Swaron OS: Mera Mann Kehne Laga

Mera Mann Kehne Laga

Swayam was sitting the canteen with his cup of coffee.. A bit disappointed.. worried.. tensed about the

Swayam (to himself): Subh se kuch right nahi ho raha hai *sip* I wish Sharon yahan hoti.. Sab kuch sort out karke gayi thi woh.. Aur ab.. Main kuch bhi sort out nahi kar pa raha hoon *sip* Kitne acche se handle kiya tha usne sab.. Sabko convince kiya tha Kriya ke liye and I'm not being able to do anything.. Shhheeaa! *sip* I'm missing you Sharon..

Swayam was lost deep in his thoughts when he felt somebody sitting next to him.. He looked to his side and was shocked.. It was SHARON!!

Swayam (shocked): Aaa.. Sharon.. Tum?

In return Sharon just gave him a wide smile and was looking at him lovingly.. He was not able to understand what was she doing there.. He closed his eyes and shook his head lightly and when he looked up she was gone.. He looked around to see where she went.. Realising that he was hallucinating he cautionly picked up his cup of coffee and continued sipping it..

Swayam (to himself): Kab aaogi tum Sharon?

Just when he looked up Swayam again saw Sharon standing at the canteen counter.. She turned and looked at him with her breath-taking smile.. She slowly walked to him and stood right next to him..

Sharon: Tumne mujhe miss kiya! Aur main aa gayi..

Swayam stood up from his place realising it Sharon..

Swayam (confused): Tum kal aane wali thi na? Toh phir...

Sharon smiled and suddenly disappeared and stood there another girl.. He was shocked..confused and what not..

Girl: Itne bore ho rahe ho ke khudse hi baat kar rahe ho?

Swayam was embarrassed with the entire situation

Swayam: Sorry.. Sorry.. Woh main Annual day ki practise kar raha tha..

Too embarrassed with his behaviour, he chose to sit down and continue having his coffee..

Swayam: Kya ho gaya hai mujhe??

He concentrated on his coffee trying to forget what just happened.. Just then he felt a tap on his shoulder.. He casually turned around and saw Sharon.. Thinking that he was hallucinating, he ignored her and looked in front paying no heed to his illusion and hit his hand over his head.. Sharon was so happy that she would meet him after 2 whole days but looking at his reaction her face fell.. Is this how he would act when she is right there behind him?

Sharon (irritated): Tum mujhe ignore kyun kar rahe ho?

Swayam was astonished.. He got up with a jerk still not sure if what he saw was true..

Swayam (fumbling): Tum?.. Tum sach main ho?

Sharon: Haan..

Swayam: Really??

Sharon was confused as to what was wrong with him.. she thought for a minute and pinched him on him arm..

Swayam (jerking up): Wow!.. (confused) Tum toh kal aane wali thi na? Toh phir aaj kaise?

Sharon (while taking a seat): Ek last ceremony thi.. Usse seedha tumhare paas aa gayi..

Swayam (taking his seat): Woh accha kiay.. Wiase bhi hum sab tumhe miss kar rahe the..

Swayam then told Sharon about all the happenings after she went.. He also realised that when he had once said that her advice would be wrong for Rey he was wrong then and he should have trusted her.. Sharon at the same time was very happy to know that atleast now Swayam does trust her.. She told him need not worry and she will handle everything.. Just as she got up to leave Swayam stopped her..

Swayam: Sharon!

Swayam slowly moved forward and touched her hand just to make sure she was actually there.. She felt goose bumps at his touch and adored his action..

Swayam (innocently): Woh main bas.. chu kar dekhna chahta tha ki..tum sach main yahan ho ya nahi.. So bas..

She was amazed by his reply and caught his hand that was lingering on her forehand and placed it on her cheek..

Sharon: Main sach main tumhare paas hoon..

Swayam didn't know what to say so just kept staring at her eyes that showing immense love and had turned all happy happy.. Getting out of his trance he pulled back his hand and Sharon walked away grinning ear-to-ear..

Sharon left the canteen and was elated after what just happened.. She walked reminiscing the moment and replaying it over and over again.. She walked to the locker room and to her luck no one was there to see how blushy blushy she went..

