Let me say right at the beginning that this post is about Sneha wala Sharon and I'm going to praise Sneha Kapoor to the skies here so if that makes anyone uncomfortable plz don't read further and create illogical, lame fights.
Now coming to the main content, the title gives it away. I was listening to this song by Billy Joel a few minutes ago and all I could think of was the Sharon portrayed by Sneha. The song seems to have been written for her..the truth she tried to hide but failed, the lies she uttered in the process. She was bold, she was unapologetic, she was vulnerable, she was sensitive...she was like all women are- an enigma.
We hated her for hurting Swayam but loved her for her obvious pain at having done so. We cried when she pushed him away, yet understood why she did so. We wanted her to give herself over to him, to accept the forever expanding love he was offering yet knew how scary staring into that empty horizon can be. Sharon was a girl trapped in her own mind and no matter how valiantly Swayam fought, a part of us knew he was tilting at the windmills. The problem was not that she didn't want to accept her feelings, the problem was she couldn't accept them.
Plenty of characters have come since time immemorial but very few have managed to capture my imagination like Sharon did. All the credit for that goes to the writers who created Sharon and Sneha who breathed life into her, for no creation can be a masterpiece if its visage doesn't have the power to suck you in. That's what Sneha did, she sucked me into the vortex of pain, disillusionment, love and angst and made me marvel at the sheer human capacity to feel. Because Sharon Rai Prakash felt, she felt everything, every little insignificant detail so keenly that her mind had to force her heart to shut down or it would have exploded... and I felt it all along with her..all because of Sneha's brilliance. Her eyes told me what her dialogues did not, there were no missing links because she didn't enact her scenes, she lived them. Her whole body vibrated with Sharon's essence when she was on screen. Even today everytime i watch any Sneha wala Sharon or Tanha wala Swaron scene, I'm spellbound by their genius...what talent man!!! Unbelievable!!!
I know this post probably makes no sense and I'm rambling but I had to get this out...
Sharon Rai Prakash, I miss who you were, I miss who you could be..
Sneha Kapoor, thank you once again for being my Sharon for as long as you were..things may have turned bitter but the Sharon you gave me, will always be a source of joy and inspiration and you'll forever be my Sharon Rai Prakash