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hello all....
ok so i really am getting depressed nowðŸ˜....as some of u might know ive always been a die hard sidChi shipper....i always knew that sid had negative shades to his character, so i guess it was always foolish of me to really expect sid to change...but when panchi came along and they started the sidChi track, i was really filled with hope that maybe, just maybe, sid might change....and forget change even,...i just hoped that even if he had to remain the bad guy that he inherently was, he would atleast fall truly for panchi...so much for wishing...ðŸ˜
i kept saying all along that sid needs time to fall for panchi...and that eventually he will, he will....i guess the reason for that was that although sid never showed true love for panchi, he had always shown a certain respect, a certain liking, even if it was just 'friendly', towards panchi...
However, in the recent few episodes where i really hoped his relationship with panchi would move forward, ive noticed that sid has become increasingly bitter towards panchi....even when panchi came to the forest, the way he spoke to her broke my heart,,...i know he made up with her later about that but the truth remains that that is the true sid...that was a true reminder of his actual attitude towards panchi - indifferent and irritated...really really hurt...
and then today, their exchange in the car where panchi asks him to meet her parents, his expressions really hurt...his thoughts were somewehat along the line of 'ur really pushing me panchi'...his thoughts and those irritated expressions clearly reflected his annoyance and indifference towards panchi...that hurt me sooo much..
u know when that cute exchange between sid and her parents happened, especially when sid spoke to arnab alone, and arnab reminded him of the way panchi had been hurt before, i reallly hoped to see some feeling in sid's expressions...but all along his expression remained serious and respectful, and maybe a little guilt, but i guess i was reading too much into those expressions, cos as soon as arnab left, (as much as i wanted to see sid show the smallest sign of guilt or sadness for the way he was using panchi), sid came back to making fun of people's emotions...it was almost like nothing had happened! i soo badly wanted sid to show the smallest, tiniest bit of regret or something like that, but that just didnt happen...sids final reaction really hurt me today...ðŸ˜
i guess its high time i accepted that sid will really never fall for panchi and that it is after all, a game for him...it just breaks my heart so much that my favourite would-be-couple will never really be one..😔
but u know what...although i am beginning to give up on sid...i am still going to hold on to my belief in sidChi for a while longer...i guess as obvious as it is, its just not possible for me to give up on sidChi, atleast not until there is a clear, blunt indicator that they are really not gonna happen...ðŸ˜...until then, il just keep praying for them i guess...
what do you guys think about sid and sidchi? do comment...
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