chapter11
"Pratigya... Pratigya? Can you hear me?" I heard a voice from far away.
"Yes, I can hear you!" I called, but there was no reaction.
"Sir, she cant hear you." I heard another voice. Were they talking about me?
"Hey, hallo!!!! I can hear you! Krishna?! Rajev Uncle?!" I screamed from the top of my lungs, but nobody answered me. It was so dark around me. I tried to figure out where I was, but after awhile I gave up.
"Pratigya... my sweet Pratigya. I dont know if you can hear me or not, but I want you to know that Im here for you, ok? Please dont give up." That was Krishnas voice. It sounded so warm and tender, but also very concerned.
"Krishna? Is that you? I can hear you! Where are you and where am I? Please help me." I begged, but again there was no reaction. I felt somebody taking my hand, it surely was Krishna, but when I looked to the side there was only darkness.
"Please help me! What is this all about?" I began to cry.
"Sir, Im sorry but she needs to rest. Please go home." I heard another voice.
"No, Krishna! Dont leave me, please stay!" I called.
"No, I want to stay, please." I heard Krishna answer.
"Im sorry, but thats not possible. You have to come back tomorrow." I felt that he let go of my hand.
"NOOOOOO!!! kRISHNA!!!!" I cryed uncontrollable, but after awhile I found out that there was no use, Krishna had left.
I fell to the ground, trying to figure out what to do.
"Damn it, please can anybody tell me what is going on?!" I called into the darkness... no answer.
"Great! Thank you for your help." I mumbled sarcastically.
"If you dont want to help me, Ill help myself again." I got up and began to walk. I had no idea where I was walking, but I just walked. Suddenly I saw a small light. It was very far away, but it was there.
"Ok, whoever you are... I will reach that light, if you like it or not." I sighed deep and began to run. I ran for hours, but the light was still as far away as before.
I had to slow down and rest for awhile. Suddenly I felt very exhausted and weak, yes almost deperate.
"Please, can anybody help me?" I whispered.
"How is she?" I heard Krishnas voice.
"Still the same. Shes alive, but in coma." answered a woman. I jumped.
"Coma? Who is in coma?" I asked myself. Then I felt that he took my hand again.
"Hey Pratigya... Im here. Dont give up." Suddenly I felt a soft touch on my cheek, it was like Krishna touched me, but he was nowhere to be seen.
Could it be that it was me who was in coma?" I whispered.
"But that would mean that..." I was shocked.
"No, that cant be." I got up and began to run again. I ran like there was no tomorrow and I had the feeling that the light became a bit bigger. Suddenly I saw a bright light behind me. It shone brighter than anything I had ever seen before and was warm. It seemed to call me.
I couldnt help it, but it called me. It felt so right to go there, it seemed to be so easy...
"Pratigya... please dont give up." Krishnas voice came from that light that was far away. I stood there not knowing what to do.
On one hand there was Krishna who called me, but on the other hand there was this wonderful light right in front of me.
"Please, Pratigya... we need you."
That were the right words for me to come back to my senses. So I turned to where Krishnas voice came from and began to run. Suddenly there was a big river in front of me. It was raw and the water seemed to be really dangerous.
The light was on the other end of it, so it looked like I would have to cross that river, but there was no bridge.
"Ok, you want me to swim? Then Ill swim." I breathed deep and jumped into the water. It was stronger than I had expected it to be, but I didnt give up.
"Krishna, please help me!" I called, but the water was too strong. Right when I was about to give up, I felt Krishna grabbing my hand again.
"Im here, Krishna. Im here." That gave me the power to fight for one last time and after what it seemed like an eternity, I reached the other side.
"Shes waking up." I heard a female voice.
"Pratigya, can you hear me?" The voices were now very near and I knew that I just had to reach the light in front of me to wake up from this nightmare.
I crawled over to the light and touched it. It sucked me in and brought me back to reality.
"Pratigya, if you can hear me, please press my hand." I did like I was told.
"And?" asked Krishna nervous.
"She can hear us." was the relieved answer.
"Ok, I want you to try to open your eyes now." I wanted to open them, but it was like the lids were glued. It took awhile before I could open them at least a bit. My view was blurry, but I saw faces above me.
"Pratigya..." A man snapped his finger in front of me. I heard different voices and a horrible, beeping sound.
I paniced. Where was I and who were these people... and most of all. Where was Krishna???
I felt panic rise inside me. I tried to say something, but I just couldnt, I wanted to scream, but no sound came out of my mouth.
"Doctor? Shes trembling." said a nurse.
"Thats normal, shes panicing." I felt the tears well up in my eyes and looked pleading at the doctor.
"Ok. Pratigya, if you understand what I say, then please blink with your eyes." I did like he told me.
"Fine. My name is Dr. Irman. You are here at the hospital, do you get this?" I blinked again.
