Nowadays, Krishna wears a dull defeated air about him. His fans cannot have helped having noticed how the once confident, smart, vibrant man, now goes about with slumped shoulders, slouches, lounges and generally sports a scowl or a grimace instead of his signature air of happy-go-luckiness.
Why has this happened?
Until he encountered Pratigya he had never been seriously challenged in his life. With the confidence of a lifetime he set out to achieve his goal of acquiring her. Everything worked in his favour, circumstances fell into place and he married her. He expected to live a smooth life from then on, because after all what was a woman in his experience but salt at dinner and sugar in bed? But he had reckoned without the indomitable character of Pratigya Saxena.
From the first day of his marriage to this day has been an uphill struggle for Krishna. Almost the entire duration he struggled to win her affections. He took care to prove to her that his love and support were unstinting. During those months he had only one goal ' to win her over. In that duration there was no real threat of losing his family because he had always been able to wrap them around his little finger. Even in the 'adda' he only viewed the situation as temporary till his father gave-in out of love and affection.
But things have changed now. Three things have happened simultaneously. One, Pratigya started falling in love with K and started returning his affections. Two, this made his family so jealous and resentful that they lost all hope of retaining his complete loyalty and started challenging him to choose his allegiance. Three, Circumstances have revealed to him slowly the true nature of his family, their meaness, their cruelty, their evil propensities.
It has come to a stage when K has got to make some hard decisions sooner or later.
- He has got to choose between right and wrong
- He has got to choose between an easy life and a life of struggle
- He has got to choose between the woman he promised to love and keep and the temptation of a life where he will be 'kept' in luxury and relative peace
For a man more used to making moral decisions the answers may have been immediately obvious. But Krishna Singh is a morally lazy man, an escapist. All his life he has trained his eyes and heart to look away when his father abused, insulted , and ill-treated his mother. This was the same man who leapt across a blood-stained man who had been dragged behind a jeep by his own brother. The same man who said that his brother had a right to deal with his bhabi anyway he liked because of the position of being her "husband".
THIS IS A MAN WHO HATES TO FACE UNPLEASANT TRUTHS.
But this time, he does not have a choice at avoiding them. His own peace and happiness and authority in the household are in question. He has tried many tricks till date.
- Tried to bulldoze his family into letting him have his way
- Tried to cow down his wife, because he think he now 'owns' her more truly.
- Tried to run away from confronting either party
- Tried desperately to put a positive spin on the actions of his family as he has been doing for a lifetime
NOTHING IS WORKING!
Krishna Singh is a tired man. He is cornered and scared and depressed. It has got to a point with him where he is actually looking back to the source of the conflict and wondering when his troubles started. Of course the answer is Pratigya! He wonders if all that BIG LOVE and marriage was worth it? Was it worth struggling for? How much easier to go back to status quo, when he ran amok with his friends, ignoring his family, with his father's money and his brother's gun in his pocket?
He is almost questioning his decision in marrying a girl like Pratigya? Does he have what it takes to maintain such a marriage?
I say, if Krishna has these doubts, then give him time to work out the real values of his life. Even if this means that Pratigya will have to leave him, and give him space, till he makes up his mind.
Let him decide:
- What is the value of Pratigya in his life? More crudely put ' what USE is she to him?
- Does he want to reassess his moral values? Or is it too much of a task for him?
- Does he have what I takes to make a life for himself? Is he too lazy to try?
All of these things are for Krishna to decide.
If he decides that he is not capable of an overhauling of his life, of course that is tragic. Krishna would be like any other average man who only wants a mediocre happiness which does not demand any sacrifice form him. I say quite openly, that for me - A KRISHNA FAN ' this would be devastating.
But if (and I hope!) he decides that his love and his moral fortitude are both equal to this new challenge, if he decides that there is something deep and strong within him that actually welcomes this change, however difficult and uncomfortable it is, then we will see the kind of Krishna we had never even dreamed about.
Not just a strutting, witty, cock-sure young turf who goes about looking dashing, but a strong, beautiful man - a real hero!
I like to imagine that the Pupa has gone into a self-protective cocoon, to develop itself. Krishna (like a pupa) looks defensive, weak, and unprepossessing in this stage. But I hope this exercise is only in order to release a truly beautiful moth. The kind that will lay its life for the flame. Whether that flame is love or truth.