Sharon: So Mere Mr.Shekhawat ko believe nahi ho raha tha ke main sach main wapas aa gayi hu.. Iska matlab.. Swayam ne mujhe miss kiya.. *blushing* I promise Swayam.. Main bahut jald tumhe phirse apni life main laungi.. Kabhi tumhe apne se dur nahi jaane dungi.. Phirse apna banaungi.. And this time it will be Forever..

On the other hand Swayam was still not over the moment.. The smile.. The glint in the eye.. The touch.. smooth.. soft.. pure.. After living the moment a thousand times he moved out of the canteen with a huge grin plastered on his face.. The rest of the day had nothing interesting as such.. They were all busy with rehearsals and classes..

Swayam's house at night..

Swayam was sitting by the window while remembering all their moments together.. The confession.. The NDC finals.. The hugs.. The kisses.. The phone convo's.. The chai date.. The dance in the rain.. The camping date.. The promise.. The secret admirer gifts.. The changed avatar.. Sharon cooking for him.. The pehla nasha dance.. The moment they shared this morning.. The love.. The care..

Swayam opened the cupboard and traced his hand on the picture he put on the door.. He looked at all her pictures and his smile just grew bigger and bigger..

*Refresh/Play Now*

Swayam was humming while closing the door of the cupboards.. As soon as he closed it he saw Sharon standing there with her arms crossed.. He was startled but he soon grinned and moved toward her.. Gliding his fingers from her shoulder to her palm.. He held both her hands and placed them on his shoulders.. Placing his hand on her waist he bought her closer.. His touch sent shivers down Sharon's spine and due to the effect her eyes closed.. They both started moving their bodies in sync with the music..

Tujhse hi to mili hai rahat

Tu hi to meri hai chahat

Tujhse hi to judi zindagi

He twirled her and then moved his hand slowly from above her head and paused while caressing her hair..

Teri yaadein hain kuch adhoori

Saans aadhi hai kuch hai poori

Aankhon mein hai kaisi ye nami

He wiped the small traces of tear at the corner of her eyes which had formed due to the happiness she felt for having him so close to her.. He took her one hand and placed it over his heart and slowly swaying.. She walked back a step but he pulled her closer and placed his hand on her cheek while tracing her lower lip..

Mera mann, kehne laga

Paas aake na tu door jaa

Chhoone de, honth tere

Zara saanson mein apni basa aa...

Swayam and Sharon were sitting by the window with Sharon's back resting over Swayam's chest.. Both were chatting.. laughing.. His hands were around her waist and her fingers intertwined with his.. Sharon was the one continuously talking and Swayam admiring her..

Swayam pulled and closer and hugged her tight, not letting her go anywhere.. She closed her eyes feeling his arms tight around her and his minted cool breath on her shoulder and nape.. He slowly loosened his grip and she turned to see him.. She placed a hand on his cheek and looked at him pouring all her love through her eyes.. He held her hand that was on his cheek and looked at her with the same amount of love..

Hmmm..

Tujhe apna bana loon

Tujhe tujh se chura loon

Tujhe khud mein chhupa loon, Sahiba!

Ik mujh pe karam ho

Tu hi mera sanam ho

Teri mujh pe nazar ho, Sahiba!

Hmmm...

They were standing right in the middle of the room.. swaying their bodies on the music.. Drowning into the pool of love they saw the others eyes.. Suddenly Sharon noticed Swayam's eyes brimming.. With a tensed expression she cupped his face and indicated him not to spill a single tear..

Mar main jaaunga, reh na paaun

Gham judai ka seh na paaun

Aye tujhe pyaar ka vaasta

Teri yaadein hai kuchh adhoori

Saans aadhi hai kuch hai poori

Swayam pointed out towards the window indicating the moon and looked at Sharon with cute smile on his face..

Aankhon mein hai kaisi ye nami

Raat ke chaand tale

Aagosh mein meri tu aa

Swayam stepped back two steps and opened his arms for her.. She ran and crushed herself into him.. She dug her face deep into his chest and he wrapped his arms possessively around her..

