FF:DESTINED TO LOVE(chapter 15 part 1 n 2 page 89) - Page 9

Dear diary,
today my past is haunting me again.Those memories which i wanted to leave behind,time has again brought it back in front of me jst becoz of one guy-ABHAY.
I still remember that day when i was dragged out of the house and left in the street with nothing except the ragged clothes i was wearing.i went to ma frens to let me stay wid them bt ma frens n their parents closed the door on ma face.i had nowhere to go.with hungry stomach n ragged feature i wondered here n there.just then i noticed the boy...
A boy about 10 yrs old,well dressed in rich clothes,a very handsome boy wid dimples n deep blue eyes...he was searchin 4 som1.he seemed worried.just then he stopped a passer by n inquired about...ME..

I could see that he was disappointed 4 nt finding me.his handsome face grew dark with sadness n frustration.i was happy to know there was som1 who cared 4 me.
I couldnt recognise him at first but then i remembered seeing him a year ago.when i was all alone n crying,he was there to talk wid me.but when he asked me to wait n ran towards his parents,jst then mary had dragged me to my home.i couldnt even ask him his name then.
When i saw him searching 4 me after a year too,i wanted to go infront of him n tell him i was piya but then i stopped .i loked at myself.i was looking dirty with ragged clothes n wounds in hand n feet.he looked clean n rich.i didnt want face him in that condition.that day i realised how much ma was had changed,how much i was lacking.i realised what it feels like to be poor.when a person becomes poor,he/she cant even afford to make frens or hope.that day i made up ma mind to struggle,to isolate myself.but i never expected to see him again after 12 years in this way.
Today when i heard abhay talking to kabir,i was shocked to know that abhay was the same boy who cared 4 me when no one did.i used to regret sometimes 4 nt even asking his name bt i never expected that i'd meet him in clg n hate him so much on the very 1st meeting.i never wanted him to know about me n ma condition.bt hearing wat he said to kabir,it seems that he knows everything about me.
Everyone who were close to me,whom i lovd,they all left me.i cant let abhay be close to me coz i know he'll leave someday n i'll get hurt again.rather than dying every sec its better to die at once...so its better 4 me to stay away frm him...

(ABHAY'S DIARY PG 5)

Hey swthrt,
i m really,really very sad today.i had always been jolly n cheerful guy but the entry of piya has changed me.first anger,now sadness...
I tried to talk to her but she doesnt want to talk to me.everytime i try talking to her she gets angry.i dnt know why but it feels like c doesnt want to let me be close to her.c is trying to create a barrier in her heart so no emotion can enter it.
She ignores me as if i dont exist at all.i was never ignored b4 but now i know how it feels to be ignored.it feels really bad.it feels as if m a trash.i've seen her ignoring everybody bt c ignores me even more than any other.c is doing it intentionally.but i'll nt loose hope so quickly.i'll make her break her barrier.i'll change her lifestyle completely...
I know swthrt i m jst thinking abt Piya n only Piya bt rt nw c is most important 4 me.its important to change her.thats the only way i can express my gratitude.
Hope 2maro there'll be slight in her behaviour 2wards me.
K swthrt time 2 sleep...luv u...
GUD NIGHT.

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part 2 posted below.

when morning light entered piya's room c opened her eyes.c had slept in a chair.last night again her nightmare had disturbed her n she woke up panicking n sweating.she had had a glass of water n had relaxed sitting in a chair where c had fallen asleep.
She got engaged in her morning chores.when c got ready.she looked at herself in the mirror.her dark circle were more prominent now.she tried to hide them with make up bt was nt successful.her body was loosing strength n c was feeling weak.but c gathered herself n made up her mind to go to college.she looked at two empty photo frames in her room.when her house was auctioned,she couldnt even take the photos of her parents.she was dragged out of her house empty handed.so she always considered these empty frames as he mom n dad's picture.

she grabbed her bag n left her hostel 4 clg without even having ur breakfast.

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It was eight o clock in the morning n abhay was still sleeping.Haseena tried to wake him up but in vain.at last c thought of an idea,brought a jug of water n poured down his ear.Abhay instantly woke up n sat down on his bed.

Abhay went 2wards the store room.he had never been there b4.there were lots of frames,old books,paintings n old furnitures.he found a suitable frame for him n was abt to leave when his eyes fell on a pile at a dark corner.he looked at them n found two photo album n one small diary.he brushed off the dust n took them wid him.

''its PIYA''.