get everything sort in upcoming chapters ! People asking for the link of this FF which I am going to post in WordPress as I know India forums won't tolerate such content ! Guys I didn't post anything on WordPress yet and when I will do it I will let u all know 😛 And about mature scenes or some heated ones than I had already lessened those in next 5 chapters because I will be banned from India forums if I do ever post it 😆 So from chapter 10 this FF will be shifted in WordPress 😃 @new readers and silent readers thank u so much for loving this story in such a bit and I am truly overwhelmed from the response and my regular readers they are always special to me 😳 LOVE U ALL <3<3
PS- Next chapter in Sunday and part 2 also I will post tomorrow.
Chapter 5- some hot and sweet scenes between Abhiya ;) and there is someone who wants to see them apart :P
PSS- now there will be more flashbacks in each update to reveal Abhiya's back story and some really mature scenes which will describe why they share such compilations. ( Violence, gore, adult content included ).
HAPPY GANESH CHATURTHI 🤗
Edited by Abhiyan_SHREYA - 11 years ago
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