Baahon mein le lo mujhe

Zara sapno mein apne basa

Both we gliding their bodies in sync with their heart beats..

Mera mann, kehne laga

Paas aake na tu door jaa

Chhoone de, honth tere

Zara saanson mein apni basa aa...

They slowly broke the hug looking into each other orbs that emoted endless love in them.. Both had a bright smile lighting up their faces.. Swayam took a step forward to reduce the negligible gap between them and cupped her face.. Sharon closed her eyes surrendering herself completely to him and raised her head towards him waiting in anticipation.. Swayam looked at her giving in and he himself had held the passion and desire in his eyes.. His gaze was fixed at her quivering lips and he started moving forward.. The gap between their lips was 1-2 millimetres.. They could feel the others hot breath on their lips.. Swayam closed his eyes too completely into the moment.. And..

*THAP*

Swayam's face slipped out of the support of his hand with a jerk.. He looked around and found his elbow resting on the shelf in the cupboard.. He shook his head to get out of the effect..

Swayam: Yeh mujhe kya ho gaya hai? Subh se Sharon ko harr jagah imagine kar raha hoon.. I guess mujhe so jaana chahiye.. Yes yeh better hoge.. Swayam tu so jaa!

He closed the cupboard with huge smile plastered on his face as he recollected what he just dreamt about..

Swayam (sitting on the edge of the bed): Love you Sharon.. (ruffling the back of his head and laying back on the bed) I love you so so so much.. Hmph!

He took a pillow and hugged it as tightly as he could.. Thinking about her he fell asleep smiling like a baby..

Next day in college..

Swayam walked through the atrium with an annoyed.. irritated.. confused.. angry expression.. It was a pleasant but yet not a pleasant morning for him.. For a moment he thought he would need to consult a psychiatrist soon..

Swayam (to himself): Yeh mujhe ho kya raha hai? Pehle kal canteen main Sharon ko hallucinate kar raha tha.. phir kal raat ko bhi.. Aaj subh bathroom main nahte waqt woh mujhe dikhi.. Main breakfast kar raha tha tab kitchen main khadi thi aur mere paas aake baithi.. Main ready ho raha tha tab mere bed pe baithi thi.. Main college aa raha tha toh woh mujhse lift maang rahi thi.. Aur Sharon ke chakkar main maine ek aunty ka haath pakad liya.. Swayam tu pagal ho raha hai.. Nahi! Tu pagal ho gaya hai.. Ek kaam karta hu.. Dance routine set karta hu.. Haan yeh theek hoga.. Isse mera mind bhi Sharon ke thoughts se dur rahega..

Swayam went to the Rehearsal Hall talking to himself and convincing his mind that it needs to divert its attention now.. While walking to the other end to keep his bag he banged into someone.. He looked up irritated and got more annoyed..

Swayam (irritated): Great! Ab mujhe rehearsal hall main bhi akela nahi chodogi na tum.. Yaar tumhari problem kya hai? Kyun mere peeche padi ho? Kal se pareshaan karke rakha hua hai.. Just leave me alone Sharon for god sake.. Subh se pareshaan kar rahi ho! Jahan jaata hoon udhar chali aati ho.. Harr jagah dikh rahi ho.. Please!! Just LEAVE ME ALONE!!

On the other hand.. A few minutes back.. Rehearsal Hall..

Sharon was in the Rehearsal hall eagerly waiting for Swayam to come as according to yesterday's rehearsals they had to perform a duet for the Annual Day..

Sharon: Finally Swayam aur mujhe ek saath time spend karne milega.. Bas ek baar Swayam aa jaye phir Rehearsal ke timings decide kar lenge.. But Rehearsals kab karenge?.. Early morning? Nahi tabhi toh humare group rehearsals hote hai.. College hours main? Nahi tabhi toh college main sab hote hai aur shayad Swayam comfortable na ho.. Toh College ke baad! Yes perfect!.. Swayam aata hi hoga.. Usse keh dungi ke aaj shaam se college ke baad rehearsals chalo.. *Aaouch*

Sharon looked at who banged into her and found a furious Swayam standing there.. Instead of saying a Hi' or a Hello' he had started blasting out at her.. She was first confused as to what was Swayam saying.. But at the same time the harshness in his tone pricked her and her eyes couldn't hide that.. He didn't want her around him and that thought got to her though she didn't know what was he actually talking about.. Her sight started getting blurry and before she could spill any of it she had to leave..

