Feelings 10
Gaya couldn't call him loudly... very weekly called 'Rahul'...
Maya told him Gaya is calling him, he went inside to see Gaya.
R - Hey, u should not shout like this? be calm, I'll tk care...
Gaya - what r u shouting for???
R - U know I don't like him, bcos u know the reason...
Gaya was silent n kept looking at his nautanki,he came near her, he felt her fever,it has come down, he stood up ,unconcerned for her
R - why was he here? U know he was the one who hurt u the most, did u forgot all tht he did with u?[literally shouted]
Varun and his GF took the lift, Varun was looking dull.
GF - Varun, I know how u feel now[Varun looked her quietly]what all happened has happened, u did for her good, least knowing she would end up with him...[varun lost his cool]
Varun - Now just keep quiet...[ he searched his pants for his phone, realized he has left it in bed]Oh shit, I had left my phone there!
GF - wait, I will go n fetch, u may not like the things there[she gets a call on her HP, saw her mom was calling]
Varun - No I'm fyn, I'll go , u check ur mom
His GF looked at him with concern and jealousy thinking he tries to check on Gaya again...Varun entered the apartment only to hear, Gaya's BF shouting on her abt him, his ears grew sharp to hear the convo... Maya was looking embarrassed, calling him in...
Varun - My phone...
Maya was abt to go in,but Varun stopped her and asked her to do whatever she was doing.
Varun - I'll go...
Gaya - why r u taking all tht now ?
R - Why??? I don't like, he coming and showing u as if he cares...[mockingly][Gaya got angry, she responded before even her mind asked her to say]
Gaya - he cares... [Looked at him] more than u
[she looked down]
R - So, u mean to say, u still love him??? Whatever he did, he does, never gonna affect U???Oh! bcos u so in love with him.[he became restless, whereas, Varun, got a shock of his life, though he knows she loves him, he didn't know Rahul knows it too]
R - then , why the hell u asked me to date u and desperately wanted a relationship??? Oh I forgot, u wanted to hurt him, so, right???
Gaya - Rahul, we know all this, why talk now? he came as a co-star [she gulped]to check on me' and tht too he came with his GF, can't u see?[though she didn't want to mention that.. she did to calm Rahul]
R - So, u want me to welcome him and hv a chit chat?
Gaya - Rahul, now cool down, willya? I am feeling dizzy, after all those meds?. [she lied down in her bed, and closed her eyes, felt something was disturbing her back, but not able to check wht was tht]
Rahul - u played with my life, u cheater of a girl???
Gaya felt more pain ... hearing those words.
Varun felt his body shaky too, he don't wanna stand anymore sec there... he walked to the door, his heart is too heavy with the thoughts happened THAT NIGHT. He started climbing down the stairs recollecting those not so good memories, which is still haunting him...
Flashback
One hectic day, they all packed up to go home at midnight after 1 am...Gaya came to Varun's changing room.
Gaya - Varu, I wanted to talk to u about us.
Varun - us? In what sense?
G - [she was shy,and it made Varun want to make excuse and run from her]U know... I like u...[hesitantly]
V hurt, he don't want this day to come this early, he hated the idea of hurting her, he loved her that much...
Varun - Hmmm
G - But what hv I read about some rumor that u dating Ayesha, [she is a supportive character in their show] that u guys spening more time together???
V - dunno, wht to say Gaya... U know we all r friends, u also know I drop her sumtimes, then?
G - I know, but ...[thinking]anyway, I so wanted to ask u sumthing, which is really bothering me...
V - Say...
G - I love u Varu, dunno how to put in words, but I love u, love u, love u...My Life
He closed his eyes shut...and when he opened, he looked at her with all his love for her,They had a real connection...
She became emotional, a tear drop ready to come down on her cheeks anytime...
G - whenever I came near u or u come near me, some emotional creeping in and I become chill, somebody said thts called 'frisson'..
She holded his hands, She felt a strange feeling passed thru her veins... she felt very near to his heart... But varun took his hands off, bcos he is fighting against his will with his own emotions.. he need to be hard and harsh on her, why?? he only knows...
V - Stop Gaya, stop... nothing more...
Gaya had a shock in her eyes, she cudn't able to believe her own eyes and ear, and wht she was hearing from him... she backed and gave him a look tht would kill him...Very hard time for Varun...But he has to do it now.. or never he wud b able to do ...
V - what r u talking about? U know what is ur age and My age? I always treated u as a little girl...Hv u lost ur mind?[ all these making her dizzy,hell shocked she was.. now embarrassed too, tears rolling down uncontrollably]
V - See gaya, i like u too, but things r not like wht u r thinking... may be u r attracted to me, thats all...[Gaya wanted to yell n say 'NO', but no words r coming out of her mouth... she hated herself to the core... ] Infatuation, u know...
Varun was hating himself for hurting her and himself, he is making his heart look like a fool and forcing it to believe what he is thinking is right...He tried holding her hands, but she backed off, she still in shock
V - Look, u r a princess... u hv a great life ahead.. u and me r different in everything...We just cannot make it possible... U'll have to forget this silly thought[ his heart cries, even now for these words]
G -[ couldnt take it anymore.. she cried,] So u mean to say , this is all silly??? My love for u look silly? Great Varu, Great... Now i understood, why u rejecting me, all those rumors were true then? may be...Bt tell me one thing...
Varun looked at her objectively...
G - u and I seriously don't have anything in common? there is a connection, i could feel even nw between us, but hell, u didn't realize it... and may be u don't want to...
V - all those were our imaginations... in reality it will not wok as we want it to be...
G - [stopped him by showing her hands] enough Va... i know what i should do now, sorry, if i made a fool of myself, wasting ur night, u could hv probably spent with tht girl...[gritted her teeth]
Gaya walked as fast as she could, actually she was running... she wanted to run away from him as far as she cud... poor she .. she has to face him the very next morning for shoot...Varun's heart went to her without his approval... he sat on his bed like a corpse... he didn't go home...
Feelings will continue soon...
Edited by babithaj - 12 years ago