"You dont have to worry, we are here to help you after your attack, so just try to relax." I shook my head.
"I think she wants to tell you something." concluded the nurse. The doc bent down to my face, trying to hear what I wanted to say.
"Krishna..." I whispered weak. He looked at me and nodded.
"She wants to see Mr. Krishna. Would you please call him in?" he said to the nurse, I looked thankful at him.
"The nurse told me to come in." said Krishna, standing in the door. The tears began to flow again, when I saw him.
The doctor smiled at Krishna.
"She asked for you, Mr. Krishna." Krishna stared unbelieving, first at Dr. Boman, then he slowly walked over to me.
"But... how?"
"She whispered your name." he explained.
Krishna took a seat next to the bed and grabbed my hand. I felt so relieved to feel him near me.
"Pratigya, my sweet Pratigya..." he whispered with a shaky voice.
I wanted to tell him so much, but I just couldnt. It felt like I was trapped in a strange body that wouldnt work the way I wanted it.
"Try to calm her down. She doesnt understand what is going on." Krishna nodded.
"Im here, Pratigya. Dont worry." he stroke my head. I tried to tell him something, but again... no sound from my mouth.
"What is with her?" asked Krishna alarmed.
"She wants to tell you something." Krishna leaned over to me.
"Stay." was all I could say, his eyes widened.
"What did she say?" asked the doctor.
"She said stay." The doc nodded in thoughts.
"You seem to be a very special person for her. I want to ask you to stay here if thats possible. She seems to feel better, when you are around, right Pratigya?" I blinked.
"Of course Ill stay." answered Krishna, I softly pressed his hand and looked thankfull at him.
Slowly I drifted off to sleep again, but this time I wasnt surrounded by this horrible darkness.
When I woke up again, I felt a bit better. I could breath more easily and I could move my hand better. I saw Krishna sitting in a chair next to my bed, he was asleep. My body was filled with pure love, he did so much for me, has always done and I had treated him so bad.
He moved in the chair and opened his eyes.
"Hey, you are awake. How do you feel?" he asked, taking my hand and kissing it.
"Much better." I whispered, suprised about the fact, that I could speak better now.
"Ah, shes awake, very good." said Dr. Boman, coming into the room. "How is she today?" he asked Krishna
"Ask her, not me." he answered smiling. Dr. Boman shot Krishna a suspicious look.
"Ok, how are you, Pratigya?" he asked me, not expecting me to answer.
"Much better." I whispered again. The Dr. looked suprised at me.
"You are really a miracle." he shook his head.
"Dr... What... what... ha...ppened?" I asked now, still not knowing what happened with me.
"Well, you had an attack." he simply said, but I wanted to know the truth.
"And?" I answered, looking suspicious at him.
"Your girlfriend seems to be an interesting young woman. She seems to want to know everything." he said smiling at Krishna.
"Shes a fighter..." he replied Krishna proud.
"Ok, Pratigya. I will tell you what happened. You had a cerebral haemorrhage." I was shocked.
"I think that you didnt feel very well before you broke down, right?" I just nodded.
"I thought so, lack of sleep, a pain in the chest etc..." I nodded again. Krishna shot me a shocked look.
"But Pratigya... Why didnt you tell about your pain?"
"Ok, you broke down after your sisters wedding and were rushed in here. We had to do an emergency operation. Right after that you were comatose... It looked very bad for you and we were about to give up hope on you, but this young guy here wouldnt give you up and he was right. We are waitign for the test results now, then we can say more about your condition." he explained. It was very hard for me to stay focused on his words, but I got it.
"How long? Coma?" He nodded.
"You have been in coma for almost one week." I didnt know what to say, that meant this dream, the darkness.... everything was real. I had fought for my life...
"I think thats enough information for today. Try to sleep." with that Dr. Boman left the room.
I wanted to talk to Krishna, but I felt the sleep overwhelming me again.
"Krishna... I..." I whispered
"Sh... you need to rest. Im here." I heard his soft voice.
The next time was very hard for me. It took time for me to recover bit by bit... time I didnt want it to take.
"Miss Pratigya!" called Rajev Uncle and came in with a big bunch of flowers. I beamed at him.
"How do you feel?"
"Im fine, Rajev Uncle. How are you? And the restaurant?" I asked interested.
"Oh, everything is fine, but we miss you all alot. I shall bring you the best wishes from everybody." I nodded sad
"What is with you, Miss Pratigya?" he asked soft.
"Its nothing, I just dont want to stay here any longer. I want to go home." I complained.
"But it takes time to recover." he tried to comfort me, but I shook my head.
"Rajev Uncle. Im here for a month now. I just wanna go home." I felt the tears welling up in my eyes.
"Sh... come here." he hugged me careful.
"Im sure youll be able to go home soon." I sobbed in his arms