Sharon (with a lump in her throat): Sorry..

Swayam saw those eyes that showed an emotion he would never want to see in Sharon's eyes.. And then the eyes filled up followed by a Sorry' that was mumbled in a haste changed Swayam's thoughts and expressions.. His face that was first emoting frustration melted and showed different states.. Horrified.. Confused.. Guilt.. Love..

Sharon moved forward to leave the place while hiding her tears when she felt a tug.. Swayam caught her hand to stop her.. He turned her and the tears that were threatening to fall were like draggers to his heart.. He immediately cupped her face..

Swayam: Sorry!.. I'm really sorry Sharon.. Pata nahi mujhe kya ho gaya hai.. Kisi aur cheez ka irritation aur ghussa maine tum pe nikaal diya.. I'm really very sorry.. Woh kal se mera dimag thikane pe nahi hai.. Main harr jagah tumhe imagine kar raha hu toh maine jab tumhe dekha toh mujhe laga tum bhi meri imagination ho iss liye poora frustration tum par nikaal diya.. I didn't mean anything I said.. I'm sorry.. Please don't cry..

As soon as Swayam had cupped her face Sharon felt bliss under his touch.. Her heart was summersaulting.. She looked at him with utmost love as he was justifying himself.. She was actually shocked listening to what he said..

Sharon (in mind, shocked): Swayam kal se mujhe harr jagah imagine kar raha hai?! So finally My Swayam is back.. It's time Sharon.. It's now or never..

Sharon caught hold of both his hands.. And kept looking deep into the chocolaty brown orbs infront of her..

Sharon: Mujhe harr jagah imagine kar rahe ho.. Unn hallucinations se baat kar rahe ho.. Unhe apne paas aane de rahe ho.. Toh phir mujhe kyun nahi, Swayam? Jab aaj bhi tum mujhse itna pyaar karte ho toh kyun mujhe apne life ka part banana nahi chahte..

Swayam realised what all he had blurted out.. Sharon's words.. Her questions had got him out of his trance but now he had to answer them.. He pulled back his hands from her grip and was looking everywhere but her.. He thought of just leaving from there but as soon as he took a step forward she stood in his way..

Sharon: Aaj nahi Swayam.. Aaj tumhe mujhse baat karni hi hogi..(tears trickling down her cheeks) Main jaanti hu maine tumhe aaj bahut hurt kiya hai but maine apni galti maan li hai.. Maine sirf tumse ek chance maang rahi hu.. Please Swayam.. Humare iss relationship ko yeh second chance de do.. I promise iss baar I won't let you down..

Swayam (turning to the other side): Main ek aur heart break nahi seh paunga.. Agar iss baar mera dil tuta toh kabhi jud nahi payegi..

Sharon (coming infront of him): Iss baar tumhara dil nahi tutega.. I promise.. I love you.. Aur main tumhare bina nahi reh pa rahi.. Please Swayam just give US this chance.. Please.. Plea..

Sharon had broken into tears and was sobbing continuously.. All the pain.. frustration.. longing had taken the form of tears and were finally coming out of her system.. This time she was desperate and way too desperate to get him back in her life..

Swayam could sense the longing.. love.. pain.. guilt in her voice.. As he saw her crying he first cupping her face and tried relaxing her but that wasn't working.. His eyes too were moist looking at her vulnerable state.. He immediately pulled her into a comforting hug trying to pacify her.. For Sharon his arms was her heaven.. She couldn't get this kind of peace in any other place.. She dug her face in the crook of his neck and continued sobbing..

Swayam (creasing her hair): Shhh.. Sharon stop crying.. Please.. Shh..

Sharon's sobs turned lighter and lighter as her grip turned tighter and tighter.. Swayam had a content smile on his face having his love in his arms after what seemed like decades..

Sharon: S-o-r-r-y..

Swayam: Shh.. Bas..

Sharon: I Love you..

Swayam (closing his eyes): Love you too!